you and me

among the others.

*i will be away for 5 days, deep in the jungle.*

this moment

it's like standing on one of the rocks

and super-undecided which is the next one to jump onto.

is it possible

i have a lot of things running through my mind.

i was thinking about the risk.

and i wished i could let my [inner] self speak.

but i don't think that can ever be possible.

#14

There was a day that I could sit face to face with you
Now that I'm away, I can't sleep the night through
Remember the time in your kitchen with wine
Dancing to the tunes of our blues

I'm going out, I'm gonna make a name for me and you
They can never say I never cared for you
'cause it's just not true

I know your vices and those are your choices
and I want to be there for you
This blaze of sunrise is burning in my eyes
And I want them to burn here with you

I do

I'm going out, I'm gonna make a name for me and you
They can never say I never cared for you
'cause it's just not true

I tried my best just to hide this away
but the earth cracks hard in Californ-i-a
and the earthquakes are giving me away

It's just not true, 'cause I care for you

- Make A Name for Me and You, Rachael Cantu

that's me trying

Green turtle hatchling.

i have been trying very hard to make things work.

but the harder i try, the more i fear.

this is really sickening.

The rough weeks after The Turtle Trip.

Chagar Hutang, Gloomy Morning with turtle trails

i have been working 6 days a week for 3 consecutive weeks.

long hours of meetings.

night classes.

the-very-terrible-bio and the-terrible-maths results.

after-school activities.

i thought of the mama turtles.

and i know i must press on, in whatever i am doing and planning to do.

i won't let you bring me down.