Feb 28, 2007 @ 3:22 PM

i just realised i blocked one of my primary sch classmates on msn long ago cos he was too noisy and that kinda irritated me. ok i am just mean. i think i like all my 6H friends except him.. he really gets on my nerves everytime he goes rambling about this gal that he likes and how painful it is for him to give her up cos she likes somebody else and bla and bla and bla. omg. we're not like super close friends and seriously, im not interested to know his love story which sounds so uninteresting anyway. i hope no one will go and tell him that im online if not that's THE END man. i cant find an excuse for that.

which reminds me.. my nephew has a girlfriend since last year! and he dint tell me until like few weeks ago when i asked?! gosh. well, i kinda suspected that when i saw him smiling at an sms. uhhum, he's only 16. ahh people and things happening around me are telling me that everybody's growing up real fast, including me!! qi and hooi for example, they're both in uni now. i cant bliv i've actually known these ppl for 6 years! the day i left my parents to come and study alone seems like yesterday. one year has passed since i met 6B, which brings me back to a mixed class after 4 years in nanyang. the guys are going for NS in few months' time. and soon i'll drift away from all these friends as everyone heads in their own directions :(

飞啊飞啊看那红色蜻蜓飞在蓝色天空
游戏在风中不断追逐它的梦
天空是永恒的家
大地就是它的王国
飞翔是生活

我们的童年有像追逐成长吹来的风
轻轻地吹着梦想慢慢的升空
红色的蜻蜓是我小时候的小小英雄
多希望有一天能和它一起飞

当烦恼越来越多
玻璃弹珠越来越少
我知道我已慢慢的长大了
红色的蜻蜓曾几何时也在我岁月慢慢不见了

我们都已经长大
好多梦正在飞
就像童年看到的红色的蜻蜓

我们都已经长大
好多梦正在飞
就像现在心目中红色的蜻蜓

红蜻蜓 by 小虎队。 an old song, but nevertheless classic.
it rightly depicts what youth is all about, and how we only realise it when we see that we're losing it.

sometimes the best lyrics do not have to come from the chorus. in fact, very often they dont.

Feb 26, 2007 @ 6:54 PM

it's one of those emo days where out of a sudden u start feeling nothing is going right or u dun rlly know if things are going right or not, or worse, you dont know what's wrong. hmm...

ahh ignore that. my brain hasnt been functioning properly since this morning. i just did a marvellous counselling job for one of my emo friends last nite (you know who you are)..and im beginning to think im getting better at this sort of philosophical thing! haha weird. you know, i think it's so true when ppl say they dun need advice/solutions, all they want is a listening ear :) sometimes even silent company is comfort, i just need you to sit down next to me, do not do or say anything, just listen to me while i tell you everything.

that's good enough isn't it? it's what i've always wanted to do with a good fren. yes! stop looking around, it could be YOU! :D

Feb 25, 2007 @ 9:00 AM

woke up at 8.15 cos kaiying, yen and i said we wanted to go gym this morning. and everybody's sleeping like a pig now. and my phone calls dont seem to have any effect on ms seow at all. nobody's showing any sign of waking up to go gym and the room key is not with me and i woke up early for nothing. great. but i se-ri-ous-ly need to get some calories burnt thanks to the sinful chinese new year.

i have 1/3 of a chinese thesis to finish by tonight and im not even halfway done yet. to make things worse, i have asean meeting later in the afternoon. asdfgdgfdfgfd. initially the email said it was at 2, so i msg all my juniors to meet me at 1.15.. den, the secretary called ytd to say that we are to be there at 1, so i msg my juniors again. DEN, this morning i woke up to an sms from our highly honourable president saying that we are to be there at 12. oh wow thank you im gonna pretend i dint receive it and ignore you. the whole exco is so so bloody screwed.

and nothing is more irritating than going down to the laundry room early morning to find a prc taking ur clothes out from the washing machine. and i cant find an empty dryer that i can use cos a whole bunch of prcs are queuing up for dryers. great. i swear im never ever gonna do my laundry on sunday morning again.

Feb 21, 2007 @ 2:31 PM

以下你将要看到的，是一般城市人所不曾看过的。这是我的过年回乡之旅。

你，准备好了吗？

我家天台望下去的景色。这样看还ok，走近一点就er..哈哈

回家乡咯...高速公路上的风景。那雾水是真的噢。

雾水弥漫的山丘..很美吧！要靠近云顶了..

路过云顶(genting)山脚

云顶山脚旁边长长的隧道。这条隧道是从小爸爸载我们回家乡，我最爱经过的地方！里面黑黑的，以前小时候每次经过都觉得好刺激。

终于到达了爸爸的老家，文冬(bentong)，位于离云顶大约25公里的一个小镇。
文冬是个漂亮的地方。
说它小，它不小，它比村大。
说它大，它不大，它比城市小。
镇里有三条主要的大街，三间百货市场，一间医院，诊所、巴刹、咖啡厅、杂货店、面包店、电器店、修车店、神庙、银行，样样俱全。镇里的人根本很少需要到城里去，因为基本的生活需要，这里都有。
我在吉隆坡出生，然后在文冬住过1年左右的时间，那时爸爸在文莱工作，大约两岁时我们全家又搬回吉隆坡去住了。

很好奇为什么我会拍这个吗？因为打从我有记忆以来，这个广告牌就一直在这里，同样的地方，同样的招牌。说少也有上10年了吧？（其实看不出来它有这么久的历史）

回到祖屋了。这是我阿公。

这是我阿嫲。
阿公阿嫲是福建来的。阿公是仙游人，阿嫲好像是莆田人。
阿公阿嫲我都没见过，我出生时他们早已不在了。
每次回乡都一定会来烧香给他们，我对他们的记忆也只有这两张照片而已。

挂在墙上的全家福。猜猜我爸在哪里？？哈哈猜到算你厉害！

这就是我们的祖屋。应该有80年的历史了..以前能够有这样的屋子算是很不错的。现在已经没有人住了。

就在旁边，这是另一间祖屋，比较后期建的，六伯全家现在住这里。

近几年回乡都不住这里了，因为房间不够，而且懒惰打扫。
所以来拜访六伯他们以后，除夕晚就回妈妈的家乡过了。
妈妈的家乡在地里望（Telemong），离文冬大约45分钟的车程。
地里望比文冬更小了，是典型的村。那里完全没有电话网络，所以手提电话不能用，更不用说要上网。舅舅的果园也在那里。

你知道地里望有多ulu吗？哈哈，ulu得连要找个方向牌也找不到！Karak（加叻）是地里望外面最靠近civilisation的另一个村 :D

GUESS WHAT?? 我们驾车驾到差不多15分钟后就到家了的地方，突然碰见一滩水，然后有几十辆车停在路边。原来因为下雨，河水冲上岸，掩盖了整条路，我们过不去。

就这样，我们足足被困了3个半小时，从3.45pm到7.15pm，水才慢慢退掉，我们才可以把车慢慢开过去。我睡也不是，站也不是，坐也不是，反正就是难熬。这是我这么多次回乡以来最糟糕的经历！

回到家吃团圆饭时已经10点钟了...

这是我们家里的挂钟！很酷hor?
有40年的历史了，好像是外公的朋友送的，上面还有他的名字。

家后面的鸡寮。
外婆在的时候这里有养很多只鸡，现在好像只剩三五只，今年过年还被我们“汤”了三只 -.-

家门前

家旁边

tada! 如果你没有看过的话，板屋就是长这个样子的啦！这是甘榜里的屋子房间典型的样子。

很像卖菜hor..
当然啦，全家这么多人，每年过新年都要煮很多很多，今年算少了，因为有好多人都没回家。

一家人捞鱼生的样子
我从来就不喜欢吃鱼生，但是，我喜欢一家人捞鱼生时欢腾的样子。
真的真的很温馨、很热闹....

我和我的小表妹：敏心。
by the way, 那是我爸取的名字 :P 我个人觉得还蛮好听的。

爹地，妈咪和我在家门前拍照

我一部分的家人：表嫂、表哥、爹地、妈咪、小姨、三舅

他叫oscar，我的小表弟！kawai desu ne?!

oscar和勇胜，我的小外甥

超超超超可爱！！

嗯，那就是我的回乡之旅...短暂，但快乐。

那天年初二晚上，在从乡下驾车回家的途中，坐在爸爸的后车座上，我流下了眼泪。这还是我07年里第一次哭。不要问为什么，因为我不知道。哭是因为开心？见到这么久没见的亲戚，回到这么久没回的家乡，太多感触，觉得自己很幸福？还是因为伤心？才过了两晚就得离开，许多想做的事没做、想念许久不见、我最想最想见到的沛思..?

百感交集。

但愿下次回乡，我还能见到那可爱的、熟悉的、温馨的家人、门前门后的一花一草、墙上那挂钟、那一张张婚纱照、全家福，一一对着我微笑，告诉我：一切依然没变。

(:

小小“后记”：
对不起，从来没对你们说出口的那三个字，因为实在太肉麻了。但是我相信，最真诚的话是说不出口的，就像真正的关怀是不言而喻的。放在心里，我相信你们也一样能够明白。

Feb 14, 2007 @ 10:07 PM

haven had the time to update since last weekend. been occupied with things like cluster activity, interhall games, meeting my fav ppl, celebrating fren's bday, preparing valentine's gifts, baking cheesecake and so on... come to think of it, i haven touched homework since last saturday! but nope, im not guilt-stricken at all :P or maybe not yet.

so many things happened since i last updated! i have so so much to say but i guess i shall let pictures do the talking. cos i always believe that's where all my happiness is captured in (: the happy faces in these still images never fail to drown my sorrows, however heavy they may be.

that's me and my fav juniors! julia (the second gal frm the left) is the cute and bubbly korean gal from our cluster.

fooling around in toys 'r' us

and badminton game in the afternoon was quite shitty basically. kena trashed but we still got silver cos there was only a total of 3 pathetic teams -.- dint feel like playing at all cos the timing sucked ( i was having muscleache frm the 6km run in 2 consecutive days) =\

then on to the most exciting part of the week! meeting fellow dearies!

chian and her bday cake

ruiyi and chiann: black and white.

the FUNG fans: nui, chiann, hooi!!!! :D

omg wat are u trying to do?!

see what i mean? there will always be some extra ppl who try to squeeze themselves in even though they are not invited/wanted in the photos.

the 全家福s (:

there're more photos in hooi's cam but i guess we wont get them till she's back in aussie. shit la im gonna miss that gal. i think i wont be seeing her in the near future. haven hugged ppl for a long long time, and that hug has certainly reminded me of how important it is to, once in a while, tell my loved ones that i care, that i do need their shoulders. a hug is a silent embrace that tells a thousand things.

today is definitely a busy day. chaotic exchange of valetines presents at the class bench, fire drill under the hot sun, followed by the annual X-country where qianlei and i stood and gave out water bottles.

talking about presents and gifts, im beginning to realise im someone who appreciates words more. "Words of Affirmation" <-- that's one of my love languages. i get more excited when i receive messages that come in any scraps of paper or cards than when i receive presents. that's why i was so sweet-ed to find the surprise V-day card yen secretly put into my wallet (u noe i almost teared when i read ur msg? but im not sure if it's the msg, or the thought that touched me)! and those sweet cards and smses from all of you! words melt me (:

and the long talk with qianlei today! love it. the more we talk the more i realise we are so similar.. i guess that's what ppl term as "same frequency" yea.. i think u and hany are such wonderful blessings from above to me!

to all my dear friends: u are important, every single one of you reading this. happy friendship day!

Feb 10, 2007 @ 5:10 PM

i jogged 3km today! or meib more. pls clap for me! but i was too tired after that so i slept from 9 to 1 :D and i woke up to find myself dying of hunger cos i missed both breakfast and lunch. and im still v hungry now cos i only ate bread and biscuits.

argh the prcs are so freaking irritating! for once in our cluster's history, we didn't pass the monthly clealiness assessment! all thanks to the 11 dirty ppl in our cluster. we didnt have this problem at all, until the prcs came.

our cluster mentor almost fainted when she saw our cleanliness grades. out of all 20 girls' clusters, only 2 didnt pass! the rest are all guys' clusters. u noe how shameful that is?! mygawd. tell me what we can do to instill in these ppl some sense of hygiene!? whats the point of getting all As if u cant even take care of ur basic well-being and be considerate to the others who are living under the same roof as you?! apparently all the education hasn't worked.

there was one night (it was alr past 12) when i was ironing at the tv area, the whole group of them was happily chattering and partying away as if i didnt exist and as if nobody needed to rest. irritatingly selfish beings who are deeply indulged in their own world! damn.

ok i shall stop going on and on about them cos u wouldnt understand the boiling anger in us unless u've tried living with them. we dont complain for no reason.

anyways. it's a very special day tmr (: im looking forward.

Feb 3, 2007 @ 12:20 PM

omg i rlly woke up at 8 to go gym! see, i got keep to my promise okay! ran 2.4 with a 10min break in between..lol. yayy i feel so proud of myself. (those sports ppl out there stop going like "CHEY big deal, i ran 6.4 in a day." u have got to understand my stamina in order to appreciate the WOWness of me practising for 2.4!!)

had prata breakfast after that. hong and i ordered mee siam! we almost teared not bcos the meesiam was hot, but bcos we both have BIGBIG mouth ulcers! hong got 3, i got 2. (ok she win.) so we concluded that we are the type who loves to torture ourselves. thats the power of food. it's MORE than heaven.

but it comes with a price to pay: laosai. ugh. i realise i cant take spicy food with an empty stomach =\

ok i think i shall go and bathe now. then finish up my mortal's letter and get ready for an exciting day ahead!

Feb 2, 2007 @ 9:56 PM

this weekend is gonna be so eventful (:

tmr morning i shall embark on my first training for 2.4 with hong as my coach! CAN YOU BLIV IT?! the one who consistently pons PE is waking up early to jog! and i shall see if i have remaining energy to bake cheesecake after that since i've gotten most of the ingredients alr. shopping date with hany in the afternoon. followed by JTS!!

and sunday shall be dedicated for shopping at simlim and bugis! with hong and kaiying. i want to get a camera! (: im also given the privelege of being hong's private fashion consultant, for 2 consecutive years! haha her mum forces her to wear skirts every chinese new year. nowadays my mum cant seem to have the ability to force me wear clothes that she buy anymore, which is why she has given up long ago and told me to buy my own clothes instead. but usually i'll still be guai and wear skirts la. hmm..do all mothers like to see their daughters dress girlyly??

lalala chinese new year is just around the corner. my fav festive season of the year!

Feb 1, 2007 @ 3:54 PM

i still cant believe xu wei lun died. just like that. she's only 28.

it may sound cliche, but really, life is transcient. how many of us are alr starting to imagine what we'll be doing at the age of 28? i'll be very honest about it. ive always wanted to think very positively about my future bcos it makes me feel better that way. i've since long ago pictured the 28-year-old me having a partner, if not a family, a developing career, a future full of hope. but for all you know, the day may just never come because life is simply unpredictable.

we've heard and seen too many stories like that. ppl passing away in their sleep, children dying of cancers, young people dying in accidents. sometimes i wonder if it is too unnecessary for a 17-year-old to be thinking about all these? but more often than not we oversee the fact that death does not restrict itself to old people. we've been taking things in life for granted.

talking about life and death, i rmb mummy telling me about my grandfather going to a fortuneteller when he was 52. he was told he only had about 6 years more to live. obviously he was extremely bothered by it and according to mummy, he was basically living in paranoia after that incident. and he died at 59. recently i've also heard stories of other ppl going to fortunetellers and most of them did not live very happily esp for some who found out they only had few years left.

i always want to ask these ppl, why bother asking bout such stuff? wats the point of making urself and those around u miserable? just breathe on, see the importance of the people and things around u, every morning when u wake up to the rising sun, tell urself: i've just earned myself another day to live.

i rmb seeing this in reader's digest some years back and it has stayed in my mind since then:

Live every day like your last, 'cos one day, you're gonna be right.

how true.

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Where to go.

Tell me something?

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