I have been thinking all day today about a scripture in the Book of Mormon, when Nephi was off trying to get the gold plates from Laban. Right as he goes out that third attempt to get the records he says "And I was led by the spirit, not knowing beforehand the things that I should do."
This is how I have felt recently. I am dealing with a personal trial of a greater magnitude that what I can really comprehend or express to you at this time, but over the past few months it seems to me that as the time has come for me to take steps to deal with this trial and to face it, just as the moment comes that I need to take this action or that action a sudden inspiration comes to me, and I know exactly what I must do next. At first I hesitated to listened, my delays caused more trials and pains to come my way that what was necessary. I have learned to listen and act, and when I do I feel peace that I am doing the right thing even though often times it is a difficult thing. I am learning to not run away from things that scare me, and I am learning that when the spirit tells me its time to take this step or that step or to do things in this order then I will be most happy if I listen.
I don't think I've ever done things quite this way before. Its very humbling when I try to sit down and come up with what needs to be done on my own I can think of nothing, but when I need it God just sends the answer my way. I feel very taken care of right now, and very very humbled.
I have felt over the past few months not to worry about the usual things that I stress a great deal about- for instance, when my roommate was getting ready to move out a few months ago, and I knew I would need to find a new one, I didn't stress. I just felt peace that it would be taken care of and I should just focus on taking care of transitioning into my new ward, and a new roommate appeared out of no where and moved in just as the old one moved out. That's the way its been for the past few months.
I am extremely aware of just how aware my Heavenly Father is of me, How much he loves me, and how well he knows me and my individual struggles, my weaknesses, and my strengths. He has blessed me with great friends, that have even dreamed dreams about how they can help me, and then they were awesome enough to follow though. I am very grateful to them.
I have never felt so loved or taken care of in my life, and as I face whatever trials lie ahead, I am grateful to experience something like Nephi, so awesome as being led by the spirit, and not knowing before hand the things that I should do, but knowing no matter what it is I must face, no matter how ridiculous it seems, what insurmountable road block seems to be in my way, I know that God has my back. I know that people who love me have my back, and I know that I will come out of it not only OK, but better than I have ever been before. Thank you, to all my dear and cherished friends that listen to the spirit, and that are just plain amazing friends. We can't and shouldn't face things alone, that's why God put us all here together, to help each other. I think its the greatest thing in the world that God is in charge, and he knows what he is doing because none of the rest of us have a clue, but if we listen to him, he will direct ALL our paths.
This is how I have felt recently. I am dealing with a personal trial of a greater magnitude that what I can really comprehend or express to you at this time, but over the past few months it seems to me that as the time has come for me to take steps to deal with this trial and to face it, just as the moment comes that I need to take this action or that action a sudden inspiration comes to me, and I know exactly what I must do next. At first I hesitated to listened, my delays caused more trials and pains to come my way that what was necessary. I have learned to listen and act, and when I do I feel peace that I am doing the right thing even though often times it is a difficult thing. I am learning to not run away from things that scare me, and I am learning that when the spirit tells me its time to take this step or that step or to do things in this order then I will be most happy if I listen.
I don't think I've ever done things quite this way before. Its very humbling when I try to sit down and come up with what needs to be done on my own I can think of nothing, but when I need it God just sends the answer my way. I feel very taken care of right now, and very very humbled.
I have felt over the past few months not to worry about the usual things that I stress a great deal about- for instance, when my roommate was getting ready to move out a few months ago, and I knew I would need to find a new one, I didn't stress. I just felt peace that it would be taken care of and I should just focus on taking care of transitioning into my new ward, and a new roommate appeared out of no where and moved in just as the old one moved out. That's the way its been for the past few months.
I am extremely aware of just how aware my Heavenly Father is of me, How much he loves me, and how well he knows me and my individual struggles, my weaknesses, and my strengths. He has blessed me with great friends, that have even dreamed dreams about how they can help me, and then they were awesome enough to follow though. I am very grateful to them.
I have never felt so loved or taken care of in my life, and as I face whatever trials lie ahead, I am grateful to experience something like Nephi, so awesome as being led by the spirit, and not knowing before hand the things that I should do, but knowing no matter what it is I must face, no matter how ridiculous it seems, what insurmountable road block seems to be in my way, I know that God has my back. I know that people who love me have my back, and I know that I will come out of it not only OK, but better than I have ever been before. Thank you, to all my dear and cherished friends that listen to the spirit, and that are just plain amazing friends. We can't and shouldn't face things alone, that's why God put us all here together, to help each other. I think its the greatest thing in the world that God is in charge, and he knows what he is doing because none of the rest of us have a clue, but if we listen to him, he will direct ALL our paths.
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