uncertainties.

Let's walk to the end,

together.

相信命理

"我是相信命理的。

我相信，我們命格中都有一定程度的預設，如DNA，是先天被種下的。

但我更相信命運只是被含糊地放在一個寬鬆的框架中，一切劇情與走向，

到最後還得看當中的人怎麼選擇，還有你如何相信。

以此邏輯推斷，其實從來就沒有「認命」「不認命」這兩個選項，因為劇本根本不存在。

所謂的認命，也只是人們自己想像出來的一種「不可變」與「不可能」。

是他們因應環境阻力，而自願走進的一種「現實」。"

HOCC 《不是完結，而是開始》

你

你　你说有时候　你只想坐着　陪在我左右
你　你说有时候　我的温柔　擦亮了一整片夜空

你　你笑了起来　我的风帆　听见大海
你　你沉默起来　我的伤感　扬起狂乱的尘埃

若　若只剩下一首歌的时间
想　想牵你的手　轻轻唱着

来　来到我身边　很多的眼泪　我们不能明白
来　来到你身边　很多的爱
想要　对你全都说完　不留遗憾

若　若只剩下一首歌的时间
想　想牵你的手　轻轻唱着

来　来到我身边　很多的眼泪　我们不能明白
来　来到你身边　很多的爱
想要　对你全都说完　不留遗憾

我们的身边　生命去又来　谁也不能主宰
在　我们的身边　交换的爱
才让　生命超脱时间　继续循环

我　我沉默起来　好像就不管　所有的困难
我　我笑了起来　有你陪伴

如果我们只剩一首歌的时间 - 何韵诗

So long, fare thee well

There’s so much to say. 

I know you are in a better place, where you are no longer restricted by the disease. That you have been set free from it, and regained the life you had 5 years ago. 

But I don’t know how this is going to heal.. How to reconcile with the fact that we won’t get to talk anymore, won’t get to do crazy things together anymore, won’t get to go for trips .. won’t get to do some amazing photography stuff together.. 

Every time I thought of you, I felt so much pain inside of me. It’s just too hard to let you go. 

I should have told you earlier that I am really very proud of you, for standing strong and fighting til the end. You have fought the good fight, finished the race and kept the faith. You deserve the rest which only God can give. 

“For I am already being poured out like a drink offering, and the time has come for my departure. I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day..” 2 Tim 4:6-9

I really miss you. 

Sandakan

It was all 

unexpected love. 

The final month?

It's time to say goodbye soon.

I cannot stay.

Even though i don't know where i am going.

Stop hiding

A never-ending battle.

Once a while

It's the final quarter of the year.

I couldn't imagine how different life is going to be if things really turned out to be 'that way'.

Why do I always feel that He likes to take away my favorite things and watch me suffer?

you missed that.

really.

To You.

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart 

But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

***

I have many thoughts running through my mind. 

You are here and yet you felt that deep within you, something just doesn't seem right. You felt like you shouldn't be here, that you should be at somewhere else, doing something else. Living a different life. 

 It's funny how such feelings comes visiting again after taking such a long hiatus. So long until you thought you have overcome and finally be freed from it. You thought you are an overcomer just like how they always tell you to be. But it's always there. It has always been there. 

Who are you?

You are way too timid to talk about change. Let alone living out that change.

Who are you?

How can you leave behind that you, pretending that you never existed?

***

You are just a human. 

Stop being so selfless. It costs you way too much.