Plus one

The couple that got me over for dinner by telling me they "need help chopping the chicken up" back in Stockholm got hitched out of nowhere. 

And what came next promised to make us "cough up more blood" because suddenly, there's three of them. NAISE 

Lithuanian efficiency

Nothing much, just this postcard that I sent myself two years ago casually strolling into my mailbox two days ago. 

Just so happen I was talking to Songen (who's with Sho in Japan now) and I was on this Vilnius trip with them then. 

Also, this happen to be the only postcard that went missing from my trips this far. Good to have you back, bro.

This is the last time

Last walk back from library to hall in the night; last run behind the Haw Par route; last steamboat with the neighbours; last night of studying in the room; last insomnia and waking her up; and finally, my last paper in NUS.

Already missing it. 

(posted on 4th May)

AEC

http://six-six.com/article/asean-establishes-landmark-economic-and-security-bloc

Not matter people will care; at least not those around me. But I'm thinking the eight professions slated to have free movement within the region is gonna affect my many engineering and accounting friends, and most importantly, Ms Architecture. Brace yourselves! 

Hit me, one more time

It's been so long. I've seen both of you sort of moved on, and then I've seen you on dates, and him with his new partner. 

But it somehow still hurts when I read what you just said. 

All these doesn't feel real until it becomes so close to me, and then it hit me, again and again. I haven't had that kind of feeling for a very long time, but somehow I could feel the sadness. I wish you all the best. Both of you. 

Negative

You know how photos, the older kind, are never as colourful as they appear to be? They develop. They develop from the negatives. 

For you who wanna fuck that someone with the bad decision made;

For you who think you've failed big time for your interview;

And for you, my dear, for feeling sad over the loss... 

Wow that's a lot of negativity in a day and suddenly my world seems a shade darker. You'll definitely get over it eventually, and we all know about learning the lesson and blah blah. For now, if you are reading this, smile and think of something positive, then move along and get some work done! Life can't be that bad, there's me! 

I actually still have no idea why I chose SU

http://www.thelocal.se/20150925/11-reasons-students-choose-stockholm-university-studyinstockholm-tlccu

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Even after reading the article, I still have no idea, haha. And I was thinking if I'll wanna go back there and study; hell no. There wouldn't be anymore Joshua, Huihan, Yimei, Jiahan, Songen, Sho, and everyone else I've met there. It would be a very very depressing decision cos I would just miss the good old times every minute I'm there. 

Words first

Am really exhausted almost every single day I have this semester so action's gonna wait; words first. 

I don't even know how many of those who used to read my blog are still reading it. It's ironic, you read to know more about the friend whom you're not seeing often, but as you see your name appearing less and less it becomes more and more tiring and pointless to read. 

So here's trying to keep the flame going:

Kangster, please jio us for random dinner more often and somehow someday we'll make it happen; we might just be that phone call away. Some day. Haha. Jiayou Mr Accountant! 

Kaung! I'm pretty sure you don't read this so I'm just dropping your name here to remind me that I still haven't find the opportunity to return your missed call hahaha. 

Andyyyyy~ still haven't seen you after so long and I think there's really a lot to catch up on (there's always things to catch up on on your haps life anyway). Missing the whole gang too but I know no news is good news from these people hahaha. 

Sam Sam also, though I see you once a week (more like take a glance), hall feels different without you and Bird (oh ya, Bird also). So the two of you, come back more often to sit sit talk cock ah. 

Ah Piao! Go holiday bo jio~ I hope you brought some presents back I'll claim it from you in the future after I become freer. Life is probably still as exciting for you as ever (that sarcasm though), tell me about it... 

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I really don't know who else I haven't seen for long reads my blog but anyway, just know that I'm one who lives in the past very often, having random recollections here and there of happy times I had. So unless we didn't have any happy times before, you are always randomly missed and thought of. See everyone soon! 

Great people do things before they are ready

They do things before they know they can do it 

-- Amy Poehler

Not a tennis fan but...

"I've learned a lot. That I'm able to do anything. Anyone is able to do anything they really set their mind to" -- Serena Williams 

Stockholm (withdrawal) Syndrome

Sitting alone in my Tokyo hotel flipping through old photos and reading through old posts, suddenly missing the people and time in Stockholm...

The Last Time

Been hooked to Taylor Swift's The Last Time these few weeks though the lyrics doesn't really apply or even make sense to me. 

Main reason for liking it is because the co-singer Gary Lightbody really partnered Taylor well in the vocal sense and his voice itself is unique enough for me to wonder where this dude came from. Anyone heard of? I really thought he's just some random budding artist (naive of me to think Taylor Swift would find someone not famous) but he turned out to be the lead for Chasing Car! Now it clicked, the unique vocal finally matched with something I've heard before (and only after few months of listening to it did I went to search; a pity). 

Another interesting find: his birthday's on 15th June 

Worst fear

The 7.3 magnitude earthquake was almost my worst fear: you, alone, helpless. But we've both got to be strong together to overcome our fear!!! 

Thank goodness you're alright. :')

I'm going home

Going home after spending the day out on a Sunday night. It's 8:41pm as I type it, and Daughtry's Home is playing on my phone. 

On the street, two NSFs with jokey cap on rush towards the bus stop. 5 years ago, that was me. 

Life moves on. Life moved on. 

... Don't regret this life that's chosen me. But these places and these faces are getting old, so I'm going home...

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The bus went past the grass field few minutes away from my place. Stages were set up and some Buddhist event was ongoing, along with a geitai (which I'll later find out to be hosted by Chen Jian Bin). It reminded me of how I missed such atmosphere when I was in Stockholm. I looked for my parents in the crowd, they weren't there (dad went down after I reached home). 

I recalled my Stockholm days. I recalled the feeling of missing my parents. I recalled actually missing someone. I recalled how we met again in Singapore. I recalled the fact that we're separating again soon for our LDR v3.0. I recalled that we've survived it twice before in the past three years. I recalled that we grew stronger after every single one of them. 

But still, I reckon I'm still going to miss you...

Mixed

It rocks to hear a prof from the US praise about Singapore and the many good things about it in front of the US students. 

But it sucks to hear the US students make fun about how sucky TH is compared to UTown. I know it's a fact and yea, I guess the truth does hurt. 

It's not even my problem

But if knowing the truth burdens me, reading her blog breaks me. 

So many times I've wanted to pick up my phone and text her, to tell her it wasn't her fault, that everything happened not because he was vexed over your future, that he is, unfortunately, really happier than you would think he is. It pains me (for inexplicable reasons) that she's blaming herself for something she's not guilty of, and I really wanna tell her to stop being so sad because he's not worth it. He's not worth your tears, your words, your time, or even your memories... Just let him go. 

Effort won't betray you

Asian Values debate

http://www.straitstimes.com/news/singapore/more-singapore-stories/story/the-myth-trade-offs-20150327#xtor=CS1-10

+7

Talking to Brandon, it felt weird that I'm now the one seven hours ahead. So this is what it feels like...

Also, those days are gone :(

"Don't bite the hand that feeds you"

I realize I actually pulled quite abit of people into hall and I believe they've been pretty good decisions so far. Please continue to prove me right, people