Dull

I easily feel cold lately...
Not because of the weather, but the heart...

I no longer to look forward tomorrow, not even alive tour...
Yeah, I mean it.... I'm not excited like I used to be....
But I don't wish that I couldn't make it cause that's the only chance I can release out everything....

I'm lost... I don't know what is right and what is wrong...
I don't know what happen around me is good or bad....
Is what you see is real or it's the opposite way?
But I'm just pretending that everything is fine...

I won't be asking again....

Cause being rejected doesn't make me feel good....

My vitality is not strong lately, but I won't suicide...
However that thought do come across my mind...
If I die in this room, no body will know...
If something bad happen to me, I guess I wont be fightback strongly like I used to be...

Everything is not fine for me....