Keep going.

Saturday, November 22, 2014

Happy birthday, to someone special.

Birthdays aren't overrated - it marks the day you came to the world.
A pity we never celebrated together before.
I wished I had the opportunity.

i came to shout at 11:27:00 PM

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

It's the last day of the year again.
Time for some review and reflection.

As always, the year passed by quickly but there were definitely some key milestones worth mentioning.
First and foremost, I graduated!
Yes! After a 4-year battle with the annoying bell-curve and honours system, I can finally say ANNYEONG to my professors, past year papers and exams. I never hated studying and I really enjoyed learning new things, asking questions and getting answers. Unfortunately, this is always accompanied by exams, stress and unfriendly competition. Oh well, at least I tried to take some enjoyable modules in my last 2 semesters.
At the moment, I am still pretty thankful that it is over.

Anyway, besides the certificate, I am not quite sure what did I take away from the university education.
I mean, for secondary and college, I made great friends, developed sense of belonging and love for my alma mater, probably some character build up...
University.. probably just made me grow up or feel more grown up.
Made some friends and I do mean more than facebook friends, made some choices, had some opportunities...
Learnt lots, nothing much to regret since you cant change it anyway.
Actually, feels pretty much like square one less that I am four years older and a little more independent plus realistic about life.
LOL, that definitely dont sound very encouraging.

There was about a 4 month period of transition before I started my working life officially.
Went for graduation trip with my coursemates. First time travelling with them.
Quite alright, good balance between the jokers and the serious people.
Returned being closer and that's quite nice since we are all launching into different industries.

Did a short internship at some stat board just for the sake of experiencing/seeing working life in the government sector.
Had a young, good and quite fun manager, no complains.
To make it better, there were many other interns and young managers around so it was entertaining and enjoyable most of the time.
Nothing stressful, but quite a bit to see and learn as a pre-working exposure.
Then again, it's really quite different compared to the private sector (and I am starting to feel that I will never return there after being spoilt in the private sector).
Even so, I remember this particular lady telling me that no matter where you are and what you attain, you must always be humble.

So here I am today, working in some MNC, not really quite what I studied.
Nevertheless, quite thankful to be given this opportunity.
A further eyeopener to the vast cosmopolitan world, beyond whatever I encountered during exchange.
Excellent work-life balance - dont really have to OT and can work from home occasionally.
Honestly speaking, I have never envisioned myself to be working in an environment like that.
But yeah, am enjoying so far.. to the extent that I am a bit worried that the continuation of this relax mood will make me lazier / stupider / less competitive in the long run.
It's just not quite the same comparing with my peers and it makes me feel insecure that I'm not working as hard as them you know. Plus, I dont look forward to weekends that much since weekdays are not that strenuous/stressful anyway.
Hahaha, but payday is still payday. The most awesome day of the month.

So what's for 2014?
More kinship/friendships/relationships building/strengthening, more hard work and effort at work, greater attempt to maintain a healthy lifestyle, maybe more involvement in social work or sorts.

And if I haven't been good and kind enough in 2013, I will try to be an angel in 2014 :)

Goodbye 2013.
Hey there 2014!

Happy new year ahead everyone!

i came to shout at 1:15:00 PM

Sunday, July 07, 2013

And the story goes like this.

An old lady approached me at the bus-stop this morning and asked me where block XXX was located.
However, I wasn't familiar with the area. Hence I located it on my googlemaps and directed it to her.
After which, she walked away in the right direction.
As I watched her leave, I noticed that she was limping quite seriously.
Well, I have never been the number-one-kind-hearted-stranger-on-the-road but it was really quite heart-wrenching to see her leave alone like that.
There were quite a few people at the bus-stop but nobody really took notice of her besides this other (chinese) man who kept staring at me, probably thinking if I will take further action.
And I did.

This is probably the most far-fetched aid I provided to a stranger.
I mean, giving up seats, first-aid at public places, returning lost items blah blah. Those are really minor incidents which most people have done too.
However, today, I walked this old lady from the bus-stop, to the traffic light, across the road, down the stairs and up the stairs again... all the way to her house, unlocked her door and helped her in.
You know, all these sound really simple but it was really hard for the old lady with the pain in her leg.
Just the road itself, it took her two cycles of green man to get across with my help.
Seriously, it was quite scary crossing with her because there were so many cars and we were walking so so so slowly, followed up getting stuck right in the middle where many cars were making u-turns and right-turns.

Finally, we got to the other side and we bumped into this other kind lady who asked about old lady's leg condition.
I guess pain in the legs etc. are really common amongst elderly.
Anyway, this kind lady then gave some advice on exercising and also attempted to encourage and motivate the old lady to be more independent and stronger (like getting walking sticks or motorised wheelchair).
Initially she thought I was the granddaughter/daughter so she kept asking me this and that but she quickly discovered I was just another stranger like herself.
After she left, we continued with the stairs and to my own surprise too, I started advising the old lady on what food she should try to avoid and what she should eat more.
It's kinda funny thinking about it because I was never really a believer of such things but after listening to my mum for so many years, I just absorbed the information sub-consciously.
I never knew this may be useful on a day like this, or even the idea of ME, imparting my mum's nagging.
HAHAHAH.

So eventually, we got to the block, up the stairs (because she lived on a low level).
At the door, she couldnt identify the right key to the gate and door so I had to help her find them.
After unlocking the door, I helped her in and wanted to leave but she insisted I come in and have a drink or something.
Out of courtesy, I entered the house and helped her in, switched on the tv and fan for her and after further chit-chatting, I left politely.

In conclusion, I feel really sad for the old lady... for the pain she has to endure, for the lack of love and concern from her family.
According to her, she's living with 2 daughters and one of them worked in a bank.
Hais, so much for working in a bank.
What's the point of earning so much when you are not using your money properly to care for your very own mother?
It's like, they didnt bring her to see any doctor despite the pain that she felt.
Furthermore, they sent her to repay the housing loan when she barely can walk properly.
Daughters and grandchildren alike, keep her at home all the time and do not bring her out for walks because they find it troublesome.
You know, the whole house, so nicely decorated and maintained, but filled with so much sadness and loneliness.
Along the way, the old lady also shared this shocking story with me:
Apparently she has been asking different people to give her medicine but they refused to give it to her.
So she asked if I will give it to her. I replied that I dont know what medicine she want so I cannot give it to her too.
So guess what medicine she wanted?
Poison.
She wanted to be put to sleep and die peacefully.
I cant imagine what kind of pain she is enduring.

i came to shout at 12:38:00 AM

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Sometimes you just want to disappear somewhere no one can find you.

i came to shout at 9:19:00 PM

Saturday, March 30, 2013

All it takes is a trigger and I'm gonna explode.

I'm so disappointed in myself.
I wanted it so much.
But now.
I really really hope lady luck is on my side.
Please. Please.
The future is a little bleak.

Then about some other person.
I haven't been so mad at someone for so long.
Ok maybe it isnt entirely his fault.
But, I really hate being in this kinda situation.
Where you are stuck between the angel and devil.
Which side should I take?
Be nice, or be mean thoroughly?
Dislike, really dislike being in this situation.

i came to shout at 3:38:00 AM

Thursday, March 21, 2013

I am really gonna graduate soon.
This isnt a joke.
Just this Monday, I submitted the first draft of my thesis.
With a little more time on hand, I kinda realised that after finishing my last paper on 2nd May, I will have nothing on my agenda anymore.
I will fly off for my graduation trip, have lotsa fun, come back tired but fulfilling.
Then, jobless :/

Not sure how will I feel then.
Happy? Well, I kinda like studying, minus the examinations.
I like school, minus the travelling.
Its kinda sad to think about leaving the studying environment for the working world.
Then next time I will think about money, promotion, house, car, family whatsoever.
The complex issues.

And so I'm still awake at this unearthly hour.
Halfway through my assignment.
Feeling abit screwed for my modules because I have totally been slacking this semester.
Checklist:
- Listen to lecture recording
- Complete midi assignment
- Make changes to thesis
- Add sections for thesis, including thinking of methodology and algorithm
- Finish and compare answers for my assignment (IMPT & URGENT)
- Revise and catch up the notes for 2 modules
Erm. Yes.
I need to be superwoman.

Hmm.
Waiting for something to happen.
Waiting for people to return.
Waiting for the impossible.

i came to shout at 4:34:00 AM

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

The feeling of spending CNY with your family has never felt more precious than ever.

i came to shout at 10:42:00 PM

Wednesday, January 09, 2013

Well well, this is unbelievable.
4 years of university education went by in a flash and I am now in the last run.
Honestly speaking, it hadn't been a smooth sail..
Ups and downs because of a million things every year.
Nonetheless, I am glad it is all over and things get better over the years.
I guess, and I hope, I have really grown wiser and more mature by now.
Otherwise, I am really going to suffer a lot in the world of uncertainties to come.

So what brings me here today?
Tomorrow, I am going to have my first fyp-related presentation!
So exciting right.
The presentation was supposed to be held next week, but due to some clash in schedule (totally unrelated to me), it was brought forward (instead of postponed) and TAH DAH!
I almost died last week preparing for the report to be submitted urgently (because of the brought forward presentation).
Anyway, after tomorrow, I can proudly say that my fyp is almost halfway through.
Leaving the last part of project to work on, the final report and the final presentation...
And we are through!

Anyway, it's week 0 this week and school officially begins next week.
As usual, I aim to go to school as little as possible XD
Unlike some final year students who do not have much modules to clear, I, pretty much, have a normal time-table.
And, this being the final semester, needs a lot of hard work and luck.
Luck is really important you know.
If you ran out of luck in the last minute and meet with some crap or offend someone, all your efforts will simply go down the drain.
So so so, GOOD LUCK to myself and everyone else!

i came to shout at 8:25:00 PM

Monday, December 24, 2012

Listening to my self compiled Christmas Album now.
Well well, although I din go and check out the Christmas lights in town this year..
Somehow feeling Christmas-sy this year.
Celebrating at some gathering with the usual christmas/newyear gang.
Hahaha! WE, the lame people who accepts any reason just for some gathering party or overnight sessions!
Gonna get a log cake this year to create the Christmas feel too.
Plus, the present I prepared for them :D
You know, I'm not a Christmas-give-present kind of person. So, its really special I did that this time round!

Went for my cousin's housewarming yesterday.
Been years since I last saw them... Well, I dont visit them often.
Nice homely feeling. Plus, there are so many kids around!
Its enough to form 2 soccer teams I think. LOL.
Most of them are my nephews and nieces already. Amazing.

Working on some stjohn stuff now too.
Something that ought to have been done properly 4 years ago.
Well, I could have ignore it this time.
But, it just doesnt feel that right. So, I volunteered.
Returning to stjohn this holidays is a little emotional.
While I can identify much similarities and familiarities, there has been much changes too.
Size of the zone, active (young and new) members now, the new teaching method...
The seniors belonging to my era have also reduced greatly.
I recall 7 of us attending officer course together in j1.
However at the nco camp I attended, there were only 2 of us from that batch - the vicechair and myself.
The rest, mia already, or pahtor-ing, or avoided due to politics or... moved on to another stage of life entirely .
Life.

So, I was observing and hanging out with the camp peeps and I found shadows of myself, my squadmates and juniors in the trainees!
I'm not sure if its a typical SN behaviour or what but haha, its funny.
I wonder, how much of that SN behaviour am I left with now?

Then there are the look-alike faces I saw.
HAHA! Really much resemblance with a touch of youth to it!

The last thing on my mind now is FYP which is strenuous.
One of the three software I was using had issues again so I got to uninstall and reinstall it (later at Christmas. HOW PATHETIC.)
Interim report and presentation upcoming.
God bless me.

And results out soon.
Please, show me some mercy.
Protect me from the evils and prove to me that the good will be rewarded, the bad punished.

i came to shout at 9:49:00 AM

Wednesday, December 05, 2012

The time has come for me to PRAY.

i came to shout at 12:15:00 AM

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

This semester is coming to an end soon.
In about 28 hours time, I would have another module down, leaving 3 exams to study for and 1 fyp.
You cant imagine how desperate I am for my holidays to come soon.

Like I have been telling everyone throughout this semester, I have really been utilising every segment of my brain for the past few months.
Linguistic, Writing, Maths, Physics, Hands-on, Software/Programming.
And guess what? POLITICS as well.
Seriously, it is really difficult working with people who are just petty and have little awareness of their own ability.
I'm not trying to say I am damn good or what. At least I know what I am not good at and I try to improve in those aspects.
But these people, they don't know they are not doing a good job in something.
They get mad when people improve their piece.
They take everything personal and feel bitter towards others.
They just dont understand that groupwork is about making the group's work good.
This is further worsened by the stupid bell-curve that in the end, they decide to backstab to protect their grade by putting others down.
I know this is a very real situation but I really cannot stand such people who use their intelligence in this unorthodox manner to achieve their aim.
How selfish is that.
I just hope that at the end of the day, my professor will be wise and fair.

I am not really hanging out with my university friends this semester.
Basically been talking and hanging out with secondary and jc friends.
Its really nice talking to these old friends because we have come such a long way and after so many years, we are still in contact or talking to each other.
Not awkward or strange or what.
Just comfortable, familiar and at ease with each other.
Afterall, they are the ones who have been by your side all this time.
They are the ones who seen the good and bad side of you and accepted you for whoever you are.
They are the ones who truly care.

Furthermore, I have taken a break from fb.
It's kind of sweet to receive calls/texts here and there when my friends are looking for me.
I mean, those who truly wanna look for me will know how to get to me.
No fb is definitely not an obstacle to them.

Well well.
Time to get back to work.

i came to shout at 4:16:00 PM

Friday, September 28, 2012

This is frustrating.
My FYP is kinda stuck because I cant install the programme properly because I am using an i****** software which has CHINESE instructions. PLUS, the method it uses is simply not very straightforward and I had to download a million things just so I can follow the instructions as given.
Seriously.
TELL ME WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY hasnt the school purchased the legal software for me to install like a normal law-abiding FYP student.

Yes, I am venting my frustrations here because OBVIOUSLY I cant scream at my mentor nor my professors.
SIGHS.

This is the time when you become envious of your peers who are stuck in lab forever, or have to go to the FYP company for whatever-it-is etc etc.
You know, I have heard of people buying food to feed their bacteria, people staying until 10pm just for lab TRAINING sessions, people watering plants in school everyday and stuff.
Not comparing about who is slacker or what.
BUT, just doing these little things, they are making GOOD PROGRESS on their FYP already.
On the other hand, I am stuck because of this stupid technical problem which isnt even caused by me.
Not to mention, if I dont even switch on my laptop, my progress is STAGNANT.
Who is gonna address my GRIEVANCE man!!!!!

I think I have kinda wasted my recess week thinking about useless meaningless things.
What a waste of my youth! Sian.
Lets take a look at my checklist:

1. ACC midterms >> 80%
2. Language midterms >> 60%
3. Language essay >> done.
4. EG tutorial >> done.
5. EG project >> 10%
6. Design >> 40% prototype, 0% report
7. MOM >> 20% through catch up.
8. FYP >> 0%

i came to shout at 8:42:00 PM

Saturday, September 08, 2012

Sometimes, life can be sucha bitch you know.
I can proudly say that I am a pretty easygoing and optimistic person in general.
However, I really hate some things that are happening in my life right now.

It is so sad that as one gets older, you start to realise that many things cannot be as simple as they used to be.
It's like, nothing is pure anymore.
Even for something such as hanging out together, there could be a hidden agenda somewhere or if there wasn't any in the first place, there may be one eventually. Somehow.
Perhaps some years ago, I detested backstabbing. Now, I realise that hidden agendas are as vital as that.
These two behaviour are probably the same kind, related to the ugly mind of human beings.
Alright, this probably isn't like the FIRST time I am disturbed by this.
But seriously, I really dontlikedontlikedontlike.

To the people who have known me for a long time, you probably know that I believe in fate.
I still do.
Even if sometimes, it can be painful or hurtful.
But, at the end of the day. I know that if it not meant to be, it will never be.
And what is meant for you, will eventually present itself again.
Opportunities, studies, or people.

BUT. I really hate people who try to play God.
Incept your mind, brainwash you, or paint a beautiful picture to disillusion you.
I have a mind of my own.
Don't try to change it. The end result, tested and proven, will not be pleasant.

Currently in the process of restructuring my life.
And... I think I want to do it by myself.
Because, I can only do it by myself.

i came to shout at 6:34:00 PM

Monday, July 30, 2012

I spend all day thinking.
And thinking.

I spend all day reasoning.
And reasoning.

Myself vs Myself.
A tough fight.

Good vs Bad.
It's hard.

Where will I be? If there seem to be like no tomorrow nor yesterday?
I cant look forward, nor look back.

What should I do?
What can I do?

Wise words from everyone.
But I continue to question.
I cannot convince myself.
How?
Eventually, the devil will take over.
But seriously, the devil wants the best for me too.
To some extent.

i came to shout at 5:45:00 PM

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

This is so strange.
I have been looking forward to going home in the past few weeks but now that I am actually less than a day to the return flight, I FEAR going home.
What is wrong with me.

i came to shout at 1:57:00 AM

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Will it be a waste of time if I don't go anywhere in Munich?
Kind of moody to go anywhere now.

Travelling alone can be sian sometimes.
There is no one to motivate you when you are bored and tired.
However, it does make you a much stronger and independent person.
Survival skills.

Ever since I changed my companion entirely at the end of Berlin, I felt kind of alone.
My new companion was not enthusiastic and encouraging at all.
Passive guy.
Where to visit, map-reading, asking for help around... It was all done by me.
This companion, is very comfortable just nua-ing in hostel all day with his laptop and iPhone.
And with all my companions leaving me, I was pretty much in a sian and nua mode too.
Is this a kind of homesick-ness?

There was a small and HUGE turning point to this last stretch of the journey.
1, when I asked him do you want to eat Tapas here and he replied 'anything'. This repeated like 3 times and we walked out of the bar.
2, when he stomped off on Barcelona beach on the first night just because I asked him to retake a picture for me 2 times.
Yes, and from then on I was on my own for the next 2 days.
Seriously, I cannot believe something like that can happen and I shall not comment on it too much since this blog is public.
But really! What a joke.

So I finally arrived in Munich 2 days ago, today is the 3rd day, as well as 2nd last day.
I havent been touring here at all, seriously.
Day 1 was nua, night went for a farewell party with my friend.
Well, I was really tired after a night at the airport and finally putting an end to this 1.5month backpacking.
Day 2 was nua, evening went grocery shopping with my friend.
Well, I tried to make my time more well-spent by transferring all my photos to the laptop.
Day 3 aka today was nua up till this very moment 1339hour :(

I had plans to go for free walking tour, BMW museum, Science museum and maybe English Garden during my short stay here. Oh, and to buy souvenirs :/
Initial plan was to buy 3-day travel pass so that days2-4 can be touring the city.
This later became 2 1-day travel pass.
And now, I dont feel like going out because I am kind of upset over something.
In fact, I dont feel like going anywhere for the next few days because I really have no mood for that.
However, I know that I should not do that.
But today, I really dont feel like doing anything.

I wanna go back to Singapore now so that I dont have to fret over so many things.

i came to shout at 7:51:00 PM

Tuesday, June 05, 2012

This moment is kinda surreal.
Just a few hours ago, I was chionging through the past exam papers, notes, tutorials.
Just a few hours ago, my roomie banged hard on my door trying to wake met up because she thought my paper was @ 9am, when its actually 3pm.
Just a few hours ago, I was rushing to get out of the house, with microwaved nuggets, burger w/ patty, fishcake, sweets and chocs.
Just a few hours ago, I was stuck at most questions of the exam paper even though I knew what the whole question was about.

And now, its all over.
From this second onwards, I need not chiong the past exam papers, textbooks, notes, tutorials.
Not for this dreadful SEP semester at least.

There's quite a few things I need to do now.
But I am still pretty stunned.... cant do anything :/
Okay... I will be back in awhile.
Lemme try and get some things done first...

i came to shout at 6:10:00 AM

Sunday, June 03, 2012

It just struck me that SEP in Norway is really coming to an end.
Today, the second person from our NUS group left with all his luggage.
Well, the next will leave on Tuesday.
Followed by myself and another girl (with her family), on Wednesday.
The last 2.. with their exams ending the latest will leave next week.

The first guy left when I was emo-ing about my Thursday paper while frustrated that I still need to study for my Saturday paper.
He kind of left quietly... Nothing much about it.
 The second guy left a few hours ago.
Before that, he was cleaning/packing/distributing his leftovers.
Well, I knew that because he live just next block and he had most of his meals here after he did the MASS CLEAN-UP for his apartment.
Yeah, he had about 40 hours after his exams to settle all the departure crap.
So, it was quite a big HOOHA.
And then he left, and it became silent once again, in the cold night of Trondheim.

There are a couple of things on my mind right now.
Like, I really feel like packing but I know I have to study for my last paper.
Give it my best.
Yupp there isnt time for other things.
Then again, now I'm upset by everyone's departure (left or leaving).
I cant get my mind to settle down and concentrate on the notes.
And this is real frustrating because I dont have alot of time tomorrow as well.
Going church in the morning and evening, skyping my family (probably the last time before I leave Trondheim) in the afternoon.
 And there is the stupid part of me, thinking about not-so-important things like finishing up all my food, selling condiments, selling pillows and crap.
Yeah, reduce my loss.

Feel the urge to share about the dynamics of my little SEP family here now but I know I shouldnt.
This should be done after my exams.
Maybe Monday...

I'm so sian now I went to cut some kiwi.

i came to shout at 7:29:00 AM

Thursday, May 31, 2012

It is so difficult to get even 40 marks out of 100.
Well well, that's the thing about taking a difficult core module overseas.
It is difficult for a reason.
And it does not matter where you take it.
IT IS DIFFICULT.

So there were only 4 questions for today's paper.
Q1 had 5 MCQ, I am only sure I got 2 correct (10marks), 1 wrong :( and 2 unknown cause I
 Q2.... Energy equations, find temperature. I really anyhow write, anyhow sub. Aiming for method marks. Q3 is my most confident question. Which I got stuck at part c and d and hence cant really do part e and f. Oh, I missed out the efficiency component for part a too :(
Q4... I dont really know whats going on. Just trying to sub in and get some numbers out :(

PRAY FOR ME.
PLEASE LET ME PASS THIS!!

No mood to do anything now :(

i came to shout at 9:52:00 PM

Friday, May 18, 2012

woah woah, blogger changed a new look.
hmms. anyway, im at the last leg of my sep before everything more or less comes to a closure.
yes. my exams are coming.
and yes. i am so dead.

well, before going on my scandinavian trip some weeks ago, i barely got myself approved for one more paper.
and just a couple of hours ago, i just finished the last assignment i need to do before getting myself approved for the exam (given that nothing goes wrong for this course) :/
yeah perhaps i can let out a small sigh of relief... i am finally qualified to take all 4 exams.
PHEW.
okay so the next few weeks is gonna be intensive and i really cant afford to waste too much time.

honestly speaking, i am really afraid that i would not be able to pass.
its like, i need to study one whole sem of work in just a few days.. about 3 days a course.
yes, and i have 4 courses.
and i repeat again.
i am so dead.

okay besides this school talk, i wanna whine a bit about travelling too.
just yesterday, i finally confirmed my return flight home.
this return flight thing is totally a nightmare.
not gonna describe it here but yeah, you can ask me bout it when im back home.
and thanks to my dear friend who at least designed our travel route for a month plus, i got a little less to think about.
however, i still got about 10 days of blank to fill up.
what i mean by blank is really BLANK - nobody to go with, nowhere to go.
okay, at least yesterday, i found an old friend who, thank God, hasnt planned anything for himself yet.
PHEW.
so so so, all may not look that bad yet.
i just need time to think and map the cheapest, most logical route for my BLANK.
 you know, i really wanna do so many things at SEP but time is running out.
before embarking on this journey, everyone simply tell me to have fun, try whatever i want, dont come back with regrets and all.
but seriously, all of these cannot come together.
when i go all out, i return from the trip feeling like shit because i got so much work piled up.
(AND THERE IS ALWAYS THE PHOBIA OF NOT BEING ABLE TO TAKE THE EXAM, yes it isnt even about FAILING it, its about QUALIFYING for it boohoo)

and i guess no matter how much i try, i already have some regrets.
things like not learning the Norwegian language, not skiing enough, not going to Stavanger or Lofoten, not climbing mountains (MAYBE there is still some chance?), blah blah blah. finally, on a more positive note.
although i havent really been homesick or what, i am a little glad that i am returning home soon.
(YAH LAH, i know my SOON is still more than two months away LOL).
i miss my hawker centre food man. so many choices, cheap, convenient. while i picked up proper cooking here (chinese food, western, blah blah), i really hate having to allocate time to cook before you can actually eat.
cooking a big batch of food and storing isnt really the thing for me too because i dont really like to eat repeated food consecutively.
yupp yupp.
alright, shall i sleep now or study?
study... what to study? :(

i came to shout at 5:19:00 AM

Thursday, April 19, 2012

They say that SEP is supposed to be slack and all about having fun, playing and travelling.
That is only partially true.

Have I ever told you how many times I felt dead, screwed and more stressed than ever in the last couple of months?

Sometimes I really wonder, how did I end up in this state.
Okay, of course I know.
I skipped classes... didn't pay much attention to lectures blah blah blah.
But again, how did everyone else manage to keep up with their work given that we ALL slack and pon classes at some time?
It is SO unfair :(

It is the policy of the school that has resulted in my (and my fellow friends') misery.
Yes, Norway may be a great place to live in but the studying system is BLEAHS.
I really hate copying work but if I dont do that, I am SO GOING TO DIE.
And guess what? You think copying is an easy thing to do.
You are SO wrong.
1. When you have absolutely no idea what you are copying, you ended up wasting so much more time.
2. It is stressful as you go on because you realise that you REALLY dont know alot of things.
3. You really hate yourself for doing that. Okay, at least I do.
I need a saviour to take me through this hais.

Given the choice again, I will definitely work much harder...
And perhaps travel a little less so that I attend more classes and have more time to study.
Travelling... can be tiring, both mentally and physically too.

RARR. I dont wanna dabao!! :(

i came to shout at 9:25:00 AM

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Back from my long Easter holiday!
3 weeks of travelling is really exhausting.
Anyway I went to Ireland, England, Scotland, Belgium and Netherlands.
Quite an experience.
From waking early to sleeping late.
Reading the map, getting lost, asking for directions, trying to catch buses and trains (and make sure you are on the right one)....
OHYES, and running out on cash!!! HAHAHA.

Of course, there is the good side of beautiful scenery, interesting cuisines, funny encounters and different interactions with strangers/natives.
Yupp, such experiences you never find in Singapore (:

Anyway I think this Easter trip is really quite varied, not just in the company I have over the 3 weeks, but also in the setting and atmosphere in each place.
First there was the 3 girls in Ireland, going on tours everyday.
Then the London walk, walk, and walk thingy.
Followed by a small 'family' road trip in England.
Then 2 exhausted girls in Scotland.
And finally, meeting up with some other friends to travel Belgium and Netherlands.

Sounds like a really long and eventful holiday isnt it?

I have been back for about 3 days and I think I am still suffering from travel exhaustion.
To add on, the longer days is confusing my body and mind.
It's like, I left Norway generally thinking that the sun sets early in the evening.
Now, I return to find the sun setting at 8plus at night and only gets pitch dark at 10plus 11pm?!

I have tonnes of work to do before I fly off again for my pre-exams trip again.
(Yes, I do regret booking the departure date so early hais).
But well, I feel kinda sian sian to do anything.

It's like, 'oh im finally home, pls lemme rest and not do or think about anything first can'.
BUT I cant afford the time to do that :(

NVM. JIAYOU.

Last point to note:
Norway is seriously quite expensive to live in. It is really quite a torture seeing how things are cheap everywhere and you cant bring them back to Norway (luggage limitations). Then again, I love Norway. I love being back here in the peacefu; and serene city (:

Labels: Easter over.

i came to shout at 9:56:00 PM

Sunday, March 04, 2012

I am so damn bloody bored despite being so damn bloody screwed.
Okay lets list how screwed I am.

1. I have 7 (or is it 8?) FEM assignments which I have not done.
2. I have not even installed the program required for 1 of the compulsory FEM assignments.
3. I have not watched even 10% of a self-study module webcast.
4. Therefore I have not done a single assignment (out of 4 or 5) for that self-study module.
5. I have not done the very important Robotics assignment which is due on Thursday.
6. And I will be away having fun at Tromso from Monday-Wednesday.
7. And I have not read/studied how to do the assignment.
8. Because I am still stuck trying to catch up on the FEM lecture notes.
9. Which is quite a bit because I have only attended like 4 lectures so far since the start of the semester (2 lectures per week and you know... many weeks have passed).
10. My Heat Transfer module is barely managing well since I am copying the TB solutions for almost all the assignments.
11. And yes, it is my core module.
12. And yes, I am missing one lecture tomorrow because I am going to Tromso.
13. With so many things to do, I am too distracted by easter plans, pre exam plans and some other stupid matters.
14. And I have to resort to whining to blogspot because if I find a real person to whine to, I am gonna waste more time.

RARR.

Yesyes, SEP is fun.
But it is stressful too :(

i came to shout at 10:33:00 PM

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

being too straightforward isnt a good thing.
i need to be more careful with what i say next time.
-nods

counting down!
havent had any meetings with my jc class this december.
YES I KNOW i pon the hollandvillage one :(
besides that, meeting another group of people tomorrow for some nonsense again hehe (:

omg its too soon!
mixed feelings :/

i came to shout at 2:02:00 AM

Saturday, December 24, 2011

someone reminded me today that no guys will ask a girl out without motive.
on the spot, i replied not really and i believe in pure platonic friendship.

but again.
maybe he is right.
pure platonic friendship are so rare nowadays.

oh, the same person shared a very interesting boy-girl friendship/relationship theory with me too.
hahaha ask me you wanna know.

i came to shout at 5:13:00 AM

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

okay this post has low value so you can just ignore it actually.

went to trim my hair just now.
on my way back, i saw this owner walking the dog.
there is actually nothing strange about this sight if it is the first time you see this particular dog.
the thing is, i have seen this dog many many times at different times of the day walking around the area.
i think like 3 times a day?
afternoon, evening and night.
saw when i was buying food, trimming hair, jogging at the respective timings.
woah.
what a lucky dog, leading such a healthy lifestyle.
haha feels more like the dog walking the owners in a way too LOL.

back to my life.
have been sleeping late and waking relatively early these days.
and when im awake, im like out or doing something that draining or exhausting.
argh. SO DAMN TIRED.
i need more time to just...
s t o n e.

i came to shout at 9:03:00 PM

i have concluded that packing and sorting is really tiring, despite all the joy and satisfaction you may gain in the process and at the end of it.
yawns.

saw a very interesting quote on fb today:
Never take someone's feelings for granted because you never know how much courage that they took to show it to you.

hmms. make me feel kinda bad for something i did today.
ohwell.
what's done, is done.

lastly, wanna say that im damn proud of myself because my stuff are getting neater and neater everyday.
woohoo!

i came to shout at 3:14:00 AM

Sunday, December 18, 2011

gets weirder and weirder everytime someone of an awkward relationship to me adds me on fb.
ohwell.

im so tired going out everyday, especially when the activity or person/people are just not that appealing.
(no offence but if i have to meet just ONE person everyday, i seriously dont have enough time to meet everyone)
lets hope that the outing that i pon just stops at two. lol.

my luggage is gonna explode!
and i havent pack my dear blankie and elmo :(
nvm. I CAN DO IT. hahahahaha.

i came to shout at 1:19:00 AM

Thursday, December 15, 2011

i kinda realise im actually quite screwed up now given that i have been slacking too much these days LOL.
i mean, im totally adjusted for norway timezone ALREADY.
and im not done packing my HOME stuff nor my LUGGAGE.
yet im like going out too much, watching too many shows and tv etc.
boohoo.
i have been counting the days by DAY instead of DATE that when i saw the date today, i kinda got a shock :/

wake up, michelle!

i came to shout at 2:34:00 AM

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

woah woah, another post again.

went for primary school gathering just now (:
(YES! on top of all the nostalgia, my childhood friends had a gathering organized whees)

attendance was pretty good, and i saw faces i havent seen since like secondary? primary? LOL.
and seriously, i re-affirm my poor memory ARGH.

anyway, had great food.. pizza, kfc, golden pillow.
great games and catching up going on.
its quite funny how we NEVER get tired talking about the same old stuff, with someone adding some details/events refreshing our minds here and there.
and its always so interesting hearing the updates in everyone's lives (even if its the N times you are hearing it).
(okay maybe my poor memory has got something to do with it LOL)

ohyes, a new discovery today!
after so many gatherings over the years, i concluded that people always remember what others did, more than what they themselves did.
its like, i will remember how so-and-so always bully or scream at someone, how teacher B always touch friend P's butt or 'flirt' with him (from what i remembered, it was more funny than gross), how friend K always nosebleed in class or how friend X always call her mum to come and fetch her after school, how friend Y backstabbed her clique, how people eyecandy friend W, how friend G used to act seh and 'bully' girls and the list goes on (:
hahahahaha and i dont remember much of how i was mean to others LOL.
primary school memories <3

anyway went to watch 'the apple of my eye' with my mortal the other day.
not bad, it really depicts the school environment rather accurately i will say.
EVEN for primary school hahaha.
okay lah. co-ed schools.

Labels: primary school gathering

i came to shout at 2:34:00 AM

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

back again, taking a break from packing my stuff again.
shall capture this very moment of excitement and nostalgia.

so i found some loosely placed photos here and there amongst my old 'treasures'. lol.
okay treasures should not have inverted commas because they are indeed very precious.
awwww. photos from primary school years. my first and favourite pet <3
my crazy attitude and funloving sec1 photos.
individual photograph with mediacorp actors christopher and terrance.
cssp, faccomm, huangcheng, maf and my shenjiayi (:

sometimes its really good that i have lousy memory.
just so when you look back at your past, you remember mostly the good stuff.
the bad side of it or the terrible things you did... they just remain vague or 'just not too horrible or wicked' hahaha.
whatever it is, its still sweet because it is still me (:

talking about gifts that i found.
amongst all, i realised that the ones that i keep really long and will rarely think about throwing away are soft toys, items with photos/pictures, notes/letters/handmade stuff.
seriously, beside soft toys which i like simply because im a girl and im childish (yes thankyouverymuch).
the rest are simply too precious to be discarded.
even if the photos were posed, they represent the significant moment in your life, the feeling you felt, everything that you probably forgotten over the years.
and for the latter, its just the tone, the meaning, the occasion. everything that was buried by the new people in your life.
i rather DIE than to throw these precious items away.

then again, there are some stuff which even though you like them, you just throw or give them away because you feel gaowei keeping it.
yeah its really kinda sad when the stuff are cute and nice or what.
but yah. too gaowei, too odd. lol.
oh well, at least some needy is benefiting and delighted to receive them (:

okay, back to packing and finding more treasures (:

Labels: treasures

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