oh Teacher....

During today's maths class, 5 more minutes before the budaks have to hand in the 'testpaper'....

Student A: Teacher... today your lecturer came to observe you ar?

Me: Eh, how did you know?

Student B: We saw you, Teacher!!! *flashed her cute smile* and you looked sooo nervous...

Me: Hmmm....... *!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i thought i was.. you know.. somewhat ok and not that nervous... :P*

Student C: Yeah, we heard you saying "Ok, listen to the instructions...."

Me: *garh, ok.... that was before the F4 girls went out for their mini field trip* ha... oh okayyy... did i look really stressed?

Student B: *nods her head like the wooden monkey emoticon you use in MSN* YEEEESSSS, Teacher, you looked reaaaaaaalllllyyyyy stressed... *and gave me her serious face, and the rest of them pun terikut-ikut nodding their heads.*

Me: hahahaha.. okay... thank you for telling me that. *gosh, then i must have looked even worse in front of the F4 girls for the 2 hours.*

Student A: Teacher, so when are you leaving?

Me: Haiya, you all arh.. how many times do you want to ask me for the date ha?

Then they all flashed their white teeth.. "hehe..."

Student A: We are going to miss you...

Me: awwwwww ...

yeah, i will miss them too, including the F4 girls. :)
and so i have 4 hours of maths and 3 hours of bio left before i bid farewell to the school.

gee, i need to figure out some ways to reduce my stress level or increase my stress-tolerance-level if i want to stick to teaching and not becoming a fulltime worker in my dad's business. :p

red

you bleed just to know you're alive.

oh Teacher Lady,

maybe teaching isn't for you...
maybe you should go back and help your father in the restaurant...

***

oh wells, this is actually one of the lines (i replaced the word 'me' with 'you') from the musical drama presented by the students from my school last Saturday.

and so that's the part where the play spoke to me.

:p

dreams

maybe i'm dreaming you, maybe you're dreaming me;
maybe we only exist in each other's dreams
and every morning when we wake up
we forget all about each other.

~Audrey Niffenegger (The Time Traveler's Wife)

feed me bamboo leaves..

workinghardworkinghardworkinghardworking
soamiworkinghardorhardworking?

:)

went back after school and 'tidur mati'... sheesh.. i'm dead tired and panda eyes are getting worse.. *grrrrrhhhhh*

when it comes to Hydrilla.....

Today is Tuesday. tomorrow is Wednesday. the day after tomorrow is Thursday. the day after the day after tomorrow is Friday which is a Fineday.. *it's time to wear my Fineday shirt again!!*

*garh, it's my habit to repeat this kind of 'chant' again and again whenever my brain is not really functioning.. gee.. it sort of helps me to settle down and put my brain back to the thinking mode. sheeeesh..*

My first time doing experiment in school ~ to investigate the effect of light intensity on photosynthesis.. lalala.. the Hydrilla tried its best to survive till the end but death is inevitable.. :p
and so, for most of the groups, the Hydrilla photosynthesized for the last time when we tried with the light intensity of 1/50. The bubbles came out and THE END. No more bubbles from that particular Hydrilla for light intensity of 1/40, 1/30, etc. It should work better when the light intensity goes higher but .. anywayz.. it's ok. :)

it was fun although i was kind of tension, thinking:

"my oh my, cham wei.. why larrr the bubbles not coming out?"

we had no choice *unless we want to re-do the whole thing which is not that possible* but to combine the results of different groups and came out with one that is 'reasonable'.. haha.. in other words, we manipulated the results.... garh.. that's the one thing i wasn't so satisfied with lar.. :|

some random notez,

i was reminded of my Form4 lepak days in school. :)

and i am waiting for my nails to be blackberry red again.

and i have been telling myself for almost a week that i needed to jump into the pool but still tak jadi-jadi.

and i needed to pay my sleep debt but again, still tak berapa jadi.

and this and that.

and i should do some reading. issh, memang tak jadi lar this one.

AH1N1 is spreading. so does the jimoness in the air. XD

and my stupid mouse is sick... it doesn't connect properly liao.. grrrh.. how to play geo challenge with the touchpad??!! *roar*

cekap giler!

so far, this is the most canggih-manggih choreography i have seen for the song Because of You. :)

Lovestoned.. he is so hebat wei.. gosh..

ok.. this is what i do when i am feeling down down down down.. i go watch people dance cekap dances. :p

sweat. sweat. sweat.

oh wells, and so some of the songs are stuck on my mind...

one, two, three, four
uno, do, tre, quatro

i went to gym this afternoon with the Suit. it has been a super long time since i last danced. ok la, since we are not so pro, so we just simply danced je lar, followed a bit here and there, haha, some steps are easy, some are confusing, some are tricky. whatever. i just wanted to enjoy the whole 1.5 hours to the max and release the stress before going back to school for another week... :]

dan sebagai konklusi,

hehe, it was super fun!

the steps we can do 100% without mistake is the draw-a-box step, ring-the-bell step..
and a few more la. *we gave them funny names*
:)

hmm, besides that.. i am enjoying the remaining one week plus of having the whole room to myself; the fish tank is gone after i came back from gym, so now i don't need to count fishes anymore *sad* ; finally bought some eggs and more maggi mee. :( coz' i can't really cook, cis.

erm, what else? i'm looking forward to the days when 'teaching and learning' does not need to be restricted by lesson plans, and where there is no extra pair of eyes observing me from the back of the class and causes me to be sooooo darn self-conscious at times. sheeeesh.

geee, it's already 11-ish pm.

was digging through some old pics.. :)

yesterday was her birthday.

my AhBi sister is going to UUM on the 28th. thank God that she managed to get a place in uni. sigh, won't be able to send her off or go uni with her.. sigh.. :|

i think i do look a bit gangster-ish at times.

3 more weeks. i shall tahan! ;)

where is number 10?

so i look to my eskimo friend when i'm down down down..

'my eskimo friend'
*melted.*

**

oh by the way, now i only have 9 guppy fishes in the tank. one died on Monday. cause of death remained as a mystery. well, there's a possibility that it was choked to death. i fed them after i had my first cup of coffee for the day. too bad i didn't count the number of fishes before i left for school. came back from school, counted the fishes again and again and AGAIN and to my horror...

"1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9.... 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9... 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9...

NINE only????!!!!

jiaaaaaa oh jiaaaaaa, where is the 10th fish????"

and finally i saw the dead fish floating there, covered by the tiny floating leaves... sigh... :[

aj said the dead fish died of old age, or it died due to depression because all the other fishes look like it.. oh you fish is one poor thing. :p

my mind is revolving around work. and the jimo-ness is like my favourite pastime. haha. it doesn't sound funny but it's somewhat funny :] geo challenge is one thing that can distract me from being tooooo overwhelmed by the thought of having to plan for lessons. aha...

oh wells, 3 blog posts within a day... i should get back to work. or at least get ready for church. or maybe get another cup of coffee...

it rained.

let the sun shine in.

and tell me everything will be fine.

:]

it will be fine.
and it has to be fine.

i'm persevering.
i need You.

i never had a choice.

i'm holding on.

what am i supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
and you only?

do you know

how bad it feels to sit here waiting for you?

today

i am feeling one of a kind.

*i don't feel like doing anything now. but i still need to work my s off to do lesson plansss during the weekend. if possible, wanna get it done by tmrow. possible, kan?* :[

and i was extremely exhausted after coming back from the biology class. i don't know why.

*it was like.. the energy i had before entering the bio class was ALL zapped off in an hour*

photosynthesis. light reaction. dark reaction. light. carbon dioxide. oxygen. water. glucose. chlorophyll. chloroplast. photoexcitation. photolysis. ATP.

*ok, i think i was pretty affected by what he mentioned two days ago, as well as this morning. and now it feels like there's something blocking my way and i don't know how to get rid of the blockage and how to move on from there and persevere for another 3 weeks. how about that?*

next week - will be doing the experiment on how different light intensities can affect the rate of photosynthesis.

*tell me how to make biology class interesting. it shouldn't be a boring subject. i'm already a fish killer. i don't want to be the killer who is responsible for the death of students' interest in biology. darn it.*

my supervisor came for second observation this morning. went in to my Form 1 maths class. sigh. i hope i didn't screw it up with my stupid nervousness and a sudden lost-ness. garh.

*by the way, the kids can act real well. many of them know how to pretend that they understand what you are teaching, esp during the critical moments. after those moments, you just need to ask, "ok, tell me which part you don't understand..." sigh.

i'm feeling down. down. down. down. and i don't know why.

i think i failed. not the teaching practice, but teaching. i need to find solutions to the problems i am facing.

and i think i need some encouragement and i want my Henry DeTamble.

what is wrong with me wanting one normal thing in my life?

who are you waiting for?

"Long ago, men went to sea, and women waited for them, standing on the edge of the water, scanning the horizon for the tiny ship. Now I wait for Henry. He vanishes unwillingly, without warning. I wait for him. Each moment that I wait feels like a year, an eternity. Each moment is as slow and transparent as glass. Through each moment I can see infinite moments lined up, waiting.

Why has he gone where I cannot follow?"

— Audrey Niffenegger (The Time Traveler's Wife)

school holiday

the rm25 dinner in Kampung Nelayan, Tasik Titiwangsa.
the limitations of using camera phone at dark settings. the pic is so grainy.

oh wells, it's time for some proper blog posts instead of all those jimo cryptic lines here and there.

school holiday was fun although it was not a 'real' holiday because of the two-weeks bengkel which we had to attend. besides that, i slept a lot, watched many movies online, had a good time hanging out with friends. cam-whored during the sessions. had red nails. played No Boundaries again and again. had english classes with friends during sessions - we learnt from the mistakes some people made. garh, some of their sentences made no sense AT ALL and you wonder where on earth they 'translated' the sentences from.

lesson plans for the first half of next week - done. keeping the second half later coz' i need to see how things will work out. tuesday will be my first time teaching the Biology double period for two hours. gosh. and lecturer will be coming anytime during the next two or three weeks.

the dinner at Kampung Nelayan. let's not talk about the food. the drive there was fun coz we have four competent drivers, led by LeeTeng. and the rest became competent live-GPS. the jam from Uni to Bangsar was bad but the journey was fun! ;)

side note: sorted some things out. am sorting some things out. and will be sorting some other things out, soon. :]

kc said maybe God is trying to teach me something by putting me in some funny funny situations like dirty toilet, black fan, messy house, etc etc etc. and i should stop trying to be a hero. aha... :|

hmm... i enjoy having the whole room to myself and i can't imagine how bad it will be once the other 3 girls are back to share the room.. sigh. and i'm helping my roommate to take care of her 10 TINY guppy fishes til she comes back in early July. i have never done anything like that before coz my parents will be the ones doing those cleaning-fish-tank-and-feeding-fish-task when we had some fishes ages ago. haha, i like watching the fishes fighting for food... poor thing :p

wells, my whole body is still aching since the crazy badminton session on tuesday. garhhhh..

sigh, being short is really a not-so-good thing when it comes to taking picture. the pictures look funny at times.

anywayz,

i'll be back in school, soon
:)

I started believing that I could be wrong

But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away

So here I am still holding on

i want to

scream!

i'm

restless.

i want to

keep my blackberry red nails.

:)

jiaaaaa enjoyed her days showing off her pretty red nails!

addicted.

addicted to you. addicted to your light.

remind me

how You found me in that very same place

how You saw me through the eyes of Your grace

merry-go-round.

what can you do if you kept ending up at the same place. same situation. same problem. same discouragement. same heartache. same headache. same pain. same habits. same thoughts. same. same. same. same. same. same. same. same. same. same. same. same. same. same.

it's WED!

finally, i survived week one of the bengkel...

and i'm loving my blackberry red nails ;)

*****

and so today is World Environment Day!
well, it wasn't something in my to-do-list of the day but i ended up attending the public forum in Bangunan Getah Asli with YuHan. *the main reason of going there was to check out the British-sponsored Chevening Scholarships*

We have Prof. Roderick Lawrence to speak on something about Sustainable Development and Agenda 21 *yet to read up on that but it sounds interesting*. And you can go here to check your ecological footprint, to see whether your consumption of resources exceeds the environmental limits.. *pretending you are living in London*

We left slightly earlier before the Q&A session ended, went out of the building and taadaa ~~ KLCC is so pretty....! ;)

this is my first time being sooooo near to the building during night time.

*the moon*

jiaaaaaa

YuHan

posers ;)

cantik, kan?

in need of

inspiration.

taken on 3rd June 09', Broga Hill

lost.

street light.