aint she cute? lol

Labels: tessa

today is the 5th day of my annual leave =D

well i begins the day with ironing clothes for my family (2big stacks)
den followed by Mac breakfast bought by my mom
den while watching my dvd "zhu guan bao qi" while ironing my clothes
i too 3hrs to iron my clothes..damn sweaty and tiring la
haha

den followed by have a quickie shower
went to 7eleven to help my mom to by 4d
den headed to amk hub..to withdraw $$ and to citibank to collect my credit card
i tot only apply for 1 card ..ended up 4 cards
LOL
mayb due to conversation over the phone cause the misinterpretation
ended up with 4cards
i ask them if wanna cancel its okay right?
they say can keep since it is 3yrs waiver free..but at anytime can just cancel it
haha

i find it funny cos the other time i apply , it somehow got cancelled for no known reason
den now when i reapply again i got 4 cards..weird right
hmmm

but whatever..i just gonna keep it

i went to bencoolen street..to help my sister buy her "gold watch" a vintage one ..it cos mi only 28 bucks!
haha
i see see very long..so very much wanted to buy too..itchy hand la
i bought a silver casio also vintage like of watch hee.its nice
i like silver more LOL!

been for a mini op on 8sept
to remove a seb cyst
still kinda painful over the site though ..but trying to not take any painkiller for it..up till nowi nv take
haha!

Story to live by


There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind.. She hated everyone、except her loving boyfriend.. He was always
There for her. She told her boyfriend、'If I could only see
The world、I will marry you.'


有一位瞎女很討厭自己因為眼睛瞎了。她也討厭每個人，唯一不討厭的是她的男朋友，因為他都常守在她身旁。於是她對她的男朋友說：「如果能讓我看到這個世界，我願意嫁給你！」

One day,
Someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages
Came off、she was able to see everything、including her
Boyfriend.
有一天，有人捐了一對眼精給她。當紗布解開時，她能夠看到一切，包括她的男朋友。


He asked her、'Now that you can see the world、will you marry me?' The
Girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The
Sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected
That. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life
Led her to refuse to marry him.


男朋友問她：「現在你可以看到這世界，你願意嫁給我嗎？」那女孩看了男朋友是個瞎子，他那對蓋上眼皮的眼睛嚇到了她，這是她無法想像。她想：要我嫁給他而一生對他這個樣子，我無法接受。

Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her
Saying: 'Take good care of your eyes、my dear、for before
They were yours、they were mine.'

於是，她的男朋友很傷心的離開她，幾天後寫了字條給她：「親愛的，請你好好照顧你的眼睛，因為它不是屬於你的之前，它是屬於我的。」

This is how the human brain often works when our status changes.
Only a very few remember what life was like before、and who
Was always by their side in the most painful situations.

這也是人的腦會如何做當情況有所變動。只有少許人會記得他或她之前的生活及誰會在身旁當他或她處在困境的時候

Life Is a
Gift

生命是一份禮物

Today
Before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak.

今天，當你要講一句不善之言－－請想想那些無法講話的人

Before
You complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone
Who has nothing to eat.

當你要埋怨食物的味道時－－請想想那些沒有食物吃的人

Before
You complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone
who's crying out to GOD for a companion.

當你要埋怨你的先生或太太時－－請想想那些在向上天哭訴要一個伴侶的人

Today
Before you complain about life - Think of someone who died
Too early on this earth.

今天，當你要埋怨生活時－－請想想那些太早離開人世間的人

Before
You complain about your children - Think of someone who
Desires children but they're barren.


當你要埋怨小孩時－－請想想那些渴望小孩而無能生育的人


Before
You argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or
Sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets.


當你要爭論沒有人清理屋子時－－請想想那些住在街邊的人


Before
Whining about the distance you drive Think of someone who
Walks the same distance with their feet.

當你在哀訴駕駛的路程－－請想想那些同樣的路程以代步的人

And when
You are tired and complain about your job - Think of the
Unemployed、the disabled、and those who wish they had your
Job.


當你很疲備而埋怨工作時－－請想想那些無工作，殘疾的，及那些多麼希望擁有你這份工作的人
But
before you think of pointing the finger or condemning
another - Remember that not one of us is without sin.

當你想要指著人或互相譴責時－－請記得沒有一個人是無罪

And when
depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on
your face and think: you're alive and still
around.


當壓抑的念頭讓你無法振作時－－請你笑一笑想想：你還活著存在世間！
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I PRAY
THIS MOVES AROUND

THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE...




我祈禱這訊息能夠繼續傳至全人類................

Too beautiful not to share...................

yesterday night i read thru her blog..
reading thru her tots and fear, her faith and trust towards GOD
she has alot of fear in her but she has her loving family , great friends who dropped by to draw for her as a form of encouragement for her..
she has gone thru so so so so many things in life though she is only 21
at a young age, having to go through to know her diagnosis, her treatment, chemotherapy, numerous times of central line insertions, post chemo effects of diarrhoea, bloated up due to iv drips,chemo, and many antibiotics...
unable to do many things e.g. walking..(too weak to even walk)
slowly gradually became better, and things finally got better for her
through many physio therapist sessions, and her art therapist taught her to draw to say out her emotions, blogging...etc

when she really gets better
have to go thru stem cell transplant
and go thru high dose chemo piror to it
she gone thru all of it..

but post transplant..i dunno actually what happen..sumthing terrible happed to her
in icu right now...
with all those tubes , ventilators, drips, sedations, catheters attached to her..
it really saddned me..





i pray that she will be getting better everyday..let her be well again , let her grow up into a strong and healthy lady, let her continue her studies, and become a doctor..
GOD protect her, praying that she will be able to survive through this and take away all those pain and fear in her..give her strength to recover..take away all the diseased cells, all evil bugs away..

may u get well i pray.
Amen

Happy Nurses' Day to all my nurses friends!

this yr is 3rd yr, i having the nurses' day

work for abt 2 yrs plus as a nurse
been through alot of the beginning as a new staff nurse ,trying to function during the 1st few months in 2007
been through scoldings from precptor and finding ways to survive through
everyday crying dure to scared of my preceptor scoldings and black face..
really its a nightmare to me in the past, fear of going to work and will be scolded by her
its a real torture everyday...
crying everyday to myself, until i finally tell preceptor dat i scareof her..can she stop scolding me?
or is she that she dont like mi kind of thing??

but after that back to normal, and she said that she is just in bad mood
and ever since then slowly
we are the working kakis at work!

life at work just get better..with nice working HO, like Dr Eileen Poon, Dr Ang Teckwee, and few others

but everyday stress still gets in due to work load and pt work load..
when pts are mostly ill
things and work get more, the time on sponging, giving meds to them with more antibiotics, more monitoring, more family updates, family anxiousness..the list of things gones on for us to work

but at times drs just buys ur icecreams, cakes , chocolates
when its time for them to leave the ward to go for another posting
it just make our day better, haha, cos got food!
we are hungry all the time!

due to lack of time to go eat or even pee..throughout the 8hrs of shift..



to be continued

Labels: nurses' day

yesterday 16/6/09
ex-pt 2 daughters came up to the ward to visit..
came to find me
told me a shocking news



their mother passed away last week
i kinda shock seriously
i tot their mother was re-admitted again...
but when they told me that their mom had passed away
i felt the tinge of sadnes
the kind of sadness that i couldnt describe myself..

i like that pt
she is a very nice lady
of a beautiful heart
have empathy
she is a great mother!
she has 2 filials daughters, who supported her through her illness, take turns to take care of their mother till wee hrs in hospital

she has brought up her daughters into such fine young ladies! =)
i admire her!
her daughters loves their mom so so so much ,
to the extend to help tink of ways and means to really take aways all the pain from the mom
hoping that their mom will be freed from all pains and suffering
its easier to say it out , but their actions showed it to me..
they are really closely bonded mother &daughters!

the pt really stand at our positions (nurses perspective) to look at things
she protected us..
she almost cried when another pt relative crititise us, scolded us..
she asked me 1 thing," why the other pt's relative keep scolding us? u all nurses are already done all ur best already, its not ur fault, why keep scolding u all? i hear already heart very painful" "u all nurses need to take care of so many pts , are already so tiring, yet she keep scolding u all"

when i heard it, i felt like tearing..
i felt so lucky to be able to meet a pt like her
she is so forgiving kind, she doesnt like to trouble others
she makes us nurses feel like the KINDEST SOUL~
she loves us too!

heard that she almost passed away in alot of pain, but lucky she was given the painkiller infusion to ease her pain to let her go in peace..

thank god!

and the daughters showed me the pictures of her in peace at the very last moments of hers
hope that she relieved from all the pain she suffered from the cancer
now she is in a new place
a peaceful place...
rest in peace...

and also will pray that the daughters will be able to move on , get over the griefing period..
and moved on to new lives, but their mother will always live in their-our hearts!


thank you! for making me being a nurse worthwhile...
thanks for the thank you card! =D

*Loves!*

well...things was bad bad bad during my last round of night shift

a busy and tiring for the 3rd night~~
the thought of it makes me boil!
it simply pissed me off totally!

dont wanna mentioned it anymore ..but lucky got my preceptor~
who is willing to help me through the busy night
cos my pt almost collapse when i go to check on the pt..
thanks pj for help me to set plugs, take blood , label my blood forms , desp my blood , check charts , do my charts (last min all done wrongly by my junior) she stayed with me until 8plus going to 9 am...where can i find such a gd preceptor!~ haha
and also she helped me to set a so-called difficult plug cos got a relative threatened us if we cannot put in the plug at 1 try!

thank you so much miss tan pj!
=)

and work load is heavy plus plus recently!.
really hate to work!!
but shall try to keep myself going!! until tues!!