as 2009 comes to an end.....

The LORD bless you and keep you;

The LORD make His face to shine upon

you and be gracious to you;

The LORD lift up His countenance upon you

and give you peace.

****

OK.. some random stuff to make me excited about going to LD...

rachel choong : lahad datu
rachel choong : woooo
wong : hahahah yeah. it's going to be awesome kan
rachel choong : yeah man
wong : i get to do the big girl thing in the land near the pirates and abu sayaf
rachel choong : nice
rachel choong : even cooler than mine I must admit
wong : haha y is it cooler than urs?
rachel choong : cos you got pirates
rachel choong : i only have like lousy chinese gangsters
wong : hahahhahahaha....

Alright... whatever it is.... bring it on! i'm all set to be Ms. Wong in LD!

Ipoh-Putrajaya-PJ-Banting-KK-Lahad Datu

that has been my journey since 28th Dec and it just crossed my mind that i am going to do my counting down to 2010 in KK airport. *_*

and so the 1st of Jan 2010 literally marks the start of my new life in a new place, not to mention a new year.

*call me a drama queen*

indeed, God has His way to get me out of Ipoh and i really thank God for all the connections. my collegue-to-be is my friend's friend's friend. and i got a coursemate from LD and she is posted back to a school there, although that school is not really near to my school. then i got friends whom i met in camps over the past four years in uni who are either from Sabah or working in Sabah.

i began to see that God has really gone ahead of me to prepare the place for me. and yup, the one month in Klang is like some teaching practice to prepare me to go Sabah.. far far far away from home.. to deal with the awkwardness and to adapt and adjust. haih.

anyway, i am looking forward to the new adventure in LD, a place which many of my family and friends knew nothing about. i am looking forward to decorate my new 'home', my new table in the staffroom .. and of course, i am looking forward to Chinese New Year! ;)

what else? maybe i can print my own postcards and snail-mail them to my family and friends. ;)

happy thoughts, jiaaaaaa! Happy thoughts!

Email/text/FB me your home address coz' i want to send you some snail-mails!!!!!

updates while there's still access to internet.

i am flying off on the 31st of Dec 8.15pm. Most likely will be spending a night in the airport, and stepping on the land of Lahad Datu on Fri, 1130am.

sigh.

i don't know what to say.
i'm the only chinese among the 17 who will be sent 'oversea' to the boarding schools in sabah, sarawak and labuan. all of them will be teaching Pendidikan Islam except me and two teaching BM and Geo and History.

When i realised i'm the only chinese(not to mention a christian).... i was like... 'wahlao... God, you are so hebat... but why me??!'

oh Jiaaaaaa...
happpy thoughtssss!!!!!!

i'm weighing my things...

the limit of check-in baggage is 20kg for MAS and 15kg for Air Asia. mine now is about 17kg after weighing the luggage and every smaller bags of things, one by one. hmmm, i don't know whether i'm flying by MAS or AA....

not bringing my laptop but bringing 450D. the backpack should be ok, plus the camera bag.

there is a new jimo song by Leona Lewis called Happy.


Bleeding Love topped my chart for the past 2 years and the play count in my laptop alone is reaching 1000... not including the times when i played from on my MP3 player. haih. some of the crazy stuffs...

jimo-fimo-finding-nemo...

Someone once told me that you have to choose
what you win or lose, you can't have everything
~Happy~

oh wells

O' Holy Night

my *whole* family and i went to CGMC for Christmas eve service.
notice the word *whole*
that is the best Christmas gift, from God.
oh well, besides the posting news.
;)

just only checked my mail, saw Ben's email on Simplicity written by Ken Rockwell. and i thought of the pictures i took during the service last night. my baby canon's battery died, so i was back to using my faithful SE 770i. the noise is obvious, cameraphone la, what to expect. I have other carolling pics in baby canon but i don't think i have the time to go through them and copy to my laptop.

the huge luggage with its mouth wide opened is staring at me, waiting for me to fill it up and shut its mouth.

oh jiaaaaaa, how are you?

mixed feelings which is waaaaaaaaaay beyond description. don't make me cry!
anyway, thanks for all the sayangs you all left on my FB. and the texts and the calls. they really helped to boost the excitement. do i sound excited?

i went to straighten my straight hair yesterday.
you know what, last time the tv always showed the Taiwan army shows... how the boys have to go for their national service, then they have to do the crew cut... sleep on bunk beds... wake up at the call of the siren..

and so, when the lady was trimming my hair.... i thought of those boys in the national service doing the crew cut.... cis... kanasai
i'm going for national service. thank God no need crew cut.
hope that there's no more bunk beds.
no call of siren except for the waktu Subuh, or fire drill in the middle of night.
but the sun comes out so much earlier there.

then last night before i dozed off... i thought of my PoT's ~ from Jonah to Nehemiah.

i couldn't help but thinking that God indeed has a really good sense of humour and an amazing skill of giving surprises to people. i did ask 'why God, why larrrr Saaaaabaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh...?'

i am praying that the internet there is ok. and Digi Yellow Man had better not fail me. and the government had better pay me well. :p

there's so much to say. seriously. T_T

ok. i guess i had better go packing..

when the reality begins to sink in

most probably i will be celebrating the New Year 2010 in Lahad Datu and geographically, earlier than you who are 'stuck' in West Malaysia. ;)

i am feeling 'jimo-fimo-finding-nemo' now.
today was the last day of JCard day. my mum bought me a huge luggage. shoes. and a new toy (at least it can kill some boredom away).

this is probably the last batch of 2009 pictures taken in Ipoh Old Town before i start shooting places in Sabah, oh particularly Lahad Datu.

and this is my new toy.

this was taken half an hour ago.

when reality begins to sink it. sigh.

oh Hi, Lahad Datu!

Me: Selamat pagi

the Man: Selamat pagi.

Me: Saya Cik Wong, call untuk semakan posting ke SBP.

the Man: boleh bagi nama?

Me: Wong Jia Hui

the Man: W.O.N.G..... Wong Jia Hui?

Me: ya ya...

the Man: ok. Sekolah Menengah Sains Lahad Datu.

Me: Oh... LahaT (i was thinking, oh, the LahaT in Ipoh... hmmm, i thought it has always been called Lahat, since when it got a new name called LahaD Datu??)

the Man: ya, Lahad Datu. SABAH

Me: Ha.. Sabah???!!

the Man: ya, Lahad Datu. Sabah

;)

Ok. the rest of the conversation is history. I'll be going to Putrajaya for briefing on the 28th. I still have no idea about what's going to happen on that day. KC said maybe they will gather us and send us of to Sabah straight. *pengsan*

and so..

Byebye Ipoh... Helloooooo Lahad Datu! ;)

Tahniah! ~Sekolah Berasrama Penuh~

*jeng jeng jeng jeng....*

after waiting for so many months, finally the posting result is out and i got a job! :p

i am posted to a boarding school which at the moment, i still have no idea which school, don't even know which state. as you can see from the pic above, they only tell me that i am posted to Sekolah Berasrama Penuh and there are so many SBP in West Malaysia alone (you can check from Wikipedia). so i called the department dealing with SBP today before lunch hour. it finally got through after trying many many many many times. the lady (she is nice though) told me to wait for the letter because she couldn't check for me as the officer in charge is on leave. (me: ???!!!!!). therefore, the waiting continues as the letter containing the necessary information is taking ages to come.

well, i am quite excited and happy with what i get, despite the known fact that i can be sent to any SBP in any state. LOL. but then hor, i tell you what, there is still STAR right outside my housing area. haha. the chances of getting STAR is one out of sixty *my probability sucks, so i just use the simpler one*. Not too bad, right? anyway, i shall not have high hopes of getting STAR. hehe. :p

oh my mum is very happy with the posting result though. she said i don't need to think so much about what to wear to school. oh well, quite true, right?

looking at the more serious stuff...

FES prophetic call no.5 ~ to break down walls of prejudice against majority neighbour

that is really a challenge to me. if you know me well enough. i guess it will be harder for me if i am posted to a matriculation centre. just to be honest. haha. but getting into SBP is definitely a good start because there wasn't much 'breaking down of walls' during my uni days, not to mention primary and secondary school days.

i am waiting to settle this posting stuff so that i can move to my next agenda which is to get my camera. my mum has nodded her head on that and is willing to make that stretch to get one that is better than D3000. hehe. i'll be heading to Poon Photo in town to check up the stuff one of these days.

gee. i heard some noise. it's dinner time. ;)

truth vs sham

we like lies
because lies approve the sham we are living.
~Rev. Jeyakumar~

I AM the Way, the Truth, and the Life.
No one comes to the Father except through Me.
John 14:7

it rained the whole day.

i have been back in ipoh for more than a week. oh i thought the posting list will come out on the 17th but who knows, i received forwarded messages from different people telling me that it is only coming out on the 21st. *crap, which is 3 days later*. i wonder where i will end up at. *_*

photoshop. i did my first triptych and i am just looking for 'chances' to print it out. and about that particular photoshop technique ~ it's something i should have done for my KO-K project instead of printing the pictures separately *not that there's anything wrong with it though*. now only i understand what the En. Abbas was trying to say during the lectures on photoshop stuff. guess what, i learned that from the Digital Camera mag which i have been following monthly since this August. :)

while waiting for the 21st of Dec to come, i'm....

1. still doing some research on what camera to buy. Nikon D3000, D5000, D40(x), or D90*in my dream*; Canon EOS 1000D, 450D.
2. continuing with my 'favaorite' pastime ~ to peel garlic and peanuts.
3. still driving like a mad fella who doesn't like people getting into her way. :p
4. not thinking where i will end up *pretty ignorant at times*
5. trying to play more with photoshop.
6. looking forward to tonight's steamboat makan *curse the heavy rain*

;)

untitled #3

Emmanuel

the Bug and the Advent and the Christmas

*can't you see that i'm busy?*

it's a pleasant surprise when i checked the picture.
the bug so happened flew pass as i pressed the shutter.
*teeheeee*

they said the 'list' is coming out in a few days time. Thursday, they said.
and i don't know what to expect. *whatever*

***
'Notoriously JOY-ed!'

The Advent.
Are you living as if Jesus did not come and is not coming again?
***

my family and i had a good laugh when we talked about many years ago how me and my siblings used to wait for Santa Claus to come during Christmas. We put baskets at the end of our beds, we 'fought' for the biggest basket...(you know, let's say you have a small basket, then Santa initially thought of giving you a big gift since you behaved well thru'out the year and mana tahu he had to give you a smaller gift coz the big one can't fit into your small basket...) hehe, and we did receive gifts from Santa@my parents. LOL. they are really good in creeping into rooms. Oh well, and now you know SIZE (of the basket) doesn't really matter anyway.

at the mean time.. while waiting for this Thursday to come...

life is the same ~ back to peeling garlic and being a waitress..
and acting like a boss.
*_*

colours and moods.

Orange.
the warmth. the light. the presence.
the mood: JIMO.

*dup dup dup*
the light is green. the bottles are green.
the mood: we have the E's. Elated. Euphoric.

you painted me red.
we are hanging side by side.
the mood: celebration for the freedom we (I) have.

oh You

without You my world slips away

The things of this world will fade
Still You are all that i need

i wanna play football!

just in case you put me into Girls' Football

:p

Preview to the 400 over pictures I have taken during my month in Klang.

since i am still waiting for the DHL man to come *yes, i have waited for 4 hours*.. i might as well use the time to put up some pictures...
*don't have time to edit the pictures yet..*

This is the DHL box.

This is Ashok and Yu Chan (the Korean boy). This was taken during the Christmas Bazaar.

This is Jia Wei and Yu Sheung (the Korean girl). This was taken yesterday - the last day of school. Students can come in their own clothes for the last day of school.

these are the F2 boys I taught.
for two periods of Science je..
clockwise from top left: Vee Sion, Guo Chan, Guo Pin and Hao Min

there are more pictures on Christmas Bazaar, Primary Class Party, Secondary Class Party, random shots, Christmas presentation by Primary students of both schools, Interhouse Music Competition for Secondary students, the makan time in Klang and the budak-budak in the house, suitlin's bday at Desa Park City, etc etc etc..

me is setting up tabung for my new camera. heeee.. :p

on a cloudy Saturday morning

i am waiting to complete my final assigned task in school ... which is to settle the parcel and arrange for the DHL workers to come and collect it and then send it to Sri Lanka. sigh. it took me such a long time to collect the papers from the students, then seal them in the DHL box, and fill in the shipment bill... and now, waiting for the people to come and collect between 9-12.. i have been sitting in the front desk office since 8.45am and i am feeling super sleepy.

yesterday was my last working day in school. two days of class parties. tonnes of food. a lot of pictures in my phone. and of course, i learned many new things too. Example ha, Sri Lanka doesn't have a postcode, DHL got their own planes that's why they charge more and the service is faster, GDEX tumpang other people's plane that's why it's cheaper and of coz' slower; the smart board thingy and the softwares are fun to use and it does help the students to learn better *given that you're creative enough*; there's always a cultural difference between Int Schs and the Private Schs which follow the Msian syllabus, sometimes you found yourself caught in the state of 'double standard'; the non-selective issue is quite a thing to me because the fact is, natural selection and survival of the fittest are the game of the world *oh, we are in the world but not of the world*; i need to do something about my classroom management, coz i think i always screw up my 'first impression'; you gained the world, but you lost your own life...

my thoughts are all jumbled up.

-wasted on a friday night-

what is my stand?

am i compromising too much?

they say 'stand up and speak up'. why am i not doing that?

classroom management. discipline. do we really need to be so strict and ganas all the time? and i mean ALL the time, even if it's the final week of school? this cannot, that cannot..
Or is it because I am too 'cincai'.. this ok, that also ok...?

positive reinforcement. but look, who is instilling fear in students?

non-selective. but do we really have a choice? they have to leave because of poor academic performance. and there are other better students on the waiting list. tomorrow is their last day in school. i felt their jimo-ness although they always act tough.

selfishness. sometimes it's nicely packaged in the form of selflessness, because you're aiming for something else. Something which you think is more important for you in the end.

peacock. panther. dolphin. owl. which one do you identify with?

it's time to go 'dupdupdup'

class party on Thursday and Friday!!
;)

clear blue sky

you turned my world upside down.

Good morning, Ms. Wong!

This is my 3rd week working in Sekolah Sri Tenby.

It has been good. I spend almost 10 hours in school everyday, doing whatever work they give me.. go for relief classes la, check the textbook lists la, help out in the DEAR (Drop Everything And Read) program and Science program, decorate the huge noticeboard in the primary Science lab.. mark the worksheets, ... etc etc etc... ;)

This time, I'm dealing a lot more with primary kids. My oh my... they can be such an angel and a demon at the same time!!!! :p

There's .....

a boy named Edmund who looks like Jon Koo, a boy named Zachary whose surname is Ong and not Yong, a girl named Adreana who reminds me of Adrian@Adriana the Pretty Sister, a girl named Shelby who asked 'Can I bring bak(pork) for class party?', a korean bro and sis who have the cartoon look, a girl named Jia Wei and her name sounds like Jia Hui so sometimes I thought the teacher is calling my name, a Std 2 boy named Benjamin who managed to solve the Magic Square, a boy named Steve who looks like my coursemate Scott, and a boy named Daniel who looks like Daniel Radcliffe......

Everyday after lunch, the students will have half an hour of activity, either DEAR program or Science program. And last week, I was asked to handle the Science program and talk about breath analyser using the REDOX analyser model created by the school principal when she was still in SMK Sri Aman.. *yeah, SA wei, what a coincidence!*

Then..

in my uni days, I met Rachael Wong and Rachel Choong in PKV...

now I meet Rachael Chew and Rachel Ng in Standard 4S. =p

I was like, ‘Oh, Rachel and Rachael......!'

And I can't remember how i was like during my primary school days. Did I always go and report to teachers, saying things like 'Teacher, X ran during recess time', 'Teacher, Y simply threw rubbish on the floor', 'Teacher, J took my glue', 'Teacher, L kicked my legs'... *????* haih, beh tahan when you hear this kind of 'complaints' everyday. :p

The super hebat thing for the week is....

What device do you use to see an object from a far distance?

FARCOSCOPE !!!!!!!

=p

our world changed.

rekindle

rekindling

rekindled

we 're here

hanging by a moment.

The Glass Cutter

i am cutting my self away from you.

***

a heart made out of glass.

adaptation

For survival.
And they call it
'survival of the fittest'.

it's a tough world out there.

jiaaaa found this insect
;)

let's walk together

what if you have to walk alone?

Where i lose myself
i will find You're all i need

you know

yeah...
it's over and done.

finding your self

they're in their own place trying to make it right

cheers!

when all you need is a little bit of 'milo ais'

talking about betting

Betting is something my family does for self-entertaining purposes.
we don't believe in those 3D or 4D or whatever Damacai nonsense because people always end up losing more money than winning. and that's what you call LUCK.

and so, we bet about...

• will XXX come to work tomorrow?
• what time will another XXX come to work tomorrow?
• what will that XXX wear to work tomorrow?
• what will grandma tah pau for dinner tonight?
• dot dot dot dot .. the questions come out spontaneously *although i know that spontaneity is never my thing*
  

Haih...
Seriously, we have nothing better to do than making observations and analyzing the things we observed so that we can win the bet. You don't lose anything, neither do you win anything. *what we get is fun.. it's fun to make fun of that... i know it's evil... who cares :p *

"Alright, let's think about the shirts she wore for the past few days.. Hmmm, she wore green shirt on Monday, light brown shirt on Tues, Pink on Wed... Maybe tomorrow she will wear the ugly dark brown shirt with one flower on it... like the cantonese saying 'one fresh flower stuck in the feces'... hehehehe"

"No lar, maybe she will wear the grey shirt and tie her hair like a doll!!"

"Neh, the red Baleno shirt la.. coz' i haven't seen her wearing that for quite a while"

Grrrrhhh..
You know I am bored, don't you?

and so.. to reduce the level of ke-boring-an... jiaaaaa might be going to somewhere for quite some time. nothing is fully confirmed yet but we can see it coming. it's not going to be easy but I pray that His grace is sufficient for me and my family and that He will pull us through it.

No more sighs, please.

candles and lanterns and crazy times.

and so jiaaaaaa was in Banting for the weekend and it was super cekap...!

I practised my lepak-ing skill in Banting *as if lar i don't lepak in Ipoh*. played with the kids. helped a bit here and there. hehe.

you can go here to see the pics ;)

I have been using my camera phone quite a lot since i got it in March this year. Oh wells, it can be your best friend or your best enemy. Sometimes it can give you quite good pictures *of coz, some editing has to be done lar*. And i had a susah time editing the pics coz all the pics taken at night are soooo grainy. Some i just make it black and white je lar ... *_*

oh wellzzz.... but it's ok. *it's just a camera phone, jiaaaaa*

and these are the two vain pots in the house during the weekend.

okies... here's the Amazing Grace i blogged about some time ago. This was taken when i was on the way to the bus station on Monday afternoon.

i had a good weekend reflecting on how great His faithfulness is.

and it's time to come back, jiaaaaaa.

yes, it's time.

and i am glad that You brought me back.

:)

alone

this was taken a few weeks ago.
it's one of the abandoned houses along the Concubine Lane in Ipoh old town.
there's something about this house that attracts my attention and every time i walk pass,
i will surely look into it.

imagine how it looked like many years ago.
well-lighted hall.
where parties were held.
people walking up and down the stairs.
people sitting around the table.with maids serving their master and family.


but now,
abandoned.
it was left all alone.

sweet dream, or beautiful nightmare?

and so there's this dream that has become the family joke...

in that dream.....
i was riding a horse ... galloping.. kept on galloping.. with the wind blowing across my face.. *you know, something like LoTR.. blah blah blah*

Suddenly, i heard someone calling my name..

"Jiahui.......Jiaaaahui......."

I slowed down and looked around.. expecting someone to come on a horse ... *geeee...*
There's no one... everywhere is green in colour, with nice blue sky... No one.

The horse cantered a bit. And I still heard someone calling my name.

"Jiaaaahui.... jiaahuiiii....."

when the person was about to appear...

Taa daaaaaaaa...........!

I opened my eyes and guess who i saw?!

ajw standing at the left corner of the bed, trying to wake me up for breakfast.
>.<

geeee... i always have canggih-manggih dreams :p

somehow,

we have forgotten how to walk the second mile.

cloudy and rainy.

i'm back from haven. Peacehaven.

i haven't really gotten the time to think about the past one week... to process whatever experiences i had... blah blah blah.

i don't know whether i have found any peace there but at least i saw some of the reasons why there's no peace. and i guessed those reasons explain the chest pains. the deep breaths. the restlessness. the fear. the worries.

where art thou?

David and Jonathan

i have been thinking about them for many days.

there's a lot of things in my mind but as usual... i don't know how to sort them out .. let alone voicing them out.

my mind is stuffed with many 'why?'s
but He said,

Peace I leave with you;
my peace I give you.
I do not give to you as the world gives.
Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
John 14:27

and therefore I will be up in Haven for 3 days 2 nights searching for Peace.

Beautiful Nightmare

eat more garlic

Life goes on with more garlic to peel .. 4 nights a week the time between dinner and bedtime is spent peeling garlics. It has become my family's favourite pastime. *grrrrhhh, it's all because of the inefficiency of a certain people*

this cyber cafe is better and quieter. my brother keeps telling me not to go to the previous one because that one sucks. my mum said she will pay me rm20 per hour to sit beside my brother and make him do some maths questions. haha, and i have been using that offer to disturb him.. geee... purposely cari pasal je lar... :p

i am getting ready for the one week break from my Ipoh life. hehe. now i'm half done packing my bags and i have 6 more days to go before leaving Ipoh. :p *yesh, i'm always very gan cheong when it comes to packing stuff to go somewhere else.*

what else....
my mum wants me to go fix my two 'tiger teeth'. issshhh.... whatever.. :p

i don't know what else to blog about. i guess my kind of blogging-power is decreasing.
*it goes low low low low low low low....*

the advert board in pudu bus terminal is stuck on my mind. it has a bus company named Amazing Grace. i saw it on the 16th Aug while waiting to go down to board the bus back to Ipoh. i had a loooooooooong train ride from Klang. it was already 1120 when i was waiting for the lrt to get to pasar seni and i wanted to get home asap. thank God for the 1150 bus. while waiting, i looked up and saw the advert board.. i remembered the four years and the moments i had the day before. and i remembered my greatgrandma's funeral and the hoohaas that happened.

Amazing Grace.

jiaaaaaa's ;)

starters..
the pic looks like some milk product advertisement.. DHA, EPA.. blah blah blah

he definitely will kill me if he found out about this.

***********
main course

look at our faces!
i wonder what was happening when this pic was taken.

in BP, lining up.

it was last Thursday. hehe.

shall show you the ugly stage pictures some other time.

**********

dessert

;) these were taken on Tues.

ok. i got to go back home to watch TVB Glittering Days. ;)

it's now raining in Ipoh

happy ;)

jiaaaaa is graduating tomorrow. ;)
finally. hehe. :p

and i have a 3 days break from the waitress work and also my almost-nightly-task called i-got-to-peel-a-lot-of-garlic. :p

cyber cafe is a terrible place to sit down and blog.. :(

i should really go fix the internet at home.

dee dumm...

i'm loving the driving-around-ipoh thingy... teehee... not exactly driving around lar... go to work.. come home from work.. drive my brother for tuition... get my grandparents to my house for dinner a few times a week and then send them back... itu je... :p

okies, i'll see you tomorrow ;)

who is losing grip?

if it can't be you
then it must be me.

there's nothing left

I wish that I could photoshop all

Our bad memories 'cause the

Flashbacks

Oh, the flashbacks

Won't leave me alone

~Come Back to Me, Utada Hikaru~

***

flashbacks. dreams.
it's been quite a long while.
i saw you the other day. a smile. a few words. and a goodbye.
at that moment, my heart was like being squeezed and twisted and there's nothing left. nothing.
i saw you again two nights ago.
it was so real that i can really feel you.
your face. your eyes. our passions and regrets. my regrets.
and i woke up feeling the immense pain in my heart.
there's nothing left but flashbacks and more flashbacks.

i'm sorry, i still love you.

***

"no regrets."

just for a while

everyday i go to work ~ i will walk pass this to go and get my car.
at least it brings me a smile on my face everyday after i finished working like a dog.
being a waitress is not that fun. trust me.
i just don't understand how people can be so dumb.
whateverlar.

******
dreams.
dreams. dreams.
must i dream and always see your face?

you left

the best part of me was always you.

If today was your last day

And tomorrow was too late

Could you say goodbye to yesterday?

rolling in. rolling out.

“Time passes and the pain begins to roll in and out
as though it’s a woman standing at an ironing board,
passing the iron back and forth, back and forth across a white tablecloth.”

***

a sudden pang of jimoness. sigh. i don't do understand why it has to be so difficult. so so difficult.

when it's all over

*beware of the jimoness*

last friday was my last day in school. yes, i was in SMK (P) Sri Aman from 4th May til 10th July 2009. and i thought Maths in form 1 Cekap and Bio in form 4 Sains Cekap. And yes, i got both the cekap classes... lol... CEKAP giler!! ;)

that Friday morning, i woke up thinking, "ah, today is the last day waking up early, last day driving past all these buildings, last day carpooling with friend, last day signing the attendance, last day having breakfast and drinking the nescafe tarik... last day this, and last day that.

munyee, peige, abigail and ai peng from 4SCekap.
i enjoyed teaching the class eventhough i only went in for not more than ten times.

i spent a weekend in ipoh and came back by bus this morning.
and so, this morning, siitting in the bus.. jiaaaaa's mind went lepaking at the school days... dozing off and waking up at a certain time, thinking...
7.30am: arh, assembly. the national anthem. the Selangor song. the school song. and the cute 'la la la la la la, du dee dum dum' song.. *something like that lar*
8.30am: ooooooo, habis assembly.. go back to the 'staff room', then wait to go for breakfast.
9.30am: ahh, recess time.
1.00pm: the maths class with 1 Cekap. *_*

I went back Ipoh with WitchOne on Friday night. My mind kept going back to all that happened in that two months, esp the last day of school and what happened after taking pictures with the form 1 Cekapians; remembering their faces; reading and replying their smses, etc etc.

Cekap!

encounter

every encounter, every breath,
every choice, is enough to alter your life.

***

the encounter that i never thought of.

you nak some BM tak?

oh well...

Malam ini merupakan malam yang amat menyenangkan hati saya. Bulan penuh mengambang, angin tiup bersepoi-sepoi dan nyamuk terbang mengelilingi saya bagaikan malaikat yang sering berada di tepi saya. Ah, alangkah baik sekiranya saya kini berada di tepi pantai, contohnya Teluk Batik, Pantai Morib, Pantai Kelanang, dan sebagainya. Saya akan dapat menikmati cahaya bulan menerangi pantai dan merasakan pasir halus memenuhi celah-celah antara jari kaki pada setiap langkah yang saya ambil. Saya memang pandai bermimpi, sama ada mimpi malam ataupun mimpi siang. Memang cekap dan canggih-manggih.

Dalam dua bulan ini saya sudah banyak bermimpi siang kerana saya perlu menyediakan rancangan pelajaran harian. Saya perlu mengimaginasikan(oh dang, membayangkan) apa yang mungkin berlaku dalam proses pengajaran dan pembelajaran. Namun begitu, saya memang tidak terbayang satu hari saya perlu mengajar dengan menggunakan BM kerana pada pandangan saya, langkah untuk menrevertkan (oh dang, menukar balik) pengajaran Sains dan Matematik daripada BI kepada BM adalah tidak wajar. Good morning/afternoon Miss Wong akan bertukar menjadi Selamat pagi/petang/sejahtera Cik Wong. Saya rasa macam tidak begitu sedap dengar. Itu hanyalah perkara kecil. Jadi, tidak mengapalah, kan? Asalkan budak-budak bagi salam.

2012. Kesian budak-budak tingkatan satu yang saya kenali dalam dua bulan ini kerana mereka akan memasuki 'era pengajaran dan pembelajaran sains dan matematik' yang baru (ataupun boleh dikatakan lama). Mereka akan menjadi tikus putih! Dan saya akan mengajar sains dan matematik dalam BM. Kita semua akan berbahasa Malaysia dalam kelas. Banyak perkataan perlu ditukarkan. Photosynthesis menjadi fotosintesis. Oxidation menjadi pengoksidaan. Potassium menjadi kalium. Commensalism menjadi komensalisme. Saya tidak mampu memberi contoh-contoh yang lain kerana terdapat terlampau banyak contoh. Tolonglah, Tuhan, jangan sekali-kali meminta saya mengajar fizik ataupun kimia. Fizik bagaikan yunani bagi saya. Kimia bagaikan separuh yunani bagi saya. Separuh yunani ataupun yunani, sama sahaja kerana mereka tidak banyak berbeza.

Saya rasa penukaran ini adalah tidak logik. Sekolah rendah - bahasa ibunda; sekolah menengah - BM; tingkatan 6 dan matriks BI. Murid-murid terpaksa menyesuaikan diri dari satu fasa ke fasa yang lain. Mereka sedang bermain-main dengan masa depan murid-murid bagaikan bermain dengan pasir. 6 tahun adalah tidak mencukupi untuk melihat hasil PPSMI. Mereka ini memang tidak mempunyai kesabaran dan pandangan yang jauh. Mereka mengatakan bahawa PPSMI telah memperbesarkan jurang perbezaan orang bandar dengan orang kampung. Merekalah orang bandar yang berkebolehan untuk menghantar anak-anak mereka ke private school, international school, ke luar negara. Siapakah yang sedang memperbesarkan jurang perbezaan?

Argh, apa-apa saje lar... what-e-ver-larrrrrrr!!!!!

Ah....
Saya ini cakap je tahu.. ada apa lagi yang saya boleh buat?

Hmmmm... saya masih mempunyai 3 tahun dari sekarang.. saya boleh mempraktiskan BM saya dengan ...

1. menulis blog dalam BM
2. membaca UtusanM
3. mendengar lagu BM
4. mendengar stesyen radio yang bahasa perantarannya ialah BM
5. membaca Alkitab B.Indon
6. bertutur dalam BM
7. ????
8. ????
9. ????
   

Anda digalakkan untuk memberikan cadangan agar saya dapat memperbaiki BM cacat saya. Saya beraspirasi untuk mengajar setelah bertahun-tahun saya bergelut dengan ketidakinginan saya untuk menjadi seorang pendidik. Saya tidak ingin kecacatan saya dalam BM menjadi pembunuh aspirasi yang baru saya peroleh.
Sekian, terima kasih.

running away

jeng jeng jeng...

my mouse is dead. officially. *_*

now i have to surive on touchpad.. sheeeeeshhh... this is bad.. real bad.. how am i going to play geo challenge, zuma, etc etc etc???!!

hmm.. 0.8 weeks left, this doesn't include the lepak time i will still have after the eventful 10 weeks of school.

it's kind of weird...
i'm looking forward to go home. and stay there. for real. i think i needed that change even though me and change are not really good friends.

Aren't we always moving toward what we want
even when it feels as if we are running away?

but it's time for me to go home..

oh wells, after spending two months doing teaching practice, i have now started (or rather, 'i am now continuing') with the process of saying goodbye to people and places...

gosh... *_*

four years. Section 5 college cell. Broga was what brought us closer.
*not to forget Pok Yee, Aaron, Avni, Munsiong and Ameer who are not in the pic*


*the 2 'P's.... no words can describe. in these 4 years, banting is like a second home to me.
thank you for all the lepaking time spent together there*
as i promised, i'll be seeing you before i leave PJ/KL, Gorgeous woman.

it was encouraging to hear what my cellies said during the affirmation time.
i didn't know i have such impact on them and the cell *i myself was shocked to hear that.... lol* despite my on-off disappearance on Fridays and Saturdays...

i don't like saying goodbye. i don't like changes.

but as much as i dislike changes and goodbyes.. Ipoh is definitely a clear option to choose coz' for the time being, Ipoh is really calling my name real loud.

geee.. i'm trying to cut down the jimoness... so far, so good :p

oh wells....

it's time for me to go home...
jiahui have to huijia