Hello, Hi and Hola!

Hello people!

My god… ive been receiving many emails from all over world asking for my updates.

FYI, I had to posptpone my 5.0 IVF as I have many other things to plan and execute. Yes, mainly about work and my businesses. I have ventured into many business opportunities and they are doing quite well, alhamdulillah..

2014 has passed with many valuable experiences about love, life, and friendship. Some are good, others are well learnt.

I believe, as long as Allah is with me, I will be just fine.

I miss you dear TTCians.. I will start blog-walking to your blog! Don’t forget to say “hi” back to me, ok? J

IVF 5.0

Coming soon..



Stay tuned for updates... :)

My Miracle Baby is ONE!

This is my baby...
He is one year old already..

A year ago, he was born with lots of problems.. He had a terribly difficult start...

1. He suffered a prolonged jaundice.. he was battling against jaundice for almost 4 months.. I became an expert in jaundice and its symptoms..

2. He also suffered an Adverse Effect Following Immunization (AEFI) after his 3rd month injection.. I became an anti-vax mummy thereafter..

3. He was born in a rare condition of Laryngomalacia, he was not allowed to breastfeed directly, I became an exclusive pumping mummy thereafter..

With all the problems that I faced to conceive him, God gave me another set of challenges/trials after becoming a mummy.. Like it or not, I just have to face it bravely..patiently..

TTCians,
If you're still battling against infertility,
Put your head up..
God put you in your position with a reason..You dont have to know now.. God will show it to you later..
Then, you will understand why..
Like I understand why God put me in this situation,
He made me a strong woman before being a mummy,
He wants me to face infertility problems before facing problems with my baby..
If He didnt test me before, I wouldn't be as strong as this today..
I knew my reason..
You will know yours too..

Bad Mummy? Yes I Am!

Dear baby angel,
Sorry for being a bad mummy,
I chose not to remember you,
I chose not to visit your grave,
I chose not to clean you,
I chose not to bring you home where i supposed to,
I chose not to speak or write your name,
I chose to throw all the things that I've bought for you,
I chose not to confine myself and went back to work immediately,

Forgive me,
Yes, I am a bad mummy..
You are in better hands right now..

See You in Heaven, Daryan Darda

I sit and write this letter,
With tears running down my face,
But I know deep in my heart,
You are in a special place..

I could still remember..
I cuddled your blanket and said my prayers
I saw your weak breath by breath
I searched for any sign of you
For your scent
A string of hair
And I felt so blue

I hold it and wish I could go back to that awful day
There was so much I didn't tell
So much more to say
Cause baby oh baby mummy's heart is sore
I find myself missing you more and more....

Dear miracle baby
Will you wait for me in heaven?

My TTC Journey by Jay Farhana

Hello..


By now, many of you have read about my journey written by Jay Farhana.. For those of you who didn't have a clue on what I'm referring to, please click HERE..


Pursuant to that blog entry, Ive received too many emails, pms, even smses, asking me to elaborate more on my journey. Well, if God permits, I will find time to write a very long blog entry.. Jay was right! I have a long winded TTC stories that some I dont have time to write in this blog.


I guess I should start writing now.. But not in this entry.. Stay tune, ok?




P/s - Thank you so much for all your well-wishes and doa.. Although I do not really know who you are, I hope that my humble journey will strengthen your believes on Allah's will.. Allah is indeed most gracious and most merciful. Just believe..

The Long Overdue Update

Hello dear readers..

I'm still here, alive.. I received quite a number of emails and PMs asking for my updates. I truly apologize for the delay as my life has been so hectic lately.

Praise to you my Lord, I have safely delivered a huge baby boy on 3rd May 2013, 1.45pm at QHC Medical Centre weighing at 4.2kg!! Indeed, my son is the biggest baby ever born in my family. And of course, he was delivered via c-section.

I will tell ya all the details later ok?

BUT wait....

I have one more thing to tell you...

I'm currently 10weeks PREGNANT! 

NOOO....It's not IVF!!  It's natural!!!  

Puzzled? Me neither....