Still A Little Sickley

So Im on day 5 of this pneumonia..Do you know what the worse part is..besides the feeling like I can't catch my breath and the super tasty breathing treatments? Im afraid to go to sleep. LOL. I know. So dumb, but I keep dreaming that Im choking or can't breathe and then I wake up in a huge sweat. And I know it's because during the day it's hard (ish) for me to breathe when I do have control..and when I sleep=no control. Right now I feel okay, shaky because I just did a breathing treatment, and that liquid albuterol is no joke. Im also on day 2 of the Glumetza..One..ummm..movement. Not an assplosion or anything, and right now my stomach feels jumbly. Here's the rundown of what I ate today..

Breakfast
2 slices of white bread w/nutella

Lunch
Brown rice w/peas & balasamic vinegarette

Snack
1 pack of snack size Nerds
Torilla chips (serving size=12) and some salsa

Dinner
Salad w/shredded cheese, & balsamic vinageratte dressing
Chicken Cordon Blue Pasta (SO GOOD, and totally *tried* to have some portion control, but I had a little more then the serving size, most likely why my stomach is so jumbly right now)
2 breadsticks

Beverages
3 Sprite Zeros (ugh)
1/2 a Smirnoff Blueberry Lemonade

I still feel pretty good about the diet. Im hungry. LOL. I actually stopped when I felt full tonight (it makes me so angry how many of these simple, common sense things I don't do.) There is NO need to have gargantuan portions, there is no reason to keep eating just because  the food is there or to eat until I feel sick. Im dumb. Im mad that I just bypassed eating common sense. How does that happen? I hope we can raise our kids to use their common sense. DH is already SO SICK of me telling him "portion control!!" He's like, Im not on a diet or taking meds..Ugh. I know. But it's so much easier to do this if everyone is miserable..lol.

So I caved and took a FRER. I know. Big huge negative. Maybe it's still too early? Technically, Im not sure when I ovulated, but it *might* have been around day 14-15/..which would only be 9-10 DPO. Should I don't know why I was semi-surprised by the results. But whatever. The only "symptom" is sore boobies and excessive tiredness (which I think is caused by the pneumonia). Ugh. Guess we'll see April 9th.

Okay, Im going to bed..Night =)

Glumetza

I start it today 30 mins before dinner..Im so nervous. I KNOW. Dumb. But still, I don't want to be having constant ass-plosions. I stayed home from work today because I felt worse instead of better all Saturday night and basically slept all day yesterday. Oh yeah..here's a rundown of what I've had to eat today..

Breakfast (which I NEVER have)
1 piece of 12 grain bread w/Nutella
1/2 Tangelo (too many seeds, yuck)

Lunch
Grilled tilapia
1 cup brown rice w/a little cheese on top

Dinner (will be) *
Pot Roast w/veggies (red potatoes, onions, carrots,) in the slow cooker
Rolls

Beverages
1 Vitamin Water
1.5 Sprite Zero
1 Smirnoff Blueberry Lemonade

Snack
1 "snack size" Easter Nerds

So far, I think Im doing pretty good. This is going to be extremely hard to keep doing at work, since Im used to eating out at every lunch. K & I always get some kind of fast food. Ugh. I made an extra tilapia and rice for lunch tomorrow so Im not tempted. It's not as filling, but I think that is just because Im used to such gargantuan portions. As Dr. C said, it's all about "portion control" which is my biggest issue. The end result is baby, the end result is baby, the end result is baby.

*So when the pot roast finished, I was totally appalled. DH said it was delicious, but it just made me sick to even think about eating it. So I made myself (more) Tilapia, only this time in fish stick (lightly breaded) form, a salad, and some peas. Delish. Although, not as delish as the pizza I really, REALLY wanted.*

Also, so far, knock on wood, my stomach is just kind of jumbly. No assplosions as of yet, but then again, it's been in my system for a whole 3 hours. I know. Here's hoping..

Oh yeah, Im also having some *huge* jealousy issues today. I have 2 friends (from HS) who were due on March 27 & March 28, respectively..w/girls. One got her BFP last summer when we had our August m/c. So to see all of their FB posts about being "huge, tired, ready for this baby" etc...make me crazy. I can't even tell you why. Probably cause they were such jackbags in highschool. IDK. Im just dumb. Oh, and I feel PMS'ey. My face is completely broken out, and I am rockin these fever blisters..on my f-ing face. I am the hotness. Awesome.

It Sounds Like Emphysema..

But it's actually the pneumonia. DH told me I sound like I've been smoking a pack of Marlboro Reds my whole life. Fantastic. It totally hit me yesterday driving home from the sisters. I left way early cause I was just feeling SO rundown. Came home, and slept, and slept, and slept. Ran a fever, had a bath, slept some more. Thats pretty much been the way of the day today as well. I've just been exhausted. And coughing all the time, and it hurts, my throat, my chest, my nose, etc. Sorry about all the bitching, but ugh. I haven't called my boss yet to tell her, cause I think Im gonna go to work regardless tomorrow. I've been on the antibiotics since Friday, so Im not contagious anymore...but Dr. C said to call her Monday morning if things are worse, which E said they are..ugh. The next step is steroids. NO. DON'T WANT THEM. Okay..off to take more meds and sleep..

OH YEAH!! Saw the SIL in "the dress" and it looked SO much better in person..I knew that'd probably be the case..but she is SO not sold on it. That completely came out. And she admitted that she is basing her dress choice on what everyone else likes. WTF!? Seriously? I told her that was ridiculous and the only person that she needs to please is herself. And she kept talking about going somewhere else and looking at other dresses, in the same breath that she said she loved the dress and it was the "one." I don't know what to do besides not talk to her about it, ya know? I love the dress on her. I hate it in the pictures, but on her, it looks really good. Very good. And I told her all of that..still. WTF. I don't know what to say now. Ugh.

I Need 3 Things

Baby Dust: We are in the 2WW. I think I may have actually O'ed on my own this month..btwn. Sunday & Monday..Im not sure which day..I know when Im in my ovulatory stage because I cannot get enough "coloring!!" My DH is exhausted. LOL. Im hoping for a miracle, but I don't see one happening. No symptoms at all whatsoever. I start the Glumetza Monday. I've gotten a lot of good advice. I just love all the good news bloggy friends have been getting..and seeing U/S, so awesome!! Congrats again ladies!!
A Miracle: Seriously. Maybe not a miracle, but some prayers in the health department. So Im still fighting this sinus infection (week 5) and about 24 hours ago or so I felt it move into my chest. It was almost immediate that I started wheezing, my chest felt tight, and I was short of breath. I called Dr. C this morning and her nurse said she would call in some antibiotic, but that she wanted to see me ASAP cause of the wheeziness w/the asthma. Yeeeeeah...fast forward to my appointment. Still rockin the sinus infection, a nice case of bronchitis, and lower right lobar pneumonia. I didn't even feel bad, just super tired, and super short of breath...and dizzy, and shaky..umm so maybe I did have some symptoms. I asked her why it moved so fast and she said it was because of the asthma, my lungs and bronchioles are already weakened, so any kind of infection moves quickly. Now Im supposed to "lay low" for a few days. Yeah. That's not happening. Im going to see the sisters wedding dress tomorrow, and doing some wedding stuff w/her. I'll try to keep the activities at a minimum. Can't I just be healthy? WTF!? Also, scheduled surgery for May 6th. Gah. Im trying not to dread it this early. They are doing a laproscopy, a septum repair, an ovarian dyothermy, and endometrial ablasion. Umm..this doesn't seem like run of the mill surgery to me. Seems like a lot. DH and my parents are taking to the hospital and then my mom is staying w/me the day after surgery. Ugh. Moving on.
Advice: On a few things. Tomorrow, Im going to see the SIL's wedding gown..that she is in love with..that I HATE. I know, it's not my wedding. But she wants my opinion. It's just not pretty, and it highlights some things that she doesn't want highlighted. So far I've managed to kind of skirt the question by saying "it's not my favorite, but this part looks good..." Tomorrow, Im not gonna be able to skirt the issue. What do I say? What would you want to hear? I feel like if she is "sold" on the dress like she says she is, she wouldn't be asking me *constantly* about what I think. I feel like she isn't sold on it, but if Im reading her wrong and she is, I don't want to dash her hopes. Ya know? I just want to do the right thing. Also, ALL of the bridesmaid dresses she has sent my way that she likes, are fug. Straight fug. We're gonna come to punches tomorrow. Also, anyone have some good receipe ideas? We got a ton of fish (YUCK, but I can handle tilapia), some ground turkey, some ground red meat, and some steak. We also got fruit (yay!!) and some veggies (peas & broccoli) and whole wheat pasta, brown rice, and vitamin water (since Im trying to limit my Sprite Zero intake). So any advice here would be phenomenally fantastic. Also, ladies who have had to take Glumetza/Metformin/Glucophage etc, how long did it take your cycles to regulate? And using the BBT, is that a really good way to tell when you O?

Okay, thats all for now. Thank you tons in advance.

Oh yeah, DH has been invited to sit in front of the police merit board next week!!! OMG. So excited!!

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Struggling..and Good News

• With starting the Glumetza..I KNOW. But literally, we *nothing* in the house that will work w/the diet. Everything we have is pasta, bread, pasta, potatoes, frozen veggies. I promise I will start on Saturday. We go to the grocery Friday..So I'll have no more excuses..and no pun intended, this kind of scares me shitless. I don't know why.
• With everyone around me getting pregnant or having a baby. I am extraordinarily happy w/those who have gotten their BFP's, Im just so ready for one of my own, and reconciling the fact that there will not (w/o some divine intervention) be a 2010 baby for us, kills me a little. I keep thinking back to our last + test..and how I would be 17 wks. pregnant. Stab. I know. And please, preggo friends, don't think badly of me, I just struggle, a lot.
• With blatant incompetency at work. Need I say more? Really? If you know you are sick stay home, don't eat a hot sausage sandwhich and expect not to be violently ill all over the bathroom..that the patients use. REALLY!? Don't expect to smoke mary-jane and not get caught when you.smell.like.it. Common sense, please use it. Don't expect me not to get pissy when I have to tell you the same thing 50.million.times and you still don't get it.
• The new healthcare bill. Really Obama..REALLY!? This is absolutely ridiculous. I get trying to "make a name for yourself" and all that shit, but honestly. This is a landmark (BAD) decision..Kind of like his election. Makes you loose a little hope in the American people doesn't it?
• Also, if you are pro-Obama or pro-the healthcare bill, don't leave snotty comments on my blog. Im not for it, I appreciate your opinion, I just don't share it. Im not gonna landblast you for loving him or the "reform" don't hate on me for not loving it..or him.
• Im generally in a bad mood. I know. Sucks to be anyone around me the last few days. Im taking a lot of stuff personally that isn't and lashing out. It's dumb and it's because Im tired. All.The.Time. Im gonna call Dr. C tomorrow and see if A) she can get the pre-authorization for the Ambien CR & B) see me for the constant fatigue and back pain. It's really getting bad. I fell asleep, twice at work today, and once stopped at a redlight. I KNOW. But I have to drive in the morning, which is why Im headed to bed as soon as I finish this.

Good News

• Dr. B, my most favoritest of doctors..got..ENGAGED over the weekend!! Im so excited for her & her fiancee. They haven't set a date or anything, but it will most likely be late summer. She was just glowing and cried when she told me he proposed..Aww..
• More bloggy pregnancies..OMG!! Kelly got her BFP today..after some shoddy tests earlier..and after 3 losses, she could use some sticky bean vibes, love, and prayers. Mrs. G also got a sweet dark blue line today..and goes to see the OB Friday..go wish her congrats. That makes 4 in the last week..So exciting..So many new bebe's!! Congrats ladies!!

The Good, The Bad, & The Ugly

So I *just* got home from seeing Dr. J and Im feeling mixed emotions..So here goes..

The Good
My clotting issues are easily (his words) fixed w/medication, when it's time to get pregnant (not right now, his words, dammit). I'll be on heparin or lovenox, I start baby aspirin (2 a day) and 3mg of folic acid as well as...Glumetza..which is know of 2 women on this now, one whom is pregnant =) He also told me I have to cut waaay back on the carbs and sugar. And gave a me a list of things to to eat in moderation and to avoid all together. Im supposed to start the Glumetza tonight..but I might have a "last supper" filled w/bread, pasta, and some chocolate cake. LOL. I feel optimistic, he feels extremely optimistic and I also feel 100x better and more informed then I ever did w/Dr. R...which is really good. I told him I was nervous, and then when I gave him my history w/doctors (our dumb PCP and Dr. R.) he said he understood the nervousness. Im glad we went. Im excited about having him as our RE. Oh, and him being the boy part? Went away as soon as he had the dildo-cam up my ute. I know. Could I be more crass?

The Bad
Did you see the part about cutting out carbs & sugar? Me who ADORES pasta & bread and has 3-4 Sprite Zeros..a DAY. The no sweets won't be so bad..because Im not the biggest fan of them anyway, but the limited carbs. GAH. Seriously. Also, he is pretty sure I have PCOS and endometriosis and *at least* a septa uterus. There's another word for it that starts w/ "a", but I can't think of it. He requested the films from Dr. R. from my HSG in October, but w/regards to what he saw today and my history or intensley painful cramps, he wants me to schedule a laporoscopy ASAP. As in, they're gonna call and schedule me tomorrow. This makes me nervous, but he said the side effects are minimum, it's an outpatient procedure, and I get 2 days off work. He does surgeries on Friday, and I *should* be back to work by Tuesday. Hopefully we can do this sooner rather then later. Also, we have to wait 3 months to get pregnant. I knew that he wouldn't want to do it TODAY, but 90 more days seems like such a long time. I know it's not and I know that I don't want to be pregnant on my own. But still. Ugh.

The Ugly
Uh my uterus..and fallopian tubes. A+ body on doing your job. Fudge. Also, I don't want to have anymore surgery, I just want to get PG like normal people..from having SEX!! I feel worn out. Im nervous about surgery and about the money and I want, want, want to be optimistic, but w/6 losses behind me, Im just not. To me, whenever I see a + test, it automatically means m/c to me. Im sick of it. I want to be happy to be PG..but Im scared. And deep down...Im terrified it will never happen. I am so happy w/how positive Dr. J was, but still...Scared.

Thank you bunches for your good thoughts and prayers. Though I seem down, it was a fantastic visit. Seems like St. Patty's was our lucky day =)

Luck of the Irish

Here's hoping that we have some..We meet w/Dr. J today at 2pm..Im nervous like a little girl on her first day of school..For 3 reasons 1) he's a BOY, 2) bad luck w/2 previous doctors 3) if he can't get us pregnant..then what!? So if you could send some prayers, lucky shamrocks, *anything* our way..I'd be greatful...Update you after the appointment =)


Happy St. Patricks Day!!

3 Babies

Today..I celebrated 1 baby & mourned 2 others...

Evan: Today is DH's 25th birthday!! He is 1/4 of a century old, an old man as he says. I am so blessed to have met him, and to have married him. I am the luckiest gal ever. He is an amazing man, and I know will be even more of an amazing father. On our trip to Gatlinburg, I realized, and I feel this in my heart, if it's just me, my husband, and our doggie, then thats our family. I want a baby more then I can find words to explain, but having this man by my side, makes us a family. He is the love of my life. I never realized what was missing, until he came into my life. He has seen me at my very worst, my saddest, in my darkest pit, and still stuck by me. I could never in my life find someone that makes me laugh as hard, smile as big, love as much as he does. DH, you are amazing, I love you, I cannot *wait* to make you a daddy..but if we only ever have furbabies, I will be content, knowing you are by my side.

Amanda Laurel: Amanda, one year ago today, mommy & daddy lost you. You were our 2nd pregnancy, the one who made it the furthest. I so wish we could have known you. I know you had to go, but we miss you sweet girl, we wish you were here with us, but we know you are safe, and happy, and healthy in heaven. We love you baby!!

Carson Glenn: Today is your birthday..or it would have been. Would you have had bright blonde hair like mommy did as a baby, or would you have been as bald as can be like daddy was? Would you have green eyes or blue? Would you have been a big baby or petite. These are all questions we wish we could have answered. Carson, you brought mommy & daddy back together, and we will forever be thankful. You made your presence known from day one. Momma KNEW there was *no* way she could be pregnant, not after everything that was going on. Last summer, mommy & daddy were seperated and you, sweet boy, were our "one last time." You wanted us together so that someday (soon please) you could send us your brother or sister. Thank you baby. This is a EDD that momma has been dreading. I don't know why. But your pregnancy and loss really shook mommy to her core. Im sorry my body failed you, and your sisters. Im really trying. Daddy & I both are. We are making sure you are never forgotten. Enjoy your birthday in heaven, play w/the other angels, okay!? Momma & daddy miss you something terrible..but we love you!!

Now, I must stop, because it's hard to type when the screen is blurry.

Bang!! (Otherwise Known As Bullets)

• AF came all on her own!! Oh happy day. Also, do you know how many pairs of really.cute. panties have been ruined by this bitch!? LOTS!! Having wonky cycles makes destroying underwear a really fun occurence. Oh yes I do have "period" panties..and I don't care that my DH knows it. So it really pisses me off when AF just does her own things. So basically I spotted for 3-4 days and "officially" (read AWFUL cramps and a TON of blood) started on the 8th. So Im currently CD 3. Wow. A cycle. All on my own. Maybe Dr. J can make my body work after all.
• I got my records from Dr. R. and I was furious and so, so sad. I have THREE clotting disorders, not just one. And one of them, I think it's PAI 1 puts me at higher risk for coronary artery disease. That would have been nice to know. I don't have the report right in front of me, but along w/the Factor V-Leiden, and the PAI 1, I also have MTHR-Heterozygous<--Is the #1 clotting disorder responsible for "recurrent spontaneous abortion." I've said it before, I'll say it again, one.fucking.test and we would have had a baby by now. Also, none of this did any of our old RE tell us. I only found out this information by requesting my records. I have no idea how serious any of this is, how it affects our fertility (besides the obvious RPL), and they still haven't given us DH's blood test results. I cancelled my appointment for yesterday, cause seriously, going in and cussing out the doctor doesn't do anyone any good and would probably get me removed from the premises by security. Do you know how sad I am that we've now wasted ANOTHER 5 months w/a doctor that doesn't have our best interest in mind? If Dr. J is the same way, Im gonna go ballistic.
• Thinking of Dr. J., he very recently helped a bloggy friend get pregnant!! That makes me have so much hope. He is also working w/a different bloggy friend on getting their surrogate pregnant. I just feel like maybe this is what we have been waiting for. I hope it's okay for me to go in there and tell him what Im NOT gonna do. I.E. NO MORE NATURAL CYCLES. Obviously, that's not working out. I wanna be put on prophylactic Lovenox, I want my clotting disorders explained to me, I want to know if it's a blood issues w/DH & I. I want to know if he foresees a baby, a live one, in our future. Like, *near* future. I will no longer dick around w/doctors who don't have our best interest in mind.
• Im still sick. Seriously. I've been on the antibiotics for 8 days. I still have 4 days left. My sinuses aren't as bad as they were this time last week, but Im still really congested. This morning it was bad..thats most likely due to the fact that it got up to 70 today, and my allergies were also going haywire. But I feel like I should be at least 75% better. Not so much. Im gonna call the doc on Monday if Im not 100% better..
• And Im waiting until Monday because we are going to Gatlinburg for a long weekend!!! We are leaving tomorrow morning at 6am. It's about a 7 hour drive, and we are staying in a hotel suite instead of a cabin. Im so excited. Moo is here, watching Christmas Vacation next to me, and I am so ready for bed. Im ready to be @ the hotel where there is a big screen tv and a king.sized.bed. Woot.
• Im exhausted. Seriously. It's starting to become a problem. Yesterday I had an okay day, not completely congested, not as much coughing etc. I came home around 5 and DH & I went to Walmart and I came home and was asleep by 8:30. I haven't stayed up later then 9:30 since I got sick. And I slept til 6:30 this morning. By about 4:00 today, I hit the wall at work. I was dead on my feet. And Im in pain. My mid-back is killing me and my legs are tingling. I know. I sound like a such a hypochondriac, but it's all real, I promise. DH went and got Moo @ my parents house, and literally, I walked in the door, put down my purse and fell into bed and slept for about 20 minutes..and you all know me. I can never just fall asleep like that. We had to got Walmart again tonight and it took everything I had to pack tonight. Now, Im ready for bed. I could close my eyes and sleep as Im typing this. Ugh. Probably something to mention to my PCP. We'll see how it goes.
• Okay, bedtime. 5AM is gonna come really early. I'll be back on my blogging horse come Monday. Im reading everyone and keeping up, but I've pretty much sucked at comments and returning them, but I love every single one you send my way, and I will return them next week. Have a fantastic weekend!! Lots of pics next week too =) 

Newly PG Bloggy Friends =)

So as I was reading my blog-feed before bed..I came upon 2 very exciting bits of information...

Christina may be a frugalista..but she isn't currently "subfertile." Go wish her congrats!!
Leda got a pretty welcome surprise today..Go give her love as well!!



Okay..so can I also just say this (and my newly pregnant bloggy friends, please don't take offense)...but since our last m/c, seeing/hearing PG news has been harder to take. Im not sure why. Maybe because I thought the last pregnancy was "for sure" going to be our one or because the loss took so long to start. I don't know. But I am genuinely happy for all my pregnant friends, it's just, the longer we keep trying the harder it is. Shouldn't it be getting easier? Again, Im a big fan and very happy for my preggy friends..Im just real ready for it to be us, and more importantly, for the baby to stick around for a good 9 months.

Spring Has Sprung..Kind Of

So I've been a bad, bad blogger lately. Basically it's just from being sick. Literally I get up, get ready, go to work, crash about midday, get a second wind about 2pm, come home around 7pm, and Im in bed by 8:30 or 9:00. Yep. Im 90 years old. Having a triple whammy infection has wiped me out..and made me crave soft batch chocolate chip cookies. Oh and also, add to the list AF quite possibly starting on her own? A little TMI ahead, so skip this part if you want to..But Wednesday I started bleeding, nothing heavy, slight cramps, but nothing major. In fact I think I actually said whoa out loud when I wiped cause of the blood. So, it's not been anything more then bright red blood on the TP, not even enough to warrant a pad or a tampon. So not exactly a regular period, but something? IDK. It's still happening on & off so I don't know what to think about it. I wouldn't call it a period, but I've never had random bleeding before, so I have no idea what to think. As per usual, any advice on this would be great. Also, the boobs HURT.

Im supposed to see Dr. R on the 9th, but I really have no desire to do so, besides that I want to tell her what a shit job I think she has done as our RE. Making us have 3 "natural" cycles after already having 4 m/c's? Then we get PG on our own, and there is NO support system through her office. I don't know. I know that she won't give me my records nicely if she knows we're going to another RE. But I don't want to have to endure another HSG or another 10 vials of blood. Also, we NEVER got DH's bloodwork results back. And I've talked to them quite a few times since he had it done at the beginning of January. Also, they never did a semen analysis, which apparently, should have been one of the first things done. WTF? So dumb. Im really ready to meet Dr. J. He comes very highly recommended and apparently has a high success rate. Im kind of weirded out because he's a guy and he'll be all up in my hoo-ha, but whatever.

As to the new layout, Im gonna keep it for awhile, because really, in the grand scheme of things, I am SO lucky. I've got a great DH, a nice house, a great family, my health (the majority of the time) a good job, a great pup, Moo-Moo and a lot to look forward to in the future. Adding a baby would just be amazing, but I am lucky regardless. It just kind of sits really well with me =)

Here in IN, spring has kind of crept in. It was semi-warm (like low 40's) 2 days last week, the snow has FINALLY melted (but everything is now a muddy, mucky mess), and it has been sunny the last 3 days. It's been lovely. Most of the time, we don't have spring here. It usually goes from 20 to 40, a few days of rain & 60 degrees, then WHAM, summer. 90+ every day. So this has been nice. Actually having a spring. Makes me smile.

A few things to look forward too...

• Our trip to Gatlinburg..we leave Thursday the 11th and we'll be back on the 14th. I.can't. wait. We love it there so much. Since the Las Vegas idea didn't work out, this was his 2nd choice for his b-day trip..and we're taking Moo. Yay. We're not staying in a cabin this time (they are SO expensive right now) and we wanted to stay directly in town and w/in walking distance to everything since parking is also expensive. We got a FANTASTIC deal on a king suite w/a fireplace at the Rocky Waters Motor Lodge. My parents and I used to stay there all the time, and I remember that it overlooks the Pigeon River w/a private balcony..Im pumped. We may have to..get creative if we want to "color" but that will be okay =) Im just excited to get out of Indiana.
• E's 25th b-day is the 15th (the Ides of March). He thinks he is getting so old. LOL. Goofus. Im just so proud of him right now. He's going through 3-4 police processes at the same time, and I know it's wearing on him. We are so ready for him to get a FT police job. I don't really want to move again, but for a FT job, Im totally prepared to do so.
• Seeing Dr. J. on the 17th (St. Pattys Day). I really, really hope this day is lucky for us. I hope Dr. J rocks it, and that he can give us some good news instead of the same old crap we are used to hearing from Dr. R. I can tell you what I do not want to hear. That we need to have natural cycles, or just "see how it goes." Im ready to start treatments, yesterday. So I want a doctor who is on board for that. We've been trying on our own for almost 18 mos. I cannot mentally or physically afford another m/c. I know nothing is foolproof, but having a doctor backing us and checking on us makes me feel more secure. And DH is on the boat. For sure. He does not want me to get PG on my own, lol. I mean of course we'd love a "miracle" but knowing the doc is following us makes me feel like we have a little bit of control.
• My grandma's 80th birthday is the 5th of April. We are having a big shindig in which all of the family is getting together (including those from Arkansas, Maryland, & Missouri) and having a fancy dinner the Friday b/f her birthday and an open house at her church on Saturday. Im excited about this. It's a big deal. I just wish grandpa could be here to share it with her..or a great-grandchild. Is it bad that I want to have a baby before she passes away so she can be a great-grandma? I know, it's kind of ridiculous, but I want it just the same. But it will be nice to see the family from out of town. Most of whom we haven't seen since our wedding...over a year ago. Yay.
• Allie's 2nd birthday is on the 4th of April. I know, celebrating the dogs birthday, silly, but we love her like she's family and she is so coot (as Moo says) and we don't really remember life before her. As bad as she is sometimes, we wouldn't trade her for any other doggie.

I know I need to add my 365 pics (as I've been trying to take them even when I've been sick) and I will do so at a later date, my camera is in my purse and I don't feel like going to get it right now, lol. Lazy. Okay, I promise to be a better blogger this week. I've missed you all!!

Oh Dude X 2

So I finally went to the doctor today..and in bullet formation, here's how it went.

• Sinus Infection (all throughout my paranasal, maxillary, and orbital sinuses. No wonder my face looked so swollen, I've got some bacteria up in there, woot for being hot)
• Bronchitis: I haven't had this yet this year, so apparently, my lungs thought bronchitis would be a great way to welcome Spring
• Non-Bacterial UTI: Of course I can't just have a regular UTI. My urine had sugar, leukocytes, and nitrates in it this morning. But when they sent it off to the lab on Friday, it grew no new bacteria. Therefore...drumroll please...I may have...
• Interstitial Cystitis: "A chronic inflammation of the bladder wall that presents like a urinary tract infection." The only way to know if that if my new and improved antibiotic (which covers the SI, bronchitis and this) doesn't make the symptoms go away, I have to go to a urologist. Nice. Can't wait. Hey, how about that there is a Urology office right next door to my RE!! Hip, hip, hooray!! Shoot me please.
• Contagious: I am. Therefore, no work today, possibly tomorrow. So, for now, it's off to bed I go =)

Oh Dude

I am so freakin sick. I was totally gonna do an update, but I cannot breathe. I feel like if I close my mouth, Im gonna suffocate. My boss actually sent me home early-ish from work. Which *never* happens. Ever. The update will happen, but not til I can breathe. Also, I big time suck at returning comments currently, please bear with me. Oh also, I can't just have a normal UTI, oh no. I have nitrates, leukocytes & a wee bit of protein in my urine. For now, Im on a double anitbiotic, and they've sent my urine off to do more tests. I'll know wtf the problem is tomorrow (when I go back for this no breathing issue) or Wednesday. Oh, and Im extremely tempted to cancel my appt. w/our old RE, but I really, really want to start the Femara. Ugh. Off to bed.

**Also, I just took another UTI test (yep, Im poas addict) actually, it was just to see if the antibiotics are working...Umm is it bad news that the nitrate part is DARKER as is the purple (leukocyte) part?! Does anyone have any advice on this? Im not peeing as much (maybe only 1-2x an hour) but it hurts, like my bladder and back actually ache. Yes, I am going to the doctor tomorrow. Ugh. Any and all advice is appreciated**