Monday, November 26, 2007

ALIVE & KICKING

I am still alive and kicking..ehh salah salah I am still big and in pain!!

hahahha...well i know you guys havent been seeing me around as much as u used to. Not by choice absolutely. La ni dah pindah office baru. I have yet to reinstall my YM and of course, bila nak dekat dekat meletup ni, it seems kerja macam bertimbun-timbun lak yang datang.

I have roughly discussed THE DATE. Its gonna be on the 7th December 2007. Ambil berkat hari Jumaat and taking other contibuting factors also (read: Kenduri adik ipar on 8 Dec 2007). Tapi deep down la kan, if you ask me, rasanya cam nak branak cepat aje. Dah tak larat dah mak ni oiiii....

But then again, I am still crossing my fingers of normal kuar tanda delivery. So hari hari wishful thinking masa pi kencing...Hoping for some sign. Tahap kemaruk nak beranak dah aku ni..

So to you guys out there..will keep u updated. Kalau sempat dan ada masa, i'll write more. Kalau idak, tunggu la update lepas meletup wokey..

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Deyyy!! Padayappa!!!

Korang suka tengok tamil movies tak? Im talking about tamil movies with significantly fairer hero and heroin (where the rest of the cast were ehem very 'tan') and the background setting is of paddy field and cows where you can visibly see cow manures (and sometimes the casts are actually dancing on ground filled with them) NOT hindustani movies ok!!



Well..i must confess..I am an addict to Tamil Movies. Know some of them and even have a list of my fav actors/actresses. Some i know by name, and some i just know by face. Surya is good actor, Ajith too and who could denied Sivaji's greatness? Those who did now know who Sivaji is..its Rajnikanth la...also my favorite Mr. Padayappa. Watched that movie like 100 times and still fascinated with how he flipped his selempang over his shoulder.



You know la deepavali kan. Surely our one and only paid tv station tu airkan lotsa movies. So..last sunday, when hubby was not home, alesha was sleeping, i got to spend time in front of tv. Naik majal kepala aku dengar tamil dialogues dari pukul 12 sampai pukul 7 ptg.



Tapi aku sampai ke hari ni, sangatla kagum dengan jalan cerita kisah-kisah tamil movies ni. The movie i watched at 12 tu, basically pasal how this hero went against the system and bunuh semua gomen officer yg makan rasuah etc etc. Despite the cliche hero tu tak cedera sikit pun lepas lawan dekat 20 orang yang senjata parang (dia bare hand aje wokeh!!) yang meng impress kan aku ialah the fact that love story citer tu ada la dekat in total 15 min. je. Hebatkan? citer drama melayu kita pun tak gitu.

The point is, aku nak cakap tak kira betapa clichenye separuh citer tu, but if you do it right, tanpa elemen cinta pun, u can attract people to watch.

N.B: post ni aku korek dari draf lelama. Was written long time ago some time during deepavali.

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

at 36 weeks

At 36 weeks i was bombed with another distrubed news yesterday.

During Alesha's time, sometimes during the same week, doctor informed me of my increasing blood pressure. Despite the medication, the pressure refused to go down, which resulted in the induction of Alesha's delivery 8 days before her due date.

La ni pulak..aku suspected kencing manis!!!! Adeyyyy...haprak betul aku ni. The news was so alarming because aku sememangnya tak suspek betul nak kena kencing manis. Thanks to ciklovebaby atas teh pegaganye yang aku minum hari hari, aku tak de la pulak kena high bp. tapi kena penyakit lain pulak. Cit! I blame it all on raya!!!!

Yang lagi menyakitkan hati kencing manis aku ni bukannya confirmed. Camna ya...ada satu medical jargon yg Doktor tu cakap...'altered diebetic?' 'tampered diabetic?' Aku pun tak ingat la yang mana satu. Tapi dari pemahaman aku, aku ni bukannya diebetic bebetul sampai kena inject insulin and such, tapi at borderline yang mana kalau aku salah makan (or in order word - terlebih makan la), level sugar akan naik hence aku n baby akan dapat symptoms kencing manis.

Apa symptoms kencing manis? Doktor tu cakap, one thing is a bigger baby. FYI, lil seed dah 2.7kgs. Mak datuk!! Patut la perut aku bagai nak meletup rasanya. Alesha dulu was only 2.67kgs when delivered. I have a month to go and he is already 2.7kgs!!! Well..for those who have delivered 3.0++ kgs babies may say its small matter. Tapi aku dah merasa azab nak mengeluarkan 2.67kgs hookay!!! Mak siap kena vacuum lagi! Tak sanggup rasanya nak memikirkan mengeluarkan more than 3.0++ kgs.

A bigger baby is really not a thing to loose sleep. But a more disturb news is diebetic can lead to sudden death of the baby during pregnancy. Haa...part ni la yang aku kena ceramah ngan laki aku bagai nak rak atas habit-habit aku yang suka makan kuih raya and minum air gas tu. Adeeiii...Nak buat camna? Boleh tak kata mengidam tapi sebenarnya anak tekak yang teringin?

The doktor was telling me that there is no way i could wait beyond my due date. Terlupa pulak aku tanya implication if i were to wait until normal delivery. Nevermind, my next appointment is on the 20th, i'll ask the Doktor then.

Another problem is - katalah implicationnye so graves that theres no way i could wait up for normal delivery, then there is an issue of the suitable date.

Hubby's bro is getting married on the 8th of December, which coincidently also my due date. Seminggu sebelum tu sah sah la dear hubby sibuk jadik runner. After he is the only sibling yang kerja sendiri with flexible working hour kan. Aku memang dah agak-agak dia akan jadik coolie la kenduri tu. Takpe la kan, adik dia jugak.

The point is, memang jangan harapla dia dapat nak memberi TLC pada aku ni kan. Tapi as a wife, time ni la lebih dari wajar he should be by my side!! After all, takkan la time production je dia nak share skali, time seksa nak kuar output tu aku kena sengsara sensorong kan?? Tak aci la namanya!!

Hubby aku boleh aje dumpkan aku umah MIL. After all, masa alesha pun aku memang pantang kat sana. Tapi aku tak rasa comfortable pulak nak dok umah MIL waktu aku sibuk siap siap nak kenduri. Itu tak masuk lagi nak layan perangai alesha yang memang naik lemak kalau cousin dia ramai-ramai. Kang silap haribulan, aku pulak yang bentan sebab menjerit kuat sangat.

Nak post aku umah parent aku pulak, on 10th December, my adik will undergo major heart operation to alternate his valve with artificial one. So theres no way i could burden them with the worries of taking care of me. Biarla diaorang tenang-tenang fikiran nak prep mentally for the surgery.

Hence my dilema. Last evening, borak ala kadar ngan hubby, we decided to wait until the very last day. Lepas kenduri (ni case kalau aku tak beranak lagi la) dalam petang cam tu, we will shoot to Pusrawi for the induction. But of course, i have to get clearance from the Doktor la untuk do that.

So, next course of action, wait up for 20th appointment - ask doktor - then fix date - Tapi all in all doakanlah aku turun tanda sebelum 8 December 2007. If this happen, all plans down the drain.

p/s: Tak sanggup lagi nak induce. Epidural..epidural.. im seriously thinking about you.