it happened again...

oh well... we were the lazy tourists who went to Cameron Highlands to eat, sleep, talk, walk a bit, take pictures..

This time... we were the lazy bums who lepak in Banting for two days..
we ate apples and Big Apple Donuts and nice breakfast and lunch, they ate durians; slept, went online, talked, laughed, read comics *Garfield!!!*, went a big fat round morib-kelanang-jugra-sg buaya...


Life is good, isn't it?

fireflies

After such a long time..
I finally knew why I always saw fireflies from my room window..

*gasp, bodoh betul!*

s i l e n c e

It's chaotic. It's confusing.

***
All my delight is in You
All of my hope
All of my strength

give me grace to do Your will.

i think too much

I was cycling around the neighbourhood, following the trail that leads to no way.
And I had to make a u-turn.
**
I was sitting for an exam.
And I left out one question coz I didn't read the instructions carefully.
They tricked me. It's supposed to be 'answer 2 questions from each part' but it turned out to be 'answer one from part A, and 3 from part B'.
**
I was in the hospital lobby, waiting to get in to the lift.
There were so many people and they just rushed in whenever a lift is opened.
And I waited. But the lifts didn't wait for me...
After some time, I found myself walking along the corridor...
**

Some familiar dreams which I found myself in again.
Some real life situations that happened again in dreams.

can you help me?

As I am typing this.. my room stinks like crap and I am breathing in Ridsect air.. at the same time I am trying to google "how to kill cockroach".. and at the same time.. I am reading my plant physiology notes.. multitasking me, no prob! =)

J is super frustrated!! And irritated!! And agitated!!

Thank God for cockroaches. They are such a lovely creatures. Their shiny black armor. Their flying skills. Good at hiding.. Nice smell..

Since the night I stepped on the cockroach, I really got phobia... If I woke up in the middle of the night, I would check and see whether those dark patches are cockroaches or what, then only I will step on the floor. Scary. Sometimes, I would have the feeling that there's cockroach hiding somewhere and ever ready to give me a surprise.. At times, I would turn back and look at the door.. see if there's anything trying to make its way in... Whenever I go to fetch hot water from the water cooler, I would see if there any cockroaches nearby and I will just do a favour by going extra round(s).. and kill them with the hot water. Oh well, that's me and my nice friend(s).

You know what... I have just cleaned the floor this morning coz there were some ants crawling on the floor and bed and door frame.. And what happened just now? Thank God for sharp eyes that I was able to spot the cockroach near the shoe rack besides roomie's cabinet. As usual, I paused to think..

"Hot water? Ridsect? Hot water? Ridsect?"
"Darn it, Ridsect la.. where got time to get hot water? It would have gone by the time I got the hot water..."

And so, i sprayed teruk-teruk on the stupid cockroach. I wasted so much ridsect on it. It was still moving after I sprayed so much.. Where on earth does it come from wei?? I think survival of the fittest is a real truth in this sense. An increase of resistance against insecticide gives that particular cockroach clan an advantage. Maybe, you know, as time goes by, the ancestors who survived the gas attack(s) went thru genetic modification due to the chemicals of the insecticide and this gives that clan a higher resistance over insecticide... Possible right??

Sigh.. anyway, I flooded my room. Same place. I washed it out with water. Again. Oh well, any how, I will need to mop the floor what..

See, I told you ... I have too many cockroach stories to tell... I think I am doomed if there's punishment for cockroach killers... =p

Yo.. Check this out...

ASIAN COCKROACH MANAGEMENT

Asian cockroaches present a rather difficult pest management challenge for professionals and homeowners in the affected areas. Typically, these cockroaches are an outdoor pest problem, but they do readily enter the home and can establish an infestation inside. The adults are strong fliers and are attracted to exterior and interior lighting and/or other light-colored surfaces and areas around a home. Management should begin with raking and removal of any leaf litter or other conditions which provide harborage to these roaches in the landscape. Then, if possible, bright lights should also be eliminated or their brightness reduced. Exclusion techniques (caulking, weather-stripping, sealing of weep holes, etc.) should be considered.

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5 Steps to a Happier, Cockroach Free!!!! Home :
Step 1: Cut down on their food supply
Step 2: Hit'em Where They Hide !
Step 3: Monitor, Monitor, Monitor !
Step 4: Dry Up Their Water Supply
Step 5: Keep Them Out !

This is going to be my Mission Possible Two. And that will be after my exam! Would you like to be my partner in this? Can you help me? Maybe you have some great cockroach-killing-ideas..

Come, let's play a part and contribute to the massacre of cockroaches!!!

in these days

I have nothing better to take.
That's why I always ended up taking pictures of
the stupid KFC bucket,
the buildings,
the petrol stations,
the flyover,
the jalan universiti,
the buses,
the cars,
the bikes,
the trees,
the clouds,
the sunset,..

Today is another day of talking-nonsense. Blame it to the sleepless night. Blame it to the mosquitoes that lepak on my face and toes and i killed four in one night coz of the stinging pain on my not-red-but-now-have-red-patch-cheeks. i got to wash the blood away and therefore i walked in and out the bathroom for four times within that two-three hours. Blame it to the cockroach i killed last night and i flooded the area outside my bathroom with hot water and cold water to wash it out from my room. A smart yet stupid act for flooding my room coz after that i got to mop the floor. Blame it to the messy geology and plant physiology notes.

Please bear with me, i am going nuts. There's too many information to process.

****
in these days,
you wonder who is telling the truth.
the person on your left? your right?
the politician?
the preacher?
the teacher?

knowing who speaks the truth
knowing Who is the Truth

****
in these days,
you wonder what is it that you really want to do
and what you can do.

a better world
a world of pain and strife

****

these are the days
where ordinary people like me,
is like a piece of meat on the chopping board,
saying this to the circumstances of life,

"chop me however you fancy"

****

Ya, circumstances may chop me however they fancy.. but then..

"We have this treasure in jars of clay to show that
this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us.
We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed;
perplexed, but not in despair;
persecuted, but not abandoned;
struck down, but not destroyed."
2 Cor 4:7-9

20th June!!

Jeng jeng jeng jeng..

to my sister@brat@sharp mouth fella@tall fella@rich lady@lazy bum@kaki lepak...

Happy 20th Birthday!!!!!
welcome to the twenty-ish club!!
=)

Fair

... ain't what we really need.

it's another week.

If I could I would pick up the pieces of your broken heart
And put it back together
And I would, I would hold you in my arms until the hurting stops
And stay right here forever
~Ain't Got You, Kevin Michael~

**

I'm slowly giving up. Giving up vs getting over.
They are two different things. I just hope that all this can come to an end.

**
it's another week.
=)

rant!!!!

I tell you...
I have never felt
so DEFEATED
by lab reports
darn it!!
I don't know to how to do..
can't even find the relevant stuff...
*minus the fact that i didn't search in the library, i'm lazy*
=(

Yesterday was a real torture. I spent the whole day on lab reports and the assignment. Woke up. Coffee. Stuck on the chair, in front of the laptop. Click here and there. Opened this website and that website and filled my day with plant hormones. More auxin. More cytokinin. More gibberellins. More ethylene. More abscisic acid. More!!!!!!! Argh!!! And I ended my day with the list of research on plant hormones done in 2008. All this was worse than sitting at my little corner to study for the whole day during exam period!

Well, of course, there were some interesting stuff which happened in between and at least it made me awake and made my day more interesting... hehe...
If not, argh....

And now, I am still stuck with lab reports... thinking how to go about it.. due this Wed and I got a test on the same day. *sei larrrr.....*

And why is the weather so darn hot??!!! *sheeesssh*

a quick one (not so quick pun)..

.. before i am drowned in the sea of lab reports with a lot of graphs and stuff and the 4000 words assignment on plant hormones and their commercial use. Thank God it became 4000.. haiyoooo...

Hehe... the past two and a half day was cekap giler!! I was on a MISSION.. to send hugs and flowers to AJ@Panjang@stubborn donkey@monkey.. and I had a great time in Banting... although we didn't do much.. noooo.. we did quite a lot of things la.. *We're quite productive right?* hehe.. =)

To start off, it was a smooth trip. To and fro. I didn't need to wait for a very long time before the bus came. After N times of looping the same 4 songs, the bus finally reached Telok Datok. After taking a few left right turns.. within 10 minutes.. taaa daaa... *yeah, that's the coconut tree..!* I was already walking beside Panjang's house. Hehe..

The adventure continued with watching movies, talk talk laugh laugh.. online and food.. ahh.. i tell you... super nice food.. curry chicken.. spaghetti...!!! Oh my gosh... they taste superb i tell you.. hehe.. We had spaghetti for dinner, supper and lunch.. haha.. Wonderful!! Besides food ar... ya.. i did some parts of my lab reports there la.. and in the end i decided not to waste my time on lab reports..! *i am there for a mission eh* hehe.. ok lar, it's more than hugs and flowers mah.. =)

Time flies.. today is Saturday... and I have to leave Banting and head back to PJ by 2..
*did i hear you saying "awwww......"*
After an hour plus of bus ride... Here comes the buildings i am familiar with... pressed the bell..
*argh, here i am, stepping on this PJ land*
And after another short distance of bus ride.. here comes another building i am super familiar with... pressed the bell..
*imagine me carrying my two bags, standing in front of MC with a 'lost' face...*
and after some walking.. sigh... i opened into the tiny room i called 'my little corner'... and now, my lab reports and the 4K words.. arghhhh!!!!! *_fainted_*

Well.. as a conclusion.. I really enjoyed myself there!! hehehe...

and dengan bangganya....

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!
=)

there's so much to say...

Words cannot explain the thoughts on my mind...
I am bad in expressing myself. Whatever lar...
The walk from APM to HEP brings back so much fond memories...

I am getting old...

Stories. A front. Dust of disappointment... and so much more...

**
Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
Lamentations 3:22-23

**
We live each day by the grace of God
**

And
I am truly thankful
that we are still alive.

evening walk

after two years of staying in where I am staying now..
after being advised by KC for many many times that I should go out of my tiny room and berjalan-jalan in campus to release my stress and whatever sampah-sarap in me..

finally I had my super cool evening walk together with Rachel Babe in campus.. talked talked laughed laughed.. all the way to the tasik, to the padang.. walked round the tasik.. down the slope.. watched ppl playing basketball, football.. *i also want to play!!!*.. watched ppl kayaking... =)

I am a lazy bum who doesn't really like to jog. so we just jogged a bit and the rest of the time, we walked.

The best thing.. we walked all the way for good food in Sri Paandi!!!

Talking about exercising and burning fat huh... sigh...

books. and. life.

Sem khas..
I am supposed to finish reading these books by the end of it...

1. Daddy-Long-Legs *i read the first page long long long time ago*
2. Finding Friendship with God *i dunno where i stopped d...*
3. Do They Hear You When You Cry *stopped at page 25*
4. The Legacy of Jesus *i think i stopped half way some time ago*
5. The Difficult Doctrine of the Love of God *one quarter more to go*

Besides that... study for geology, plant physiology, .....
I only have 3 weeks left before ending my sem khas!!
and 4 weeks left before going into my final year!!

Haiyoooooo....

***
good thing about sem khas
i got a lot of time to think
to look back at things that happened
as well as things i allowed to happen
half a year has gone
and i have wasted much time
really.
i can't afford to do so anymore.
***

i'm a sinner saved by grace.

randomz

Slept for more than 9 hours.
woke up with a spring on my feet. Jump, Jiahui! I had a big cup of coffee. bummed around online for the whole morning instead of studying for geology test which is on next tuesday.
Lab reports? Argh.. they are piling up and i haven't started at all. not even a line or an alphabet. Terrible me. I am procrastinating.
Had lunch with Rachael the Wong. Nice food. We explored Pusat Kebudayaan while waiting for the HEP to open. Erm, gotta go HEP again on Monday. Never mind. I have gotten used to it. I remembered those days in HEP office. And again, how time flies. =)

And now, back in my room. and i am still bumming online.. sheeeesssssssh...

Stupid ants. Stupid cockroach. I have been busy killing ants that are roaming around on my table. I have tissue papers on both sides of my laptop.. ever ready to kill any ants I spotted roaming around.. First thing of the day, is to inspect my table and mug to see if there's any ant. Darn ants. Go away before I bring in the ant killer powder from China. =)

You know what... On tuesday morning, 6 something, still dark, and only the toilet light was on.. roomie's sound asleep.. J was half awake... climbed down from her double decker.. left foot landed first.. and ..

"Phrekk..."

J: eeeww... why felt like soft soft wan.. what the heck is that?

She skipped a few steps, turned back and.. to her horror.. she saw a black thing struggling to move... *by this time, she's already fully awake, darn it.*

J: Darn it! Shuckz! It is a cockroach!!! And I stepped on the cockroach!!! Arrrghhhhhhh, my foot!! My left foot!!!

So, to make sure that the cockroach has no chance of survival AT ALL *i repeat, AT ALL*, J quickly grabbed her BUM shoes and hit it hard on the darn cockroach. Haha...

J: Padan muka!! I mopped the floor the night before and you came and dirtied my floor! Now I have to mop again. Stupid cockroach, serve you right!

And so, I mopped the floor again at 6 something in the morning. Not to forget, I had to scrub my left foot and hands. Climbed back to my bed and still had the feeling that soft thing is stuck to my foot.

All these adventures with ants and cockroaches.. i have too many to recount. =)

it's there.

After the storm
there's a pale silver lining

3rd June 2008

i dunno

i dunno why..
my mind just refuses to pay attention during lectures..
it's like.. it will automatically shut down once i stepped into the lecture hall..
and the lecturer will sound like he/she is singing some lullaby.. there goes my few hours every Mon to Wed..

i don't want plant physiology. i don't want geology. all i want is sleepology and *dot dot dot*

thought of going for badminton this evening to hit the shuttlecock giler giler kuat until it rosak or until the strings snap and release whatever that's in me but ended up eating like gluttons in Ming Tien. roasted pork. char siew. shark's fin noodle. grill fish. honey dew juice. turning frustrations into feasting. bring me for futsal. bring me for basketball. bring me for tennis. bring me for squash!

i guess i need something or someone to help me to sort out my thoughts.
i am just running round and round and round, trying to avoid that point.

All i really need is You.