Can't keep up

I feel like the blogging world is slowly fading away. Maybe just for me! But really I have noticed that even the friends I follow don't seem to be writing as much. I think that's due to Facebook, Pinterest, Instagram and well lots of other social media pulling us away from blogging. Life has been good for us and it isn't that I haven't had anything to write about. I think I have just been in a funk and not felt like writing. It goes hand in hand with my goal to live life more this year and be wrapped up in technology less. Or the fact that Bennett is turning 18 months this week and is constantly keeping me on my toes, between getting into cupboards, climbing on any flat surface and running (not walking anymore, too slow for him) around the place. We keep busy with playgroup, storytime at the library, trying new recipes off Pinterest, reading books to Bennett and reading books on my own at night.

This may be a random tangent, but the other day, someone asked me about what some of my biggest accomplishments are. I have been thinking alot about my answer.  The thing that stuck out to me the most was that I said "I am a mom, against all odds." Now I don't think I did anything to deserve to be a mom, certainly not more than anyone else, I don't think being a parent is a guarantee in life or something we are all entitled too. But I do know how bad I wanted it and as hard as it has been to learn, grow, adjust and stretch my abilities to become a mom to Bennett, I am so grateful everyday for the opportunity I have to get to be a mom and not just any mom, but his mom. Watching Bennett grow older and seeing how I really am his whole world right now, makes me realize that this time is so fleeting. Everytime he grabs on to my legs or runs up and wraps his chubby little arms around my neck, I realize that this is what my whole life has been preparing me for. All that time waiting for him to come, I was always so worried about the possibility that I might never be a mom, that becoming a mom was going to be different than I planned, that it would be hard for me. Now I realize, it was never about me. The whole purpose in the waiting, was so that Bennett could come to our family when he was supposed to and to begin the life that he is supposed to live. I am an important part of that life, but I am just a part. He has so much ahead of him and each day I see a little more into his future. His birthmom Cortney did the most amazing, selfless thing that anyone could do by letting go and allowing him to join our family and my greatest hope is that I can be the kind of Mom that she chose me to be for him. He teaches me so much and I truly feel blessed to get to watch him grow and learn, as his mom. Life is good.