Saturday, January 09, 2010
Helllllllllllooooooooooooooooooo ALL !
I've shifted! If you wish to read my new blog, drop me an sms or just msn me for the blog add! :D
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Hi blog.
Don't know how to describe how I feel.
It certainly didn't feel good to be scolded when you are confiding in someone.
And it certainly didn't feel good to be looked down on.
Somehow, it doesn't feel that same anymore. Maybe its me, maybe its you. I don't know.
There's just no connection.
Its all blurred.
好嘞好辛苦.
On the other hand, tmr's LERM. Should finish studying it now. JIAYOU WEILUAN, if you don't help and be with yourself, no one's gonna be with you.
Friday, December 04, 2009
I guess I just need a channel to channel out all my unhappiness and frustrations.
Maybe it really isn't an important thing at all to think bout and make myself so unhappy. But somehow the significance of it is just so important to me.
4 months = 120 days = 2880 hours = 172 800 minutes = 10 368 000 seconds. Is that long or not? I don't know who to really blame on, myself, you or her. Not that I must blame somebody for it but i just wonder why it turned out like this.
I just feel so confused and gei gao with myself. Why can't you or we get it done in this period of time? Are we really so busy? Or are you really so busy? I am willing to wait for half a year, even more than half a year for it to be done by YOU/US, because it is just so important to me. Whenever I wear it on my wrist, I will remember the significance, of it, of US. and not of somebody else. Now the whole thing is really spoilt, and it isn't a perfect bracelet anymore.
The point is, i told her not to do it, because i wanted you to personally do it. And yet, she can still go touch MY bracelet. MY PRECIOUS BRACELET. I feel like scolding all the vulgarities and stuff to let all the steam out or say some mean stuff, but I can't.
I don't want to make a big fuss out of it in front of you or her. but just want to quietly on my own, in my blog, or whatever be able to at least express my feelings to people or strangers around me, who wouldn't know what is gong on. So in the end i just gotta accept it since its done right?
Actually I even thought of tearing the part out and getting it done by myself, but i guess its just not the same anymore even if i do it.
Maybe it just isn't worth it.
Times like that when my heart & mind contradict each other.
Friday, November 06, 2009
SHOOOOOOOOOOOOO all the bad things & come all the fantastic things ! :D
Over and done with the bad and unhappy stuff :DDD Catering, cake, pictures all settled :D finally having a peace of mind : )))
Had a rather fulfilling day today with clique, bd mates & bibi. Thanks BD mates for the laughters & stories today again! :DD And thanks bibi for being you.
SHOOOOOOOOOO all the -ve stuff. Can't wait for Saturday to come :)
Thursday, November 05, 2009
i'm so tempted to do it
but i know i shouldn't
if i do
i'm sorry
i can't handle another heartbreak
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
Just came back from shopping for decorations with the sally&ting. :)) I'm sure the decorations will turn out really nice cos I've confidence in them. Thank you very much for helping me with the decorations and really went out more than twice with me to shop for it. Actions really speak louder than words.
In the midst of preparing my birthday party, I have this sudden urge to give it all up. Its just 2 days away, and I wonder to myself, how am I going to enjoy this birthday. Maybe this will be the last birthday I ever want to celebrate anymore.
Still many things left undone, caterer, pictures and songs to choose. I feel like giving them all up and have no mood or energy to continue worrying or choosing them anymore.
Don't wish to go to school tmr but there is BD meeting tmr. Don't wish to go to Chiu's party but have to go because its her birthday. Don't wish to attend my own 21st anymore, but I spent so much. I just want to lie down and fall into a deep deep sleep... Good night people...
I have unlocked my blog! Because I don't really see the point of me locking up, anyway I do not blog much personal stuff and a lot.
Just visited some people's blogs and saw one of ting's post. Hahaha. I have the same sentiments as you. :( I wish I can have it back too. :(((
Chalet date is drawing near, and I do not know why I'm feeling so stressed and worried instead of happy haha. I worry about the seats, food, drinks and cake, whether it is sufficient. The decorations, will I get to finish them up on time, the album, photo montage, whether I can get it delivered, the makeup artist, whether she will do a nice make up for me, etc etc.
I think I'm a worrying freak, I need some reasurrance from Bibi that everything will go smoothly and well. And even if it doesn't, he'll be there to help me out or be with me. :(((
Working at Bugis for FLYER and shopping for decorations with beloved ting&sal tmr! BYEE. Oh & I've dyed my hair!
the fat beef note book i bought for bibi.
handsome bibi!
in the salon!
the final product, not very obvious though!
Sunday, November 01, 2009
the fat beef note book i bought for bibi.
handsome bibi!
in the salon!
the final product, not very obvious though!
shuai shuai de bibi
lol, i think this pic is cute
the key parents bought for me
this is from mummy, i wanted ask popo and aunty get me a ring cos i already ahve bracelet from bibi's mum. But they insisted getting a bangle for me lol.
the bangle from them
bracelet from bibi's mum 