Monday, March 30, 2009

back home

I had a wonderful trip to Canada for my Grandma's funeral. I had fun catching up with family some of which I haven't seen for 11 years. Of course I didn't have enough time to really get to know everyone all over again but, it was great to spend time with everyone. We had wonderful laughs, and some beautiful spiritual experiences. Really what more could you ask for.

The funeral was beautiful. My Grandma was beautiful.

In the funeral my Aunt Ann spoke some things she spoke about were traditions. and one thing my Grandma did that I think I will pass on is belief, at least for a time in fairies. I know Sammi would take to this very well, because a while back we were on a walk on the property and saw a toad stool and I mentioned that is where fairies like to come and maybe live. Sammi w/o hesitation, picked up from there and asked when we could make furniture for the fairies, etc. I think it is wonderful to have imagination.

I was sad that Jess and Whitney couldn't come to Canada. Of course I wanted my whole family there. I was so grateful to be able to go up and be there. Hopefully next trip everyone will beable to go and reconnect family ties.

I was able to visit with a friend I knew in Spokane. We met in Cali when Joe and I lived there 10 yrs ago. We moved away about the same time. I have seen Kelly a couple of times since and loved spending time with her and her family. I didn't take pictures darn. We have kids similar ages and they remember each other. It was fun to see her when I got to wait to be picked up from family and go to Canada, and also when I had to wait to go back home. Thanks !

I almost didn't make it home on Sunday. The flight was over booked for a few days in a row, so that made me nervous. All was well.

Ian traveled well, on the planes, and when we were in a hotel as a family he really did well. The first night we got to bed so late after traveling so much he woke up screaming for about 5 min. But did go back to sleep. thank goodness!

My family that I traveled with got stuck in Montana Sunday night and were able to start back today. I know they were all anxious to get back.

I spoke with the kids in the airport to the kids Sunday night on my way home. I started to cry. Johnny had a very emotional night and wanted me home. He was sobbing, and telling me he needed me and couldn't wait for me to get off the plane. Hearing a child sob to you how much they miss and need you is so nice and sad. I really didn't feel like I was gone very long, but 4 days is forever for a kid.

Joe said that never happens for him and I told him his is different. Like when he left today, Tyler screamed several times for Joe to take him and sobbed when he even got close to the car. but when he drove away.... Joe I think had a hard time today leaving, with a child screaming for him. I am glad Tyler did that in a way. To show Joe that he is also loved.

I told Johnny I would give him a big hug when I got in the car when I was talking to him on the phone. I got in the car at the airport and gave everyone a kiss,and told them I loved them and got back in the front seat. Johnny said Mom you told me you would give me a big hug when you saw me next. So I immediately went back and gave him a big squeeze, and all the others. He couldn't keep from smiling most of the way home.

The things I do as a mom are pretty mundane, but I love each of my kids and I know they love me. I am so proud of each of my kids and hope that throughout the years that the love I show them will give them strength to do any thing and be able to show their love for others around them.



I took the kids to the school park and wanted to tell what a cutie Tyler was. Ty was running back and forth on a platform sticking his head out each time and telling me Mama!Fa FUN! I just love how kids speak and express them selves.