Penat

Penat

Penat

Tapi alhamdulillah. Seronoknya dapat jumpa saudara-mara.

♥

Mahu pergi Singapore lagi.

Kali ini untuk holiday.

Dan mesti
mesti mesti mesti
lawat *Scape

Tehe.

Spamming but what the hell eh.;D

I don't usually talk about clothes and shoes.

But.

T____T

HURLEY

Isn't in Malaysia. And I want the jacket.

I hetchu Ryota Ojisan for promoting everything Hurley. *cries*
The hoodies is super cool and awesome.

The t-shirts too are really really coolness.

Even the boxer - uh.. Nevermind on that.

Water bottle too!

Haih..

Yet it's not in Malaysia.

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY??
WHY self why? Why do you like men clothings???

orz
Oh also.

I need to hunt some vans shoes.

I wonder if the leopard print one is available in Malaysia.

Yes.

Syu is looking for leopard print shoes. Only I want vans/converse. But I think I want vans. Converse has really really heavy shoes. Like super heavy I can't run in it.

Talk about converse. Mine is less than a year and it's tattered and battered. Pfft. Overusing XD But I think my red converse is happy being used. I should buy another converse. Only this time. I want it in a colour I've never had before.

SHOCKING PINK!

HAHAHA

So I can pair it with my purple jeans for deitos with Madi/Chii/Nasyer-tachi. And maybe I'll use it on Friday too.

Maybe not a good idea.

XD

But first I need to find cool leopard print vans. If it even exist.

And then hi-cut leather-like shoes.

And then - shocking pink hi-cut converse.

But I know in the end.

Money won't go to the closet.

All will go to the racks.

Book racks and dvd racks.

FANDOM FTW!

I know I'm not making sense. But my brain just isn't functioning fully right now. I'm - I - eruhjsdkjkjkdjlk!!  I can't explain. Below photos will explain.

Okay maybe I'll explain. In a few words.

YOKOHAMA ARENA

WOWOW

CAP

ONE OK ROCK

PRIDE

there.

Makes no sense but.

*cries*

wa~katta~

I finally understand - what drove me to stop stanning Arashi as much as I did before.

It's not them. It's me. Peh kau ayat putus cinta.

When I first started to like Arashi, they were already really really big. They had the AAA and stuffs. But. They were not everywhere. Sure they have a lot of shows. But..How do I explain this. They have shows, dramas, singles, concerts, albums. Everything. Oh. And CMs. And I love all that. But at the same time it's tiring.

I love ONE OK ROCK and my Jrocks. I hope they get bestsellers for every single/album/dvd they're releasing. But. I wish they'll stay out of regular variety shows or dramas out of a sudden.

I.. love them. But the anticipation of waiting for the band to release something is .. for the lack of better word and I totally forgot the English - kurushii. But the moment they release stuffs -

bam wham pham!

K.O on my side.

I don't know how to explain it. It just feel so damn good.

I used to feel the same towards Arashi. The anticipation of waiting for a drama for a member. The single the cm the everything. But they have dramas every season now. Not saying it's a bad thing. Hell. I hope that pattern will continue for the next 20 years. But it's tiring. I'm not the kind who stan only 1 person in a band. But..when it comes to Arashi, I end up following only a certain person's progress or activities. And I feel bad about it.

I'm not comparing jrock and jpop or in this case Arashi specifically. I'm just justifying myself.

For myself.

I feel the need to do so. This blog isn't publicize everywhere because of this habit of mine. Telling myself why I feel what I feel.

Uh. Nevermind.

I just felt like talking okay.

And now I'm done.

Oh!!!!!!!

YokoArena concert!!
I'll flail tonight.

Bye~

If you fall down

Let me pick you up

No matter when

No matter how

Let me pick you up

Then

Now

And forever

Let me pick you up

Because after all

You're the best friend I could ever want

So love,

Let me pick you up

Let me pick you up

Let me pick you up

Let me pick you up

Just...

Allow me to pick you up

Let me pick you up

Been more than a year

Coldrain.

Coldrain.

Too busy with lives.

But I seriously hope they'll release an album or something soon.

Then again.

They just released their FIRST EVER Live dvd

And the rock bands compilation.

Man I want that cd.

They have Low IQ 10, SiM, Man With A Mission and coldrain! I don't recognise the rest of the band list.

But.

The ones stated above is majorness awesome. 8D

And I'll buy three days of adrenaline

Once I've got my Yoko Arena ONE OK ROCK.

Priority people.

/bricked

Their dvd is considerably cheap for a big act like them.

But I still want new album from them. *nods*

Don't bother reading.

Of dancers and performers

I saw a post on tumblr. About uh...Jongin..? I don't know who he is. His leg was injured and he was hurting but he continued to practice dancing. And someone commented about how professional he was.

Momiken on the other hand, caught a flu and didn't come to perform on Coming Soon. But nobody said anything except Odaijini which was what I said too. lol

Out of the two, who do you think is the real professional?

My take?

Momichan.

Not because I hate kpop lol

But. As a dancer, a performer, I think if you can't give your 100% why bother? People wants to see the best of you, not the, "HOMG HE'S HURTING BUT HE'S TRYING HIS BEST FOR USSSS." No. Well maybe sometimes people do want to see that. But I thought as a performer you'd want to display the best of you.

What would make that Jongin dude a professional is if he actually stops practicing. Mend his hurt. And watch the practice and once his leg is okay, quickly learn it all.

That is a professional.

Seriously by forcing yourself to do things your body aren't ready to do isn't going to bring you anywhere. It's gonna hurt more and more and in the end, your body will give up. And then you have to stop. For good.

Not something anyone would want. No?

Seriously. Some people needs to get their definition of professionalism correct.

Momichan, GANBARE!

And this is how fandom helped me.

I was having quite a shitty day.
Worked in Menara because VADS had water cut. I don't mind that. Why would I? The people there are warm. Though the place is really really cold I felt like I was in a chiller.

But.

It was a stressful day. Away from your usual workplace. Like, you miss the little trinkets from other people that you display on your desk. And you miss the team - like your boss because I have an awesome one 8D And.. you know,it just feels different. I sound like a puppy who can't sleep unless the place has its smell. lol And things happened. In real life and in uh..virtual life. So it's really stressful.

I'm glad though that the whole deal with Syahim was done. So much confusion I can't even - but it's ma~ma~settled so I'm good. So long we get the work done properly, I don't mind working off the hours. ^^ Not a workaholic - trust me. And I had a looooong talk with K. Huda. I've always thought she was Kota Bahru. Apparently she's not. LOOOOOOL 1 year knowing her and only today I actually cleared a very fundamental misunderstanding. Sorry Kak. My bad. XDDDD

And then.

There's the Tomoya blog post that made me really really really REEEEEEEEEEEAAAALLLY happy. I was just thinking, "when is Tomo-chan gonna update~~~ T^T" and then he did. I haz telepathic power. And the whole blog post was ♥

I was flailing with both Madi and Rae in different places. And it felt good. I was having really bad stress over something. I decided to forget. But I'm hardly a forgetful person when it comes to personal matter. lol full of revenge orz But, though they don't make me forget... They did make me..become..less stress. Keeps my mind off it.

And so.

That is how fandom helps me everyday.

Distract me from things I need to be distracted from.

And helps me focus on things I need to focus on.

♥

And don't worry. I'm okay. ^^

Rasa nak nangis tadi.

Stress.

Ntah.

Tapi bila call mak tak angkat.

Rasa nak nangis jadi ganda 90.

Tapi nangis tak macho lah kan.

Playlist bengong lak tu kuarkan lagu Orange Range - ONE tu. Haih.

Tak jadi la nangis tapinya.

Tak macho.

Tak. Tak macho langsung.

Kau buat aku mahu cakap.

*rujuk gambar*

commitments

It's scary. I'm kinda a commitment-phobic person. But then again. I rarely find something I'm not scared of. Roaches. Kills em all #likeaboss. Give me height - freak out. Dark waters - freak out like mad person especially when I have Nadhia's butt at the back of my head while my face is facing the salty wet sand. LOL Yes it happened. Clowns - freeeeeeeeeak out. Syringe - freak out. Blood - freak out. People passing out - freak out. Morgues - freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeak out. Dark place under the bed - freeeeeeeeeeeak out. Dog - freak out.

I can list on and on things I freak out whenever it's near me.

And then.

There's commitments.

Marriage.
Relationship.
Children.

Freaks out big time. MAJOR.

Not that I don't ever want to be in a relationship. But there's so many things you need to think about when you're in it. It's not just about the present. Whatever  is presented right in front of us this very moment, very second. But it's more so about the future. What we want to mold of it.

And that's scary.

Being alone taught me many things. Just because I don't have any boyfriend/fiance/husband I don't know anything at all.

Observing people.

Is the key.

And observing them, it scares me. More than being forced into a 100km roller coaster would.

Not that I'm saying I don't ever want to be in a relationship. Kau gila? LOL I'm a perfectly normal imperfect human being. But I'm just... not ready yet. I'm not going to bullshit about not being able to find the mr. right when I'm not even trying to find him.

I just.. want to enjoy my loneliness a little bit more.

Go shopping alone.
Read manga and cries [omg I do this all the time and I doubt there's any man who'd understand this behaviour]
Scream RYOTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA when I'm watching One OK Rock's concert.
Rolls around till I bump my head onto something literally when watching Tak Boss.
Play toys meant for 7 to 8 years old kids.
Sleep till noon.
Eat anything I want.
Not eat at all.
Head bang when I'm listening to OOR.

See?

Those things aren't for someone who's in a relationship. Seriously. If I'm a dude and my girlfriend has Ryota on her wallpaper and goes ga-ga over some dude I'm not even interested with, I'd be all jealous. I mean, going ga-ga like a normal person is different. Me and Ryota? It's bordering obsession! Not obsession. No no. Not. Just. Slightly dangerous. Yeah...

So it's like, I need someone who can understand me and try not to change me overnight or expect me to stop me liking my Rock bands or anything I love. Because as much as they try to say it's for my own good,I still feel it's unfair. Someday I'll leave all these anime/rock world.......I think.I'm being realistic here. I mean,I'll mellow down and not scream RYOTAAAAAAAA whenever I see his picture/video/anything. I used to be JUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNN and now I'm not like that anymore. People change.

I changed.

It just takes time.

And I don't want to leave the fandom just yet.

And that is why, commitment = scary word for me.

More than I'm afraid of height.

Okay maybe it's the same level orz

Meh.

Relationship before marriage - all these couples and lovers. Too complicated for my simple brain. Rather do what my mom did.

Marriage and then love. It's not an easy task looking at my parents. But for some reason, it seems sweeter. I want to be like them. Getting old together, date like high school students even when they're both 50 over. That is the kind of commitment I want. I mean, when I'm not afraid of it.

But to find a man who can shape us to be that way..

I'm just not seeing him yet I guess.

Well.

When Allah wills it, I will see him.

For now,

I'll love the troll and his friends ♥

p/s:Though being a fangirl is a commitment, what with the buying their stuffs and all,I'm not afraid of it. ;p
Double p/s: DAAAAAAAAAANGGG! Windows is forcing me to reformat my Ryota BB's mem card. Like hell I would. I'll just get a nu R4. In May. Donkey Kong - you can wait.

TMG Convention

I just feel like uploading some photos.

It was fun.

But I was burned.

Hiyake.

-____-"

J K

In Japan, I probably love J the most. ♥

In Korea, since I've been watching Running Man, I've been interested with one person.

He's clumsy. Boko boko. A little airheaded. 190cm tall. Thin. Not the most handsome person. Doesn't have baby-face. Looks 3 years older than his real age.

But I really like him.

As much as I like..Lee Jun Ki...?

And he's Kwang Soo

And

Yesterday

I saw a Malaysian dude who looks 90% like him.

Oh dear..

♥

mou wakannai

That feeling you have

The feeling you know you're not supposed to harbor.

The love you have for someone you can never have

It's beautiful.

It's like rainbow.

But I hope,just like rainbow,it'll be temporary

And someday I'll be able to love someone else.

As much as I love...

J

perihal matluthfi90

Ala kesian adik sorang ni. Kerana merely stating his opinion, kena bomb lak kat channel sendiri.

Malaysian, Melayu sekalian. Rilex la.

He's STATING his opinion. Memberi pendapat. He's not pushing his opinions to anyone. Dia tak memaksa semua orang untuk bersetuju dengan dia.

Eh apsal saya pi translate ayat sendiri?

Ok back to the matter;

Okay.

So much hate on the above video.

Why?

Kenapa?

Nande?

¬___________________¬ *nino-glare yay!*

Jangan la cakap Matluthfi90 dah lain. Kalau lain pun, salah ke? People change. People who don't change at all are people who are dead. YOU people changes daily. Unless you're dead and watching youtube from inside your grave.......

That's rather creepy actually.

So what about him changed? I don't see him change actually. He's still the pretty much honest dude with honest video saying honest opinions on youtube.

Probably the hair did change.. hmmm..

But anyway, I do agree with his video though after watching his video, Aliff Satar's song got stuck in my in and that is not something I want. Not at all. -_-"

People might think he's a snob for saying stuffs about the Malay songs. But he did comment on Grenade too. To be honest, I don't get the lyrics for the songs he stated. I don't even know they exist apart from the Baby baby baby and Bruno Mars'. Usually I'll be putting orz after saying this.However, I don't feel the lost at all for not knowing the songs from KRU and Fourteen and uh... sapa lagi sorang tu. Ah. Sofaz. Because I don't listen to them at all. I mean, I used to listen to KRU songs until they started to write crappy lyrics.

And the rest.... well let's just say,I grew up with Ebiet G Ade and Sheila Majid's songs. So my take on completely useless lyrics are a bit.... XD

So there. He's not the only one thinking the lyrics are a bunch of crap. Many people are.

To me, those who hated on the video are either;

1. Dead people who doesn't change and doesn't want him to change (saying it rudely would be wanting him dead)
2. Fans of the said songs.
3. Overly romantic people who listens to love songs all day *yawn*
4. A complete hypocrite who doesn't even buy the albums of the said songs/singers but claim to really love the songs/singers whatever.

As for me, I'll keep supporting Matluthfi90. Cuma saya tatau mana nak beli album Shweet Cangat dia tu. XD

Speaking of supporting, I really should buy YUI's album in the near future. T^T Walaupun bukan dari

This is promoting the single but Hello is in the album too so. yeah.

Panggil la saya ni tak patriotik ke apa ke. Peduli.

1.Kalau Malaysia lawan Japan dalam bola sepak, saya sokong Japan.
2.Kalau disuruh beli album antara err Faizal Tahir (sebab kat Malaysia saya paling suka dia haha) atau The BAWDIES, saya beli The Bawdies. Walaupun mahai sket la. Eh. Triple price sebenarnya orz T^T


Tetapi.

Kalau disuruh saya lindungi negara saya dari Japan, saya akan kekal disini, melindungi tanah lahir saya.

Malaysians.

Melayu(s)

Letakkan lah patriotisme anda di tempat yang betul.

Peace and out!

p/s: Iyer Matluthfi comel gile cute kyut fudhincknd,nckjnnjksdfnkjs *squish*. 好き！

Sedih pun tak kemane.

Kan?

BW = Bowling... Really?

BW = Beautiful World.

Can't believe they have a remake. And,brace yourself for a very racist remark. Remake is awesome when it's Re:Make by ONE OK ROCK,but not awesome and so Korean when it's a...remake. -_-"

I really can't believe Arashi is having a remake. The new song. Can't it be a single? Like, a normal single. A special single! A To Be Free kinda single,no RE just LE.

Well tbqh I'm bitter because I have no money left for Arashi. I spent like,a 100 plus for the phone repair. *weeps

*sigh*

I hope Johnny won't turn them into some Korean ppoi artists. I'll really leave the fandom then. Which I really don't want. I love them. I really do. I just..hate kpop kay.

Anyway!

flumpool's LE and RE will be arriving in December. WEEEE. I am so freaking happy. I know it's rather stupid that I actually bought both. But hey! I need the calendar. And Tenugui Wasshoi is irresistible. :D Syuhada memang gullible dengan goodies flumpool. I can tie the wasshoi on my neck,and maybe Seiji will pet me on my head. Er.. Nevermind.

Also.

Cancelling on getting YUI album. Because...flumpool is priority?I wonder if that's a bad thing. hahaha

And bowling.

Yes.

Bowling.

Went on Friday last week with...

Jannah
Hajar
Fitri
Syahim
Kak Jiji
Ida
Wan
Intan

And

yours truly lost by 3 point.

THREE FREAKING PINS.

Because the lane sucks.

I'm in denial. Let me be. XD

And they wanted me to do the whole chicken dance.

You kureji? Like hell I would. I'm not that cool to dance the chicken dance in the middle of a gajillion of people. hahaha

But I had a good time throwing some heavy balls knocking down some tens of pins.

Next month we'll probably have some laser fight stuffs.

Yay?

I suck at shooting. LOL


Well. Let's hope I won't have to do a chicken dance then!

8D

toodles!

p/s:I love "Love So Life" and "Phi Brain." SO FREAKING AWESOME.

Enam Belas

Hari Lagi.

Pierce

Coz we, we can see how

It's gonna end but I

Got my love for you.

And maybe

It wasn't such a good idea after all.

But they say

The heart never learns.

Love.

And live life.

恋をしようよ

                        -Wakaouji Takafumi