Missions

You'd think that since in the last 8 months most of my good friends have left on missions I would be fine saying goodbye to Joseph. After one of the funniest RA meetings of my life (it lasted an hour and a half, and it should've been about 20 minutes) Kourtney and I were off to our boys place to wish Jacob a Merry Christmas and to say goodbye to Joseph. Now. If you remember (or maybe I never put it on here) Joseph, Kourtney and I are each others favorites, so saying goodbye to him was like tearing out part of my soul. The three of us talk all the time and about everything. When something is bothering us, the others recognize it but they don't push for the info. We always know what is going on with each other. Kourt does haven't to say goodbye here, they live like 2 hours away from each other and they are getting together with Braedon over break, but tonight was my chance to say goodbye. We were in the kitchen, Kourt left, and Jacob was there, so Joseph and I started saying goodbye. It was pretty much the dumbest thing ever, and I hated it. The killer was that I've only known him for 3 1/2 months. What the crap?

I swore to myself before I moved into my building that I was not going to hang out with the freshman boys because of this very thing- I hate becoming really good friends with someone just to have him leave for two years. I love that my friends are serving missions, but now I've got to find someone else to talk to when things are going wrong. After we left, we texted each other and decided that we are going to talk tomorrow morning, so we can actually talk before he leaves. Neither of were ready to face the reality tonight that it could be the last time we see each other (he's probably not coming back to BYU after his mish, his program isn't the greatest here). I guess tomorrow we'll see if we can face it.

The good news... is that Kourt and I get to face it together, and without the rest of our roommates here. They all left today, and they have no clue how the two of us are going to feel when Joseph is gone.