~ HoPiNg FoR a MiRaCle ~: August 2004

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Today we had Teachers' Day celebration in sch... In the morning, we had a workout which i din participate at all... Den it was lesson for an hour & den celebration... Some performances were great but others damn boring... Anyway, was only looking forward to the events after the celebration... Haha... Bought a cake with my gf yesterday night juz for today... & we had so much snacks... Spent 1 hour ++ sitting there eating those stuffs... Only half the class was there (which is 6 ppl) & when the others left, Huili, Melvin, Karlu & me continued eating... Finished 7 big packets of snacks & feeling damn full & feel like throwing up now... Haha... But we had so much fun! Maybe find one day after 'A' level & enjoy again. Haha...

1:57 PM

Jie Kou --- Jay Chou

fan zhe wo men de zhao pian
xiang nian ruo yin ruo xian
qu nian de dong tian
wo men xiao de hen tian
kan zhe ni ku qi de lian
dui zhe wo shuo zai jian
lai bu ji ting jian
ni yi zou de hen yuan
ye xu ni yi jing fang qi wo
ye xu yi jing hen nan hui tou
wo zhi dao shi zi ji cuo guo
qing zai gei wo yi ge li you shuo ni bu ai wo
jiu suan shi wo bu dong
neng bu neng yuan liang wo
qing bu yao ba fen shou dang zuo ni de qing qiu
wo zhi dao jian chi yao zou shi ni shou shang de jie kou
qing ni hui tou
wo hui pei ni yi zhi zou dao zui hou
jiu suan mei you jie guo
wo ye neng gou cheng shou
wo zhi dao ni de tong
shi wo gei de cheng nuo
ni shuo gei guo wo zong rong
chen mo shi yin wei bao rong
ru guo yao zou
qing ni ji de wo
ru guo nan guo
qing ni wang le wo

5:18 PM

Relieved...

Last week was a really lousy week for me... But lucky for me, the problems are solved... Still feeling a bit sad but not a serious matter.... Had KFC for lunch with Ting Feng & Melvin after sch today. Finally satisfy my craving which i had for almost 2 weeks... Haha... I guess now must really concentrate on studies liaoz... GP prelims only this Thursday!! Then after the 1 week "holiday", it'll be the other papers liao... For everyone who's taking any exams now, GOOD LUCK!!! All the best!!!

4:41 PM

My heart hurts so much i think it's gonna bleed...

Putting on a brave-front in front of the BIG BIG world is such a difficult thing to do. I'm lucky to be a girl... To be able to breakdown occasionally in front of the ppl i trust & not be laughed at... Life is full of irony... U practice certain principle & defy it nonetheless... We promised not to let other ppl's problems affect our friendship, but wat is happening now? Is friendship another trade-off? U trust me to keep ur secrets but wanna know other ppl's secrets... U call that betrayal... U're disappointed with me & so am i... I was wrong to let the cat out of the bag in the past & i dun wanna let history repeat itself, & so, i kept quiet. Was i wrong to do that? I dunno anymore... This is such a cruel world.. I guess that's why they always say "Life is never a bed of roses"... But the irony is, roses have thorns & to get pricked by it is damn painful. Somehow... It explains life... I admit i had a bad childhood, wishing for things to turn out better in the future... But the journey is never easy... It is never easy... For me...

2:05 PM

To whom it may concern...

U were upset with me for telling someone something that is meant for my ears.
U are upset with me now for not telling u something that is meant for my ears.
Silence embraced & i feel uncomfortable.
Not even a smile from u when we bid good-bye...
No matter what's the case, i'm in a lose-lose situation...
Tell me whether there's a way out for me...

6:53 PM

Guilty...

This morning i spoke to my mum in a very harsh tone as i was in a hurry to leave for sch... Now i'm feeling damn bad about it... Although my mum won't be reading this, i'd juz like to apologize to her... I'm sorry... I should've thought about ur feeling b4 i used that tone on u...

5:46 PM

Had migraine for the past 4 days... Not a very good feeling... Wake up every morning wishing that i dun hafta go to sch but wat to do... Prelims coming & i dun wanna miss sch... Din wanna eat Panadol as i received an email stating the negative effects of it a few days ago. But in the end, i succumbed to the temptation as i really cannot tolerate the pain any longer... Well, went for CIP on sat at Causeway Point. Stood for 5 hours selling flag... But slack for an hour or so to go hav breakfast with a friend. Oh, & i din know that u'll get $2 for selling flag. Used to be $1... Haha... Anyway, met a lot of funny ppl... Also, i met a fren that i din see for a very long time...

7:26 PM

Surprised...

I passed my Maths Saturday test! Finally... YEAH!!!

6:44 PM

Today is a damn hot day... Went to bathe immediately when i reached home, which is an unusual thing that i do. Coz i like to bathe at night so that i can hav the whole bathroom to myself u see... Haha... Well, today is Geog day again. Had 4 hours of Geog & 2 hours of Maths. Lucky the Geog teacher din go thru the mid-year paper or else i think i hafta do penalty assignments again... Mr Leong, my Maths teacher was super lame today... Really damn funny... Those in his lecture group should know wat i mean... Haha... Even during tutorial he's oso so lame... Haiz... Tmr we're gonna hav a Geog test again on urban heat island. Think i better go find a case study. Prelims coming too... 1st paper's on the 2nd of Sept & my last paper's on the 21st of Sept... Sianz... There's no rest for the other papers, all on consecutive days... Think i'm gonna mug like hell... But wat to do... For all those out there preparing for the prelims, GOOD LUCK!

5:01 PM

Tarzan!

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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2:34 PM

I hate irresponsible ppl...

Yesterday i was juz commenting on someone in my class being irresponsible. That someone collected a few of my classmates' CCA forms which are supposed to be handed in yesterday. Then, that someone was absent on that day. Well... The same thing happened to me today. I lent my GP mindmaps to another someone in my class & that someone din come. So in the end, i've to explain to my GP tutor where my mindmaps went to... I didn't want to lend my mindmaps to that someone in the 1st place coz i was afraid this might happen but that someone reassured me that he will be present... But in the end, wat i'm afraid of came true. U might think how come i'm so angry over this small matter but it juz my principle in life that one should be responsible for his or her actions & even for others. Anyway, this had affected my mood for the whole day & even the sight of "shuai ge" can't appease me...

3:28 PM

Today Mr Leong my Maths teacher din come to sch coz his wife has given birth to a girl... So in the end for his Maths tutorial, we had to join Mrs Kwang's tutorial class with our dear 217 ppl... Well... her lesson was really damn boring as the pace was really slow. Somemore she kept insulting my class. She asked us wat combi we take & we said "Maths, Econs, Geog". Then she said "oh, arts class". Then she commented that we ppl from arts class got attitude problem... What the... Then she said till like my class Maths really lousy, which is not true! It's lousy but not like the lousy that she claims to be... Anyway, after her lesson, we need to join another lecturer's lesson for Maths. This time was Mr Sim, which turns out to be quite ok. But i really do hope that Mr Leong come back faster...

7:00 PM

I'll Never Break Your Heart --- Backstreet Boys

[Spoken:]
Baby, I know you're hurting
Right now you feel like you could never
Love again
Now all I ask is for a chance
To prove that I love you

From the first day
That I saw your smiling face
Honey, I knew that we would
Be together forever
Ooh when I asked you out
You said no but I found out
Darling that you'd been hurt
You felt like you'd never love again
I deserve a try honey just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in, you were so quick to judge
But honey he' s nothing like me

[Chorus:]
I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey, that's no lie
[2x]

As time goes by
You will get to know me
A little more better
Girl that's the way love goes baby, baby
And I (I) know you're afraid (know you're afraid)
To let your feelings show (feelings show)
And I understand
Girl, it's time to let go (girl, it's time to let go because)
I deserve a try (try) honey
Just once (once)
Give me a chance (chance) and I'll prove this all wrong (wrong you walked)
You walked in, you were so quick to judge (quick to judge)
But honey he's nothing like me
Darling why can't you see

[Chorus (2x)]

[Bridge:]
No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)
I swear (Oh I, oh I, I swear)
No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)

[Chorus (3x)]

10:17 AM

This morning went to hav breakfast with my gf at admiralty's McDonald's... Think the Mc there damn lousy... Wanted to drink tea but they ran out of styrofoam cup! Grrr... So i ended up drinking iced Milo... Remember a few days ago when i wanted to eat apple pie & they ran out of it too... My gf wanted hot fudge sundae & again, they dun hav the hot fudge liao... Anyway, after that went to sch for GP test. On the way there, i kept whining as i dun feel like walking & taking the test... But we went anyway.... Listened to my GP tutor's instruction to do the AQ 1st as i always cannot finish... But in the end, i can't finish the rest of the qn... Haiz... After the test, i went home with my gf... She was very happy coz she saw her ___.... Haha... 2 weeks nvr see my bf liao : (... Juz want him to know that i miss him...

5:21 PM

Today dunno wat's wrong with my math tuition teacher. He used to talk so much in every lesson but today, he's damn quiet... Can't get used to him being so quiet so i asked him whether he's alright not & he actually ignored me!!! Well... Theresa & i couldn't take it & kept asking him but till now we still dunno wat's wrong with him... Haha... Hmm... tmr morning going eat breakfast with my gf den go sch for gp test... : )

11:16 PM

Feeling lazy...

Yesterday was quite angry with someone from another class. Apparently, i brought a packet of HL milk to lecture & some blind person came & kicked it. Well... was very pissed as the person did not even apologize... Today, we celebrated National Day in sch. Was surprised to see my ex-classmates (those that graduated last year), Desmond & Wen Rong... They came back to receive award for their a-level result... Cool... The sch made every class buy a cake to celebrate National Day... Anyway, our cake was bought by my CT. A choc cake with strawberry & on it was a msg "214, study hard for the prelims"... Awww.... Then we had a car boot sale set up by the teachers. Bought a SPCA poster & doggie badge from Mrs Guna's stall... What i found interesting was the stall set up by Ms Aminah, Mr Sim the Lit teacher & Mdm Uma. They were auctioning stuffs... Sim was hosting the event & he was damn humorous! Hahaha... Then Aminah like queen lidat... Those 215 peeps were taking turns holding umbrella for her & fanning her... Hahaha...

2:34 PM

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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8:35 PM

Grrr....

Today had a lousy day... Got a timetable that has 4 hrs of Geog on Tue... Den the geog teacher came into class & demand to see those essay & DRQ we're supposed to do for SSP which she said to hand in after National Day. My class ppl & some other class ppl nvr do & BAM!!! we kena another 3 penalty assignment. She got all her deadline mixed up la & yet we got the punishment... Sianz... & i really hate math tutorial S6. So damn difficult! But btw, i do not like statistics in the 1st place... Den i waited 20 mins for my bus. But when it came, it was SO packed that i almost couldn't board. Was almost "kiap" by the door la... Haiz... Gd news of the day is....... We realized that we've a long weekend ahead!! Fri sch's celebrating National Day, Sat & Sun dun need go sch except for GP test, Mon National Day & Tue's HOLIDAY!!!! But too bad... i hafta rush penalty assignment...

8:13 PM

I'm Your Angel --- R. Kelly & Celine Dion

No mountain's too high for you to climb
All you have to do is have some climbing faith, oh yeah
No river's too wide for you to make it across
All you have to do is believe it when you pray

And then you will see the morning will come
And every day will be bright as the sun
All of your fears cast them on me
I just want you to see

[Chorus]
I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel

I saw your teardrops and I heard you cry
All you need is time
Seek me and you shall find
You have everything and you're still lonely
It don't have to be this way
Let me show you a better day

And then you will see the morning will come
And all of your days will be bright as the sun
So all of your fears just cast them on me
How can I make you see?

[Chorus]

And when it's time to face the storm
I'll be right by your side
Grace will keep us safe and warm
And I know we will survive
And when it seems as if your end is drawing near (The end is drawing near)
Don't you dare give up the fight (Oh no)
Just put your trust beyond the skies

[Chorus]

7:11 PM

Feeling clever...

Hahaha.... Never felt so accomplished b4... Changed my template & stuffs like dat... Muz admit i'm a computer idiot. Dunno how to put the com to gd use, only know how to go on net... Hehe... But well... i'm still happy dat i figured out how to do the changes... Thanx to Mel for giving some advice... Now figuring how to put up my tagboard...

6:12 PM