Tonight my mom, Ella and I all went to Trent's indoor soccer game in Salmon Creek and it was amazingly fun. I forgot how much I missed soccer. Oh the good ol' days. Anyways, so like always, Ella and I were annoying each other almost all night- you know - hitting, making fun, teasing - the good stuff. On the way home, Ella decided to tell my mom and I all about her first kiss. HAHAHA, I'm cracking up just thinking about it. So here's her amazing story...
"I had my first kiss when I was seven." - "Who was it Ella?!" - "Um, Papa..." - "No it wasn't. Who was it really Ella?!" - "Matthew." - "Matthew?! Did he kiss you on the lips or the cheek?!" - "Cheek. For Valentine's day he brought me a music jewelry box and a bear and flowers. Aww... Matthew...We were at the park hanging out and he pushed me on the swings. Then I pushed him on the swings. Then he pushed me down the slide. Then I pushed him down the slide. Then he bought me a soda. Then we went behind a bush and he kissed me on the cheek. Then we cleaned rocks. Then we went behind the buildings to look for dead rats. We poked them with a stick and one was missing a head. Then we went to his garage to play baseball. Then we went to see the 3-legged dog. It was at the neighbors. Then we rode our bikes together. Then he was about to kiss me on the cheek again and my mom was like "ELLA!!" and I was like "MOM!!" and she was like "ELLA!!" and I was like "MOM!!" then she told me to come inside and I was like "ugh...mom." So that was my first kiss."
My mom and I were laughing so hard she could barely drive and I almost peed my pants. It's amazing how real that is and how she thought it was so romantic. I love the fact that my niece is 7 years old and one of the funniest people I have ever met. I absolutely adore that kid despite the fact that we get on each other's nerves and drive each other absolutely crazy.
Also during Trent's soccer game, my mom and I were talking about how it sucked cause we couldn't hear what they were saying due to the amazing plastic walls and kept SO many balls from hitting my face, and Ella said they should use sign language or speak in foreign languages. Where does that kid get that stuff?? She's amazing and made me laugh so hard tonight.
I love my family to death and don't know what I'd do or where I'd be without them. :) Today was one of the better days.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
I myself am made entirely of flaws stitched together with good intentions
So the stuck in a rut feeling just won't go away. No matter how bad I want it to, it won't. No matter how hard I try to get out of it, I can't. Instead, it has gotten much worse.
Here's a little word association that helped cheer me up a little... Feel free to fill it out yourself if you want.
red hot-
what's hot? sense of humor - respect - humility - love for family - loves kids - nice abs - light eyes - dark hair - athletic
what's not? rudeness - disrespect - smoking - cussing - bad teeth - losers
feelin' blue-
what makes me sad? broken hearts. being sick. worrying about money. loneliness. poverty.
tickled pink-
what makes me smile? family - friends - starbucks - good music - long drives - twilight series - shopping - vacations - good photography - babies - helping others - manicures - new hair do's
green w/ envy-
what am I envious of? my niece's innocence. my sister's ambition. my father's courage. my mother's strength. people who aren't afraid to take risks. people who are completely, head over heels in love and happy.
orange crush-
my longest crush? david beckham - soccer player with a NICE body...MmMm yes...
my best crush? brooks barkow - best friend who taught me a lot
my worst crush? zac and drew - horrible, psychotic boyfriends
my current crush? a boy unaware of what he has
black&white-
I am a daughter. a sister. an aunt. a friend. a niece. a granddaughter.
I am strong. hopeful. accepting. understanding. faithful. loved.
I myself am made entirely of flaws stitched together with good intentions.
That's all I have for today. I'm leaving you with a quote that really made me think - Enjoy!
"You have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you are a good person and a good friend. What is meant to be will end up good if what is not won’t. Relationships are worth fighting for but sometimes you can’t be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don’t, you must move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don’t lose something real. Always fight, until you can’t anymore, and then be fought for."
Here's a little word association that helped cheer me up a little... Feel free to fill it out yourself if you want.
red hot-
what's hot? sense of humor - respect - humility - love for family - loves kids - nice abs - light eyes - dark hair - athletic
what's not? rudeness - disrespect - smoking - cussing - bad teeth - losers
feelin' blue-
what makes me sad? broken hearts. being sick. worrying about money. loneliness. poverty.
tickled pink-
what makes me smile? family - friends - starbucks - good music - long drives - twilight series - shopping - vacations - good photography - babies - helping others - manicures - new hair do's
green w/ envy-
what am I envious of? my niece's innocence. my sister's ambition. my father's courage. my mother's strength. people who aren't afraid to take risks. people who are completely, head over heels in love and happy.
orange crush-
my longest crush? david beckham - soccer player with a NICE body...MmMm yes...
my best crush? brooks barkow - best friend who taught me a lot
my worst crush? zac and drew - horrible, psychotic boyfriends
my current crush? a boy unaware of what he has
black&white-
I am a daughter. a sister. an aunt. a friend. a niece. a granddaughter.
I am strong. hopeful. accepting. understanding. faithful. loved.
I myself am made entirely of flaws stitched together with good intentions.
That's all I have for today. I'm leaving you with a quote that really made me think - Enjoy!
"You have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you are a good person and a good friend. What is meant to be will end up good if what is not won’t. Relationships are worth fighting for but sometimes you can’t be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don’t, you must move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don’t lose something real. Always fight, until you can’t anymore, and then be fought for."
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
I want to know...
"I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your own without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. I want to know if you can see beauty even when it is not pretty every day and if you can source your own life from its presence. I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and truly like the company you keep in the empty moments."
Monday, January 19, 2009
conformity
So I decided to start a blog. Mainly because every one and their dang mom has one, yes my mom has one too, and also because I just felt like it. Not too sure what I'll write about but probably some random things here and there that may or may not interest you in the slightest bit. No biggie though, like I said, everyone and their mom has a blog so there's plenty of reading to do. :)
This first post is one I put on my facebook so most of you have probably already read it. I've made a few changes and changed the number to 20 instead of 16 - random numbers like that kind of weird me out. Also, anyone can comment and anyone can do this on their own if you'd like. Enjoy!
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are invited to write a note w/20 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose at least 20 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I think you are an amazing person and I want to know more about you. But, if you don't respond that will not change.
1. My family means the world to me. We are extremely close and I love hanging out with them more than some of my own friends. We always laugh and have a good time.
2. I think it's crazy and somewhat scary how a lot of my friends are getting married now and some even having kids. But, at the same time, I can't wait to be married and be a mom.
3. I've wanted to go to Cape Town, South Africa for a VERY long time and my parents think I'm absolutely crazy for wanting that. I would LOVE to see penguins on the beach.
4. I love staying at home and watching movies. It sounds a lot more fun to me than parties and hanging with a bunch of random people.
5. I'm NEVER healthy and I've learned to live with that.
6. I can't stand people who have no respect for others. I guess it was the way I was raised but honestly, I find a disrespectful person to be very unattractive.
7. I have a sudden desire to make a drastic change in my life but I'm not sure what to do or what I even want to do.
8. I'm obsessed with buying jeans and shoes. More specifically, converse, vans, flats and ed hardy sneakers.
9. I'm secretly glad I have a heart problem. I think I took life for granted before and never realized how much I have to be grateful for. It's brought me closer to my family and even though it's really hard and I'm really scared, it has honestly blessed me.
10.I love people watching, long drives, walks in the fall, great photography, quotes on starbucks cups, postsecret, poetry, sitting in a coffee shop reading a book and life lessons.
11. I really want to go to school for nursing or radiology and I hope I can get a job at OHSU or Doernbecher. I think after spending so much time there and seeing how much they truly care and it's not just a "job" to them, has really opened my eyes and heart. *no pun intended* :)
12.I'm secretly terrified of dying young, sudden death, heart failure and heart attacks. I try to hide my fears to seem like this isn't bothering me but in reality, I would LOVE to meet a person my age who is going through the same thing.
13. I hate being really girly. I enjoy doing my hair (sometimes) and wearing make up (sometimes) but I also really enjoy getting dirty, fishing, fast food, not worrying about my weight and doing nothing with my hair. I think it's a bit more attractive.
14. I'm craving individuality, creativity, optimism, pure happiness, humor, change and a grande london fog tea latte.
15. I can't wear heels - EVER! I look like a man walking in them. I'm content with flip flops, flats and sneakers.
16. I want to dye my hair blond and red and cut it short. I also want to pierce my nose. I think it'd be really attractive, just not on me.
17. My aunt is my best friend and other half. It's amazing how much me and her have in common and how much we are alike. I can't wait to live with her and be able to have her around whenever.
18. My nose is crooked and it drives me insane. From one side, it's really cute and from the other side, it's big and not so attractive.
19. I think my parents are some of the most amazing and entertaining people I've ever met. They are so incredibly supportive and accepting.
20. I absolutely love the movie Juno and wish I had a sense of humor like hers. Life would be SO much easier that way. :)
Well, that's all for today or for now. Have a great day folks and enjoy my ramblings. :) *LOVES*
This first post is one I put on my facebook so most of you have probably already read it. I've made a few changes and changed the number to 20 instead of 16 - random numbers like that kind of weird me out. Also, anyone can comment and anyone can do this on their own if you'd like. Enjoy!
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are invited to write a note w/20 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose at least 20 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I think you are an amazing person and I want to know more about you. But, if you don't respond that will not change.
1. My family means the world to me. We are extremely close and I love hanging out with them more than some of my own friends. We always laugh and have a good time.
2. I think it's crazy and somewhat scary how a lot of my friends are getting married now and some even having kids. But, at the same time, I can't wait to be married and be a mom.
3. I've wanted to go to Cape Town, South Africa for a VERY long time and my parents think I'm absolutely crazy for wanting that. I would LOVE to see penguins on the beach.
4. I love staying at home and watching movies. It sounds a lot more fun to me than parties and hanging with a bunch of random people.
5. I'm NEVER healthy and I've learned to live with that.
6. I can't stand people who have no respect for others. I guess it was the way I was raised but honestly, I find a disrespectful person to be very unattractive.
7. I have a sudden desire to make a drastic change in my life but I'm not sure what to do or what I even want to do.
8. I'm obsessed with buying jeans and shoes. More specifically, converse, vans, flats and ed hardy sneakers.
9. I'm secretly glad I have a heart problem. I think I took life for granted before and never realized how much I have to be grateful for. It's brought me closer to my family and even though it's really hard and I'm really scared, it has honestly blessed me.
10.I love people watching, long drives, walks in the fall, great photography, quotes on starbucks cups, postsecret, poetry, sitting in a coffee shop reading a book and life lessons.
11. I really want to go to school for nursing or radiology and I hope I can get a job at OHSU or Doernbecher. I think after spending so much time there and seeing how much they truly care and it's not just a "job" to them, has really opened my eyes and heart. *no pun intended* :)
12.I'm secretly terrified of dying young, sudden death, heart failure and heart attacks. I try to hide my fears to seem like this isn't bothering me but in reality, I would LOVE to meet a person my age who is going through the same thing.
13. I hate being really girly. I enjoy doing my hair (sometimes) and wearing make up (sometimes) but I also really enjoy getting dirty, fishing, fast food, not worrying about my weight and doing nothing with my hair. I think it's a bit more attractive.
14. I'm craving individuality, creativity, optimism, pure happiness, humor, change and a grande london fog tea latte.
15. I can't wear heels - EVER! I look like a man walking in them. I'm content with flip flops, flats and sneakers.
16. I want to dye my hair blond and red and cut it short. I also want to pierce my nose. I think it'd be really attractive, just not on me.
17. My aunt is my best friend and other half. It's amazing how much me and her have in common and how much we are alike. I can't wait to live with her and be able to have her around whenever.
18. My nose is crooked and it drives me insane. From one side, it's really cute and from the other side, it's big and not so attractive.
19. I think my parents are some of the most amazing and entertaining people I've ever met. They are so incredibly supportive and accepting.
20. I absolutely love the movie Juno and wish I had a sense of humor like hers. Life would be SO much easier that way. :)
Well, that's all for today or for now. Have a great day folks and enjoy my ramblings. :) *LOVES*
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