a rare occasion

One of the super rare occasions.

going nuts

God cares for you
More than you care for yourself.

Well well.. He cares for me more than I care for myself huh... Perhaps I have cared too much for myself that I am starting to lose sight of the bigger picture He is trying to show me.

I am not really in the right frame of mind. Haha. I am going nuts.. weeeee...... trying to stop pretending that I am strong. *pretending*... wawawawawa

Assignments and tests. This and that. Here and there. you and me. life and death. rain and shine. laughter and tears. love and hatred. hope and disappointment. sane and insane. sober and drunk. dream and reality.

Haha.. oh ya.. I feel like I am in a daze every time I go for calculus 3. Oh God, help me!!

I'm afraid it's been too long to try to find the reasons why.

What nonsense!

stranded

It keeps me insane.

But it also keeps me sane.

you were so close to reaching the
famous happy end.

Perhaps I have left my self stranded at some place.

You don't know what you are
putting yourself through.

Wake me up
before it's too late.

action and reason

I wonder..

Is it true that for every action a person takes, there is always reason(s) behind it?

If that's true...

help me to see the reasons behind those actions then.

holiday kononnya...

Her vocabulary was as bad as, like, whatever.

Unknown

I found this from 'Worst Analogies Ever Written in a High School Essay'. =) whatever lar....

I have 'wasted' my whole afternoon thinking about analogies, sleeping, feeding my MooLoo, looking for nice bumper stickers, day dreaming, thinking about you, you, you and you. *the you's are at random, there are too many things on my mind.*

There were hours that just went on for days
When alone at last we'd count up all the chances
That were lost to us forever

But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since then

**

But the truth is, I have wasted a lot of time on you.
And it's all coming back to me.

the same

The 4th week of the year. The 4th week of the sem. The 4th year after 2004. Stayed one year in 4th college... Arrh, simply.. I can't wait to go back home. *awww...*

I found out that taking pictures can be pretty therapeutic(for me), esp when my mind is filled with so many things and is looking for ways to release the tension built up. Bumming in my small room, taking pictures of bottles, books, this and that. Hmm, what a way to divert my attention from the things that are bugging me huh... =)

**

*YOU are the same.*

Panjang.Pendek.Penjang

=)

Happy Ending

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,

No Happy Ending.

This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Mika, Happy Ending

17/1

neh, put aside the scary Calculus 3 classes,

one of a kind KP Sains,
etc.

The adventure really brightened up my day!

hehe..
Thanks!

you are late

your goal is to
keep me from falling

but
it's a bit too late

a fugitive....

.... from any thing else

pic: deviantART

It just hit me how much I am like a fugitive at times.

sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
the precious moments are all lost in the tide
they're swept away and
nothing is what is seems

three months. sober.

I don't know

this could break my heart or save me
Nothing's real until you let go completely

I don't know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road
I may catch a glimpse of me

Three months and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flower

Sober, Kelly Clarkson
Pic: deviantART

I wonder how is the kitten now.
*sob sob*

For a moment, I was stunned... What the heck are you doing, gentleman??!! How can you treat kittens like that? Oh my goodnesssssss.............. it's a kitten, not an ant!!!

Sigh, I felt helpless whenever I thought of that kitten... I don't know what to say lar. =(

I couldn't believe it...

this is only the 2nd week..

and I have already started studying..!

and now... I am trying to...
understand and memorize formulas and structures of acid, base, glucose, galactose.. in Biochem..
visualize the graphs of different equations in Calculus 3..
read journals and prepare for assignment..
imagine how a futuristic physics lab looks like..

there are more to come...

*__*
pengsan-ed

18th day

After the op..

Mum: Ok, now you are not supposed to eat beef, mutton, prawn, crab, kerang, egg, duck, chicken, sesame seeds, peanuts, yam... *and the list went on and on and on and on*

Me: Haaaaaaaaa......... like that ar?? Until when wei?

Mum: Hmm, should be 100 days punya. At least pun for a month la.

Me: *fainted*

Alright, I listened to her and I didn't eat those things she listed out. I went for dim sum pun I didn't eat the stuff with prawns and sesame seed and yam. *Why did I go eat dim sum then?* And I gave KC the prawns and sotongs in the fried mee.. So, I have been a good girl huh until... last thursday night... with Ai wei, Penjang@Pandek, Divya and Shannon.

Me: Neh, thosai satu. Dan.. mutton satu. Oops, I am not supposed to eat this. Hey, we share this k? I will just eat a little bit. *what an easy way to get away for not being able to resist the temptation*

During LTR dinner time..
Me: Eh, I am not supposed to eat duck also la.

And so Panjang and Boss sacrifice their duck rice and teman me to eat some Homeland mee...

Today... char koay teow...
Habis la.. I ate the prawns and the kerang and otak-otak and sesame seeds on the chee cheong fun. The food is so nice.. esp the prawns and the kerang in the char koay teow. Oh my... how to resist the temptation wei? What the crap, man!

Haiyo.. how wei? Today is only the 18th day.. not even a month!

d' weekend

A challenge. An assurance. A blessing. An opportunity. A reminder. An encouragement. And of course, a knock on my head...

and blah blah blah...

I am thankful to God for this wonderful weekend although I was(am) like a zombie after it ended. It was really a fun time having the retreat together. A time to know more about each other. To know more about Acceptable Leadership. To know more about CGs and our roles and responsibilities in PKV.

I know that I am not doing it alone.
You are walking alongside me.

And we are in this together.
Haha..

It's a new year!

The first day of 2008. I had a great dinner with my roomie at TGIF. The food was very nice!! Super nice, I tell you. Hahaha..

I am gonna be super busy this sem. *speechless....*

We are having a hard time to arrange our schedule for this sem and the following 2 semesters. See la, who ask me to senang-senang dahulu? Now I have to susah-susah kemudian. 21 credit hours. WTH. No choice. Oh my...

Just a moment ago..
Me: eeee... why 125-91 equals to 34 punya?
Roomie and YL: wahahahahahhahahaha...

*they were not laughing at me. they were laughing at our insanity.*

We are all very screwed up now. Help us.. =)