Finally able to upload the pictures after so long!!! We had a mini vocalist k outing at AMK K plaza. Very happening... It's a really different experience and everyone is so high!!

I shall let the pictures do the talking...



Xiuhui and Bell Bell...



Me, Diana and Weiming



Xiuhui, Bell Bell, Nana, Me, Diana, Weiming and Douglas



Bell Bell is singing Angela Zhang Shao Han's song!!! Amazing right??!!



Angie and me!



Nana and Weiming singing duet!



Aiyo, where is Nana looking??!! The cam is here!!!



Bell Bell is sensitive to camera! Very photogenic....



She is singing into the mike... cute right??!!! She's a cherry gal!



The happy family!



Whoa Nana fly going to fly in le!! haha :)



Douglas and me!



Angie and Nana



The big group!! (with Nana as the photographer!)



Weiming, Douglas, me and Nana



Candid shot! So natural!!!



This is the big room that they gave us!



Formal group photo...



Informal group photo! Say cheese!!!



Me and Bell bell... taken in the toilet... oopz!!

Teachers' Day is coming! I had went for Teachers' Day Lunch with my colleagues on saturday at Swissotel. Though I felt very uncomfortable because I dun really know all of them well, but I still managed to sit through the whole thing without giving excuses of wanting to go off.. Which is a good thing for me! I'm trying to adapt to the new surrounding and people around me...

Dear dear, I really missed the times in Poly. I'm so used to everything and the environment already. Suddenly, this is so empty even though 5 months have past since we graduated. Sorry for not able to meet up with you guys. August is a very busy month for me! With all the national day, teachers' day celebration and all the sat duties that I am on... totally cannot afford the time to go out... WE'LL GO OUT ON SEPT KKZ?! hahahaha :p

I'll busy so busy in the first week of sept!! There's a one week school holiday for that first week... got to work all day le... :( Really pray that the kids will be "ting hua"...

I've attended prayer meeting yesterday!!! Actually I'm quite surprised when Nana smsed me on Monday and asked me to attend prayer meeting on Tuesday. Normally I wouldn't go for prayer meeting but I dunno why on Monday night, I have this feeling that I have to go for this prayer meeting.

Then yesterday when Nana told me that I need to serve as a vocalist for worship, I was quite excited but at the same time nervous. I have never served in prayer meeting before. Then Angie told me, "... It's a very very good experience.. see how God is going to use you today.. prepare your heart!.." But I just cant seem to prepare myself as I felt that something is going to happen. Just that i dunno what!..

Then came all the thanksgivings given by those who went to the Korean Conference. After that, Pastor Fucai got all of us to stand up and started praying. He told us to raise our hands if we want to receive the "Gift of Tongue". Initially I didn't raise my hand as I was afraid of that gift. Then Nana asked me if I have received it. I didn't know what to tell her but it seems that she knows. She told me "Don't be afraid, God is here."

Just like that and out of a sudden, I started crying. Then this is when Pastor Fucai said "All those who have not recieved the gift raisie up your hand. Those whose hands are down means that they have already received it." Straightaway, I know that God is speaking to me. I need to raise up my hands to accept Him. So reluctantly, I accepted. Nana and Weiming started praying for me and I felt the strength pushing me from both sides. This is when I started to fear again. I have lost my faith all of the sudden!

Then when Pastor Junhui came to pray for me, the fear is still there... the feeling is very strong! Then he said to me "have faith in Him... HAVE FAITH! Do not be afraid... open your mouth... do not pray in English... try and say the first word!..." So I started praying for my fear to be taken away and that I want to have faith in Him. The suddenly I felt this strength in me all around. I know that there are ppl with me praying for me. I guess this is where all the strength comes from! Then out of the sudden I can start to pray in tongues. The fear came again! This is when Angie came over and gave me a hug. I know that God has sent her to be with me as I felt that I have used up all my strength already.

Then when I reached home, Nana, Angie and Weiming all told me that "... there's more to come..." I dunno what has to come but this fear is still in me. And it seems to be rolling like a snowball.. bigger and bigger... But I just dunno how to say it out... I dunno how to tell them at all! Then Weiming smsed and said "juz now while praying for u, i felt his annointing greatly upon you, i believe God wanted to use you greatly. So dun be afraid cos if God is with you, then who is there to against you? May He reveal more of his plans to you." It suddenly hit me hard! Yes I know this is what God wants to tell me! But the fear in me has blocked all my listening and faith in Him. I just didn't know what to do at that point of time.

Even though I have gotten so many confirmation from God and the ppl around me, but I still cannot convince myself fully.... I just dunno what has happened to me! Lord if this is what you want me to have, please take away the fear in my heart. This is the first time I felt so fearful and I'm at lost.

I have found a new job! God's blessings are really huge!! I got this job 2 days after I quitted from my attachment company. Right now, I'm working in a Before After School Care cum Tuition Centre teaching a class of Primary Two Students. So far, this is my 3rd week there already! It's a really challenging job and it uses a lot of vocal strength. I guess this job is a pretty good training for me before I step into NIE.

Working in this kiddy environment has its pros and cons. Pros: you get to know more about their characters and learn a lot from them, like how to teach different standards of students, how to discipline different types of students etc. Cons: children sometimes will not think twice on what they are going to say and most of the times, it's very hurting. But you just have got to remind yourself that they are still 8 years old. They dun really mean what they say...

On Wednesday, when I got my kids to do a test quietly in class, one of them was playing and disturbing his classmates. So I pulled him aside and talked to him. This is what comes out from him: "Last time that teacher is better. She will bring us to the playground to play and we don't have to do so much work." I was really hurt about it and didn't really have the mood for everything. Their exams are coming and all I did was to give them some work to brush up on their studies. But this is what I've gotten in the end. But I was reminded once again by Weiming with this "dun give up because GOD HAS NEVER GIVEN UP ON US!"

This really hit me and made me realised that it's true! We may not have done everything that God has arranged for us. We may walk to the wrong path in life. We may do some things unconsiously that hurt Him. We may even say some things out of anger to Him even if we dun really mean it. But God has never given up on me! He is always beside me walking with me and holding me in his hands. The set of footprints in my life is not mine but His as He lifted me up and walk with me in my whole life. This is one lesson that impacted me a lot!

I want to continue to shine for the Lord!

This month is a hectic month for me!

During the first 2 weeks, I have to prepare lots of DOs, COs, and invoices in preparation for the upcoming PC Show 2008. Then followed by PC Show on the 12th to 15th June. Although I only worked from 12th to 13th, it was tiring enough!! My bones are aching and my leg muscles told me that they couldn't stand for another minute anymore!! I reached home at 12.00 a.m. that day and started preparing all the stuffs I'm going to bring for youth camp... All these end at 2.30 a.m. Then the following morning on 14th June, I woke up at 6 plus to get ready! My I can tell you my eyes are drooping like the rabbit's ears... Luckily for me and my brother that Chuan is also going to Kallang Water Sports Centre straight to meet the rest of the youths and teens. So we took a cab there and found the correct place.

At first, I really wanted to meet them all in the evening so that I can skipped away the kayaking part! hahaha J But my brother pushed me along and so down I rolled... rolling soon becomes rowing as we were preparing to get into the kayak. Then suddenly, the instructor who was walking down the steps behind Limin and I, was knocked over by the kayak the guys are bringing down. All I heard was "SCREAM!! and plonked!!!" The next thing I saw was a head bobbing out of the water with lotsa seaweed on top. That was when I realised that she fell from the steps head landing first onto the plank that we are supposed to step on, before falling into the water. Can you imagine how painful it was to have your head knocked onto a wooden plank from high and into the water without any preparation??!!

But she was VERY brave!! 2 of her teammates brought her out of the water and after "regaining" herself, she followed us for kayaking!!! But throughout the kayak, I din really like it that much… L The whole ride was very scary… and my, was I stupid? I keep pouring sea water onto my leg as the weather is terribly hot and the sun is shining blazingly on me!!! Little did I know that seawater will make you even more tan than ever!! DUMB!!! That evening, I’ve got Indonesian flag on my arms and legs… :s

Next day was the amazing race at Pulau Ubin… I really hate the weather la… and it’s my first time to Pulau Ubin… I can just use the quote from Taiwan Maokong Station “You can see nothing except Greenery!” It’s really true lor… there really nothing but lots of trees, branches, grasses, bushes…. MOSQUITOES!!! Overall, I dun have a good impression on Pulau Ubin. If anyone ask if I want to go there ever again, I’ll say NO straight!!! The roads are too curvy to cycle properly with my teeny weeny bicycle skills… I’ll become the best dinner for all the mosquitoes there! The sun is not my best friend! I’ll be able to come up with millions of excuses not to go there!! HahahaaJ

But overall I think the camp was quite good!! Thumbs up for the camp comms!!! I learnt quite a lot of stuffs during the camps and managed to have a good talk with Jane, Cindy, Andrew and Youming.

On 20th June 2008 (Friday), I went to church for “Alone with God camp” after work. I was so scared that I’ll fall asleep during the quiet time… but luckily I didn’t…. We have a session where we sit down in our own corners and did our quiet time and learn how to wait for God’s voice… then pray for our buddy for whatever things that God points out to us…. At first I sat their waiting… wait…. Wait….wait…. very long… wait again…. Then suddenly I got this feeling that I know what to pray for my buddy…

So after that when the lights came on again, we had to go to our buddy and pray for her/him. It was a nice experience for me!! After so long in the office, I have finally found some peace in my heart… I’m so glad that I went for the “camp” as it made me realize things that I usually don’t think about. Then next morning, we had our morning walk around the estate while thinking of how God has worked in our life and how he has created this world! This is where I have found back the joy in me. Maybe I should try it out every week at home instead of twice a year in church…

I realized how important serving is to me… Although many a times I’ve tried to run away from it… But like what cindy has said… the more you run away from it, the more servings you kena… TRUE!! After I realized my mistakes, I gradually learnt how to accept it and soon, it make me realized that servings are important… It is an important step for Christians to grow in the Lord. Through servings and practices, I gradually learnt how to open up to others…

These are what I have thought of and learnt thoughout these few weeks…

God, can I change my job??