Tuesday, July 27, 2010

HEY HEY HEY:

i haven't blogged for nearly 2 weeks.

i've been rehearsing for Rag dance. and my knees hurt. :(

and i've been poorer.

rmbed clubbing with jamie and gang. MAMBO. it was a very fun night :)

caught inception. a really good movie though.

tmr ippt :( dieeeeeeeee.

then have to pack! bangkok trip! yea i know. with the very recent outbursts of violence. pray that i'll be safe k! :)

MOLTEN PLASMA. schoolboy.

Melted @ 11:51 PM

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Friday, July 16, 2010

HEY HEY HEY:

ok i was supposed to blog down my entries like an hour ago when my mind is still fresh with all the inspirations ive gathered while taking the bus home and bathing and what have you.

but this stupid bloody laptop is driving me insane.

and that means ive gotta find time to learn how to backup my itunes before reformatting the comp.

ok that aside.

i'm so bloody bloody tired. and my knees are badly bruised.

dance isnt easy at all! gotta have stamina, flexibility, memory to remember the steps, coordination, feel/groove to make it look stylish, natural and effortless.

let's talk about talents today. or good points. enough of bad stuff for e week.

avid readers of my blog, take some time to think whether you can relate to the following talents/good points lol. i wun be talking abt professions.

ive witnessed so many talents. and the more common the talent, the more people think it is easy to actually be good at it. some talents are natural, some can be acquired.

singing, dancing, charming other people, sweet talking, pep talking, consoling, a good listener, being sporty, gymming the right way, having the stamina to do any physical sport, intra personal and interpersonal skills, cooking, art, designing, and etc.

i wonder is there such things as being good at knowing something. i mean im not exactly referring to random trivia. but just knowing stuff. general knowledge. being good at acquiring knowledge.

life aint all about academics. academics usu help you in your profession. But what about being streetsmart? or witty. or about knowing how to deal with your car if it breakdowns, meet an accident, God forbid, or knowing about the economy, how to do business, politics, abt the world, stock markets, property prices, fashion, computer stuff, insurance, banking stuff, monetary stuff. various terminologies from any category under the sun! fish. i dunno. it could be everyday things that u r in touch with but not necessarily interested in.

I guess the only regret in life is that i dun have the habit of wanting to learn things. and reading most of the time helps u gain that knowledge.

i need sleep.

MOLTEN PLASMA. im thinking too much. really too many things.

Melted @ 12:34 AM

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Monday, July 12, 2010

HEY HEY HEY:

HOKKAIDO FAIR.

SCALLLLLLLLLLLOPPPPPPPPPS. is not high in cholesterol. and its ok to eat cholesterol i think. since your body will just produce less of them to counter the intake of dietary cholesterol hehe. trans and saturated fats are the killers.

Anyways. so the tako wins piyo. lol.

retarded.

bubblegummylicious.

random. Nigel: we'll be 26 the next world cup. impactful. very impactful.

i feel thankful that ive been brought back to reality instead of being stuck in my bubblegum that i've unknowingly created.

admist chicken breast meat and dry fried prawn mee.

ok im gonna have dance later. looking forward to sweat it out.

gah talking abt sweating it out. my 2.4 timing has declined drastically. :(:(:(:(:(

MOLTEN PLASMA. all the lovers.

Melted @ 12:15 PM

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Friday, July 09, 2010

HEY HEY HEY:

ok i have a fish memory.

so on tuesday i had rag dance and ktv session. lol. maybe should train up by baritone and alto range. no more SOP! lol

yesterday was dad's bday. had a fantastic steamboat. my favourite was the quail eggs and the 'jin bao yin'. all VJ people would know what the jin bao yin is right?! i dunno if the carrot cake aunty still sells them. It's fried. looks like a miniature man tou, with mushrooms and fishmeat like thingies inside with ZHAP! lol. yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuum.

and today. went to school to get a swim and a tan. and ZOMG, there's water polo championships ongoing. so i thot maybe i cld get a tan instead, you know, by e pool. So i was jus about to enter the pool area and some fat arse with a screwed up face told me sorry, the pool is close. So as i was jus about to ask him if i cld go by the side and tan the recliners. he totally CUT ME OFF and said no to my face. omg. OMG. i couldnt. so i rolled my eyes and shot him a dirty look.

so thankfully i didnt swim cuz today's dance session was super intense. its like my first ever real dance class kinda thing. did a lot of basics. but my not so flexible body cldnt master a few of the warm ups and steps. hahaha. bruised! gotta practice a lot. and do a lot of visualising.

so i thot i cld sleep. but i cant. cuz ive been sleeping at 1 - 2 the past few nights. so even tho im so shagged i cant sleep. so im drinking one glass of red wine. to help me relax lol.

and my right palatine tonsil. is slightly inflamed. it's like rotting. and causing my breath n saliva to smell.

LOL.

MOLTEN PLASMA. waka waka.

Melted @ 11:33 PM

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Monday, July 05, 2010

HEY HEY HEY:

why is sleep important to me?

besides making me fresh, energetic and alert,

I can exercise better, have better tolerance to pain, control my emotions better.

it also doesnt tempt me to waste money on chamomile tea bags for my eye bags lol.

i wanna play more mahjong and watch world cup together SLUTS! :)

in life, dont get too close, too comfortable, too complacent. or the sweetest things will be overlooked and swept under the rug and even fade into oblivion.

sleep more.

and you'll be happy.

you'll have the extra energy to remember how it all started.

MOLTEN PLASMA. milestones.

Melted @ 12:45 AM

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Wednesday, June 30, 2010

HEY HEY HEY:

Let the world see this.

My dear yeek, this would definitely be another entry nothing short of cryptic.

This are pure, austere emotions im feeling.

it's 8:50pm. and within the past 15 mins. 21+ years of my life flashed past. and my visual imagery picked up what the word 'family' meant to me.

This entry should be dedicated to my mum.

Have I failed as a son? I wouldnt say yes, but I wouldnt say no either. If i had failed, I wouldnt be so bothered at all, why am i getting all so worked up, penning down every last ounce of my emotion. we basically im tapping into one of e 7 deadly sins, viz. wrath.

I cant reveal explicit relations and people in this entry as that would only bring more conflict and more guessing. or a more appropriate phrase would be 胡思乱想. the human mind is so capable of doing the aformentioned. our imagination gets more vivid and ironically, more absurd.

So every family bonds in a different way, if such a bond actually exists. So my mum had aired all her views and displeasure and basically the stuff that she hopes against all hopes to instill into this wooden block here. But my mum can tell me anything. Amidst all her words of plea, it didnt fall on deaf ears, but onto a person who just wants the best for everyone, not knowing where should be sacrificed and compromised, who is torn between the secular and the sacred, torn between the generations, just striving towards a word so simple yet amazingly arduous to achieve. Happiness. Pure, sincere, honest, simple happiness.

But just minutes ago, I observed a bond, a bond I would never dream of experiencing. listening to ethe subject matter of the convo and very word intently. But suddenly, i hear the amazing contents from my mum reaching my auditory system. it wasnt the same exact words, but the idea is there all right. it's like the idea came to life and slapped me across the face. hard. one slap after the other. piak. piak. piak.

so shock gave in to guilt, but guilt gave in to defense and an imaginary shield was covering me, many questions flew past my mind. and every split second, the neurons in my brain fired up messages and together with pure anger, consumed the very being suffocating in that shield. cuz the words were patented by mum, and should be said to me by my mum only.

so the bottom line is,
i love my mum,
it's not that i dunno how to show it,
and trust me, commuication is the least of my weakness.

so the question as to why i am not at home executing the duties as a son, for what seems as to be judged insufficient, amounting to negligience of my role as a son, I appeal to the jury to fully consider and comprehend my plight and my 苦衷. before passign any judgment that i've failed as one.

MOLTEN PLASMA. Having a roller coaster of emotions is an understatement.

Melted @ 8:47 PM

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Saturday, June 26, 2010

HEY HEY HEY:

post 917.

you guys know how i love alcohol.

of course i dun like drinking till i puke and get drunk. but i love the sense of relief and release it gives me.

but not this time.

many a times im unaware of the physical effects it brings.

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ok so why do i feel all those negative feelings admist all the goodness and all the positivity?

it's because of faith.

that's where the difference lies.

the belief is difference and hence this is where the bridge has to be constructed. to fill the rift or the crevice or what not.

if not. that wld be the very bane.

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will feelings ever wear off?

that's up to the power of one's subconscious.

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MOLTEN PLASMA. when alchy first fails me.

Melted @ 4:48 AM

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