an erra has ended .....

but a new one has begun.....

do you remember this post?????

well it has ended that was on the 31st of July i became a non breast feeder to this wee lovely boy......

i have to say it appears that i am a lucky mother as (touching wood as i speak) i have not had any bother, the first night was 15 mins crying i went in after 5 mins, then waited 10 more and he went to sleep, the night after was for 5 mins..... and it's pretty much been the same ever since never cried past say 10 mins crying at the most and he's now sleeping through till between 6am-9am depending on you know teeth..... and the mood he's in!!!

i feel pang's of oh guilt, loss....... but i had to stop the feeding i was no longer enjoying it...... also he is 19 month's old.... i said i was stopping at 13 month's....
so i just thought i would let you all know where we, me & Frazer were as you were kind in your word's which were very much appreciated

xxx

it's ending tonight!!!!

hey there peep's
so i am about to share with you the trials and tribulation's i am having with regard's to my youngest son frazer..... to most people this may not seem like such a biggy but for me ...... i have to say that i am at the end of my tether.....

this lovely little menace is my wee Frazer..... he is 18month's old
and i am still breast feeding him and had planned to stop the feeding at 13month's

the same as his older brother Finn...

well folk's it turns out that Frazer is just so not up for that, every time i get near some kind of weaning, he catches a bug or teeth come through... otherwise just something comes up, i have decided that tonight is the night. i will be doing the controlled crying technique some may frown some may agree but for me i think i just have to get this done (and it seemed to work fine with Finn) and with there being 2 kid's i have to get it done asap as i want to try get back to some kind of normal pretty quick.... so this will be hard on Frazer but hard on everyone else too.....

i hope not to gurn to much over the next few day's..... and more realistically week's please do bear with me and if you fancy a leaving a happifying comment please do.... dare i say i feel that i may be in need of them !!!!!

xxx

breif update.....

so i reckon the feeding is going oh so well Frazer get's just 1 feed all day & night... other than a couple of day's ago he was up from say 11.30pn-4-am crying, no breast feeding was going to help turns out it's the bloody teeth again...... poor wee mite i am hoping that this has settled and he is back on track. i have to say that i am very much enjoying the night time feed's again, our snuggles huh there is a pang of he's only a wee baby yet in my head but i reckon I've done my bit now and will continue on with my plan.....
xxx

breastfeeing update day 7

hey there so i felt another update was warranted Frazer has been sleeping through from 8pm-8.30pm till 6am-8.30am..... wooooohoooo so the plan is working all i had to do was stay strong & keep the end goal in sight

i think the wee guy seems oh so much happier during the day too.... even with the 4 teeth coming through!!!

have a good Saturday peeps :)

day 5 breastfeeding update....

so as i have said before this is more for my sanity than yours but yes her i go again!!!!! we made a a major break through yesterday.... Frazer DID NOT ASK FOR ANY MILK YESTERDAY.....
soooooo happy........ BUT there is always a but......

he went to bed at 8pm ish.... then slept till 5.55am, he woke the whole house Finn included.... for a wee guy he sure has a ample set of lung's!!! so Finn went into my bed i went to Frazer and yes i fed him some people may think I'm being to hard but it's been sooooo long the feeding..... anyways he never went back to sleep we came down stairs calpol administered as he has 2 eye teeth coming through and we watched some Thomas the tank engine played with our wooded block's by 8am this happened......

he passed out in my much loved silvercross buggy.... so i hope today will be as good as yesterday and i will be stronger and just come down stairs tomorrow morning and feed him up with banana and milk!!!
wish me luck.....

breastfeeing update!!!!!!

this is more for my sanity than yours I'm sure but it's a process i feel is helping so bear with me!!!!i am on day 4 night 3 of the trying to end his habit of a life time ...... day's seem to be going OK he is confused but not rolling on the floor crying for milk much to my happiness :0]
as for the night they are more hard work i am still aiming and succeeding in the 1 feed a day, that being his night time feed where the bad habit lies, he feed's to sleep which i am now enjoying again as when i was feeding through the day and night i was finding it more of a chore. so he is only getting that 1 feed then i am controlled crying my wee man i see cringes all around me right now but i (& you) must try to remember he is 15 months and no longer need's to feed 3 times during the night..... saying this night 1 he slept through, night 2 was way more hard work....a fluke i called it in my last blog entry!!!!! and a fluke it was he woke no less than 4 times but only after being re settled briefly ha went back to sleep after say 30 mins, i do truly feel bad that i am "doing this on my wee boy Frazer" but i do feel that i am making more restful sleeping routines for us both.... as for last night being night 3 he once again slept though..... from 8pm till 8.30am...... wow i say. i know that this was due to sheer exhaustion from the night before but i have my fingers crossed I'm getting somewhere.


children are a handful sometimes, a heartfull all the time.......
-author unknown

xxx

trying to end his habbit of a life time.....

firstly sorry if the picture is not to your taste...
my wee boy Frazer is now 15 month's old now.... feeding him has been the best start in life i can give him & the bonding experience can be rivaled by no other experience in my life... i have LOVED most of the experience. i fed Finn my first boy till he was 13 months old.... i was also 7 months pregnant with Frazer by this point...... i am wrestling with the "am i being selfish" as much as i am aware motherhood comes with all the unconditional love you could you can handle!!! it also comes with GUILT i found this out early and am learning fast that it will be here as long as the unconditional love!!! FOREVER!!!!!


so where am i now... i now sort of feel that he is OK to not be feeding now as he only NEEDS my milk till he is 12 months old, although they would like us to feed till they are 2 years old i have been feeding for 27 months with a 2 month break..... i also feel that i will always put my children first but he is now upping the ante he & Finn had a bug passing it too and fro for 5 weeks then the teething was the problem so i did have him to 1 feed a day his bedtime "SNUGGLES" we called them now up until yesterday he was feeding 3-4 times a day and i was in the spare bed in his room by anywhere between 1am - 3am every night i spent the rest of the night there with him sleeping in the bed with me and feeding on and off all night :( much to my dis-spare....
so yesterday i decided enough is enough Frazer will still love me even if i cut the feeding down (in the vain hope that he will eventually stop!!)so foot down i have put plasters on my nipples yes plasters!!!! as when i just say no he throws himself on the floor and screaming and i feel bad enough!!! ( i still have a ear infection :(... ) so now there is less screaming maybe some confusion but he only fed once yesterday.... and he woke at 2.30am last night.. i went and settled him then he was asleep by 2.45am.... i seriously believe it was a fluke but i have my fingers crossed...
updates will follow!!!! xx

my creative space

so in my creative space is granny Mattie's tea cosy....... still yes still but i took forever to find just the right quote, i love my granny a lot and it took forever to find . this one hit's the nail on the head as we both collect ornamental elephant's and i will never forget what she has done for me she has been a consistent rock for me someone i can share my everything with...... she gave me my first bra, tough me to knit & crochet, gave me the freedom to feel and make my own mistake's without too much judgment!!!! i miss her very much and look forward to seeing her on my visit back home soon xxx

this is my quote finished my wee boy Frazer was having a bad night teething poor wee guy has 4 teeth coming through so not a happy camper, as i am still feeding him the only way to console him is breastfeeding well that and teething powder's, gel's & the blessed calpol!!!!! i seen this as a ideal photo opportunity. keep an eye to see the finished tea cosy it's pinned and ready to go!!!
xxx