How do you know?

.....that you are making the right decision? What do you base your decision making on? Yes...I'm having second thoughts...about the job. I was fine and happy about my decision until Joe was leaving for work last night and I was kissing him goodbye and I always tear up when he leaves because I miss him so much (you would think that after 30 years of being together that I would be kicking him out the door instead right?)..and Joe said, "we have to enjoy this week because you start your job next week and we won't see each other very much"....

That got me thinking. The job that I have now I have 100% flexibility...I work whenever I want. I am home ALOT...and I'm salaried so I don't even have to worry about how many hours I work. My boss lives 2 hours away and I hardly ever report in!

So what is there not to like?

I hate it.

I really hate the job.

So much that when my cell phone rings and I see its work related I get all tensed up.

So is it worth it for all the perks to put up with a job that you hate?

My new job will be working M-F 8:30am-5pm......ZERO flexibility + hourly wage.

But I think I will like the job.

I think.

Not sure...but I think.

So is it worth giving up all that just because you hate it?

The flexibility is the thing that bothers me the most.

I LOVE being home. I wish I could be a SAHM (stay at home mom) or even a WAHM (work at home mom)...but I can't...we need my paycheck.

I wish I could sell things on Etsy and make that my career!

I just don't know what to do. I don't want to regret leaving..but then if I pass up this opportunity I might regret that too.

So how do you know??

I envy you....

I get a letter in today's mail from our insurance company. It was a "friendly" reminder that Venti's birthday was soon approaching (April) and to remind us that since he will be turning 22, he will no longer have health care coverage! I did not know this! I did google it and this is what I found:

Parents need to be aware of the date when their health insurance coverage stops for family members. Usually when a child turns 22, marries, or joins the military, the health insurance company will stop coverage.

Venti doesn't graduate until May and will probably start working sometime after that which means he won't have health insurance for a couple of months! Guess I'll cross my fingers that he stays healthy!

So its Friday night and its just me and Tall home. Joe is working, Venti is at college, Grande went to the mall and Short went to his friends house! Going from having a houseful to just one child feels really strange. I can actually here things in the house that I didn't hear before. Tall came home from school and took a nap...that was 3 hours ago...so my dinner consisted of a bowl of Frosted Flakes! I sure hope Joe is hungry when he get home cause I'm going to need a big snack! We always have something to eat when he gets home which is bad because we are eating at 10pm. We usually have ice cream, a piece of cake, cookies, etc...I know...very unhealthy!

I should be working on my taxes or something but I just don't feel like it. I found out today that my job might be changing in the next couple of months to something that I do not like. Wish I was able to be a "stay at home mom"....being a mom is the greatest job in the world and I'd love to be able to do that. I'm sure alot of people feel the same way, so for all you Mom's that are able to do that, I envy you!!