the moment it rained

it was awesome and i was like...

"oh my gosh, it finally rains! The Rain.. it's The Rain!!!"

***

"As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it
without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
it will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
You will go out in joy and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field will clap their hands.
Instead of the thornbush will grow the pine tree,
and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the LORD's renown, for an everlasting sign, which will not be destroyed."
Isa 55:10-13

***

i'm not Kahoe. i'm not the second best. i'm not an emergency float. i'm not a spare tyre. full stop. and i will be fine. :)

right now..

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

**
i don't know what to say or how to summarize the craziness that happened in the zoo lately.

***
despite the anger, disappointment, and whatever negative feelings you could think of....

i can still feel
His peace, like a river, attendeth my way.

animals in a zoo

it has been a while since i last posted something besides pictures and a few random lists and some lines here and there. *oh wells.... life is a bit boring, preparing for exams, preparing for teaching practice... basically there's nothing much except hanging out with friends and that is the only most awesome thing happening.*

i am supposed to be studying for my geografi pelancongan and biologi manusia. talking about ecotourism, islands, Structural model of Third World Tourism, blah blah blah. and on the other hand, i have to talk about homeostasis *again!*, muscle contraction *again!*, endocrine glands *again!*, hormones *again!*, bones *again!*... cis, bedebah!

i have met many animals in my 4 years here. they are called donkey, monkey, cow, goat etc etc. and the latest one is called baboon. giler babi baboon. so much like a zoo, right? life is like a zoo. it's either you are on display, or your life is soooo interesting that there are so many different varieties of organisms to keep you interested and excited about what else life has to offer to you. perhaps i should have done zoology, or something of that kind. *i don't know what i'm talking about by the way*

two months plus of 'gaming time' has finally ended. *jump for joy, jiaaaaaa~!* i felt relieved. could you believe it? there's no need for me to feel dejected, rejected, unappreciated and blah blah blah coz' i deserved something better *a better pet, maybe*. you, stop using me as your float although i have quite a substantial layers of adipose tissue to keep me afloat. darn you, go get your own float or you might as well just get drowned lar, babi you! i seriously beh tahan you wei. who cares whether a baboon can swim or not... and that bastard baboon is sooo going to kena from me. sheesh, don't quote this to me:

"It's mine to avenge, I will repay," thus says the Lord.

hmmmphh, i am soooo going to shoot you while you are hanging from tree to tree, slash you left and right while you are trying to hide here and there, skin you alive and make brushes for painting and chinese calligraphy out of whatever hair you got, behead you with a blunt knife and sell your head to a chinese restaurant as awesome chinese delicacy ~ baboon BRAIN!!, and throw your remains into the deep blue sea to feed the fishes ~ baboon value meal!!! *bugger you!!!*

i'm talking about my pet who ditched me.

*no, it's a pet whom i ditched!*

i told you

why does it have to happen again?

i told you to take whatever that fella says or does with a pinch of salt.

i told you to guard you mind and heart.

i told you not to play with fire.

i told you not to repeat the mistakes.

i told you not to run like wild horses.

i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you.i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you. i told you.

rest in pieces.

a random list of things (part 2)

1. today - school. it was ok, not too bad.
2. girls school always rocks. :)
   
3. tomorrow - maths paper. :(
4. i'm wasting my time doing nonsense.
5. i don't like how things are happening.
   
6. i don't like how things are not happening.
7. i don't want to leave A214 so soon.
8. who are you trying to fool?
9. why did i allow that to happen?
10. last night got one stupid fat fly. now got one stupid tiny fly. that irritates me.
11. you did get my question. didn't you?
12. i should stop wasting my time.
    
13. i should just go with the flow.
14. you want to play... i can play, too.
15. i want to play badminton.
16. basketball also can.
    
17. i thought i know.
18. i'm sad.
    
19. i'm happy.
20. for that to happen..., it will be the end of life

as i knew it.

a random list of things

1. sleep early. wake up early.
2. going to school tomorrow. *gee... i'm scared*
3. sigh. we are fooling ourselves.
4. lazy to study.
5. maths. geography. human biology.
6. songs.
7. dreams.
8. you.
9. me.
10. more dreams.
11. ipoh.
12. traveling by train.
13. daydreams.
14. stupid fat fly.
15. uncertainties.
16. pray.
17. how to tell.
18. how to ask.
19. how to confront.
20. caught up in those moments.
    

愛不愛都痛

我以為我懂

the heart is deceitful above all things
and beyond cure

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did

random shots here and there

taken using my *hehehehehe* sony ericsson.. =p

cupcake from Hyma. =)

Some 'stitching' using panorama..

taken after the dinner at 11th college
*failed giler*

taken some day ago outside 3rd college.
i was waiting to go pasar malam, i think.
*hampir jadi punya stitching, not too bad*

at rachel's happy mansion on 10th April.
vege+pumpkin+brinjal+carrot+tomato+egg+mushroom+cheese
= something weird but edible and not bad.
=)

20th April. Back from Ipoh at 4 something. Swimming at 5. Middle Easter food for dinner at 11th college. Nice Sunset from Bukit Cinta. Star gazing. with ben, yen. then plus george, rachel and hazel. flew a kite. sang some songs. danced some funny dances.

*lower exposure*

the sunset was awesome.

I'm happy.

there's no words to describe how awesome 15th April 2009 was!

finally. Rimba Ilmu. nice weather. fed mosquitoes. one foot in the stream. the roads not taken. muddy. Bambusetum with Hidden Dragon and Crouching Tiger *i dunno whether i got the title right*.

the evidence of us finally went in and came out from Rimba Ilmu.
too bad, the gate wasn't close yet when we left.
we didn't get to climb over the gate..

to the woman who laughs at me every time my specs
get foggy when i blow my cup of hot drink,
you are awesome!

Ferns Enclosure. more mosquitoes. there's so much more about Rimba Ilmu but my mind is shutting down. the museum. the field. the kite. can't fly the kite. ran and ran and ran. 'windless'. still went and ran and ran and ran.

pics from Yen's FB and we have Ben as our tour guide!!!!!
thanks Ben!

***

packed to go home. train ride, again. and it's cool.

dead tired and FB was asking me "what's on your mind?"

and i said..

"you are on my mind"

Kayaking!

it was so so so so SOOOOOO much FUN!!!!!!

=)

and the best part of it was.....

Ta daaaaa~~~~~!

Yen Yen was the first one who stood up in the kayak
after challenged by Jen Hann....


I had to do it. No choice


Double!!!!
Pik Tze and Jen Hann!

Before we left. =)
Gee... notice my wet shorts and shirt..
almost fell into the lake when i was getting up from the stupid kayak

it was really awesome!
great company. fine weather.
and i'm glad that i went!
=)

pictures taken from Yen's FB

help me find myself

....

Sometimes love, feels like pain, and sometimes I wonder if it's all the same,
sometimes life, feels just like rain,
cause you never know, when it's gonna fall down on you

Sometimes faith, feels like doubt, and sometimes I wonder if we'll even get out,
sometimes life hurts just like now,
but ya gotta know, it's all gonna come back around

I wish you well, I wish you well, on this trip to find yourself,
I wish you well,wish I could help,
but I can't help you find yourself.
**

my mind is so saturated with different things and i really need a break.
i am still wondering what's on your mind. but i decided i should take everything you say with a pinch of salt and every action you take with the idea that you do not know what you want.

but it's funny how you stayed on my mind. it's funny how i am torn between being rational and irrational. it's funny. it's really funny.

**

'Cause every time I fall down, I reach out to You,
and I'm losing all control now, and my hazard signs are all out,
I'm asking You, to show me what this life is all about.

this Easter

There is love that came for us
Humbled to a sinner's cross
You broke my shame and sinfulness
You rose again victorious

Faithfulness none can deny
Through the storm and through the fire
There is truth that sets me free
Jesus Christ who lives in me

You are stronger You are stronger
Sin is broken You have saved me
It is written Christ is risen
Jesus you are Lord of all

No beginning and no end
You're my hope and my defense
You came to seek and save the lost
You paid it all upon the cross

So let Your name be lifted higher
Be lifted higher be lifted higher
~Stronger~

****

it's Easter Sunday.
we were sitting there

and i was thinking of you.

Yesterday Once More.

i had my last YOM.

it was awesome. it's the best of all the four YOMs i have been to.

hehe.. =)

i am still in a kind of daze.

i miss all of them(you).

the best part of me is always you.

what am i supposed to do without you?

there's nothing left to say

thinking about the woods. and the worlds.

i watched Twilight

*i shall not talk about how gorgeous Edward Cullen is...

and watching him makes me melts like ice-cream under the sun*

and it throws me back to my world of woods and vampires and blah blah blah...

*you know, some people have crazy little childhood 'dreams' ..
imagining themselves as vampires staying in a canggih-manggih castle
or something like that deep inside the woods...*

oh wellz,
the rain and the 'mini forest' outside the windows have never been so inviting before.
they make me feel like i'm ... in the alpine meadows.. all foggy and damp and green..

i walked up the so called 'tangga maut' in the evening with Twilight and the woods all over my head.

*a bit Twilight-ish, ah, shut that down!*

i ended up at the Medic fac carpark. the other side of the world for me.
i can only imagine how it feels like to be in it.
just like how i imagined that i'm one of the vampires in the woods.

*geee, maybe it's because of my teeth*

anywayz, whatever it is...

i'm living in this side of the world.

He will not let my foot slip

I lift up my eyes to the hill--
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

He will not let you foot slip --
he who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.

The LORD watches over you --
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.

The LORD will keep you from all harm --
he will watch over your life;
the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.

Ps 121

I will wait for You to move
For Your mighty hand to save
When the trouble water rise
You are my hiding place

i can't keep me from stumbling and falling
but You can.

a few more days to go

hikayat indah kini hanya tinggal sejarah

i will surely miss all this fun
and craziness and lepak-ness
:)

it's coming....

one more month before teaching practice.
i don't know how to tell you how scared i am or how one-of-a-kind i am feeling.. *_*

i think i need to go for some DNA recombinant thingy to insert the optimistic gene in me.
*garh....*