Hmmm...

Songkran break is just around the corner, so as Easter weekend.

Shimona's going to Phuket

Arthur's going to Ujung Genteng

Ana's going camping at M21 Tembagapura

Hazel's going to Singapore

so as Rochael

Deanna's going to Malaysia

Julius is already in Malaysia

and here I am don't know what to do for the break..sigh
At least it's better than having class (har..har..Paps :D. Peace!)

I'll Never Fall in Love Again

I heard this song long time ago and when I hear it now, I find it funny :) The lyric is kinda depressing, but brought in a tune which is cheerful that I wouldn't know it's a broken-hearted song. It becomes a heart-cheering song for broken-hearted people. So, Paps (and Toer, you too :D), if you happen to read this blog, find this song and listen to it, ASAP! And for other broken-hearted people (or not), listen to this song, and hope it'll brighten your day.

I'll Never Fall in Love Again

What do you get when you fall in love?
A guy with a pin to burst your bubble
That's what you get for all your trouble
I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again

What do you get when you kiss a girl
You get enough germs to catch pneumonia
After you do, she'll never phone you
I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again

Don't tell me what it's all about
cause I've been there and I'm glad I'm out
Out of those chains those chains that bind you
That is why I'm here to remind you

What do you get when you give your heart
You get it all broken up and battered
That's what you get, a heart that's shattered
I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again

Out of those chains those chains that bind you
That is why I'm here to remind you

What do you get when you fall in love?
You only get lies and pain and sorrow
So for at least until tomorrow
I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again

I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again

Why I like Geeks and Nerds

I tod I'm d only one attracted to geeks or nerds until I found this posting :
Why Geeks and Nerds Are Worth It...


I don't really have authentic posts these days other than rubish. Some of the postings I found enriching the idea of Beauty Within..so they're worth sharing.

My typical post are posts without title. Some of them are with title now. But I like it better without title.

I can't believe I'm old enough to be called "grown up". My spirit is working hard to deny it but growing up is inevitable. Human will fully develop at the age of twenty, means one will stop "growing up" and start "growing old". If average human life expectancy is (roughly) 80 years of age, we use about only 25% of our life growing up, and the rest growing old. That's the average. There are outliers or anomaly, but that's a different story.

I couldn't help myself not to be worried when my mom said my dad got really sick. She said she was working in a clinic and my dad told her that he's so sick, he felt that he probably wouldn't see my mom again by the time she got home. Who wouldn't got scared getting message like that. Especially from the love of you life! My mom went home crying with the clinic owner's wife thinking that my dad was lying on his bed dying. She found my dad chit-chatting with a family's friend! I could guess how high her blood pressure was! My dad was just being bulala! For me, THANK GOD! He's turn the world upside down just becoz of his stupid message!

Well, honestly, I don't feel so relieved. I felt so melancholic this morning; if my coworker didn't call me to go to work together I'd be still in bed trying to find a peace of mind. Yeah, I always sleep when I feel something's not right but couldn't sleep if I'm worried. Ironic, or paradoxical?

Worry.
Maybe that's what my parents felt when my siblings and I were growing up. We were so malikut; I know where my dad got his high blood and my mom got her impatience (not vice versa). We would do things that would risk our life, but it was beyond our comprehension. We were too small to see the danger we're facing. Now, after stop growing up (I'm actually still growing up, phisically, my wisdom tooth hasn't grown yet, maybe I'm more advance-ly evolved Homo sapiens : without wisdom tooth) I could understand how my parents were worried about us.

Maybe I'm just exaggerating. But my PMS won't be here anytime soon and I'm on my right mind. But I just feel something is not right and can't stop being worry. Or maybe I'm just overworked ;p or it's Friday. My mind needs to be refreshed.

If you think that only your lover can break your heart, you are wrong. Friends can break your heart too.. And I think it's more painful if your friend break your heart, especially when you have no one to turn to..You feel so lonely and tired when your friend break your heart. When your lovers break your heart, you have your friend to turn to,as you know it. I know, some of us, take friendship for granted. But that doesn't apply for me. I didn't have that many friends while growing up neither do now. So, I treasure them, but sadly, like always happen, friends are also human, and I think it's a human nature to break hearts. Like me, I tend to hurt people around me, consciously, and unconsciously..sad,huh? And I think it's karma when your heart is broken.
I hate it when I'm striving to please someone, to keep her safe, protect him so he won't get hurt, do everything to show them love and affection, but in the end, she hurts you, he makes you cry, and they forget you. Pathetic, huh?
And while you're doing that, you feel that no one tries to keep you safe, protect you, and love you, and you feel so lonely and still call them friend? Life is hard, don't you think? You can't get everything you want, or even everything you need.
I'll be walking alone tonight, sleeping on my own, reading on my own, enjoying my lonesome life on my own, and does anyone even care? The good thing is I'm not the only one.
If you ask me the point of this post is: I'm trying to be caring and affectionate to someone, sincerely, but that person takes me for granted...And I hate it..

Sometimes we people do stupid things. We know that we are in a pathetic situation, but we seem to enjoy it. But, I think, it's more likely to call it pathetic that stupid..isn't it?

Dear *******,

I know you don't even know I'm exist. But, that's even better. Coz you won't know that I admired you and looked at you almost everyday. I smiled every time I think about you. Thank you for just being "there", and you'll never know what it meant to me. Thanks.
I admit that I missed you; I want to see you again.

The saddest thing is not that you don't know that I'm exist, but that I will never see you again. I never felt sad to know that you'll never love me back. Or regretted what I've tried to get to know you. It's just that you'll never be here and light my days up without knowing it.

So, thank you for just being there..

Me

I dreamt about you last night. Yes, you. Do you think it is a sign? Well, I don’t know. Kishen dreamt about me the other night and I don’t really care about that. Lerie dreamt about Bayu and she believed that it was a sign, well, they ended up together.

I thought about you last night. Yes, you. The saddest thing is I don’t really know you and where you are. But I just want to tell you something. Whoever you are, wherever you are, someone is dreaming bout you, someone is thinking about you.. Somewhere…

I just got this song from my good friend's blog. It's a really touchy song, makes me going to shed a tear.. Thanks, Friend..

...
Ini ending song Kamen Rider Black RX (yang lebih dikenal di Indonesia sebagai Ksatria Baja Hitam RX).Untuk mereka yang merasa kesepian…
Dare Ka Ga Kimi Wo Ai Shiteru(Somebody Loves You)
—Jepang—
Tatta hitori no tatakai ni
Tsukarehatete shizumu toki
Hitomi wo tojite kao agete
Mimi wo sumasete mireba ii

Lonely Lonely Heart
Kaze ga sasayaite yuku darou
Lonely Lonely Heart
Hitoribotchi ja nai no sa

Dare ka ga kimi wo ai shite ‘ru
Dare ka ga kimi wo shinjite ‘ru
Dare ka ga kimi wo motomete ‘ru

Doko ka de Doko ka de
Mune wa kizutsuki hiza wa ore
Haruka na yume wo kuyamu toki
Furimukanaide kao agete
Ashita no michi wo mireba ii

Lonely Lonely Heart
Chikyuu wa ai ga sumau hoshi
Lonely Lonely Heart
Hitoribotchi ja nai no sa

Dare ka ga kimi wo ai shite ‘ru
Dare ka ga kimi wo sagashite ‘ru
Dare ka ga kimi wo mitsumete ‘ru
Itsu demo Itsu demo

—Inggris—
When you’re spent after fighting a lonely battle
And feel like sinking
Close your eyes, look up
Just listen closely

Lonely Lonely Heart
The wind will go on whispering
Lonely Lonely Heart
You’re not alone

Somebody loves you
Somebody believes in you
Somebody is looking for you
Somewhere Somewhere

When you’re hurt and you fall upon your knees
And when you feel sorry about your faraway dreams
Don’t look back, look up
Just keep your eyes fixed at the path you’ll take

Lonely Lonely Heart
Earth is a planet where love dwells
Lonely Lonely Heart
You’re not alone

Somebody loves you
Somebody is searching for you
Somebody is gazing at you
Somewhere Somewhere

...

I got this "ridiculous" thing posted in fs today. i don't mean offend the one who posted this thing. it just will NEVER happen to me, that i thougt that it is so GOMBAL if a guy say this to someone..well, most of the guys are the same...(i'm not saying that ALL guys are the same..)
Message:
Girl: Do i ever cross ur mind
Boy: No
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: Not really
Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you live for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Choose--me or ur life
Boy: my life
The girl runs away in shock and pain and theboy runs after her and says...
The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind.
The reason why I don't like you is because Ilove you.
The reason I don't want you is because I needyou.
The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is becauseI would die if you left.
The reason I wouldn't live for you is because Iwould die for you(so..hopeless).
The reason why I'm not willing to do anythingfor you is because I would do everything for you.T
he reason I chose my life is because you AREmy life.

just for Kecenganku...

hmmm...susah..yah..
kenapa gak bilang aja kalo gak suka..
bilang kalau kamu benci aku
lebih baik begitu..daripada..
yah..nggak tau..
pasa intinya..
ini baru tengah minggu, tapi tingkat depresiku sudah hampir puncak.
porsi depresi untuk minggu ini hampir penuh..
dan kamu..memang tidak diharapkan untuk membantu, dan tolong jangan buat semuanya tambah kacau..
kamu memang tidak bisa disalahkan karna kamu gak tau yang terjadi kan..semuanya..
kamu gak tau kalo kamu diharapkan
aku gak bisa paksa kamu..tapi
tengkyu..
kamu udah jadi kecengan aku..
love u always..

Second day of class..
Woke up early this morning, dragged my lazy ass out of bed..
at least I learnt something..
in birds world, most of the attractive ones are male birds for one reason:
to attract females..
Question:
Can it be applied in human"s world?
Answer:
Maybe. That can explain why "ugly" girls can get cute guys..
Sounds like hope for me...:)

Back to school...
Today is the first day of school, again. Well, it's not not he begining of new semester. It's only a part of summer school, intensif course. After long period of vacation, it's the time to start sitting down and pay attention to the lecturer. I don't know how it's gonna be. But I know it's only a begining of new adventure (menghibur diri..).
Hopefully I can skip class on my birthday and go to the Embassy to celebrate it..

I couldn't sleep last night..
well I could sleep until I turn off all the light in the room..
u know why??
I was afraid of gecko..I hate tokek...why they always make scary noises, and scary-staring eyes..
hhuuuaaaaahhhh...
I hate reptiles except turtle.. I miss my ol' Crusty..