2008

Tonight is the night the world begins again.

Goodbye, 2007!

jiahui is...

angry. blank. bored. confused. crazy. depressed. disappointed. drained. exhausted. fed up. frustrated. gloomy. hungry. irritated. jingle bombing UM. lonely. moody. nostalgic. numb. overwhelmed. pissed. stressed. stuck. tired. unhappy. upside-down. worried.

and she is not looking forward to study the things she is taking this sem.

=(

Does the LORD delight in burnt
offerings and sacrifices
as much as in obeying the
voice of the LORD?
To obey is better than sacrifice
and to heed is better than
the fat of rams
1 Sam 15:22

'回 头 是 岸' 是 对 的。说 '再 见' 也 是 对 的。听 命 胜 於 献 祭 ； 顺 从 胜 於 公 羊 的 脂 油 。

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The Sovereign LORD is my strength

虽 然 无 花 果 树 不 发 旺 ， 葡 萄 树 不 结 果 ， 橄 榄 树 也 不 效 力 ， 田 地 不 出 粮 食 ， 圈 中 绝 了 羊 ， 棚 内 也 没 有 牛 ；
然 而 ， 我 要 因 耶 和 华 欢 欣 ， 因 救 我 的 神 喜 乐 。
主 耶 和 华 是 我 的 力 量 ； 他 使 我 的 脚 快 如 母 鹿 的 蹄 ， 又 使 我 稳 行 在 高 处 。
Habakkuk 3:17-19

how does it feel?

You came...
And you left

It hurts
To see you walking away
I was struggling deep within me
To hold back the tears

And not to turn back

Things are not the same anymore.

You and me. We are different.

And you have gone to a place I cannot follow.

neh...

Oh well.. it's like a dream huh..
Thank God that all went well. =)

You know what, they have this feedback form which the patients need to fill in on the day which they are to be discharged. And there's one question which goes like this...
"Will you recommend our services to your friends?"

Wah.. erm, I find it a bit one-of-a-kind. Haha..
So, if any of you need to be admitted to a hospital.. and so happened you are in Ipoh.. you may wanna give ISC a try huh.. Haha.. what the crap!

I should have brought something like a book or mp3 or whatever. But, just like all good mama's girl, I listened to her....

Me: Mi, later you go back home ar, pls bring the mp3 to hosp.
My mum: You crazy ar? You will be 'wan wan tan tan' (*blur blur) after your op la. Go sleep saje la!
Me: Ha? Really wan ar? OK la.. never mind then.

Later after the op, I discovered that I shouldn't have listen to her. Hahaha.. It's so boring there, plus the stupid tv is spoiled. Thank God for the brilliant thing called handphones. So I was busy sending messages... And since I got nothing to do, I decided to sleep early ler...

Hmm, thank you for all your messages and encouragements and prayers! Truly appreciated that! =)

Tagged by Bummer

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Each player of this game writes about his/her Christmas wishes. People who get tagged need to visit your blog to find out more, and then write about the same topic in their blogs. Player must state the rules clearly, and pass this on by tagging the same number of people. To tag someone, leave a comment in his/her blog and tell them that they have been tagged. Number of blogger to tag: Up to you. Happy tagging.

Now, my personal wish list for Christmas.
1) A more canggih camera
2) A nice handbag
3) A study bible
4) Hmm, good health *weeeeee...*
5) A new PC
6) A new hp
7) A pair of new specs

I’m tagging:
suitlin, adelene, melalyn, jason ho




**Hmm, can I continue with the wish list later? =)

random

This is not to promote the chocolate.
I like the word 'block' plus the 'ed'.
Yeah, so lame.. I know..

Alright, this is another lame thing I did. Well, actually there's a series of pictures and it comes out as a story. But right now I am kinda lazy to upload them. Never mind, maybe I'll do so later.

Something else..

Sometimes, I am scared ...
that I may be running out of time.

I don't know what is ahead. And I try not to be worried or fearful or... whatever lar.

I blew..
I saw..
I folded..
I threw..
Trains of thoughts
Filled my mind.

What if.. O' What if..
Will you be there with me?

HE never fails

Right vs Wrong

A lot of news about Hindraf and ISA and blah blah blah..

I was thinking..

What is right and what is wrong?
Who is right and who is wrong?

??

messy..

Outsiders won't understand that kind of pain. Never mind. Just forget about it.

Dinner was great. Eat, drink. Eat more. Drink more. It has been a long time since the last time I had a drink with friends. Haha =)

I'm not really in the right 'condition' or 'mood' to blog. Lately, I am having some kind of mental-traffic-jammed. *crap*

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What should I do?

I really don't know...

I am in a mess...

too late

It's too late to apologize
It's too late
I said it's too late to apologize
It's too late
-Timbaland, Apologize-

The damage is done.

funny how a photograph can take you back in time
to places and embraces
that you thought you'd left behind

Kenny Loggins - Your Heart will Lead You Home

life

After trying a few times to get a clear picture.. finally I got it! I have always loved the scenery here. Mornings and evenings. That KFC bucket is the only thing that kinda spoils the view. Some mornings, I would bring my cup of coffee and enjoy the time looking at cars and bikes and buses going up and down the road. For a lazy bum like me who doesn't like to walk much .. this place is the nearest one I could have to be alone and dive into my lala-world. I can see sunsets from here. Sunsets are beautiful. But I have not gotten a chance to snap a nice one. It's all about timing, isn't it? The right timing when the sky is clear, when the sunlight paints the clouds orange.. here and there a bit....

I guess I like the nostalgic feelings which only sunsets could give me. It's beautiful but it only lasts for a short while...

Life

Bring it on!

Come on, 4 more days to go!!
All I need to do is just to help them with some makeover thingy...
and they will be mighty glad and happy...
O' my little princes and princesses...

Oh my oh my...

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Oh well, one day I shall put up some picz of me with the kids. Erm, actually it's quite satisfying to see the kids feeling so fulfilled after taking pictures in those costumes. They are a bunch of cute kids. But, they are kind of testing my patience. Hmm, I just finished watching Evan Almighty and there's this part where 'God' is talking to Joan, Evan's wife.

So, when we pray for patience.. does God just give us patience?
Or does He give us the opportunity to be patient?

Me: Alright, point taken.

***
Come on, 4 more days to go!!
All I need to do is just to help them with some makeover thingy...
and they will be mighty glad and happy...
O' my little princes and princesses...

Bring it on!!

Picz

These are Cheffrost's angels.. Muahahaha...

HAppy Belated Birthday, roomie Suitlin!! I was supposed to post this pic on ur bday.. but then... 'Snap..! My internet credit habis d.....'

I like this.. thank you, Panjang!

Cheffrost finally has a few pictures with his angels...

Me and my buddy, ai wei!

me and my buddy, ivan!

Me, Divya and Shannon

We are the CGCs... muahahaha..

updatez

Today will be my 4th day working in the Disney thingy. 5 hours a day. Dressing up little boys and little girls, bringing them to get a photo shoot. Oh well, I thank God that I am not doing Early Childhood Education. Haha.. Aww, dont' get me wrong. The kids are fine and I am enjoying myself. I guess the difficult part of it is that I don't really mix well with strangers -- adults and kids alike. It's pretty hard for me to erm, be super dupper friendly with kids even though some of them are quite adorable. And the parent-factor? Help me, man!! My first day of work was the talent contest event -- haha, I was in-charge of back stage thingy, getting the kids ready for the event. Erm, there were some mistakes here and there. But I really thank God that it went on ok. I was dead tired even though I only worked for 5 hours on that day. Haiyo, taking care of the kids can really sap out all my strength.

I tell you, everyday I can get kinda stressful when I am on my way to work (part of it is because of the weather ~ so darn hot when I am driving to work!). I will be thinking about the kids and the parents I am going to meet within that 5 hours, thinking about how to deal with them... blah blah blah... What can I do? Pray lor! =)

Well well, I don't think I should miss this out ... I think my supervisor is kinda cun... hahaha... Serious! He is so gentleman, friendly, soft spoken(he speaks very softly), well mannered. cute. i like his earrings. Ahhh, I don't how la to decribe. My boss? Haha.. I will always remember the way he says, "Wah.. if this this this happen, I sweat ar...!", all these come with the action of wiping his face. "Wah.. if this this this happen, die ar.. I tell you.", another action of bending his index finger. Funny and interesting people to work with. I think it's challenging to me because these people set high standards and quality of the work and services they provide. I believe that 'whatever lar', 'like that lor' and 'never mind lar' never existed in their dictionaries.

So much about work yeah.

I have finished the book The Time Traveler's Wife. Finally. Haha. Yeah, the genetic disorder thingy is memang tak masuk akal. But the love story... Ahh.... the love story is so .. erm.. beautiful.. and yet so kesian.. awwww.... =(

Some other updates...My bro is going for a school trip next monday. Guess what, he has already started packing his stuff yesterday. Oh my gosh! He is even more terror than me. I pack about maximum 4 days earlier for camps and trips, but he packs one week earlier! Haiyo, he is so cute, I tell you. =)

Oohh.. I am wondering how my MooLoo is doing. Hope it is fine. My aquarium of fish? My vampire? My Alien? Sigh, the internet connection at home doesn't allow me to spend(waste) time Facebook-ing.... neh... that's why I am cyber cafe now! =p

face to face

Finally I have the time to really sit down and blog about some things. To think about some things. The more I looked into them, the more I realized how all these things are actually linked together. By God. And all I could say is that I am amazed by His works. Those experiences, some are pretty pleasant and joyous, some.. are hurtful and they have really crushed me to the max, forcing me to see my true self. Ah, very often I have just swept them under the carpet. Sweep! Sweep faster! There are some people who always challenge me to come face to face with those experiences, especially the not so good ones. I tried. I did what I could. I guess most of us would agree that coming face to face with those not so good things in life is just like adding salt to the wounds. It hurts like crazy and it makes me felt like banging my head to the wall. *wah, is it that serious??!* Well, at some point, it is that serious.

What has occupied my life?

Face to Face. The theme for PKV 07/08. It has really spoken to me strongly about how I have lived my life. It calls me to come face to face with my weaknesses. Face to face with my brokenness. Face to face with my shattered dreams. Face to face with my mistakes, big or small. Face to face with the ugliness of some things in life. Face to face with the God who heals. Face to face with the God who never gives up on me. Face to face with the God who knows what is best for me. Face to face with the God who calls me to have dreams, having Him in the centre of those dreams.

I had a good time on Sunday night with 2 friends, WL and A.Esther. We went for dinner at a nice place, and spent the time catching up with each other, sharing stories about the things we have gone thru. Their stories is such an encouragement to me. What more can I say but to thank the Lord for His works in their lives and my life as well? Indeed, we will never fully understand the reason why certain things in life have to happen in a particular way. I am still waiting for that 'one day' when I can finally see the big picture God has for me.

She said to me, "God sees your heart. He wants a heart that yields to Him so that He can use you according to His purposes...."

He sees my heart. These words are strong enough for me to continue to step forward with the Lord. Strong enough for me to stay away from a life of sin and not to give in to temptations, and to clean my 'inner house'. Strong enough to tell myself to set my mind and heart on things above, not on earthly things. Strong enough to tell myself that I can trust in Him and His love.

We are coming to an end of 2007. I have always complained how bad or terrible a year has been, always hoping and praying for a better year. I still remember how I felt last year around this time. I am glad that this year it is different even though it hasn't been an 'easy year'. It is different because I know God is working in me, working in my family and etc, although I may not be able to see it. The Almighty God Himself is the peace, the assurance I needed.

Again, she said, "Indeed, this is not an easy road. But there is a Someone to help you up when you fall. There is a Someone to heal your wounds and your brokenness. It is much more better than the other road which you can walk however you want, go whichever direction you like. But on this road, there will be no one to help you up when you fall. There will be no one to heal your wounds and your brokenness."

It's so true. So true.

It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect.

He makes my feet like the feet of a deer;

he enables me to stand on the heights.

2 Sam 22:33-34