Monday, February 21, 2011

the cycle.

You are a slave under the tyranny of the pharaoh. You are a robot with amazing abilities to multitask. You are made from steel. You run on battery that is WAY beyond the power of Energizer. You don't know the meaning of 'getting/feeling tired'. You are married to the school and the students are your children and your colleagues are your in-laws, sharing the same husband and having the same kids. You have no life other than giving all your heart, soul, mind, strength,and time to the school. Your favourite pastime is doing kerja amal. You are selfless. You are dedicated. You desire no rewards, nor appreciation.

You have a sincere heart.

But you are also like a piece of meat on the chopping board. You live under the mercy of the one holding the knife. You are not to stand up and speak up. You are to follow orders and directions. There is no empowerment. There is no enablement. There is little growth, if not no. There's no room for self-discovery but there's plenty of control forces all around.

You are a product of the system and now you are a part of that system.




You were a student.
Now you are a teacher.





The vicious cycle continues.

[The End]

Sunday, February 20, 2011

20th and 26th

k 111


why am i feeling 'obligated' to post something on my birthday?

:)

thank you for the birthday wishes
i love February.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

dilemma

cny 143


what a day.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

#8

cny 127


:)

smoke gets in your eyes.

Monday, February 7, 2011

The start of the end.

I like counting down.

i have already counted the weeks. 5 weeks (including this week) to March 1 week break. Then another 10 weeks to mid year break.
Well, it's going to be a crazy 16 weeks in that THM place. i told myself that i will give my best shot in the remaining months. like it or not.


and some days ago i saw this.
"Why stay if your heart is elsewhere? With you departing, the vacant space awaits yet another star ready to be groomed and shine"

It's so true.

I am taking the risk.

***

There will be a basketball competition by the end of February. Weekday evenings and weekend mornings will be taken up by the training sessions. Then, there will be some special class for the f5 students who failed their bio during last year's final exam. Then, there will be some weekly extra bio class for f5 students to finish off the syllabus. Then i have to figure out how best to teach f4 Cell Division. Then i have to continue pushing the f2 kids in Maths.

And i have to remind myself - do one thing at a time.

i'll be fine. and you'll be fine too.