Y @ 4:19 PM
its been sucha long time since i last blog.
collected alot of dust & webs.
sigh.
too many things happened.
i also dont know how to start.
guessed i have let down a few people..
and whatever decisions i made now are gonna hurt a few people.
but thats what i have to do.
i think.
this year is gonna be a crucial year for me.
its something i have to deal with myself.
alone.
i have to make things right.
i had reevaluate my goals for this year.
and im gonna refocus on them.
dont wish to make the same mistake again..
Y @ 2:16 AM
i have so much to say.
so much to blog..
wed.
i forgot wat i did in the mornin alr.
ouh yea.
went bbdc.
took theory test.
though not the actual evaluation.
i failed la.
TWICE.
but im not going to give up.
later in the afternoon i will be going to do my test again.
then i will book for my practical & evaluation.
at nyte.
met up with marcus.
and babes.
n yes.
went to arena.
i guess its a mistake!
oh well..
wads done is done.
cant be undone.
learnt from the lesson ba.
accountability is important!
thurs.
suppose to meet up with cindy.
but woke up late.
and was raining.
so stayed at shop.
went PS with a fren.
fri.
afternoon went TP openhouse.
then chill awhile with cindy.
suppose to go cg.
but mom was unwell.
so headed back to shop.
had dinner with mom & uncle thomas.
at midnyte.
went to meet up with marianne & her friends.
at bugis starbucks chill awhile.
headed to cine to catch a movie.
we watched american gangster.
quite nice!
its about drug dealin.
and the way the gangster kill the people is so digusting can!
the show quite long.
watched till 330am.
marianne rode me home.
i enjoyed myself!
=)
sat.
which is today.
started my day badly.
quarrelled with my sister!
very very down can.
sigh.
but i still go service la.
bfore service was having makeup cg.
today sermon was about FORGIVENESS.
what are the important things that we values in life?
*VALUES = wats most important to you.
= wat you stand for.
= wad you willing to pay the price for.
normally people tend to not do something until they see the value of it.
noone deserves forgiveness!
we forgive not because people deserve it, but you are the doing the right thing by GOD's grace.
(life is 10% "wat happened" and 90% how we react to it.)
I will forgive because GOD forgives me.
bitterness & resentment will destroy me.
Focus on wats important to me.
dont go for things that are momentary.
*Prioritize.
give up your right to get even. (no revenge)
*forgive is the act of grace.
set boundaries in lives.
walls with gates.
not walls.
responds to evil with good.
do good to people who do evil to you.
repeating the above steps for as long as necessary.
LIMITLESS.
FORGIVENESS.
is unconditional.
does not minimize the seriousness of offense.
isnt resuming a relationship without change.
isnt forgetting wats happened.
isnt my right when i wasnt the one hurt.
its easy to say than done.
its always your initiative.
if its a big deal, its a big deal.
treat it with respect.
dont take it as a joke!
not just "im sorry" but admit your mistake.
u forgive but still TRYING to forget means you still focusing on it.
FORGET by refocusing on something else.
not on the hurt but the goodness of GOD.
EMBRACE THE FUTURE, FORGET THE PAST. =)
cg sermon was about VISION THAT ENLARGES YOU.
every vision must be writted down, clear & simple & must inspire.
unsuccessful people focus their thinking on survival.
average people focus their thinking on maintainence.
successful people focus their thinking on PROGRESS!
do the impossible!
even if cant hit the impossible, you have do something beyond the possible.
=)
Godly vision will change the circumstances or situation.
the vision is the solution to your problem.
*HAVE A BIG VISION!
to receive vision.
sanctify yourself.
evaluate your present situation.
take action steps towards your vision.
think will end here.
will update pictures sooonn..
Y @ 12:36 AM
remember that when u are tired or down.
and u needa someone to lean on.
im always here for you.
cheer up!
(:
hahhaha.
i spent half of my day out with cindy today.
(:
hmmm.
woke up 12plus noon.
2pm met up with cindy at bugis.
chill out at mac.
we talk n talk n talk.
then went to walk around the mall.
went to hypnosis.
GOT SALE!
lol.
i bought a top 20dollars.
cindy bought a 75dollars & 25dollars top.
and had a free shade!
nice nice.
im so in love with the shop!
(: (:
then..
went to a coffeeshop to chill.
talk n talk again.
and camwhore can!
LOL
and best thing.
we never take pictures tgt.
thanks ah!
LOL.
then..
walk n walk.
talk n talk.
and shop n shop.
LOL.
then accompany cindy wait for bus.
got this foreigner want go mustafa.
so she walked with me back to shop.
and i guided her to mustafa.
while walkin to the shop.
another 2foreigners showed me a map n asked me to guide them to suntec.
LOL.
does my face look like a street directory?
ohhh.
is it a sign that i should study tourism & hotel management?
yea think i should.
LOL.
then.. headed back to shop.
online.
chat with mom n her friends.
and yea.
i going to sleep sooonnn..
tmr mornin needa wake up early.
LOL.
tmr nyte.
meetin friends to chill too.
thurs whole day with cindy.
mornin go swimmin n sunbathin.
LOL.
then afternoon go TP openhouse.
evening.
go PS meet lorraine for dinner.
friday.
meeting ash, hindu & eileen.
go NYP openhouse.
prolly TP again.
LOL.
then evening cellgroup.
my schedule so packed can!
LOL.
but at least got things to keep me occupied.
(:
i was shocked can.
thanks to eileen!
got boyfriend le also never tell me.
LOL.
but im happy for you la.
heee.
Y @ 1:23 AM
Y @ 1:13 AM
i have so much to say today.
LOL.
alryte.
i woke up at abt 1pm.
took a bath.
eat lunch with mom.
was chillin.
330pm meetin bestie at BGmrt.
but i left bugis at 3pm.
LOL.
thanks to me.
we both late for lesson.
thank GOD never kana scold.
but next time we go late, cannot go in for class already.
phew!
suppose got two lessons to take.
then something happened la.
and thanks to bestie.
LOL.
so wed going for class.
and we have our test on that day too.
but its practise la.
see whether can pass not.
if can, then we can proceed for our evaluation.
=)
we ate our dinner at bbdc.
chill for awhile.
and headed down to town to meet up with jiabao.
supposedly going to watch movie.
but dont know time n all.
so we gave up!
end up, chill at starbucks.
was fun la!
we talk n talk n talk.
LOL.
like never ending.
we camwhored too!
LOL.
at about 10plus pm.
we slowly walk to orchard mrt.
and while walking.
i was too excited!
i tore my bestie's sling bag the sling.
LOL.
thanks to me.
we all laughed till like crazy women.
walking down orchard road.
everyone looking at us la.
like duh!
took train.
go bugis slack awhile.
she bought yanyan n fries from mac for me la.
so sweet of her!
LOL.
thanks.
then her fren came fetched her home.
and i walked back to shop alone.
so quiet & dark can!
i so scared la.
keep turning back to see got anyone behind me not.
LOL.
so silly of me.
think cos of my brother.
tat time scare me.
till i scared le.
thanks to him!
LOL.
ok.
shall let the pictures do the talking.
i had a good laughed today.
thanks babes!
LOVES.
=)
Y @ 1:49 AM
last nyte.
bfore i sleep.
i wrote an entry.
but i accidentally deleted it bfore saving.
so..
all gone!
yea, thanks to me.
oh well.
was exhausted last nyte.
too tired to retype.
yesterday morning.
i went for basic theory lesson (BLT).
awaiting test.
went to bugis with bestie for awhile.
then headed back to shop.
rested awhile.
but was tired.
thought of not going for church service.
but i felt bad!
i shld have put GOD first.
and is the 1st service for this year.
i simply cant miss it!
so last minute.
i went.
but i missed the praise & worship.
thank GOD i still managed to go into the hall for service.
the service was about FOCUS and goals setting.
very motivated by the preaching.
and i had set my goals for 2008.
it will come to pass.
'you fail to plan, you plan to fail.'
having faith is not enough.
we are the scriptwriters of our lives and GOD is our director!
=)
*i must learn to keep in step with the Holy Spirit.
*wise man has the ability to be flexible.and dont be a fool.
theres no perfect plan.
*trust GOD and do my best.
you get what you focus on!
if you do many things in life, you will end up with nothing.
=)
after service.
had dinner at airport with cg members.
waited at airport for mom & uncle thomas.
they arrived at about 1030pm.
took cab to shop.
during the journey,
mom asked.
do i miss her?
LOL.
i said no.
i just shun bian wait for her & the things she buy for me.
LOL.
but actually i miss her.
and lots!
badly.
how silly i am to lie.
=)
my mom patted me on my head n smile la.
like duh!
of cos, she will know.
im her daughter leh.
alamak!
reached shop.
we got so many things to talk about.
and she bought tops for me.
thanks mom!
LOVES.
and food.
LOL.
=X
talked till about 2am.
then sleep.
today.
this morning 8am got riding theory lesson.
we dint went.
cos think im tired.
and not feeling well.
so i woke up at 6am to cancel the lesson.
thank GOD!
no need pay.
=)
went back to sleep till 2pm.
woke up.
helped mom to look after shop.
watched thai ghost dvds.
online but did nothing.
evening.
rebook for bike lesson.
and did some readings.
i came across this love sad story online la.
so touching!
read till cry also.
bro said im mad.
listen to music can cry.
watch tv can cry.
read also can cry!
LOL.
like duh.
touching can.
hahhaha.
bro went peninsula with fren.
then while he was walking.
he knocked onto the glass sliding door.
LOL.
was laughing till drop can!
so careless of him.
somemore his fren did warned him la.
the fren was like shouting 'oei oei.'
and want pull him back.
but was too late!
LOL.
bfore he knocked onto the door.
he still can shout back.
'you oei oei wad.'
DOTS CAN!
got 1 security saw la.
LOL.
he damn paiseh lo!
he even laughed at his own sillyness.
think thats all la.
im tired.
want go sleep.
nytes!
MY GOD WILL CROWN MY NEW YEAR (2008) WITH GOODNESS!
=)
i believe this year will be a great year for me.
=)
Y @ 11:14 PM
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SHE IS MY BITCH.
HER NAME IS RAIHANNA AKA ANNA AKA NOR AKA DUCHESS.
simply loves her lots!
i too tired.
so will update more pictures of us tmr.
pictures taken when we are on our way back after we register for bike licence.
LOL.
meeting tmr morning for 1st bike theory lesson.
love you bitch!
*hugs
Y woooohoooooo @ 5:54 PM
wooohooo!
LOL.
im so excited can!
BIKE!
oh mandy.
im coming for you.
yes!
just now went to bbdc to register.
i went with my bitch, raihanna aka duchess aka bestie.
we two like so KUKU can!
LOL.
tmr mornin 1st bike theory lesson.
cant wait cant wait!
LOL.
i just came back to shop.
raining can!
LOL.
so now must save up already.
cannot anyhow spend ya.
need to get helmet!
dont want wear theirs.
LOL.
and pay for the subsequent theory & practical lessons.
and of cos..
MY BIKE!
hahahahha.
(=
sunday will look for job!
definitely not just for my bike.
and for school too!
next week.
have to meet up with a few friends.
to go school hunting.
and meeting up with jeslin to chill.
its been sucha long time since i last met up with her.
i think theory lessons still ok la.
still be able to cope.
alryte.
one problem down!
hahahha.
now im scared.
cos of my results.
hmmm.
God, let me give glory to you thru my results!
i love YOU!
(=
later 7pm meetin ROBERT for dinner.
and talk talk talk.
LOL.
never see him for sooo long too!
hahahha
okok.
shall end here.
blog again tonyte.
(=
Y @ 1:23 AM
i was in the shop.
was online.
=)
business not bad today la.
lose lesser amount than bfore.
at least better than the last few days.
business will pick up back reaaal soooonn!
=)
alryte.
suppose to go watch moviee with cg people.
but didnt la.
cos.
at that point of time.
still got no customers.
so was worried.
but im ok le.
at 10pm.
marianne came to pick me up.
went parklane played pool.
LOL.
so fun la!
so long never play liao.
used to be so lousy.
out of 5games.
think i won 1 game.
i forget.
2times marianne shoot black ball in.
LOL.
2times marianne won!
LOL.
not bad not bad!
whens our next game?!
LOL.
and we had a good laugh.
thanks for helping me to distress.
played till 11plus.
went to eat rocher beancurb.
n youtiao.
nice nice!
then she sent me back to shop.
=)
reached shop 12plus.
was doing some accounts for mom.
helped close shop.
and here i am blogging.
was chatting with a few of my friends online.
hahha.
school start le.
must jiayou k.
and thanks to my fren, MORRIS.
LOL.
if is not him.
think i totally forgot about my O level results.
and must choose school.
but im getting more n more nervous can!
suppose results coming out in feb.
but they brought forward.
either 18 or 22nd JAN.
ahhhh.
im so scared!
so..
was checking out poly's open house.
next week.
will be meeting out with my private school classmates.
go check out the polys.
LOL.
thanks to those who helped me to find out!
=)
now.
the main thing is..
i dont even know wat i like and wat course to take.
scared my results cant go to the course i want go.
LOL.
lorraine told me must start thinking now.
yayea.
i will do it.
=)
and i will pray about it!
cant wait for mom to come back!
really miss her lots.
today whole day also never call me la.
how can!
do you know i miss you so much?
LOL
yes yes.
and my bike license and all.
oh mandy!
i want you so much.
LOL
think im crazy.
yea yea.
I AM!
head over heels for you.
tmr might meet up with robert for coffee ya.
LOL.
so long never see him le.
he is always busy working.
=)
last year din get to go oversea with marianne.
so this year must go together ok?
BALI!
hahahha.
last dec she went.
then she forgot to lock her luggage.
her handphone,diving thingy & portable dvd player lost la!
the dvd player belonged to her dad.
she still havent tell him.
she went to mustafa to want to get a new one for her dad.
but different colour! *peng*
the luggage's zips are unzipped!
so not safe.
hmmm.
lesson learnt!
dont be lazy & do neccessary precaution.
she said not fun!
cos was raining.
nevermind!
we shall go together again.
and enjoy ourselves!
=)
hahha.
ever since the 1st time i go meet her.
tell her that i wan exercise!
till now i never.
LOL.
no motivation.
cannot le!
might go take up kickboxing with her at CC!
let me know again alryte!
=)
ok la.
think i stop here.
want go read bible, pray and sleep liao.
gud nyte!
*In the search for me, I discovered truth.
In the search for truth, I discovered love.
In the search for love, I discovered GOD.
And in GOD, i have found everything.*
=)=)
Y =) @ 3:54 PM
i have decided to let go its not bcos i dont love you anymore.
just that i dont want you feel stress because of me.
it may not meant alot to you.
but it meant alot to me.
i will still be there for you if you needed someone and u cant find one.
你要加油！
=)
i think im the bad luck lehh.
mom's not around.
and i took care of the shop.
the business like bad!
keep losing money.
why huh!
workers also never sit outside call customers come in.
either sleeping.
or eating.
or sit at sofa nua-ing.
worst thing, not even a single soul walkin & passby our shop.
sigh.
wats wrong wit this week?
even i wan go take a nap, i also scared no customers.
keep thinking about it.
from morning till now,
not even one customer can!
disappointed & frustrated.
but nevermind!
im not going to give up.
jiayou jiayou jiayou!
last nyte.
jiabao came to the shop to meet me.
i was happy to see her.
thanks for coming!
then we headed to attica to had a drink.
after that we went to a NEW CLUB.
not totally a CLUB.
something like a pub.
called THE ARENA!
oh my!
im so loving that place.
on wed.
ladies freeflow.
and the live band!
power!
is a all black nigga band!
they sing R&B songs.
the music they played also R&B reggae.
so nice can!
just sit down drink & enjoy.
then during the interval,
can dance dance abit!
i never felt so happy bfore.
or maybe im not!
i dont know.
i was kinda high.
or i shld say drunk!
=X
i dont know either.
but i enjoyed myself babes!
thanks for your company.
oh btw.
duchess came to meet us at ARENA also.
think i will not go mos le.
every wed go ARENA sit down drink & chill.
still can listen to R&B songs.
=) =)
ARENA closes at 4am.
we went mos for awhile.
but not very fun!
the music in ARENA is better than MOS.
so 15mins later.
we left.
saw cheryl & vanessa also.
so long never see them!
take care ya.
LOVES.
=)
duchess & me went to mac to eat!
so hungry can.
LOL
then it was drizzling.
and so cold la!
windy~
at about 5plus, we went back le.
one more thing.
while waiting for duchess to come join us.
we were sitting down by the roadside.
then got this group of chinese guys beside us.
at first.
all the way i was speaking in english.
then suddenly i speak chinese.
they guys beside us was shocked!
as in really shocked!
they all thought im malay can.
LOL
all looked at me.
and one of them named erwin.
even asked me.
LOL.
then we also got shaked hands n introduce ourselves.
LOL.
but erwin is a retro person.
but i guess all his frens are R&B de ba.
very sian one can!
everytime people thought i malay.
then, no chinese guys want know me.
hahahha.
kidding.
boooooo!
the day before yesterday.
in the afternoon.
aunt zun, aunt wan & myself were sitting outside the shop.
and guess wat.
we were talking about being christian.
and aunt zun said all her friends are christian.
and they become more n more rich.
and always happy.
and i shared a few testimonies to them.
they were amazed!
aunt wan was kinda skeptical la.
but one day i believed she will understand.
=)
they even talk of going to the thai service which hold in golden mile complex.
i guess their got 1 church for thai people.
jiayou jiayou!
mom won 4D yesterday!
500dollars.
yea shes not in spore.
but b4 she left for thailand.
she already asked her fren to help her buy.
shes so lucky!
tonyte got toto.
dont know she will win again not.
the fren whom she helped my mom buy also won.
i think 4000plus.
=)
