re-born...eh?

I’m back with bruised and tanned skin…they drilled me brain…asked me to commit a suicide and re-born…

I’m ok…yeah with me nose still hurts (some lonesome hornets stung it)

Sungkai...

Eemmm…I’ll be off from this virtual space for couple of days…they sent me to Sungkai for “kem bina semangat”...hish balik boleh jadi rakyat yang berguna…

So boys n girls I see yer guys in four days time…


ps: kakak, jaga diri baik-baik...

paskal valentina...

Ada yang gembira dengan keperitan…namun ada jua yang lahir dengan penawarnya
Ada yang mengagungkan akan penyatun…namun ada jua yang gembira dengan perpisahan

Aku…meraikan nya dengan apa jua curahan dari cintaku
Biar ianya penawar, keperitan, penyatuan mahupun perpisahan

Aku kenal akan dikau dengan seribu nama...seribu rasa
Semalam aku menerima satu lagi nama untuk diri mu…
”keperitan yang tanpa penawarnya”

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valentina...

Ada cahaya yang menusuk ke jendelaku…terus dari matahari…dan diam di kamar ku…cahaya terang yang menyilau mata

Di celah pancaran ini terlihat aku akan dedebu…yang sering engkau hindari

Aku cuba lagi mengungkap kata…namun cahaya itu terus tumpah bagai air yang mengalir ke pintu…lalu cahaya cinta itu sendiri mencintai dirinya…dan cinta itu juga telah hilang

Kini aku kembali ke kamarku…segalanya masih sama…namun…tiada apa yang tertinggal antara kenangan dan harapan

Kerana cinta itu sendiri telah mencintai dirinya…dan cinta itu juga telah pergi…

pra valentina...

Cinta yang terindah dan teragung merupakan cinta terhadap tuhan…
Tiada cemburu tika berkongsi kasih dengan jutaan kekasihnya yang lain…
Tiada sedih bila panggilan ku tak di jawab…
Tiada amarah jika permintaan ku tidak di tunaikanya

Lambang cinta nya padaku terhampar di mana-mana sahaja
Dari sebongkah gunung Himalaya sehingga sehalus selumbar menusuk di jari…
Jalanilah cintai ini dengan apa jua jalan mu…


haribol

the harbor and the master...

I know for the past few months everythin' becomes mixed up in you…the joy…the pain…the agony and the contentment…if you look…you see nothing…yet when distracted…you see everythin' clearly…it’s like running joyously bare footed...

I never knew that my existence was such an important to another living being…ohh…I miss that spot…that vital spot…and I’m sorry for I played along and enjoy your uneasiness…

So the wheel rolls and the time has come for me to let the apple of my eyes drop to the laws of gravity…to let the ship leave the old harbor…this is happiness and bliss…I hope she understand when I said "let it flow with the tide and wave…"

As the great Gibran wrote…”to know the pain of too much tenderness…to be wounded by your own understanding of love….to bleed willingly and joyfully”

God created me to be a child and left me to be a child forever…but why did he let life beat me and take away my joy and leave me alone at playtime…to crumple up in feeble hands the orange colored cloth streaked with tearstain…since I cannot life without affections…why was that affections taken from me?... are you being funny again my dear lord?

my appology...my dear god...you already given me the answer…I know…I have been such a badly behaved son of yours…I understand it perfectly…I hope she’ll understand it heartily…

and for you my dear love feel free to visit this ol harbour… as the harbormaster will never leave his wharf…

re-embrace...

After four days of “bundle” divin' and some “kenduri” “be there”…I’m back in this dusty and carbon monoxide city…kampong was very peaceful but boring…fresh air but lack of “glee”sh notions…

I went to Penang last Wednesday…yeah she’s still classic…those narrow lane with mat salleh name on it…mamaks with attitude…they still serve the tarik with “lapik” (cup and sources)…and lotsa-lotsa “salleh kuti” (minah salleh)

I brought back to KL an extra baggage of “bundle wear”…yeah there’s goes my saving…

It’s good to be back…to embrace the semi intoxicated air…an ear piercing soundscapes…and her hazy sky…

i cant write much coz i'm moving from 27th floor to 29th floor...tingkat naik tapi gaji cam tu jer cisss!

cheers...