Breasfeeding nostolgia

I'm planning on weaning Ho'ea from breast feeding and have just started the process today.  He is only 9 months old. I'm doing it earlier than usual because in a little over 1 month, I will be going on a 4 day trip without him for a hula competition and I know that I will not have the time (or the desire) to be pumping every three hours while away.  Not to mention, he is very dependent upon the breast at night, and to help alleviate the stress on his sitter (my mom), it would be best if he was already weaned before then.

BUT, I'm feeling very sad and reluctant that I'm going to be stopping the breast feeding.  Granted, there will be many benefits to stopping, all of which I'm looking forward to, but I can't help but feel sad that this will likely be the last time I'll be breast feeding....ever.  I don't think we have it in us to have another baby.  Our hands are so full with the two boys, I could not imagine another one.  Neither could we financially afford it as well.  So with that said, Ho'ea will very likely be our last.  And everything I do with him, will be...the last time...sigh.

Do I have a lifetime of nostolgia associated with all of Ho'ea's milestones to look forward to? (the last child to breast feed, the last child to go to school, the last child to graduate, the last child to go to college...etc.).

Haven't posted in a photo in a while.  Here is a picture of the boys, taken yesterday, Ho'ea age 9 mos. and Kaua age 2 (almost 2.5).  We celebrated DH's birthday by staying at a hotel that had a really cool kids pool area.  The kids had sooo much fun!