Though 1

We shouldnt enter into relationships because we're lonely.
We should do it because the person we're thinking of doing it with feels right.

Thought no 446

I dont want you to know.
I want you to know.

Does that make sense?

Thought No. 1090

I recently attended a rave in Singapore.
And I noticed people taking out their cameras to record the performance.

It got me thinking about the way we view the world.
The lens, the perspective, how we perceive and how we remember.

First of all, why do we take photographs of the world?
We want these images to be seen.
To capture a moment lost in time. That even replicated, will never be the same as the first.
That the moment, we can then share with others who weren't there to illicit an emotional response.
The point of photographs is to be seen. By you or by others, that is besides the point.

Words induce imagination. Pictures limit them.
With words, I can describe the show and you and I will have differing images of what occurred and where the emphasis would be.
With pictures, you and I would be on the same page of what occurred and where the emphasis would be on.

Why do we distrust our memories so?
Do we distrust our ability to remember details?
Do we distrust out ability to communicate those details in a manner that other people will understand?

Pictures are memories that live outside of us.
And they help us to remember what sometimes forget.
They help to bring us back to a different time, a different place.
Maybe that is what Art is really about.
Maybe that's what Life can sometimes be about.

To be caught up in the past is dangerous.

The YEar of Magical Thinking

by Joan Didion is the real life account of her dealing with the grief of losing her husband.

Its very raw, very emotional, and if anything should be read PRIOR to said grief event happening, otherwise the words are likely to just skim by without meaning if given AFTER.

Some interesting things to note, this quote:
I love you more than one more day.

Paraphrased from Marian (Audrey Hepburn) from Robin and Marian, the motion picture:
"I love you. More than all you know. I love you more than children. More than fields I've planted with my hands. I love you more than morning prayers or peace or food to eat. I love you more than sunlight, more than flesh or joy, or one more day."

Another item of note is the fact that she states animals also appear to experience grief at the loss of their mate.

Now there are arguments if animals are actually capable of feelings of love as we define them.

Are they really mourning the death of their soul mate of whom they communicate with everyday?
That they were sharing their life with, that of which fills their memories with joy and whom we looked to for comfort?

Or are they just lamenting the fact that they won't get laid anytime soon?
And that biologically they're past their prime to attract a mate therefore they're grieving over their lost biological potential?

Without communication, are we able to determine this?
What are we really lamenting in times of grief?
Are we similar to animals? Are they similar to us?

Which is the mirror in which we see ourselves?

A Song Of Fire And Ice

If Winter was a persons name,
He/she held in their cum for the longest time.

Funny

Wouldnt it be funny
If everybody had a sense of humour?

Danny Avila and Arty are the future yo!

Friendship

If you found something you love doing, why would you ever stop doing it?

inspired by a friend

EMPathy

I dont want to be treated like an animal.
To be collared, to heed a masters call, to be reliant on other people for my everyday needs, to have my life decisions (such as to be neutered) made for me.

I don't want to be treated like furniture.
To be inanimate. To not be able to move. To being sat on, be used and abused and discarded once i've outlived my usefullness.

Similarly, I suppose none of us want to be treated AS problems.
We wanted to be treated as human beings WITH problems.
Maybe thats where Men are getting it wrong.
Its not really about listening. Its not about the nail in the head.
Its about the way we approach a problem.
We know something has a problem, we go and fix it.
Guys have an ability to feel abstract from their problems.
Maybe women not so much.

Maybe all thats missing from that conversation is this one sentence, "You know I don't think the problem has anything to do with you as a person. Lets look at it from this perspective. The problem is..."
Complex problems. Simple solutions. 10 seconds maximum of additional conversation. Hours saved.

Attention Envy

Why do we put things up on social media?

Why are we sharing bits and pieces of our day?

Do we want to retain the memory of our thoughts in a cloud platform?

Do we want to update our friends on what we're doing, get them interested so that they can join us in the future?

To inspire others?

To inform others of the newest and latest happenings in our lives? or the world?

A blog for the lazy?

What are we really doing on social media?

Think long and carefully about this one.

Are we there, only because everybody else is there?

That we share there because thats where the largest audience is?

That beneath it all we're all just looking to be "Liked"?

If nobody could see us put something up, how many of us would still?

Comics

Am I one of the abstracts?

Untitled...as a title...because I think I'm soooo clever

Is that enough oooo's in soooo?

I'm inspired by boredom.

Thought 225

Is there a correlation between a religious population and irrational beliefs in non-religious matters? Eg. Finance & economics (United States), politics (Malaysia)

I notice the occupancy rate of rooms in Marina Bay Sands is much higher than I expected. I always wondered how much a room for a night there costs.
Occuppancy is even higher than Mont Kiara.

Listening to an Indonesian non-lyric band. Good melodic guitar, bouncing bass and crashing drums. It works.
But it makes me realize how incredibly lonely I am.
Or how I choose to be.
I imagine if there was someone here next to me I'd still feel the same way.
Am I too unique?
Is this a choice I made to stand away from others?
To not believe?
Am I normal or extraordinary?
Will I know before I die?
Is it my choice to make?
Why dont I believe?
Why cant I believe?
I believe in people.

Love. What is love?
Passion fades. Companionship stays.
Am I too practical?
Am I insufficiently romantic?
I'm boring.
I'm steady.
I'm a rock upon which no waves move.
A rock that moves of its own volition.
Influenced by others.
Shaped by the events of my life.
Whose core remains the same and upon which I hope to be others hope.

Thought No No No No Don't Phunk with my Heart

I'm guilty of it as anyone. So no, I don't think I'm better than you.

There, now we got that disclaimer out of the way,

I read about the Boston Bombings like so many of you, through Facebook.
Within minutes of being told casualties, people immediately started putting up comparisons between the 500 and 300 killed in another part of the world yet not as much media coverage was being given, whereas 2/3 die and its a humongous deal.

Its unfair to make comparisons. I've done it. I'm unfair as well.
Every tragedy with fatalities shouldn't be belittled. In fact, every tragedy shouldn't be belittled.
Even if you lost your dog to old age, your goldfish to a your forgetfulness to add anti-chlorine, every tragedy is meaningful to each person's lens.

Every life is precious, every loss is felt.
People's life change, for better or for worse.
How the fuck can you be so insensitive to start comparing their tragedy to other people's?
How can you compare genocide to what happened here?
Should we be so numb, so cruel, so heartless to compare the worst things that happen in history, or the present and apply it to someone's present situation?
Every time someone blows up a bomb, kills innocent lives, we just go "oh well, at least it wasn't genocide right?"
ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING MEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

Let people wallow in their tragedies motherfucker.
Let them feel emotionally scarred and damaged.
Do not fucking belittle their problems!
Its not a numbers game and who wins because they have more!
ITS a fucking tragedy you motherfucking retard.

Even if it was just one person who died, thats a tragedy.
Every single day, every single hour, every single minute, every single second, a tragedy happens around the world.
A daughter is lost, a husband grieved for, a child dies before their time.
Every life is precious, every loss felt by the people who cared for them.

Shame on you for turning this into a numbers game.
Shame for you for belittling their tragedies.
I'm guilty of it as well. I feel shame. So fuck me. And fuck you.

Government

Can you run a government like a business?
Lets try to flesh this out a bit.

Whats the main objectives of business?
Profits.

How does the government make money?
Taxes

How do we increase the amount of money the government makes?
Either increase the population or increase the amount of money people make or increase taxes.
Notice the increase in taxes would most likely trigger a decrease in population, so we will consider a less complex relationship.

How do we increase the amount of money tax paying citizens make?
Create more opportunities for citizens. Small businesses should be easy to set up and maintain.
Personally, I'm against large businesses. I think small business models should be the backbone of any economy.
It encourages competition, innovation, creativity and opportunity for all.
Inefficiencies in the market will somehow be filled in naturally by other small businesses.
Ideally, every time there is a gap in the market, a small boutique with the necessary expertise will be created to fill it.

Long term is to have a highly regarded education system.
Teachers have to be professionals with certifications, retraining, paid well and not seem as menial labour.
Students are to be held accountable, academic research into training cognitive ability and develop skills will be given heavy grants and subsidies. Practical methods of their application will be encouraged.

What about industries that require large amounts of capital?
That is one of the shortcomings of the current plan. I open the forum for suggestions as to how to resolve this issue.

What about other issues that require the governments aid? eg. infrastructure, medical aid, etc.
Ideally the government will encourage more of these businesses to be run as regulated private enterprises, and that there will be a sufficient amount of them that for the government to set up their own, it would also have to be sufficiently competitive.

A decentralized government system when it comes to infrastructure may also be an idea worth exploring. State governments will have autonomy to decide if they want to built a road through their state, which parts it would go through, the requirement of its citizens and how wide the roads should be.
Certain portfolios would still be under the federal government but the state should have some degree of autonomy.

I would also like to see different states having different economic functions. Certain states would be the cultural hub, the agricultural hub, the financial, the educational, the environmental research, the heavy industry and so on so forth. A highly concentrated population in a single area is no good for everybody.

Kpop

Why do people love KPop?

It stems from the lack of self belief in one own's abilities.
KPop teaches you that through hard work, perseverance and mass manufacturing, you can become a superstar.
You, an ordinary joe, a nobody, can become a somebody. All you have to do is rigorously train, give up any semblance of a normal life, cut your face, stitch it back up, learn to dance, singing optional, work out and poof, you can make it anywhere.
Thats the appeal. Thats why the masses love it.
Its about self belief and our drilled dogma that hard work does pay off.

Then there's PSY. whose success is based on hard work, 3 albums prior to this, ridicule, perseverance through tough times, lack of commercial success, then 1 hot single and bam, he's the man who's brought 1/7th of the world together. unless you watched the damn thing more than once and are messing up my stats here.
Why him? What makes his brand so successful?
Its because through the course of his career, he stayed true to himself.
Sincerity. The missing ingredient. The secret ingredient. The special sauce that takes a dish from a dime a dozen, to 1 in a billion.

The differences between them and him is that he took it in his own direction.
This is what he truly wanted to be, not something forced upon him and which he took up as his own.
It was a clear sense of direction, conviction and quite basically, not giving too much of a damn what others were doing or keeping up with trends.

So really, it may be a silly video, overplayed, self depreciating and overall, catchy, it is sincerity and self belief that always ring true in the face of corporate manufacturing.
Its strange, but in a way, the lack of care of financial and corporate success may have been one of the overwhelming factors for it.
Bastard probably doesn't even own nor profits from the image rights of that famous caricature of him.
You know which one I'm talking about.

ASM

Here's how a Spider Man reboot would have been better, script wise.

- Peter works as an intern in OsCorp chemistry division

- Peter is shown to be a genius, using chemistry from father's notes to create web fluid but does not have web shooters yet just a glueey mess that dissolves in a couple of hours (because we all have always wanted to know what happens to those things after he's done with them)

- Gwen works in the biology division

- Parents disappear, stays with Ben and May maintain as status quo

- Gets bitten by arachnid while visiting Gwen, ability to stick to walls, strength, spider sense.

- Argument with Ben, leaves home, Ben gets shot maintain as status quo (is this a spoiler? no it isn't. it's common knowledge. Please)

- Peter goes after killer, puts on mask, surgical gloves, hoodie so doesn't get recognized, doesn't leave prints and can still stick to walls (because really, how does he do that with gloves?)

- Killer runs into OsCorp weapons division, bought there by Peter who doesn't really know what he's doing, escapes, enters experimental weapons design, gets stuck in a grey suit, busts out with the strength of a....Rhino.

- Peter uses same design to create Spider Man costume (because it doesn't make sense how sewing a costume comes so easily, is undetectable and does not need dry cleaning nor does it raise any suspicion) that allows him to use wall sticking ability, self repairs (suit only, not the body underneath) and is thin but strong enough to not break apart from throwing punches, kicking, etc.

(bullet proof option used by killer, so he couldn't add that in)

-- design for costume was sketched for fun while Peter was working at OsCorp after gaining spider powers

--computers are busted in the ensuing escape so knowledge of the suit is sketchy, making Rhino harder to replicate and to stop, also Spider Man removes all traces of creating costume as to not, you know, get caught

- Also takes experimental web shooters, probably made as a spy gadget as a miniature grappling gun. Modifies them to become web shooters. This one is still a bit fuzzy.

-- additional plot point, Peter claims to have his ID stolen by Spider Man to maintain his internship, footage of him bringing the killer into OsCorp all set up Spider Man as a bad guy and as if he was helping create the Rhino.

- Rhino robs bank, jewelry store, something common, goes back to lair and tries to take off suit but can't. Realizes the only people who can help him are in OsCorp so terrorizes building. Tanks come in (for cool effects of course), takes cannon fire like a boss and flips tank.

- Spider Man zips in loaded with web shooters, boss fight!

- Defeated when Spider Man ascertains the suits weakness from chemistry/physics/biology knowledge to remove the grey suit but paralyzes him due to the removal.

-- probably nitroglycerin, as freezing makes chemical reactions funny

- OsCorp move to recover the grey suit but Spider Man fully destroys it making Norman Osbourne an angry man, but giving him ideas on how to move forward with military applications.

Imma let you finish

Watching the infamous "Listen" video:
The equivalent of live tweeting it as I watch:
It brings up the thought that being part of a crowd, inwardly you may disagree with whats going on, but externally you still clap hands and whoop because of the need to fit in.

Its actually quite disappointing nobody stood up and disagreed at that point. I'm not saying I definitely would have but I'd like to think that I wouldn't be clapping ignorantly just because someone is saying something in a preacher choir voice, alternating between high and low using that psychological effect to sway a crowd and to induce support by the slow rise and emphasis on the final words.

The need to fit in is a evolutionary tool. This was covered in Cracked at some point and I'm paraphrasing here. Its safer for us to be part of a group, especially when it came to survival. Going at it alone back then was a surefire way to guarantee your extinction, so we're very geared towards non-dissension for the sake of our survival. Unless you had the smarts, skills and ambition to lead your own group, its unlikely for you to break from the herd.

Bullying culture, the inability to admit wrong, Sharifah you are getting on my nerves.

Bawani may have had some points but she just took too long to get around to them. Too emotional sounding from the tones of her speech. They weren't fighting words, but they were in a tone that suggested she was demanding answers instead of asking them for answers.
Its a better strategy to ask the difficult questions that have no good answers besides "we are a corrupt bunch of bastards who don't deserve to utilize public funds." or "actually, we've never thought of that."
The name of the game is to shame and if they're not corrupt, to make them think, "yeah, why didn't we think of that. maybe we should look more into it."

Listening to Sharifah speak is like listening to Dwayne Johnson in The Rock persona. Talking a bunch of nonsense unrelated to the point, strutting around, waving arms but without that "cool" factor, the people's eyebrow and the track pants.

As a society are we really electing our leaders on their ability to speak in alternating tones?
Are we so weak minded and lazy we've forgotten about content and context?

Ok at some point somebody, anybody should have just left because that was disgusting and wrong. Fuck me. A mass walkout wouldn't have been surprising. WHO THE FUCK IS THAT WOMAN AND WHY THE FUCK IS SHE BEING ALLOWED TO SPEAK?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
AND SHE'S A FUCKING LEADER?!!?!?!?!?  OF A WOMAN'S SOCIETY!
who should at least be aware that the fight for female rights was due to the fact that the women dissented against the traditional norms. They questioned "why should things stay the way they are?".
Appalling attitude. Woman, you have no respect and to quote a friend, "I would never hit a woman", but if somebody did it, I'd understand (Chris Rock reference).

Age is not an guarantee of wisdom. Wisdom is an indication of wisdom.

Respect. You want to talk about respect?

Kanye was honestly a whole lot better than this.