I don't believe I've ever begged so much in my life.

Now, I find myself begging again.

Please.

You know how at times you want something so much that your heart throbs and throbs and every fibre of your being yearns for it until you get it? I feel that way now. I just want you to stop. I just want you to come back.

I know you hate it. "Don't say please." But I have to. Is there another way? Are there ways we haven't tried? Tell me. Tell us.

Every single post. Every single one makes me want to reach out to you all the more. But can I? I can't. Not trying hard enough? How much harder can I try?

Do you really think we would forget you if you left?
In the first place we wouldn't fucking forgive you.
Do you really think we've forgotten you?
Do you really think we don't give a damn, that we're only fucking pretending to?

We're not actors and this is not the big screen. There is no need to. Even if you choose to stand by your stand and say that we ARE pretending...who could pretend for so long? Who? Not even the best actors. Yes, we could hide our true selves for years and years, but at some point we would crack too. At some point our real personalities show through. But who could pretend to care about someone for so long? I once told you. Why do you keep this wonderful personality of yours hidden? Do you remember? Those happier times. You want to go back to them too. So badly.

We, as your friends, write this kinda posts in the hope that you can wake up and take our hand. The hand that we are trying so hard to link with yours. The hand that you dare not take.

Fear. Distrust. Rejection. Oh won't you please break free again?

Please?