19th January 2011

It's been more than half a month since the new year has begun, I should feel that it's a brand new start, and I guess I didn't manage to do it because I accidentally brought in the old stuff from last year to a new year, big mistake really...

How have I been feeling? I don't know, how could someone be at this stage for so long, way too long, tried many ways, or maybe I didn't try hard enough.

Sometimes the most simple things are the things that is the most difficult to have, I think being happy and love is quite simple, but somehow it doesn't last long, it's always been like that, they come and go, as quickly as they can, the happier you are, the faster it will be gone, how come?

How about one of the old topic, or a trending topic that have been with us since the longest time? No not talking about sex but yea the thing call love, it happens to me, they come quickly and left quickly too, don't seems to capture it for a longer time, the longest was 4 years plus and poof, there you go, it's gone.

I am easily cheered when I see the people that I care are happy, but then when I look back at myself, I don't know what went wrong, most of them just want to have some fun, well isn't it more fun and happy when you can be with someone that you really have the heart to be with? Doesn't fun originated from the feeling of happy, and doesn't happy feelings are generated when you know you can love someone who loves you back? 

I am in a totally different situation, I have a heart of steel for the longest time, I won't want to blame the previous relationships that made me into this, I don't believe in fairytale no more, I don't believe that if you love someone whole heartily, they will too, I don't believe that even if you do your best, they will appreciate.

I am just negative towards this word call love, call me a non believer, and I am not afraid to admit it.

Do you agree that the older you grow,the more you gain in life experience, and funny thing is, life experience is somewhat you need to pay, not pay by cash, you pay life experience by things which is so valuable when you're much younger, things like patience, faith, happiness, satisfactory... No?

Randomly saw this tweet on twitter which is quite meaningful.

总有人问你“有对象没？”“呵呵，没有呢。”“不可能吧！”其实，那是真的，不是没人追，只是没有合适的；不是眼光高，只是没有感觉的。也许有时想恋爱，想让自己不再寂寞，可是那个人却没有，不想随随便便的爱了。因为有一种单身叫“宁缺勿滥”，有一种单身只为等待某人。

Good morning world, it's only 4.22am and you should still be in bed...=)