..:: Not today ::..

Assalamualaikum & hai

Ya, aku tak berjaya siapkan thesis lagi

There is a part of my research still under construction

Yeah I do and I did constructions everyday

Constructing phylogenetic tree through few softwares and methods

And since I'm not good with those IT thingy so

(Tipikal perempuan)

Aku lambat la sikit

So after lalui fasa-fasa yang kritikal dan 

I ended up failed untuk submit before sem lepas habis,

of course la aku emo

(Aku perempuan, remember)

Tahap emo kira kalau boleh nak duduk dalam gua

That's why aku tak pakai spec everytime keluaq

Sebab tak mau tengok orang sekeliling

Then dengan doa mak abah, insan kesayangan dan diri sendiri,

alhamduLillah aku berjaya fight the emotion

And currently in the middle of settle things up

(Tipu, aku tengah blogging)

InsyaAllah, everything is in progress

Allah takkan ubah nasib sesuatu kaum, selagi kaum itu tidak mengubah nasib mereka sendiri 

Effort

Yang tu yang aku still boleh invest

Selagi ada peluang

Selagi ada rezeki

Semoga berjaya dengan redha Allah Mimie!

So aku dah tak nyanyi lagu Pretend untuk dunia study aku

(Annyeong Suzy Bae)

Aku bukan army, bukan stan BTS

But I stan Not Today

All the underdogs in the world
A day may come when we lose
But it is not today
Today we fight!

No not today
Flowers wither eventually
But no not today
Today is not that day
No no not today
Not yet a day to idie
too good day
No no not today
no no no not today

Yeah we are EXTRA
But still part of this world
EXTRA + ORDINARY
That’s nothing at all
We won’t ever die today
Light shines through the darkness
It wants a new world and you
Oh baby yes I want it

If you can’t fly, then run
Today we will survive
If you can’t run, then walk
Today we will survive
If you can’t walk, then crawl
Even if you have to crawl, gear up
Aim your gun! Ready! Fire!

Not not today! Not not today!
Hey crow-tits everyone hands up
Hey friends everyone hands up
Hey if you believe me hands up
Gun! Ready! Fire!

Don’t die, don’t ask
Scream Not not today
Don’t kneel, don’t cry
Raise your hands Not not today
Hey Not not today
Hey Not not today
Hey Not not today
Gun! Ready! Fire!

Too hot, success is doublin’
Too hot tumbling in the charts
Too high we on trampoline
Too high someone stop us

We couldn’t fail
Because we believed in each other
What you say yeah
Not today yeah
We will never die today yeah

I believe in you by my side
Together we won’t die
I believe in you by my side
Together we won’t die
I believe in the word together
I believe in BTS
Aim your gun! Ready! Fire!

Not not today! Not not today!
Hey crow-tits everyone hands up
Hey friends everyone hands up
Hey if you believe me hands up
Gun! Ready! Fire!

Don’t die, don’t ask
Scream Not not today
Don’t kneel, don’t cry
Raise your hands Not not today
Hey Not not today
Hey Not not today
Hey Not not today
Gun! Ready! Fire!

Throw it up! Throw it up!
Forget about the fear in your eyes
Break it up! Break it up!
Break the glass ceiling that cages you
Turn it up! (Turn it up!)
Burn it up! (Burn it up!)
Until the day of victory (fight!)
Don’t kneel, don’t collapse
That’s (Do) not today!

Not not today! Not not today!
Hey crow-tits everyone hands up
Hey friends everyone hands up
Hey if you believe me hands up
Gun! Ready! Fire!

Don’t die, don’t ask
Scream Not not today
Don’t kneel, don’t cry
Raise your hands Not not today
Hey Not not today
Hey Not not today
Hey Not not today
Gun! Ready! Fire!

You Never Walk Alone album cover

Tittle pun dah sentimental sangat

Of course we will never walk alone,

Allah ada. Kan?

Haa nak syahdu lagi nanti aku dengaq la You'll never walk alone 

even aku bukan Liverpool fans pun

Pfft

Kaki bangku, mohon duduk diam2 dengaq lagu

and pi ngaji

..:: XX ::..

Aku seriously jenih tak suka tanya banyak or banyak kali

Tapi tu la, ada pros and cons perangai lagu ni

Baiknya ialah aku rasa aku bagi enough space and privacy kat orang

(understanding enough huhh)

Buruknya time jumpa spesis Homo sapiens gene XX yang ada trait ego+emo tinggi nak mati

Dengan-dengan aku sekali dilanda taufan

=.=

..:: Thing that makes me happy ♥ ::..

It takes two people to compromise.

TWO.

Things won't work if only one side who puts effort, who shows appreciation. 

-Dena Bahrain

Thank you for keep on compromising

I am really grateful for it

And I am really grateful that it's you

I am praying that there will always somebody be beside you

To help, to accompany, to cheer you

To remind you that 

Allah loves you more than anyone else

=)

May Allah bless you with success, health, happiness, patience and strength

May all your dreams come true and may you live the life that you have always dreamed of

May Allah bless you with victory in this life and eternal life too

Awan hitam bergulung gulung

Mengabarkan berita pahit

Aku harus gimana pada cintaku

Bisakah aku jadi langit

Biar ku lindungi mendungmu

Tak kubiarkan duka berkawan denganmu

Biarkan hatiku bertudung

Menutupi kenyataanku

Menangis sekaligus tersenyum 

Pada takdirku

Tak bisa kau paksa cintaku

Berpindah kepada yang lain

Sampai nafasku habis

Ku mau denganmu

Bisakah aku jadi langit

Biar ku lindungi mendungmu

Tak kubiarkan duka berkawan denganmu

Biarkan hatiku bertudung

Menutupi kenyataanku

Menangis sekaligus tersenyum 

Pada takdirku

Tak bisa kau paksa cintaku

Berpindah kepada yang lain

Sampai nafasku habis

Ku mau denganmu

Inilah surga yang kurindukan

Memastikan kau baik-baik saja

Walaupun kita tak bersama lagi

Kenanglah aku

Cinta

Footnote:

사랑해 = I love you

나도 = me too

..:: Namu ::..

A true friend knows your weaknesses but shows you your strengths; feels your fears but fortifies your faith; sees your anxieties but frees your spirit; recognizes your disabilities but emphasizes your possibilities. - William Arthur Ward

You are like a tree that rooted in my heart. InsyaAllah I will never chopped off you forever

..::#PelukisJalanan::..

Buku ni pasal student A level yg xlulus utk dpt sponsorship degree di overseas. But still, he end up further study di UK dgn tajaan sendiri 

(guna duit untung bisnes).

Then sampai sana bermulalah drama-drama kehidupan dalam menjalani hari-hari sbg mahasiswa. 

Malam keja, siang melukeh & jual artwork tu.

Pernah sebulan makan nasi + telur + garam. Pernah duit dalam poket + dalam bank account = RM0.00

 

Yeah jalan yg org kata lg mudah (further ja dalam negara or berhenti ngaji terus kerja) tu ada dan sentiasa ada

Tapi legend macam dia ni memang saja pilih jalan susah haha

This is my current chill pill, seriously

Congrats Teme 

Nabi saw pesan utk say congrats dekat org yg bersabar dgn kesusahan

Thanks Rom, adik lab yg manis sbb bg pinjam!! 

Jzkk :) 

"The right book will come to you at the right time.. ada hikmahnya"

-Faizah Ismail

Yeah aku cnp direct dari insta

..:: Pretending ::..

When people innocently asking me 

 "Tak submit lagi thesis? Bila lagi?"

Then I sing this song

I’m pretending to be happy,
Like happier than before
I’m pretending to be happy,
Like happier than before

I have a secret that I couldn’t tell anyone
I’m smiling like this
Many people who look at me
Maybe they’ll see my smiling face

I leave you and go find a new person
I left with a hope
I didn’t know this would happen

I’m afraid they look at me
I’m afraid they talk about me
So I’m pretending to be happy again,
Like happier than before
I hate it

When I want to see you and when I miss you
When I want to lean back and when I want to go back
I do this
I’m pretending to be happy,
Like happier than before

It’s unreasonable to say
But I know now, there’s no one who like you
I left to find the real love which will fill me up
But there’s nothing like that love

Whenever this happens, the person who is beside you
I hate her, I hate myself more
I didn’t know this would happen

I’m afraid they look at me
I’m afraid they talk about me
So I’m pretending to be happy again,
Like happier than before
I hate it

When I want to see you and when I miss you
When I want to lean back and when I want to go back
I do this

I’m pretending to be happy,
Like happier than before
I’m pretending to be happy,
Like happier than before

..:: Expectation ::..

Que sera sera

whatever will be, will be (insyaAllah)

the future is not ours to see

Aku paling takut dengan high expectation

Lagi rela dipandang rendah from the beginning

Dan aku diuji dengan hamba Allah yang ada high expectation dekat aku

And since then, I've become a problematic person to her

May Allah forgive us

May Allah guide us

..:: Another Photograph ::..

Loving can hurt
Loving can hurt sometimes
But it's the only thing that I know
When it gets hard
You know it can get hard sometimes
It is the only thing that makes us feel alive

To those who can't stand to hear my struggle

Since I'm not that patient to hold the tears and depressions

I'm very sorry..

We keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
Times forever frozen still

To everyone who accept my decision

and support me

spiritually, mentally, and physically 

Thank you..

Very very much..

So you can keep me
Inside the pocket
Of your ripped jeans
Holdin' me closer
'Til our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone
Wait for me to come home

You guys will never be forgotten insyaAllah

Loving can heal
Loving can mend your soul
And it's the only thing that I know (know)
I swear it will get easier
Remember that with every piece of ya
And it's the only thing we take with us when we die

To everyone who lend their ears to listen to my whine

who raised their hands and pray to Allah

for that Allah makes everything easy for me

cares and protects me all the way

anytime and anywhere I am

Thank you..

We keep this love in this photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Our hearts were never broken
Times forever frozen still

So you can keep me
Inside the pocket
Of your ripped jeans
Holdin' me closer
'Til our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone

And if you hurt me

That's OK, baby, only words bleed

I know you want the best for me
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won't ever let you go

Because the thing that you guys did for me are much more meaningful

And I'm the one who always hurt your feeling

I'm sorry..

Wait for me to come home [4x]

InsyaAllah I will be back with victory

Oh you can fit me
Inside the necklace you got when you were 16
Next to your heartbeat
Where I should be
Keep it deep within your soul

Thank you very much for endless thought and prayers..

And if you hurt me
Well, that's OK, baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won't ever let you go

When I'm away
I will remember how you kissed me
Under the lamppost
Back on 6th street
Hearing you whisper through the phone,
"Wait for me to come home."

To all of you and my wonderwall (you know who you are)

May Allah bless all of you

May Allah forgive me and lead me towards a better muslim

Ameen

InsyaAllah all is well Mimie

Have faith

:)