十年的我

她跟我说，女孩子有时不要太坚强的好。
我说，不是我太坚强而是想寻找一个比我更坚强的人。这样我才会有安全感。

究竟你保护得太不露痕迹，还是伪装得太好？
曰：两者皆非。只是了解的人自然就会看得出我的脆弱。

亦或是太习惯那种跌到了再靠自己努力站起来的坚强？
曰：寻找不到那份安全感当然要靠自己努力站起来；当那份安全感就在身边，他自然会扶我一把。

那三天的努力是值得的。因为终于得到他的肯定。唯一不喜欢的是，想请那些没有贡献的人闭嘴否则不爽的程度增加。


比起之前，我更有所保留。什么都不想说，什么都不想解释。懂的人自然会懂；不懂的就罢了。到目前，只有一人能让我感受得到一丝丝的安全感。但我还得自己努力，因为她在课业上并不比我强。


P/S：最近听太多我最爱老林的歌（话说很多都是伤心情歌 >< ），搞得我的心情依然没什么好转。

Bad mood

It's a new semester. New semester = result release. This time, I got good news and bad news for it.

Lets start with bad news. My target for Photography fail. Aimed 'A', but get 'A-'. It's still acceptable. And here come the wtf! I got 'C-' for media law. Ish~ Definitely pull down my CGPA. Checked the CGPA for C- is 1.67.  wtf!

Jump to the good news part. First time get an A for his subject, but it's just an 'A-'. Anyway, I'm still glad for it. :)

After counting the CGPA myself, I got a BIG problem. It's not over 3, 2.88. I can't get the scholarship if the CGPA is not over 3. For the first time, I get a 'C'. And it is the worst 'C' I ever get. WTF!!!! It's because of the media law.. >~< I thought that I can get higher mark in this subject as I have the confident. In the end, WTF!!! I shall appeal for that subject. I can't believe it. :(
I have to get at least 'C+' to get scholarship for this stupid law subject.

WTF!!

Bad dream

Woke up with a bad dream ain't good, especially those make me feel sad. Cause it will affect my mood.

I had a dream which make me feel sad last night. It was mainly about I've not attend the class for a long time as I was so weak. When I'm back to school, I can't remember anything. My class, my seat and what had happen. I feel the sadness when he come to me and said 'I heard about you. They said that you didn't come to school is because you no longer have the heart to study.' I was like 'Yeah, I know what they talk about me.' but I kinda lazy to explain why. And people start can't understand me. They said that you have to say it out then people just know what you thinking. At the moment, I just thought of some friend, even he/she didn't say out anything, you still can understand them.

I woke up and think... Will someday I don't have the heart to study?
And my mood ain't so good because of the dream.....

#ItsGDay

Today is a big day for VIPs, fans of Big Bang. Why? Cause today is the team leader, Kwon Jiyong's birthday. At the age of 24, he can write and compose many pop song and they hit the top chart for several week. All Big Bang songs is written by him. Lies, Haru-haru, Last Farewell and a lot more are still loved by many. Although he's not my bias, but I admire his talent.

His hair style in the first half year of 2011. And he's bald now!

For those who can't recognize him, please visit this site and also view the link given at the bottom of the page. Then I think you can recognize him.. ;)

#ItsGDay today and tomorrow is #BB5thAnniversary

Featuring in EOS again

Oh yeah! I'm so glad that my photo is featuring in EOS world again. :D
Place taken: Permatang Damar Laut
Thanks to my friend who bring me there. A nice place to enjoy the strong wind by the beach. =)

Movies

Went for movies lately. To be more specific, it were comedy movies. It had been a long time I dint watch comedy as I always prefer action movie. ;)
By the way, watching comedy movie is so fun, especially the cinema is just you and your friend. You can laugh as loud as you can. No one care! WooHoo!!
Watched 'The Hangover Part II' with wen wen ooi and 'Zookeeper' with my lovely brother. My next target: Horrible Bosses. YAY!

Random me

I found that I become more and more random lately.
Randomly decide to go to Singapore;
Randomly decide to go to capture photos;
Randomly decide to go to Langkawi;
Randomly decide to go to Kampar.

But this time, mum not allow me to go Kampar. How sad...
Wish to visit Singapore again during end of the year, but now Lek can't make it..
And at the same time, Dory ask me to visit Singapore with Jessica few days later...

Should I go? But I still wish to visit there during end of the year. >~<
If not going Singapore during dec, I don't know what to do after graduate...
If I go now, I also don't know what to do there.. >~<
Any suggestion for me???

很忙的假期

放假已经是第二个星期了，可是怎么感觉上比上课还要忙？！哈哈！这证明了这个假期过的很充实？？LOL!

放假的第一天，依然在赶功课。囧？！那个功课可是花上我马币两百多！更囧！那功课就是摄影！对，没错！就是摄影！钱都是花在洗相片。>< 希望到时分数出来别让我失望就好。

第二天，就出发到Langkawi玩！WooHoo~~~ 在我的记忆里，除了槟岛, 大马其他的岛我都没去过。哈哈！虽然Langkawi很小，但是很好玩！最喜欢的就是Island hoping. 很刺激！我终于知道搭船也会内伤！yeah, I'm serious. 最爱的景色是Tanjung Rhu. 很浅的海……不管你走多远，那水也不会高过你的膝盖！照片依然在编辑中~~~

游玩回来后的时间，不是花在编辑照片就是帮姑姑包饭。虽然已经编辑很多照片了，但是还是剩很多。感觉上会编辑不完。>< 心想：怎么我有时间拍照，可是却没有时间编辑照片？

林先生终于在昨日换公司了！我只是希望新公司会对我们后援会好些。

今天，总算在Harry Potter下影之前看了！第一次待到后面那个team production的字幕重复第二遍才离开。然后才发觉只剩下我一人！哈哈！

假期想去找一个我很久没见到的死党。但老妈说如果要驾车，就得找一个伴。可惜，我却找不到。但，我依然像驾车去~ 怎么办？要说谎吗？><

P/S: 这次去的目的有三个：看看死党最近过得如何(LOL!)，问课程 和 太平湖！

老师尽然like这张！早知道交这张就好~