When fate decides to lend a hand,
all you have to do is go with the flow,
but when fate decides to turn its back on you,
you will have more to do than to fall and weep.
-kelli

okay. suppose to be doing my history essay or studying my ting xie or, doing my maths now, but well, as usual, me not doing, and slacking around. suppose to swim on fri, during heats... just when i want to go and sit in parliment. sigh, toking abt the whole year's budget on fri lol, so i really wish to go and listen but fine. -sits in a corner and sulk- then was wondering if i shall sign up for the water game thingy for my house, still considering, cos since i am already in swimming costume, might as well finish up my 2 activities.. but back to swimming, i realised that i hadn't swim for ages, to be exact, since last year, a little while b4 the swimming pools close or rather isolated or wadava.. wonder if i still remm how to swim. shan't plunge pool, cos i really dun have much confidence in my plunging pool... sigh, u know, noone believe me when i say i failed my maths test. serious, even my sec2 maths teacher went like, so surprised. even people like shing and ling, din believe. sigh, all tink i am joking. aiyah, sorta expect to fail anyway, cos i din even touch my maths ws on the day b4. was the day b4 aop for enrol camp, i tink. lolx. my dad sounded a bit pissed lah, but well.. i dun care. even shing tinks i am zai, cos i got full marks for the congrency and similar solids the 2 questions. which is where i got all my 14 marks from. and then for the rest of the 6 questions.. abt so lah. i only got 2 marks from the 6 other qsn. cos i forgot the formula for variation. zai rite? that's wad shing tinks. wadava.. i tink maths is getting more boring as u go up the level. now i even feel like sleeping during maths. well.. so have to go for re-test on sat. sigh, dun exactly feel like going. i mean, even if u get full marks for the re-test.. u only get half of the marks lolx. so i dun tink 4 marks and 5 marks make a BIG diff. but well, if ms tan insist. tink i am falling sick soon. my throat feels very dry lately. and i was sniffing like hell yesterdae nite. and coughing here and there since the past 2 days. heh. also feeling damm tired lately. i was sleeping since i got home, until 8 yesterdae. then at 9.30, i went backto sleep again. cos iwas so tired. then this morning. i woke up at 5.45 and slept on the car.. and i am still so tired now. duno why. my muscles are aching from head to toe. oh well..



ok, shing ask me not to type anything sad here. so fine, i shan't. fd comp was yesterdae. wasn't too bad, i guess, but we din win lah. the results were same as last year. yep. but i have to admitted that the top2 trained a lot more than us, so fine. we lost bcos we were better than us. but this year, i tink we could take the defeat more easily than last year cos this year we din make any mistakes lah. anyway, for now, i forgot what homework i had, and apparently, i had some biology ws due next week.. since when, i was wondering. anyway, let's not mope over spill milk. that's why the judges' decision are final. sigh, duh. i tink it's going to be quite peaceful for the time being, until maybe may or june, where i tink have to start prep for first aid comp. but i tink our year still haven the slightest idea on which sec2s to send yet. but i reckon that our year could send at least 2 or 3.. anyway, we went for unit dinner after fd comp. and we had such a nice bonding session. anyway, i tink that ping pong game would be damm farni if we managed to finish it.. realise that we din have physical training for ages. but i dunno lah. cos everything seems to quieten down for a while after fd comp.. wanted to go swimming todae, but forget it.. i have so much hw.



ne field trip todae. it was quite ok. slacking day, and once i get home, at arnd 2, i just jumped onto the bed and sleept.. until shing woke me up with a fone call at arnd 6+.. sigh, can't believe i slept so long. and this is the first time i feel that i nonid rush over the proposal. but smth wrong with the printing process also. but sudenely cannot find suitable divuiders, and was so pissed, cos the proposal file takes a damm terribly long to upload. and when i finish uploading. the page bcome. cannot find server, and i was like wadda hell. cos have to re-attach again. of cos lah, sigh 3000+ kb. can't believe it, and i forgot to print sum particular pages with colour ink, but shall not care, since i tink can differenciate. crap. it is still attaching. see, after sleeping for arnd 4 hrs, i am still tired, dunno why. my shuo ming wen also haven rite yet. cos i hate shuo ming wen to the core. really, i rather rite any other wen then shuo ming wen. it's damm crapy lah. realised that my mortal's b'dae is this sat. shall get her a pressie. haiyah, but no time to buy, have to remind myself to buy tmr. or maybee can pass to her shihua or yuenhung on sat. was smsing shirley just now, and i tink we were crazy. toking to each other nonsese. which reminds me that i hadn't gone back to my pri sch since ages. tink it is since last sept. haish, shall squezz time to go back, or i tink xuesi would really kill me. oh yah, today during field trip. our class were having a mini court session on the bus. and alisha, the speaker went to invite mr redmund to be the seargent of arms. and den, they were asking meiting (the chief justice) to declare him lah. and meiting went like " i er.. herbay declare er.. you.. as er.. the seargent of arms." it was damm farni lah. u know, dere is this kind of like true confessions like going around sumtimes. sigh, shan't tok much abt it here. suddenly v. worried abt fd comp. dunno if the juniors can ta han the 1.5 hrs uniform inspection. i really dun wish like a lot of ppl, esp from our unit, to fall out or smth. esp. in the scroching sun. i tink ling's expression would be damm farni mans. i have confidence in my yearmates lah. more or less. budden ah, really hope nuting goes wrong. i forgot who was saying that sure nid to use reserves one. sumtimes, it is quite true. but it might lead to a height imbalance. haish, shall go to do my bio ws. aha



sigh, so tired from today's drill. i tink that's basically bcos i was more of looking forward to go home and sleep so wasn't really in the mood to drill. sumore in full u. heh. but sumhow when i get home, i suddenly dun feel like sleeping. haish, dunno why. now i really tink what ling said abt the sec1s have a certain truth in it. sigh, got this sec1 rite, rite her 2 notes to the class try liao still haven reply. call her 10 million times liao still din pick up fone. and i am so jinx lately. dunno why. everything is like going against me. even the damm computer diskette. it wasn't formated, so i din print my 31 pages out of 80 pages of the proposal. damm it. stupid diskette. haish. which means that i have to print the 55 pages tmr. haish. i am so tired. tired. tired.



alamak. talk nonsese lah. suddenly found out quite by chance that the attire is full uniform tmr. so freak out can. cos i just went to wash off a stain from my uniform so basically, it's now all wet. darn. and i am not exactly sure if i can find my uniform acessories lah huh. dun care now lah huh. i am just pissed off. got so many million things to collect. sincere apologies to everyone i have pissed off here, cos i wasn't in a very good mood lately. anyway, i should be happy. 1/3 of the proposal is printed out.. drumz..



tired. =) haven update for ages according to my memory. feel like a loser lately. just forget this forget that. i really need a new memory. sighs. find that i am like in a diemelia sometimes, if i can do this, i can't do that. and the sec1s, sigh, sum of them give weird numbers, like dentist number, a number which is totally different from the home phone, sum bakery number. sigh,i duno lah. and does anyone knows how to call to malaysia, cos one of the sec1s live there. i am just damm tired lately. esp. yesterday. oh yah, thankyou elspeth. lurve u soooo much. she stayed up for the whole nite to finish it. wonder how she did that.. i would have fell alsleep at arnd 3+. and then this morning at arnd 5.30, i on the computer to type sum stuff. my dad thought i was crazy can. type things early in the morning. sigh. and els was printing the proposal at 6.30++ sigh sigh sigh. but this round, the second round, i tink everyone put in a little bit of effort lah. even thought the effort wasn't very equal... tink els very tired liaos. after 2 rounds of proposal. shall print for her the final one. and we haven even solve the problem of how to deliver the dinner, sigh shall prob abt it later. but now, the beeeggg fat prob is how to call the sec1s. dun really know if the sec1s know their yearmates anort. just now ask, where is sara? oh, she isn't her bcos of... where is mei ling then? oh she also not here bcos of... where is min jia? she went to taf camp. where is calyn? dunno. dun tink she's here. and i was like hello?? there 's only two sec1s not around lol. dunno them lah. sigh, shall go and edit the proposal...



bad bad bad.the situation now is like from bad to worse. okay nvm. basically dere is no corrdination between the i/cs and now guess wad. we haven even started on games. and international bazzar also duno how dey edit one lah. i just feel myself in shit state. got history project. maths test. bio assignment. chinese jian bao. chinese yinyongwen. all due on mon. and aop is on mon also. sigh. and i got health checkup on mon after sch. i am going to rush like siao. and i tink class com meeting is comin up pretty soon. and with fd prac i am just going to die lah huh. luckily, i am hard working enuff. stay back today with kumutha to do the damm notice board. partly bcause he wants it sOOn. fine. u want this, i give you this. i am just in a bad bad mood. like dunno what. and tink shing's mum is not letting her go for aop. everyone around is like so stressed up here. zing, ling, shing also have their geog test lah. and loads of nonsense. heard that ling is the ava rep. hahaha. shld be sabo one lah. and els is pretty busy too. everyday also busy. and zee is like so stressed up lately. will just go crazy lah. oh, zee is the enviornmental rep. heh. so farni, when i heard it. never expected. sigh. i am just like going to die lah. i am like staying back everyday. regardless whether got fd prac anort. cos if i dun have, some nonsense would cropped up. shing is like not finishing her homework now lol. no wonder her mum's pissed. like i got do hw liddat. or rather, i din even know must do. i was rushing my 2 practical worksheets during recess lol. when i finally know must pass up. sighs. everything is like just going the wrong way. and i seems to get memory failuar lately. everything in my brain just seems to disappear. like i have to ask abt nivi. i forgot. forget this. forget that. hopeless me. and this sun, dun even think abt resting. i think i will have enuff hw to last me for the whole day. whee. how i enjoy this. ahem. and i dunno wad's wrong with my form teacher sumtimes. wants everything so early when the deadline is so far. thinks he just want to finish things asap. but is like killing everyone. dunno him lah. suddenly dun feel like going for fd comp prac. haish. going to suffer from nervous breakdown soon. feel like crying sometimes. and i haven done my boots, find my socks. blah. dun tink i will have time to study sia. gotta edit the IB proposal. sighs. at least my uniform is done. shall just mug tmr morning then. and hope everything gets into my brain.



oh. we came up with a song for our instructor and sang it for him at obs. shall just paste it here.

[to the tune of ‘’Lover’s Concerto’]

How embarrassed is Gideon
When we act retarded
Saying ‘#@!#@”
Serenade Ubin with our melodies

Seeing there beyond the speedboat
Is Gideon laughing at our kayaking
But since he tells us ghost stories
Even though he’s sleepy
We forgive him

Now that we are leaving OBS
We will miss this Battuta lass
Though we are saying goodbye
We will always remember
This SHY yet FUNKY guy

nice rite. duh. my watch came up with it. sorrie, crappy mood.



tink i am nuts todae. felt so energectic when fd prac was over, then reach home at around 7+ and guess what? i actually agreed to my dad's invitation and ran 3 rounds round the park with him. sigh. then walk 1 more round with him lols. around 3 km in total. anyway. suddenly feel all my muscles aching like hell. but i will be okay later anyway. suddenly can't find deep heat. dunno why. anyway. i am going to be super chaoda soon. if it continues to be gd weather then have to march in the sun. sobs sobs. but the real dae is really going to be under the real hot sun lah. so.. i really miss obs like hell. now i feel like playing everyday and not study at all. but a bit impossible. with loads of crap on hand. suddenly recall that i am in founder's day goh. suddenly yeah. with so much rubbish around here yeah. haish. should i go down swimming on sun, after becie's ku ku ai qiu, or shld i stay at home and mug my maths test. sigh, shall see what bcame of my muscle aches first..



updating my blog now. cos i can't seems to get any work done. cos my whole mind is still at obs. sighs. els was asking me for my free dates the next 2 weeks and i realise that i am not very free? haish. realise that fd acreed is on 7th and i still dunno what to study. i mean i dunno the common mistakes lah. haish. going to my aunt's house later. sighs. and i got the freak history project in hand. voltaire. who's so interested about him rite. but he just got some link to the french revolution lah. haish. can see that our history teacher is really trying to make history lessons interesting sometimes.. ah, enrol camp proposal in hand. shing and i aiming to finish proposal on thurs. with a bit of slack on fri. so that i can print on sat. sighs. tink it is a bit impossible at this rate. maybe the respective i/cs should just work harder. lah. but i left my food and beverages part only. wanted to add a sharing session in the programme, but met shing's strong objection. cos she dun wan to conduct it. sighs.



haish. back from obs yesterdae. i am obs sick now okay? miss it so much. i was medic i/c lah (expected lols) and day i/c for around 2+ days? cos no time to change. haish. i really miss my tent and outdoor cooking. how other watches come and pinch our watch's food. hiyah. but what worse is, i can't seems to get used to the urban life we have now. can't even sit down and do some homework. cos my whole mind is about kayat, raft, canned food. tents, how nice the sea water is. did i mention i got mobile sea? or issit moblie land-sea? haish wadava. it doesn't matter. it just rox. but my watch is quite accident prone. replenish my medical supplies 3 times. heard that? 3 times. anyway, because of obs, got sum ideas for red cross's outdoor activities and for our trng camp. maybee we shld just hold trng camp at the campsite. and least i tink u get to pitch tents there. and i dun tink hiking in bukit timah reserve would be any fun anyway. why not hike to mac richie? note: is to, not at. can give them map and let them find the direction or smth. of course lah, would be a whole day activity i tink. i seriously tink we should have outdoor activities a bit more. and not just competitions and competitions, maybee would quieten down after fd comp. and we should try to bond between years. i mean it is not close enough lah. juniors still dun dare to speak up sometimes. sometimes i read their blogs, and can sumhow know what they feel. must really tink of some team building activity. sum activity which everyone can help even if u dun have the necessary skills. i know in the end might dun have time to write proposal lah, but must still try hehe. and must think of a way to bond each other even in competitions. cheryl wants to train the sec2s, dunno if can anort. but sometimes, i really tink it is seriously not up to standard. haish, be strict and nice at the same time is a skill too.. haha.

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