Stink.

Pooh.  I am sad.

My really, really good friend is moving to California.  I am SO sad.  I could say that six times.  Maybe sixteen times.

Grrrrrrrrr!

Since moving here there have been only two women in my ward that I have become close friends with.  The first, Becky Staines, moved back to her home in England last May.  Just this morning I drove by her house and felt a deep ache inside.  Our family was really good friends with their whole family.  That doesn't happen a lot for us.  So I was thinking of our Sunday afternoons at the park with them, Friday nights hanging out and watching movies or playing Wii or whatever, hundreds of hours doing PTA work together.  All over.  And I felt empty inside.

Then tonight I find that my other dear friend, Selene, is moving with her family this May.  It's not fair!  They are the other family we hang out with.  Amelia idolizes 10 year old Heidi and Heidi is more than happy to play dress up with her forever.  Phoenix and Adam love to play with Jake and Andy, and I have worked with Selene in Young Women's for about three years and LOVE HER!  She makes me laugh all the time.  I can be 100% me, and we get each other.  Cortis is always fun to talk to and makes me laugh too.

I wish that everyone didn't move all the time.  I realize it is part of life now, but I wish things weren't so transient.  Even with this though, I don't like feeling left behind.  Maybe I will move.  Pack up the kids and move to, oh I don't know, North Carolina?  I'd rather seek out adventure with all new friends, than try to start making new friends with people who have always been around.  Does that sound weird?

Ugghh.  I'll be fine.  Really I have lots of nice people around that I love chatting with and laughing with and even do stuff with, but still......IT'S NOT FAIR!!

Maybe I'll sabotage their move.   Yes, I think that's what I'll do.