isshh..

I am blogging to de-stress myself. Argh!

*i m sleepy i am hungry

i am grumpy....

i am crazy

i am nutty... *&*

i am busy

i am crappy i am jumpy

........i am cranky

i am wacky......

i am like a zombie

2008 General Election could have been a very good opportunity for me to go back to Ipoh. But.. WTH..!! My name IS NOT IN although I registered like more than a year ago. Ciss...

this post doesn't need a title

Knowing that so many friends get to balik hometown over the coming 2 weekends ...
and yet I am stuck here... *like for ages and ages and ages* ...

*sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad ...*

Ooohh gosh.. =(

miracles

Two down. But I got N more to go. =(

It hit me this morning how merciful and gracious God has been to me and my family.... I am reminded that it's truly by His mercy and grace that I pulled thru 19th Dec 2007, alive and well and able to breathe 'properly' ever since then. Isn't that a miracle? =)

at this point of time....

你叫我最快樂　你也叫我最心痛

you are the one who brings me much joy and yet you are also the one who brings me much heartache.oh well, i wonder if you realized that.

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Argh.. stop wasting time!!! =) Haiyo.. Oh ya, the geology test.. haih.. thank God that I didn't screw it up, at least I filled in all the blanks, okay....! Isssh, enough of time wasted.. it's time to get back to work!

*cheers*

I can still make time to blog and load pictures even though there's a huge pile of work waiting for me to do. What is this wei...?? *still can find time to waste time... OMG!*

Perhaps you can take a look at these 3 3rd year SEP students who are given 4 assignments in this one beautiful morning ~ to come out with lesson plan, not more than 1000 words of critical review of 2 journal articles, and presentation on some thing. Haiyo...! And these 3 girls still have.. jeng jeng jeng jeng... teaching aids to do, microteaching, lab reports, .. and other stuff like calculus 3, genetics, quantum mechanics, Kepimpinan Diri and Organisasi.. Pengurusan Makmal.. Biochem.. Not to forget... we have Easter stuff wei...!

Alright, this is what will happen to you when you know that you have so many things to do on your to-do-list... Wahahahaha....

This is the first picture.
We looked so happy, as if this is the last day of the sem or sth like that la...

Where am I?
Alright.. I forgot to turn on the timer.

It's a failed attempt.
We are supposed to look afraid-of-assignments, frustrated, blah blah blah...
What's Suitlin doing?

Again, 'bored'.....

More pic.. =)

Don't you think these 2 pictures are beautiful? They are supposed to show some 'bored' and 'sleepy' look. Mana tahu somebody can look so *ahem ahem* with sleepy eyes.. *weeeeeeee*
I love you two gilaboong!
I love the both of you, no matter how gilaboong, frustrated, emo, sleepy, happy, angry, seductive, pretty, sexy, GANAS... you look like!

Assignments, I kiiiiiiiiiillll yoooooooooouuuuu!

nutting, nutting.. absolutely nutting...

thank you!!!!!

Today is my birthday... Ooop, yesterday was my birthday.. *teeheeeeee*

It was really a good one..
I thought it just gonna be another day *erm, another bday*, but mana tahu I had so many surprises. hehe.. it's a surprise la to see so many of them yesterday evening.. They are...

Jeng jeng jeng jeng...

*Chef, Adelene, Adele, Jane, Kat, Chian Ming, Kee Aun, Shannon, Zach, Ben and Rachel*!!

Other surprises like receiving so many birthday wishes thru' sms-es, chatbox, Facebook, MSN, Friendster from my family, uni friends, ex-schoolmates, The Nerinuts, church friends, Ipoh lepak kaki-s. All these really made this year's bday a special one! =) Thank you, people!!!

Alright, they waited for me outside of DK Teratai.
They made me sing in the lecture hall.. =)
And made me walk/run/half walking, half running from KDK to Science Fac Cafe..
while they got to go by car
isssssh...

At Science Fac Cafe...

Chili flakes on my piece of cake.. thanx Shannon!!=)
Thanx for the icing on my face and hand, Adele Yeap!!! muax!

Rachel and Ben came with 2 fishes and 5 loaves of bread... with a green bottle. Not Heineken, but Barbican! A non-alcoholic malt beverage. Apple flavor some more wei..

What the boy had was 2 fishes and 5 loaves of bread.
And he gave them all to Jesus.
Thank you for this reminder, Rachel.

Thank you
For drilling those things into
my mind and heart.
For being there for me.

This year's bday, all I wish for is a NEW start. Stop looking back into the past and move on. I have been wasting time counting the bad things that happened since the beginning of the year. The question came back to me again this afternoon as I reflected on what happened yesterday and the past few weeks..

"What about the good things that happened?"

Count your blessings, Jiahui!

thank You, Jesus

today is.....

Oh well...

Teehee... today is a cekap day!!! wawawawa..

*hmm, let's forget about the chinese post yeah... it doesn't really matter whether you understand it or not...* =)

Alright.. i have 8+ hours to go before 20th Feb ends. Muahaha.. thanks for remembering, was kinda surprised to receive messages from a few people. Hehe.. thanks for all the bday wishes... the sms-es, the posts on my facebook wall..

i love them ALL!!!!!

and LOVE you all lotza!!!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

你会不明白。就因为我不能把它告诉你。

没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

No one can replace you in my heart.
no one.

或许我应该开始倒数自己的生日。或许我应该把它给忘掉。生日只是一年里的其中一天。那有什么大不了？今年的生日好像没什么好值得庆祝，就连人也开始觉得有一点累。不, 我想该是'很累'吧?

**

为什么你一直都在我脑海里？

没有了你，

就好像

没有了坚强的理由，

没有了继续拼搏的动力。

没有了那一种对人生的向往。

你给我的爱是甜美的罪

我的感受又有谁能体会

旧日的照片
我们都笑得很甜

今日的思念
只剩我伤心哭泣的脸

一切仿佛是昨天

我怎能不明白

你一心追逐着你想要的美

而我只能守候在你忽略的周围

做你最后的依归

你教我该如何继续走下去

如何掩饰你走后剩于的岁月

求你别把我留在边界

可以吗？

*i tell you.....*

It is indeed freaky when you heard similar messages being shared within a week, similar issues being brought up, and tiba-tiba that few particular words which mean so much to you, reminding you of certain things came out from different people within this one week or so.
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Those things hit straight to the problems and situations. trials and temptations. God and Satan.

**

who am i that You mindful of me? who am i that You are willing to be so patient, always give me a second chance, a chance to make a u-turn? who am i that You would wait for me to come back to You every time i strayed away? who am i that You will never give up on me, never leave me nor forsake me even though i have grieved You so much? who am i that You would refresh me, strengthen me, give me hope, give me joy, give me abundant life, and free me from all that is entangling me? who am i that You always place different people in my life to encourage me, to catch me when i fall, to lift me up when i am down, to cheer for me when i am at the verge of giving up? who am i?

**
God is faithful. So faithful. thank You, Lord. =)

i don't know how

Forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors.
And lead us not into temptations, but deliver us from the evil one.
*
For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, you Father will not forgive your sins.

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Got some news which spoiled my awesome night. *argh*.
I am wondering why we have to go through this again and again. Is that how you treat your own brother? All your actions over the years have caused me(us) to lose respect of you. It has gone to 'negative'. How am I going to forgive you of the pains and hurts you have inflicted upon our lives? How could you do that to us? What wrong have we done to you? I am feeling super disappointed... and angry... and sad. =(

The situations are way beyond my control. My heart is feeling the pain. Being so far from there makes me feel even more helpless.

Haih... problems come one after another.

But I refuse to say it's hopeless.
I refuse to give up.

Help me, Lord....
Help us...

hehe.. =)

Before the day ends...

I had a cekap nice cup cake on this V-Day...! all thanx to my roomie =)

Happy V-Day, Jiahui =)

another day gone....

I guess.... things always happen at the right timing even though at first it seems so terribly wrong...

*can't seem to have enough of grumbling.. complaining.. sighing.. lamenting..* argh, nonsense betul..

I can get a bit blinded at times (it's kind of an understatement, haha). It's good to remember and remind myself who God was to me when I first knew Him. And, of course, who He is to me now.

It's like a tight slap. A wake up call.

You don't struggle thru' issues by doing stupid things. You don't struggle thru' issues by saying hi-bye to the problems and pretend that nothing happened. They will just keep coming back. again and again.
Pray. Persevere. Don't give up...

Please don't give up.

Ipoh trip =)

Alright.. here are some picz we took during that 2 days plus around Ipoh.. we went to Kellie's Castle, Gua Tempurung, Foh San Dim Sum, had white coffee... blah blah blah...

Kellie's Castle

Sweemeng, PikTze, AJ, Rachel Babe, and the Econica girls!(Ziewei, Adele, Jane, Kat)


Munsiong and JH, Munsiong, Rachel Babe and KeeAun, Munsiong and AJ

Econica girls!
haha, I enjoyed taking picz of the Econica girls. They are cekap models! =)

Kat, AJ, Adele, PikTze

Breakfast and lunch at Old Town!

Twin Tower, kononnya...

=)

I like this. Taken from one of the windows in Kellie's castle.

on my mind

I took this on last Tuesday, after Munsiong dropped me at my house. Oh by the way, I had a wonderful time with the gang who came to Ipoh. Hmm, will put up more picz when I have the time. Whahaa.. you can go check out this blog! =)

I got no key to enter my house and no one's at home. Wahaha.. I climbed the gate.. Oh well, believe me.. I have done that many times. =p

It was rather interesting to walk up and down the garden, snapping pictures of this and that.

Aha.. this pic makes me wanna be one of the kids in Honey, I Shrunk The Kids.

Or maybe I can turn into an ant or whatever and start exploring my garden.. passing thru the carpet of grass... going up and down the stones... leaves... saying hi bye with fellow ants..





















I guess it was good that I didn't have my house key with me that Tuesday. It was refreshing to sit at the garden, to reflect and think through some things. These two pictures were taken on last Saturday, after the rain. It was still drizzling a little bit when I took these picz.

This pic was taken on the 2nd day of CNY. I like the clouds. I like the orange colour. I like the blue colour. I like the gray colour. =)

Ok la.. I still enjoy taking pictures of the sun setting down. I think it's very interesting. =)

I was outside of the gate, under the hot sun, thinking whether I should climb the gate or not. And at the same time, thinking about a lot of things. Things which I have said and done. Things which I have left unspoken. And hidden.

*
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving, but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I have become what I can't be

You start to wonder why you're here not there
You'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Can you see what I see? One Republic, Stop and Stare

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Give me an undivided heart. Help me to know that Your grace is sufficient, that You will see me thru my darkest nights, that You care for me more than I care for myself, that You see every tear down my cheek.