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something to share. very inspiring. i should first stop wasting food. and i should not "sng sng" (cry) and haha more becos haha dun need to spend money to buy handkerchief. quoted from mdm hsu aka theresa hsu.

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beautiful summer memories at11:52 PM

xmas is a season for love and joy

i need to change myself

i need to be a person im proud of

maybe i can help with the wishtree at ntuc nex

gotta to do good deed this festival

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beautiful summer memories at1:27 AM

i feel disgusted by myself. errk..

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beautiful summer memories at1:26 AM

i feel a sense of relief.

although disappointed that the lucky #43 din turn out to be the clementi dbss, im hopeful and may it turn out as good or even better! *pray hard* i know that i let go of this easily but im sure god has planned it somehow and is leading me to where the path i should go...

wan to thank lps for the advises. and thank darling for sharing his thoughts and we are able to resolve and also let him know i truely wont take the lakeside. :) he accepted.

if all goes wrong, we will source for normal flat. or potong pasir! haha!

have a great week to everyone i love. may u guys feel a sense of relief like me soon too! jia u!

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beautiful summer memories at11:07 PM

i m gg to treasure my holiday!

i m gg to treat myself, my parents and my loved ones well.

my quote for this week:

- giving others a chance is giving myself a chance

- i wan to make peeps smile bcos of me

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beautiful summer memories at11:59 PM

work is pretty smooth at least for the past 1 week since im was gg through training and there is no late nights and can end earlier... im glad. but knowing a few people leaving the company really depressing. i should be happy for them cos they are going to leave a really stressful place. but it just perk me to review if i should stay through the peak and can i manage cos this time i need to coach the lower level but my knowledge is weak. i cannot stand being very stupid... argh but im too lazy to upgrade my knowledge...

another thing is making friends at work. is not easy. i nv realise the toughness until i came to work here. people hu i din work on big or long jobs, they are difficult or almost impossible to become gd frens although im keen to do so. i envy my colleague and no action can be enuf to change the fact. im still glad i gt 1 or 2 not bad frens who think for me and care for me. is hard... sometime i dun join them for lunch bcos i wan to lunch with paper knot but not many people understands and yeah harder to bond with the rest...

BUT the thing is it is difficult for people who are not compassionate and seriously too unfriendly i hate to know im working in the same company as them... im not angelic but i really dun care but to detest them...

haix. actually whole point is to grumble abt the sucky people i know. argh..

anyway i also want to delicate to 4 of my best frens who are going through a hard time...

some messages for you all:

1. we will be here for you no matter what. take yr time and we will wait patiently for u. no matter what we always hope for the best for u and some time we face lost period but rmb the song, "nothing ever changes, we will wait happily and patiently for u to come back us after ur thoughts". nevermind about how long it takes k. we misses u especially i miss yr bubbly smile cos ur smile and can kill many guys. :)

2. sometime 1 is blinded by the hope for love and u are not to be blame and yeah know love can be hurting but ocos we learn and grow at the same time. is gd that u change yr focus to a more fulfilling one but never be afraid to love again bcos it is just that he is nt the right person and he doesnt deserve to love anyone! so u are the brave one and i believe u can walk it thru. and i strongly believe u will find 1 that u deserve but why is he not here yet? maybe he is lost and still finding his way to u. :)

3. words can be hurting but she meant gd for u to learn to look at stuff from a more mature way. work may be tough but im sure the owner of yr rabbit surely have a gd farsight of yr potential. dun be afraid and venture all the way out. dun be stress becos u nd to eat and bubble tea is unhealthy! hope you can find back yr calm, compose and chill way of working k. i looking forward for u to share with me yr success! :) i cant wait for yr website! haha.

4. u and i share many negative things that happen at work. u hv me to look up to survive although i may not be really gd at work anymore. nevertheless, like wad yr dad says, work is not easy but sometime we just hv to swallow it down our throat. lets treat those nasty people like nothing bcos if we care too much, it is giving them to much face! they dun deserve it. and glad u found a gd boss and supporting colleagues! they certainly keeps u going!

hugs to all my beloved frens! we can pull through one! we need to strive for people we love isn't it. be it family or friends or yourself (self love)..

Some quotes to share:

“Love yourself first and everything falls into line.”- Lucille Ball

“I think that when we look for love courageously, it reveals itself, and we wind up attracting even more love. If one person really wants us, everyone does. But if we're alone, we become even more alone. Life is strange.” - Paulo Coelho

“I tore myself away from the safe comfort of certainties through my love for truth - and truth rewarded me.” - Simone de Beauvoir

A good website to share:
http://www.abundancetapestry.com/how-to-love-yourself-in-17-ways/

When you make a decision to love yourself, you are really saying that you want to come alive. You accept that you are responsible for the outcomes that you experience in your life and would like yourself to shine from living a fulfilling life.

1. Fall in love with yourself. Think about what makes you You. Just like a flower that needs watering to grow, learn to nurture yourself in every way. Love yourself for all the good that you see and accept your flaws and the fact that you are imperfect. This does not mean that you do not learn to change from your shortcomings; instead, you are being gentle and kind to yourself despite all your “flaws”. Look in the mirror and fall in love with the reflection that is You.

“To love oneself is the beginning of a life-long romance.”
Oscar Wilde quotes (Irish Poet, Novelist, Dramatist and Critic, 1854-1900)

2. Eliminate Self Criticism. Do you often berate yourself over the tiniest thing? Is there a little voice inside your head that often tells you that you are no good because you are stupid or make mistakes. If you find that you criticize yourself often, make an effort to stop the self criticism.

“I CAN is 100 times more important than IQ.” — unknown

The rest of the 15 ways can be found at the website. :)

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beautiful summer memories at3:52 PM

i see so many different people leaving blogspot to other means of expressing their feelings. should i leave too. haha! but i love my wallaper!

Helo ladies and gentlemen! my new revamped room! :) with happy memories!!!

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beautiful summer memories at9:31 PM

today is a lonely and emo night. Overwhelmed by sad feelings...

work isnt smooth @ all again. just saw my job booking and i gt to be stuck @ pioneer area for another job cos is really far away... Haix...

gdnight to all my friends. take care... those on holiday enjoy! those tat just return from holiday, welcome back! those who r planning to go, all the best! Bye...

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beautiful summer memories at12:46 AM

I respect your decision and shall not question anymore.

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beautiful summer memories at10:50 PM

i need strength to conquer my inner emotions n my feelings.

N somehow there is a devil within me n im totally disgusted by it.

Is a new year 2011, why i cant start a new yr smoothly. Is my character. Im juz another cao mei zu.

Good bye 2010...

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beautiful summer memories at12:31 AM

Embrace 23.11.2010

the love all the way from taiwan... let the tune fill up the night. 831.

this superman uses his all his strength to love and protect me from fear and hurt

this superman endures my nonsense as he becomes my punching bag

this superman dries my tears when i cry over korean drama

this superman loves me without any make up and braces

this superman forgives me for forgetting the past 20+ times that I forgot our monthly anniversary

This superman rely on me and thus i want to be his support.

p.s.: thank uuu for your graceful love for the past 1095 days.

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beautiful summer memories at12:00 AM

文芳人生目标1：学习如何疼惜我身边所有我爱的人。

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beautiful summer memories at12:09 AM

Ever since i found out from my lao po's tag on fb to wish selina to get well soon, i went to google about what happened.

Really very shocked about what happened to her and feel really sad about the whole accident. I hope and pray that she will get well as soon as possible. She appears to be a person who is so scare of pain, this is definitely unbearable for her.

And yes, hope the male actor who intended to save her also get well soon!

I guess with all the people praying for them, they will be fine!

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beautiful summer memories at4:22 PM

i seriously have not being updating my blog for the past 2 months. ever since i have started working. seriously i hv little time to slow down my pace to think and blog and i guess there is nth much i can blog about.

time flies super fast because everyday when you work, u realize next min is 5.30pm (knocked off time) but ehh work haven finish and then when go home, ... I switch on my laptop to continue. haha! i tink some days i work 12 hrs per day! i am a wonder woman!!! :D

good thing is zj is in same company as me and i met a great bunch of friends whereby we are pretty bonded. =)

if you notice fb, you probably will see them --> they are my new found friends.

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beautiful summer memories at10:11 AM

how lucky i can be... I had a bad fell. Wearing a pair of scandal with poor anti-slip protection n therefore i slipped n fell on my back. Painful n at that point im really worry i'll be paralyzed. =X thank god im able to get up but it hit my lower back, which some of u might knw i always had back pain...

Prior to this yest i nearly fell 3 steps as i was unaware of the steps at kino n before the hard fall, i also nearly slipped at kfc. Sighx... I feel that it is bcos im always unaware of my surrounding n nt paying attention when im walking. A close resemble of how i lead my life... Sigh... I must learn from my painful experiences. My dear friends out there, be careful k n dun wear slippery shoes.

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beautiful summer memories at12:31 AM

是精灵住错了森林... 哪里才是他该住的地方?

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beautiful summer memories at12:27 AM

快给我无比的勇气吧！ 8月23日2010年！

I am thankful I am able to rest for the past 3 weeks but w/o income is really abit hard for my expenditure and spending habits =X I tink most of you know past 3 weeks i did nth special except nua-ing at home, catching shows n spending time with my loved ones.

I have been having dreams and nightmares for the past 1 weeks non-stop. gt scary ones, adventurous ones, weird ones but no happy one! Am i tat miserable? =.=" I m afraid I m having unfounded anxiety... abt upcoming work?

These few days, I've been trying to read a book on how to be happier. 2 key points from this book is be grateful of the thgs u hv now and be forgiving. Subsequently, I learnt a few other points, making comparisons, expecting people to do what u expect them will make me unhappy. I am not unhappy therefore I borrowed this book from the library. I am just afraid I will become unhappy... I admit I dun wish to face the music that I can no longer go back to study life and hv to face the society. Working isn't easy. Sometimes it requires mere luck. Luck in meeting friendly friends who r entering tgt with you, meeting helpful seniors and getting not bad assignments/clients. Wishing i will not hv to work ot too frequently bcos i really hope to hv a work-life balance and not gg hm alone late at night realizing everyone is getting ready to slp and i probably haven hv meal or cant watch my channel 8 dramas...

well, nth much i can do now. is the time to strive hard to enjoy better life later. Gambatte!

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beautiful summer memories at10:42 PM

oh gosh! i found this photo of mine! when i was 17 yrs old! small eyes and fat face! N worst, wad hair style was tat! i tink i was proud of it when i just had the hair cut!!! =.="

this brgs back memory of ngee ann poly. if i rmb correctly, bell is beside me! it was a laid-back day in sch beside the sch pond.

oh! believe tat's me? i used to try to capture views of me and i struggled to open my pathetic eyes! LOL! anyway, im sill struggling to open them but as I age, I become a little lazy to take such photos and my eyes get even smaller =.="

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beautiful summer memories at11:16 PM

原来要懂得如何爱惜自己很深奥，我一点也不会。。。
所以我还没有爱别人的资格。。。

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beautiful summer memories at12:21 AM

My laopo delegate this to me and i hereby wanna to delegate it to everone. It is indeed an inspiring short anime. Everyone is the key to their heart. Everyone must love urslef before u hv d ability to really love someone else. 就是-我要自爱才能爱别人. Lao pos n everyone i love, jia u k!!!

P.s.: the singer is really great n talented n inspring isn't it! =
D

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beautiful summer memories at1:30 AM

I'll like to share with everyone this song, 陳綺貞 shld be an experienced and talented singer but I've only came across her not long ago. from a dj who played this song n it caught my attention. her voice is really nice n i love the melody.

Penny of thought: Have u lose temper or patient @ ur parents before? Yesh, i did today, sadly, i think im really a very lousy daughter, i feel that as i get older, i start to get very stubborn. control control! n i shld stop being so defensive to people who love me! =(

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beautiful summer memories at10:45 PM

Happy mood cos i've been catching this very old tw idol drama, 海派甜心！！！ I bet most of u have watched it but erm maybe my laopos haven watch it cos they dun go ahhhh over show luo. Haha. But he is indeed cute inside the show!!! Really, i like the front few espisode where he is 单纯. I always wish to live like this thinking whole world is peaceful n loving but as time passed, living so 单纯 isn't so easy. =x N yes, rainie acting is great, im touched over several of her scenes...

P.s.: at least watching show stops me from gg fb so often. =) gd start!

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beautiful summer memories at1:47 AM

二十三岁的我还能幼稚和撒娇多久？还是我已没权力了？对父母亲，我得扛起养家了吗？对男友，我得做个有责任心的人了吗？对朋友，哈哈，我会把他们吓走吗？我快要开工了，好像有待进步。

突然好想唱- 我不想长大！！！

懦弱的我又想逃避现实，毕竟现实往往都是残酷的。。。

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beautiful summer memories at2:11 AM

Im losing hair at terribly fast rate especially after my lps' confirmation! . Feel demoralised. I think it is partly cos my stress and it is evidenced by the no. of strands of hair tat r falling n the worries lines on my hand.

I tink i knw my main pbl. I care toooooo far tooooooo much abt how others tink abt me. Zj always wil say why i care so much where people might nv tink abt me. I tink im crazy n tooo sensitive. Im lying on bed but yet feeling stress by fb! The evil fb tat is meant to connect pple tgt. This is bcos i feel tat i dun hv much close friends actually, out of few hundreds only a few r very close friends n some of my gd friends dun go fb tat often. Im presurized by the comments i'll rec from uploading pic (like get too much attention) or worst when nobody comments which to me it'll be implied as- not much people give a damn to my posts or me (but hw can a person can hv 50 comments from getting into r/s which i seriously tink is far too crazy n i feel sour! Lol!). Im contradicting myself. Haha! This is quite a emo post n nw im worrying hw many people will see this although i've make it private. =s Once again, im crazy again!

im quite sick of my stupid stress n i tink i'll make a pt to stop myself from gg to fb. =( it seem to be taking alot of my time browsing at other people pictures cos it's taking up some of my free time which i logically shld be spending it by helping my mum with the hsehold chores n packing my room!!!!

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beautiful summer memories at1:12 AM

Im back to a happy gurl! sadness all behind me!

Im ready to embrace the challenge to become a better me! :D

P.s.: thank u for turning everythg ard again!

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beautiful summer memories at11:17 PM

i hate the word "stupid"... go away pls...

but all i hv is to blame myself...

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beautiful summer memories at11:30 PM

A penny of my thought:

“当我要指责别人对我的好, 我应当想想自己有资格吗。”

“我想相信一旦付出就会有人感觉的到。。。”

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beautiful summer memories at10:35 PM

GOODBYE SINGAPORE!!! TW HERE I COME!!! :D :D

Thank u everyone for making my wish coming true in a few hrs!!! Muacks!

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beautiful summer memories at3:24 PM

Moo moo please go away.

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beautiful summer memories at9:21 PM

My new VIOLET E72! Love it a lot!

hmmm the lighting doesn't relly capture the violet becos it is metallic violet.

I shouldn't have worried so much about their 3 colours that I dun really like! I should have just walk to singtel shop to ask! HEEHEE! Thankful to the person who introduce me this colour. although have to pay a bit more for this E72 Navi but is worth it! :D :D i see it as investment. happiness investment! :D

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beautiful summer memories at2:14 PM