this is real, this is me.

life is just like a roller coaster ride.

it has its up, and it has its down.

you never know when its up nor down.

and you never know, when is the fright coming.

riding on a roller coaster, gives you excitment and fright.

those feelings that you can never get.

life is exactly the same.

sometimes, your life is just down.

while sometimes your life is just up.

its so unpredictable.

every roller coaster track you had been,

are all differently built and designed.

just like life again.

everyone's life is different.

their track;route are all different.

you may be lucky to get all smooth sailing roller coaster rides.

but, how many lucky ones out there had taken it?

i doubt there's anyone.

life, does not differ much.

no one's life are so perfect, smooth.

there's sure up and downs.

and, someday, sometime, it will stop.

just like the roller coaster you are riding,

it will stop in the end.

no more fright, no more downs, no more up.

but, there's one thing you got from the ride.

you enjoyed fully. you gained expriences through the ride.

indeed, everything will end one day.

if there's a beginning, there will always be an end.

and indeed, life is just like a roller coaster ride.

hurry get well soon!

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10:29 PM

the girl sitting on the swing is smiling.
the girl getting back her extreme good results is smiling.
your friend smiled happily when you said hi to her/him.
the girl joking happily is smiling widely.
the girl is smiling sweetly.
the girl is smiling happily.
is that her real smile?
OR,
is that her fake smile?
is she wearing a mask or is she not?
keeping a smile on your face is difficult.
trying hard to smile when you are feeling down, is indeed hard.
we faked a smile, so as not to let anyone worry.
we faked a smile, so as not to let anyone know.
we faked a smile, because we want to let others know, we are fine.
smile; is a rather important emotion to change your expression.
smile; is indeed an inexpensive way to change your look.
smile; allows other people smile with you too.
you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
or maybe,
because of your smile, people feel happier.
because you are smiling.
fake a smile?
or smile the real smile?
its hard at times indeed.

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9:11 PM

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

2:42 PM

sometimes, a hectic life,

deserves a break.

everyone is busy fulfilling their commitments,

doing their work,

burying their heads towards their work.

however, they often forgot that they need a break.

B R E A K?

does this word come into your dictionary?

sometimes, we wish to have a break,

but time disallows us.

the steps are tiring, heavy, stressful.

and sometimes,

we really just need a break.

__________________________________________

having to let go something that you wished you dont.

having to drift away from something you wished you dont.

having to get hurt by something you wished you dont.

having to bother, think of something you wished you dont.

having to accept the fact that things are changing, that you wished it didnt.

this feelings,

sucks or not sucks?

it sucks.

i dont wanna fight no more.

i am tired.

wished things arent changing.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

12:33 AM

The Future is not a Dream

the road seems like a dream path,

with no lights, no nothing.

it just seems so dark with no signs.

no leading way, no directions.

no idea where to head, no idea where am i heading.

its time to wake up from the dream path.

its time to decide where to head to.

its time to fix the direction.

its time to shine the light.

its time to brighten up the dark road;path.

its time to lead the path.

its time to be determine.

its time to stop dreaming.

because,

the future is not a dream.

but, can i?

doubtful.

words that cant be expressed...

sighs.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

7:35 PM

when out of the whole picture,

what you see its only the small little portion.

when you are only given one minute,

when you are only given one wish,

which portion of the picture would you like to see?

and when out of the whole picture,

only one portion is perfect...

she just wishes she can have more time in a day.

she wishes whatever she wished come true.

she really misses you a lot. :(

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

12:09 PM

Random

when you need a friend, who you wish will be there?

close friend, or normal friend?

when you need a friend, but your friend is busy,

what will you do? how will you feel?

and when your friend is free,

and when you had already found another friend to talk out to,

and when you have no more mood to say it again...

seeing your friend actually dont need you,

seeing actually without you, everthing is still the same.

seeing actually you make no difference.

seeing actually you could no longer hold onto it,

seeing actually you aint strong anymore,

seeing you actually dropped a tear,

and seeing you actually have nothing..

nothing much left to say.

maybe that's the best of me.

maybe i just needed that trust.

maybe...

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12:49 AM

When

when other people are running, while you are walking.

when other people are ahead of you,
yet you are still lacking behind.

when other people are ahead of you,
and the world left only you.

when the lights on the path you are walking shuts off suddenly.

when you are lying on the bed, thinking of dying.

when you are alone, thinking why is it so.

when you look down the building,
thinking if you just end your life like this,
how many regrets will you have?

when you look up to the sky,
and what you see are the gloomy dark clouds.

when you needed help,
but yet people just ignored and reject you.

when you want something so badly,
that you cant sleep at night.

when you feel so hurtful,
that you wish to let it go,
but you cant.

when the road you are walking, are all dark...

when all these happen,
what are you gonna feel, do?

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:27 PM

Blurred

imagine your front is blurred,

imagine your sight is a blurred image.

imagine your road are all blurred,

that you cant even see clearly,

that you tried wiping off, shining it to make it not blur,

that you wish there is a shine of light guiding you.

have you ever walk with hopes,

and that it all turned into a blurred situation, image?

and that you have no idea why?

have you ever wish you know everything.

why it happened?

why it occurred?

why is it like this?

but its all blurred, left hidden?

sometimes, the image is blurred,

the smile you had in the picture may be fake,

may be blurred,

that you cant figure out whether its real or fake.

everything is b l u r r e d.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:30 PM

sometimes, leaving silently may be a better choice?

sometimes, keeping everything in your heart,

not saying it out, may be a better choice?

sometimes, acting as if you know nothing,

may be a better choice?

sometimes, acting numb may be a better choice?

sometimes, holding back your tears may be a better choice?

sometimes, faking a smile may be a better choice?

because, you wish the person have the happiness.

because, you wish nothing change.

because you are afraid that things may change,

and yes, sometimes it does.

because, what you did is to earn the smile.

because, its hard to open the mouth to say.

because, you are afraid of saying it out.

because, you dont wish to hurt other people,

but who knows,

you are actually hurting you, yourself, and only you.

crying, tearing silently, where nobody knows.

its hard not to look back,

look back at the footsteps you had left,

look back at the fun moments you had,

look back at the memories you had created.

but all these are a mark now.

happiness; is it that important?

maybe it is.

sometimes, leaving, letting it go,

may be a better choice...

for the happiness it is.

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12:28 PM

saw a phrase in a magazine.

it reads:

"I've often been the one who took care of the other person.

But now I've learnt to take charge! I want to be appreciated too. "

have you often take care of a person?

have you often think of others before yourself?

have you often put others' needs before yours?

have you often help others even those things are those you never did before?

have you often help others just to earn the smile of theirs?

one sometimes tends to act strong,

but inside it, he/she is weak.

one sometimes tends to act strong in front of others,

one sometimes may be the happy, cheerful, crazy person in front of everyone,

but, look into her/his eyes,

you will see tears.

you will see the sadness, troubles, worries piling up inside the heart,

all left unsaid.

you may ask, why not say it all out?

one possible reason/answer;

he/she dont wish their friends to be sad,

he/she thinks that no one will listen.

who dont wish to be appreciated?

but sometimes, if you dont say,

the person wont know.

wont know whether is she/he appreciated,

whether is she/he important.

maybe those are my feelings. o.o

somtimes, somethings are always left unsaid.

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11:02 PM

time; seems to be passing verrryyy slowly.

time; pass superbly fast when you wish it to go slowler.

time; pass superbly slooww when you wish it to go faster.

it always go against to what you want.

time; it wont go fast or slow for you.

time; wont stop for you.

but when you are all alone, bored, staring at the time,

going tick tock tick tock....

it seems so slow.

hais. :(

hurry hurry hurry zoommmm to next week. o.o

a life without friends is just like a life without sun.

booooooo!

randomner is bored ttmmmmMMM.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

4:16 PM

sometimes,

you invested this much,

but you realised,

you dont actually get back the same 'much'.

weird phrasing?

but it's quite true.

think about it,

you treat someone well,

will that someone treat you back equally well?

worth to ponder. :)

sometimes, letting it go before it hurts is a better choice,

but we people, usually let it go when we already get hurt.

why?

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:54 PM

i want to take nice pictures,

i want to capture those happiness down,

i want to capture those moments down,

i want to take many many pictures,

people, sceneries, objects and everythinggg.

only if i owe a camera for myself.

1-way, 2-says, 3-words, 4- youuuu.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:16 PM

My Day...

met up with amantha at around 12pm plus at lot one,

bussed over to my grandmother house for some baking session.

what i can say is fun fun fun. :)

before heading to my grandmother's house,

went to coronation plaza to buy some baking stuffs,

and get my photos printed.

started baking after our lunch.

as you can see from the picture up there,

yes, we baked mostly chocolate chip cookies.

after baking, wanted to cycle around.

butttt, one of my bicycles' tyre was deflated.

so yeah, cant cycle.

sooo, went to the playground and played swings etc.

then, my cousin came and we played together.

around 6 plus, we then busseddddd home.

it was a fun time spent.

maybe i should stop being so philosophical. o.o

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:58 PM

whyyyyyyyyyyyyy?

i want to ask many many whys.

but who can i ask?

many things left unsaid.

hais.

:((((

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:43 PM

When...

think about the times,

when there is only one swing,

when there is only you,

when you are feeling so lonely,

when you are feeling bored,

that you never ever had experienced this b o r e d o m before,

and never ever want to.

when you wish there are more than one swing around you,

when you wish you aint feeling bored,

coz you know feeling bored is so not good.

when you wish when you are bored,

there are people out there to entertain you,

but your friends are so so so busy,

and completely have no time to entertain you.

when you wish you aint alone,

coz you hate the lonliness.

when you wish when you are feeling lonely,

your friends around you are by your side.

when you wish while you are having fun,

people are having fun with you too.

BUT,

sometimes, there is only one swing, one you.

walking through that,

its so terrible, so hard.

and that, you have to find your own entertainment,

to let you feel not bored.

entertain?

you ask a friend to entertain you?

you are treating them as a clown?

entertaining might not be the meaning of clown.

chatting is sufficient sometimes,

and this is a form of entertainment.

letting one knows, one is not alone,

at least, someone out there is aware of your boredom, aware of your lonliness.

how good is that?

BUT,

people tend to say, ' learn to be independent'

maybe i should.

but, its so so damn difficult. :(

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

12:39 AM

Promise

have you ever made a promise?

alright, that question is simply retard and dumb.

or should i ask in another manner,

have you ever made a promise and broke it?

i am much confident to say yes.

many make promises, but broke it.

why?

you asked, and what you get back are all those usual reasons, craps.

well, sometimes broken promises are unintentional.

but, if you think you cant fulfil this promise,

why promise in the first place?

friends forever; a promise to your friend.

but, anything could happen.

this promise you made, will somehow or rather be broken.

due to what? maybe quarrels? who knows.

why some friends are meant to be close friends?

why some friends quarreled, and never be good friends anymore?

why some friends are only meant to be hi-bye friends?

why some friends, we will never ever talk to?

time is the greatest test for everything.

time allows things to change,

but if you can maintain it,

you realised you had already beaten the time.

found this picture, which is very true. ;)

well, at least i try to keep that little promise.

hmmm, my post is talking about friends every now and then.

reading my friend's blog,

its also talking about friends. hahas.

maybe, friends is very important in our life. :)

that's for now!

only if everyday can be like today... (:

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:10 PM

you reap what you sow.

interesting and true sentence.

hmmm, got back my promo results yesterday.

its not really good but was satisfied with what i have got.

the most surprising was my history.

initially, before entering the room, or should i say,

after finishing the exam paper,

i told my friends, i am so gonna fail that paper.

and oh my gosh, to my surprise, i passed.

yeah, surprisingly.

i thought i did wrongly for one question and the other question,

i did not really write a lot in it. so ya.

the most wasted part was my chem.

half a mark more to get a B.

look how close is it.

but teachers wont be going through the papers, so no half marks. :(

got a B for phy. haha. first time. thanks to my phy teacher. =D

however, maths was rather quite disappointing.

did many practices for it but in the end only get a grade D.

but well, at least its a pass.

hmm, finally this post is not a philosophical post. haha.

schools ending real soon.

but many activities with my class are coming up i guess?

hope so. haha.

sometimes when you lost something,

you will never ever get back.

so treasure it where you can.

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You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:03 PM

Life as a jigsaw puzzle

have you ever notice that life is actually like a jigsaw puzzle?

no idea of what your finished puzzle will look like,

is just like no idea of what your future will be like.

one piece by one piece..

one step by one step towards your finished puzzle,

towards your future.

if one piece of puzzle is put wrongly, your whole puzzle wont be beautiful.

just same as life; our future.

just one wrong step, will your future still be as beautiful as what you wish?

still as smooth sailing as what you hope?

it may be a yes, it may be a no.

that's life.

if only your life can be as peaceful as the sea tide, calming and nice.

if only your mind is full of dreams to be accomplished,

instead of worries polluting your mind.

if only whatever you dreamed, wished, hoped for, comes true.

if only your life is so perfect, with no mistakes, no scars, no nothing,

if only you could turn back, but you know the road is so straight,

that you cant, even U-turn back.

if only you could turn back time,

go back to the memories you want,

go back to the fun moments you wish,

everything will be so perfect, so sweet.

but, unfortunately, sadly, we cant.

that's why its call life.

life is full of up and downs,

full of excitment, where you have no idea what's going to happen next.

just like jigsaw puzzle.

need a hard time to find the correct puzzle,

put it on,

beautiful piece of puzzle awaits you.

and who knows, how tough is it looking for just one...

just one, it may affects everything...

how long will the smile last?

i wonder...

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10:46 PM