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Friday, July 9, 2010 @12:42 PM

It just struck me that I'll miss these days.

3.30 in the morning. Slipping down picnic mats. Bread and cheese and sausages. Photoshooting on hilltops. Arguing over the price of satay in kajang.

Uncomplicated hours.

Bananas in fruit baskets. Ants on the picnic mat. Crickets in butter. Dizzying heights and a long way down. Lamb satay at RM1.20.

Don't you see? Life is balance - life will work itself out.

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 #1
epic clouds. we left at an insane time in the morning and climbed through the forest in pitch black. but wouldn't you know it - nobody managed to catch the sunrise.

#2
broga hill was crowded like a tourist area. as we were sitting by the roadside, this little girl came and walked right by us. we cheered her on. this caption is completely unrelated to the photo.

#3
the view down. there were random little townships scattered around below the hill! and the lalang was pretty. =)

#4
food! because what is the point of climbing all the way to the top if there is no food to eat up there? jason carried a basket of bananas. fortunately, no gangster monkeys appeared. the rest of us brought up sandwich materials, nachos, drinks and apples.

#5
and then we started camwhoring.

#6
but actually the guys started first! and they have many many many photos of themselves posing on top of boulders. 

#7
the guys with their future album cover. 'the bragas'. don't ask why. hey I just realised the cloud looks like a bird flying!

#8
us. and our boulder. <3

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here's to friends, food, and broga hill! cheers.

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Tuesday, June 1, 2010 @1:10 AM

this is for myself - in case this trip we are planning doesn't actually turn out the way we imagine. =)

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TAMAN NEGARA
Endau Rompin, Pahang
(not on a pulau)


















jason says:
 yes
 its on a pulau
 that's what i rmb frm geografi

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random websites say:

Enter the jungle with a sense of respect and humility. Be as quiet as possible to avoid alarming other beings.

Tiger balm, iodine or medicated menthol oil (Minyak Cap Kapak) will also get leeches off. High-pitched screaming!!! doesn't seems to affect them much.


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Syn D says:
 what happened to roaming the jungles, warding off leeches with tiger balm?
 we get basics of what stuff we can do there, rough it out in the wild.
 Rowen! says:
 with the leeches and the other beings? =(
jason says:
 yes! especially the leeches!
 how horrible!
 n u cant scream!
 it might alarm other beings!
 then u have leeches AND other beings
 ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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Friday, May 7, 2010 @3:39 PM

Orang Cina Malaysia, apa lagi yang anda mahu? 
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=(

what do you want?

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Tuesday, December 1, 2009 @6:46 PM


najib talked to me!

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Monday, September 14, 2009 @12:30 AM

ignorance and indifference
will be the death of us.

am. so. angry.

why?

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Friday, May 8, 2009 @7:30 PM


Right about NOW, it is 7.32 pm.

I am so tired of waiting I'm not even freaked anymore. o.0

Malaysia Boleh lah.

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1.12 am



right. so at least the waiting was fun.

***

love charlene's reaction.
'truly we're all meant to stay together'

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Friday, April 17, 2009 @7:26 PM

The hurried, unexplained change of both prosecution and judge before the trial;

The delayment in verdict till the conclusion of the UMNO General Assembly and the election of the new UMNO President/Malaysian Prime Minister;

The release and immediate recantment of a statutory declaration by P. Balasubramaniam and his subsequent disppearance;

The disappearance of immigration records;

The use of goverment-controlled explosives;

The acquittal of Razak Baginda without any need for a defence due to insufficient evidence;

The avoidance of any mention of Najib Tun Razak within the court;

The suppressment of evidence by both the prosecution and the defence to protect the establishment;

The ban on the use of the name Altantuya Shaariibuu.

Now

Two police bodyguards who had absolutely NO MOTIVE to murder a Mongolian model have been convicted and sentenced to death.

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I don't pretend to know much about law, or politics.

But I know I am sad, I know I am scared, and I know I am angry.

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Wednesday, February 25, 2009 @12:55 AM

Program Latihan Khidmat Negara

KEM KHIDMAT NEGARA PUTRA-PUTRI, ALOR GAJAH, MELAKA


Rowen! says:
I think I found my camp
Rowen! says:
it's in a freaking jungle

Rowen! says:
wonderful
Rowen! says:
it's 1.7 km into the kebun kelapa sawit

Jun Wen! says:
Even if you managed to escape from that camp, you might not be able to make it out alive.
yc says:
hahaha

Malaysia Boleh

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Wednesday, December 17, 2008 @10:10 PM

Malacca
my birthplace!
also now, 5sc1 class graduation trip.

Day 1 : Wed, 10.12.2008

The journey there flew by - I am sure we were hyper. Stopped at a food court in Seremban. There were kittens! My cat is fat. Believe it or not, Telon was a kitten once.

Checked in at Hallmark Hotel. Took over the lobby! Switched off the lift lights! We are so mature.

Roomed with Gowrie, Jia Wei and Maxine. There was a cemetery outside the window. What a view. Wonder if we should have fought for a discount. I mean, you pay more for good view right?

Headed out to Jonker Street!

Cheng Hoon Teng was beautiful. It really, really was. This coming from someone who generally does not notice these kind of things. Cheng Hoon Teng was solemn, grand, intricate.

Proof.

I am not a religious person. I won't point fingers; this is a result of my upbringing and myself. Belief, and faith, and tradition are foreign. For me, religion - belief - is a personal choice for other people I don't pretend to understand. So when I watched a fortune-telling ritual at the temple (I was excited because I remember learning about it in chinese tuition) my first reaction was I want to play! Syn Dee & Lung Wang, immediately, 'This is not a game! You cannot play!' Oh. Fortune-telling. Okay. No offense intended to anyone. I just found it an amusing incident.

One of the many on Jonker's Street. This is the Hokkien Society. I've always known about their existence but I've also always imagined them as dull grey buildings. Glad to see I'm wrong. Apparently old men come for the night life. Karaoke. Very happening. =)

I guess it had to happen. It did. I called Jason. He said, very happily, 'Wait - let me guess. You're lost!'

I have no idea what Yee Wei and I were doing. I know Jun Wen was waiting. The rest of the group moved on. We followed the wrong people, turned the wrong direction, and got ourselves really hungry for lunch by walking damn far away.

lunch! chicken rice balls! interesting concept =)

Thank the stars for Jun Wen. Yee Wei plus Ju Vern equals lost. I have no idea how he found the restaurant. As soon as anyone starts saying 'first junction turn right until you see a small lane' my brain shuts down.

After lunch we wandered a few more shops along Jonker's (they all sell the same things loh) then we went to find cendol. The cendol had sago! Yay. I like. Jun Wen doesn't. He ate Ais Kacang. Met up with the guys at the hotel later. Their achievements: Cendol. And Sunglasses.

Wandered off to Dataran Pahlawan. Looked at clothes. They were still expensive. Dinner at Newton's Food Court. If you feel like we haven't stopped eating, I think so too. All us girls randomly met up! And had dinner together! Guys disappeared. They bought apples. Three went to watch Twilight.

eesh. I am blocking menyi. sorry!

After that we went to a mamak. You see. We don't stop eating. Interesting topics of conversation. Among them were proposals, and lip-reading. =P

At the hotel (this is around 2 am) Gowrie and I debated on how to enter our room (Jia Wei and Maxine were fast asleep) without getting scolded. In the end we went in and woke both of them up anyway. After listening to a lecture in our kidnapped lecture hall (Lester's room) we were supposed to go back to bed but were distracted by Hoe Yan's room. I ate an apple. We um stayedupallnight. Yay. (*points to Jun Wen, Gowrie, Hoe Yan, Yee Wei, JB Cindy and Syn Dee*)

Day 2 : Thu, 11.12.2008

Discovered loss of Jia Wei and Maxine after Syn Dee called. And here we thought they would be concerned by our absence. Our beds were untouched and they didn't find that at all worrying! Anyway they had gotten up early for a morning walk and were refreshed and happy after a full night of sleep. (ie. we were not reprimanded for waking them up! *throws confetti*)

Wandered Malacca being tourists from Singapore. We seriously didn't look local, what with the cameras and the uniform and the sunglasses! Visited Stadhuys, Christ Church, St. Paul's Church, The Ship, Maritime Museum, and Klebang Beach. (I didn't know the beach had a name. We missed the sunset.)

I like the symmetry of the photo.
Shut up. I really do.

With Jia Wei in blue sunglasses.
Red building in background was Christ Church. Unfortunately we were mesmerized by the fountain instead.

At St. Paul's Church with Gowrie.
Liked that the tombstone had a heart.

Umbrellas, cannons, and a big stone building.

Salute. And... fire!

The Malacca Tree and a descendant of Parameswara.

Only Singaporeans sit down in a corner of the museum.
(those are our shoes in the plastic bags!)
Photo stolen because I like.

Ship's mast. Because my photography skills rock. I mean, the body of the ship doesn't really matter, right?

Lunch was at BabaNyonya restaurant. Jun Wen traded his eating cendol for my eating vegetables. Can you believe we are comparing cendol to vegetables here?

Yee Wei and Gowrie framed by wispy leaves.

Beach! Wai Zack zoomed into the sea, influenced Sylvester to jump in after him, and pushed Yoong Chieh in too.

Yoong Chieh and gang buried Wai Zack and transformed him into a girl. No pictures. Use your imagination.

We tortured Lung Wang at his request. We tried being paparazzi and the HSM cast. We plotted. We called Jillian. We missed the sunset. I love the water.

Dinner was porridge steamboat. At the hotel, Menyi was sick. The guys were drinking. We played cards. I was taught chinese chess. For the first time, Gowrie and I slept in our beds!

Day 3 : Fri, 12.12.2008

Checked out of Hallmark Hotel. Woke up bleary due to prolonged lack of sleep. Also, it was cloudy. Had a cup of tea (I liked their tea) and bullied Jun Wen into going to search for pineapple tarts with me. Almost dropped my wallet into a drain and did drop my phone onto the road. Haih. BUT we found our pineapple tarts! (They were too sweet.)

Bused over to A Famosa! Water World! It was sunny! I became a shade darker! (Truthfully after staring in shock for a while I decided that I don't mind being a shade darker.)

High-speed slide in extreme foreground.

The high speed seven-storey slide was insane.

The two second drop. You round the bend and the height of the drop takes your breath away - you doubt your life and your sanity. Then you're on the way down and the water is blinding and you have no. more. time. You're at the end, exhilarated, scared, safe. Ready to do it all over again regardless of the climb, the fear. But the two seconds? are never the same again.

And we'll leave that as my description of Water World.
(Ignoring the Lazy River, Wave Pool, Tube Slides and what-not.)

Ah. Dinner in Tampin. Dinner was good chinese restaurant food.

(To those who know what happened that night:
How could we have been so stupid. Till today fear grips me when I walk alone. Stupid doesn't even begin to cover it. I regret every second I walked away.
Thank you, Jason. I credit you for keeping me and my friends safe; I take all the blame. I'm sorry we did that to you. Thank you.)

Moving on.

We found the bungalow after a few false starts. It was beautiful. We didn't murder anything in the bungalow, which I thought was a fantastic achievement. Jun Wen and I stood there in the dark and debated the possibility of a giant squid in the swimming pool. (There were unexplained bubbles.) Wai Zack jumped in and jumped back out. There was no giant squid. The guys played football within the first five minutes of arriving. In the first two seconds, they were forced to cross the road and look for said football.

Bungalow

No giant squid.

We had a prom. It was a glorified dancing class with blur dancers and blur-er DJs. My thanks goes out to Wai Zack and Yee Wei for making sure everyone did dance. My amusement to Yinthong who has great moves. And to the backup hand-clappers, I have nothing to say.

Ooh! Yinthong also makes a great ghost! (Seriously. I was standing in a roomful of people, knew exactly what was happening, and was still chilled. Haih.) Lung Wang makes a less great ghost. (He used a torchlight. Yinthong had her hair. And a white dress. And lighting effects.)

Yee Wei's session, at long last.

What else can I say that I haven't already? I will admit I didn't expect to cry.

Talking was... difficult. It was also a relief. Believe me when I say I meant every word.

My apologies to anyone I missed.

My heartfelt gratitude to anyone who said anything to me or about me.

I know what it's like to wish I wasn't defined by one single word. And that night I was - shocked. amazed. pensive. thoughtful. thankful.

Yoong Chieh and Jason were the first and last people I spoke to. Unconsciously symbolic, I think.

candles

I spent most of the night staring into the candlelight. It was fitting, then, that I chose a matchbox as a momento.

I love fire. I can stare at candlelight for ages. Don't have to think. The blue at the base of the flame. The flickering orange. The translucent quality of the flame. Its impermanence. It's escapism, I swear.

We slept in sleeping bags that night, scattered around the floor of the living room.

Lying there? I couldn't stop thinking.

Day 4 : Sat, 13.12.2008

I woke up spontaneously at 7.30 in the morning in a sleeping bag, mostly because I don't think I slept. Wandered around the house, looking for someone to talk to but no one even opened an eye. Found Jia Wei awake a while later so off we went on a morning walk. By then most people had been forced to consciousness by an alarm clock so Gowrie joined us. Chee Soon wandered alternatively ahead and behind us.

Jun Wen, who apparently abandoned his sleeping bag.
Adrian Tan Jun-Wen what would I do without you?

I like the non-symmetry of this photo. What can I say. I'm easy to please.

I waved at an old man reading the newspaper outside his house! He looked at me like I was mad. Then I walked past him again and he waved back! *happy haha* (Easy to please, remember?)

In the bungalow we sat around blearily with random breakfast items. Panicked over Syn Dee's card. Packed. Threw Poring and Ivan around. (Max are you reading this?) Played cards. Argued over the only bathroom because some genius locked the guys' bathroom up. Wandered around taking photos. Watched early morning cartoons. (Lung Wang!) And... checked out.

Uncle Phang and Syn Dee. We survived thanks to them.

Had lunch at Seremban Siew Pao Empire. Watched prawns jumping for their lives. Bought siew pao which I never got to eat. Emo-ed in the bus. Sang a random Kenangan Terindah. Wrote messages in a bottle. Cried. Arrived. Hugged. Cried some more.

And there we were. Separated. Each to their own destinations and futures.

But hey. We'll always share a past. =)

-the end-
thank you for reading
thank you, too, to everyone who made the class trip what it was

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Saturday, December 13, 2008 @10:27 PM

Back from 4days3nights in Malacca.

Updates will follow sooner or later.

Smile. Ju Vern.

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Monday, December 8, 2008 @1:04 AM


*complains about rain*

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Friday, December 5, 2008 @11:11 PM

What I Did Today


fold paper

it can stand it can stand! do you realise what a miracle that is? it practically defies the laws of physics! and the laws of paper falling down!
RM1 to the first person who tells me what they are. don't don't guess grasshopper like my father did.
the bear sat patiently on my study table with the other bear while I studied for various exams the whole year. they have no names because I didn't name them.


draw my left hand

this is part of my attempt to learn to draw. don't laugh.
hands are half missing because I stood on my hands.

What I Will Do Tomorrow

hang out at my father's clinic

because it's bring your daughter to work day
and my father says I will get sick due to the germs floating around
so yay

go to pahang

because I am patriotic that way
and we must support cuti-cuti malaysia y'know?
I shall 'eat, sleep, and watch the rain'
his quote, not mine

wish me good health people!

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Friday, November 28, 2008 @10:29 AM


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Tuesday, October 14, 2008 @7:00 PM

look what we do in school when we're bored =)
I think pictures of our 'illegal assembly' in the school hall aren't exactly a good idea.

Jia Wei told me not to become a politician! because I'd kena ISA.
boo

(I'm so proud! I can draw a candle!)

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Sunday, October 5, 2008 @12:00 AM


"I'm not scared that the Chinese are smart, for I am also very smart. I'm not scared that the Chinese are hard working, for I am also very hard working. We have bad guys in every ethnic group, and you're cheated simply because you're not smart enough. We must educate young Malaysians to look at things from a positive perspective."

“我不怕华人聪明,因为我也很聪明;我不怕华人勤奋,因为我也很勤奋。坏人是甚么种族都有的,你是因为不聪明才会被別人骗;我们应该教育年轻人正面看待事情。”

"I think, for a better future, all Malaysians should stand up and speak out bravely. The Chinese must defend the rights of the Malays, and the Malays must also defend the rights of the Chinese. Everyone must be properly taken care of."

“我想,为了更好的生活,马来西亚人应该站起来,勇敢地说话。华人要捍卫马来人的权益,马来人也要捍卫华人的权益,所有人都要获得照顾。”

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I heart heart heart Zaid Ibrahim.

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Tuesday, September 30, 2008 @12:00 AM

3 days ago was Raja Petra's birthday.

It feels like forever ago when I discovered in the middle of the night of Teresa Kok's and Tan Hoon Cheng's arrests under ISA. The fear, the dread of what more was to come, the feelings of outrage have not left me.

Now both the women have been released. One is keeping a low profile, the other has just received death threats against her and her family. The irony: the former was 'kept under protection', the latter is now in danger.

Take a moment, I ask you, to think about what the Internal Security Act (Akta Keselamatan Dalam Negeri) means in our country. It gives one man the right to throw another man away for the rest of his life. One signature, all it takes. No judgement, no trial. No burden of proof. No way to defend yourself, no way to prove yourself innocent. All it takes is the cruel intent of one man, one government who does not like any opposition. Or truth.


Think of the Hindraf Heroes who were fighting for an entire race, against a mindset ingrained for half a century. K. Kengadhadran, M. Manoharan, P. Uthayakumar, T. Vasantha Kumar, K. Ganabathi Rao, a nation of people grieve for you as you languish in a detention centre you have no right being in. It heartens me to hear from Marina Lee's account of her visit to Kamunting that they have not chained your spirit. Makkal Sakthi fights on.

Think of Operasi Lalang. The entirely wrong group of people were arrested. The culprits ran free. Malaysia's next prime minister (if things go as he plans) najib tun razak led a massive Malay rally. Fears of violence abound. Of course, he washed his hands of any wrongdoing. People like Lim Kit Siang and Karpal Singh were thrown into Kamunting.

Ask your parents. Anyone who lived through that era of fear, of blatant unapologetic injustice. Ask about Lim Guan Eng, who was thown into jail under the Sedition Act, another act which gives the government power to arrest as they wish. Yet now Lim Guan Eng is Chief Minister of Penang.

Did you know Anwar Ibrahim too has been arrested under the Internal Security Act? So too has he been Deputy Prime Minister of the country. Accused and jailed unfairly for sodomy and treason. Opposition Leader and Prime Minister in-waiting.


But let us think of Raja Petra Kamarudin. He faces detention for the rest of his life under charges of being 'a threat to national security'. Let me show you what he has written, in one of his last articles before being locked away:

Till we meet again, if we do meet again, take care and keep the flame burning. There is still a long fight ahead of us in bringing reforms to this beloved country of ours.

How can this man be a threat to national security? Let me be honest, I have cried for him; many have cried for him. His spirit, his intelligence, his passion for both his country and his religion shine through in every single article he writes. He is not a threat to national security, he is a threat to all the racist, all the corrupt, all the power-hungry traitors who are bringing this beautiful country to ruin. And that is why he is in Kamunting: because he holds so much power, because he holds the hearts of the people, because he is RIGHT.

RPK
we will not forget
stay strong

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Tuesday, September 16, 2008 @12:00 AM

916

The nation watches and waits.


Endgame approaches.

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Saturday, September 13, 2008 @12:41 AM

Seputeh MP Teresa Kok and Sin Chew reporter Tan Hoon Cheng detained under ISA too.

With RPK I had more of resignation - he knew this was coming, he was prepared to face it and he is ready to fight.

Now I am so so angry I want to rant but no one is awake. More than that, I am disappointed and I fear for this country.

How can they do this
How is any of this fair
How can our leaders stand for this
Is there no one with any integrity up there?

why

They are innocent people
How come you can declare them threats to national security
after all you have done
What have they done but stood across the line from you
What, just because you have power you're allowed to arrest them without a trial for the rest of their lives?

SHE'S A REPORTER
SHE WAS DOING HER JOB

What was Ahmad doing at that ceramah?

What are you arresting her for? Reporting words that could cause racial tensions? When HE said the words while she RECORDED them?

why are you killing the messenger?

I am so scared.

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Friday, September 5, 2008 @11:06 PM


This matters.
If you care for our beautiful country
please sign.

We can do this.
We can save ourselves.

click here to sign the petition
click here to read what this is all about

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Sunday, August 31, 2008 @12:00 AM


I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: 'We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal.'

- 'I Have A Dream', Martin Luther King, Jr.

happy merdeka malaysia

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