Green to Gold

Scotty, my husband, has decided to start the process of going Green to Gold in the Army. Which means there is a lot of work to be done.

Scotty is in good shape, I mean his job kinda requires it. Not to say that some soilders are over wight and unfit, but he takes good care of himself. But, for the Green to Gold Process they want you to be, "cut," because they take pictures of you for the process, so my darling husband is going from two work outs a day to three.

We also found out that he has a better possibility of getting accepted if he has an associates degree, so we are maxing out his classes he can take online through the army. We found out that if he does this and we submit the classes to the community college and pay $250.00 he can get credited collage hours for them. Between the college hours he already has and these online courses he should have an associates when he is through.

We also have to get accepted into a college with an ROTC program, be accepted by a recruiter, and get a recomendation from his commander. Needless to say there is a lot to be done, but hopefully it will all work out. It would be such a blessing if it did.

I am so proud of him for even trying to do this. I know that if he gets accepted he can make it the hard part is it's just not in his hands. There are so many that have to be in his boat. This could be a new chapter in our lives.


Wish us luck!

Sore

Today was a hard day at the gym. I woke up this morning so sore from yesterdays run, feeling very unmotivated, but I told Soha that I would be there so, off I went. Since we were both feeling it from the day before we decided to walk.

We did a fast paced walk, 3.2 on the treadmill, at an incline of 3. I may not have been running, but I definently felt the burn. We walked for an hour, and when were done I was wore out. I just wanted to come home and soak in a hot bath. Instead I came home and did my crutches, and cleaned my house.

Now that I am done, and have taken my hot bath. I am so proud of myself for not giving into indulgance. Tomorrow we are suppose to run again. Hopefully I can stay motivated and not quit. :)

Testing

We now have this wonderful addition to our lives, his name is James Lucas Rowlett. What a blessing he has been, and staying at home with my baby. what a wonderful experience.

I can't believe all I missed out on with Blaine. All those smiles and milestones. What a blessing the Lord has given me, being able to be at home with him. I have Lucas here at home with me, I must say he is spoiled, and then I have Blaine.

Blaine, makes me laugh. Oh the things that come out of his mouth. Just the other day we were watching a movie, a kids movie, on TV and all of a sudden he stands up and says, "SH**." I said, "what did you just say?" and he says it again. Thinking I must have mistakenly heard him twice I ask him one more time, and sure enough I heard him correctly. So I look at him and say, "You know that we don't talk like that, so next time I hear you say that you are going to be in big trouble." he looks at me and says, "OK."obviously he was testing the waters, and I have learned that the age five is all about testing those waters. I just pray the Lord gives me the patients to deal with those test.

Don't you think it's funny how as mothers and fathers we get to see through our children what the Lord must feel towards us. The testing of waters, do we not test God every day. Continually doing what he has told us not to. I continually feel as though God gave me my children to draw me closer to him, to teach me of his unconditional love, and show me how he also teaches me through discipline.

Lucas is here

Are precious Lucas is here, born at 7lbs 9oz, he is now 15lbs 9oz. Though I forgot how much work a baby was, he has been such a blessing. Watching Blaine be a big brother, and how Lucas looks for him every time he walks into a room has been precious.

I never realized how much I had missed snuggling with a baby, and watching my big strong husband turn to mush every time he picked up our baby. Not to say he doesn't turn to mush with Blaine it's just a different type of mush. LOL

We have been so blessed to have so much help between my husbands mother and mine I def. have not been on my own with Lucas. I was scared at first that with Scotty being in the army I wasn't going to have much help, but the Lord has blessed me with a family that jumps in when need be.

Lucas is definitely been a different experience than Blaine. Blaine being a premie didn't come home till 3 months. Lucas coming home term has been quit the experience. Sleepless nights to no end, screaming baby that wants to be held, because he is so spoiled, and the list goes on. But it's all worth it.

Our lives have changed dramatically in the last couple of months. We have went from a family of to a soon to be family of four. Worrying about if this lovely child we are going to have will be a premie too, and working out the stresses of getting a bigger home for us all. But one thing remains our wounderful God.

though we get busy and distracted with our worries and our lives we know that he is still there. That our gracious lord is carring us through and will take care of our unborn child.

I never imagened we would have another child. We were told that it would be extremly hard for us to get pregnant again. So I came to the conclusion that my Blaine, My mircle baby was a gift from God so that I could be a mother, But here we are pregnant with a second gift. All those worries that I had with Blaine come rushing back, but my God says be still and know that I am here that I am going to take care of this child and you.

Thank you Lord thank you for the stillness.

New Baby

So we are pregnant. I am so excited, of course so is Scotty. I am a little worried about this pregnacy of course. Blaine, our first child was a premie borne at 28 weeks, and so I am more likly to have another premie.
I am really trying not to overdue anything, and have quit running which is something I have really started to enjoy. I never planned to have a second child even though I always thought it would be nice. having hypothyroidism it is suppose to hard for me to get pregnant, but Gods will is bigger than any medical problem.
My friends please keep us in your prayers, and you of course will be in ours.

MOM

The older I get the more I realize as a child I had no idea all the things my mother did for me. The love she showed me and the things she sacrificed.

My mother was 18 by one month when she had me. She got her GED and married my father. Later she put herself though EMT school, Phlebotomy's school, X-ray technician school, and got her CDL to drive school bus. She was married to my father for 21 years before they divorced, and most of the time she was playing both roles of mom and dad.

Most of my childhood she was working two jobs at one time, and trying to write her music, But we always had a mother. She was never farther away than a phone call, and she was always home for dinner.

Many times growing up I didn't understand why she did the things she did. It didn't make since to me. Now that I'm grown and I have a child of my own I understand more. I now realize what she did and why she had to do those things.

So to my mother: Thank you, thank you for being mom and dad, for watching out for me, for being stricter than other parents, but most of all thank you for being my mom and not my friend. I love you.

love this quote

People see God every day, they just don't recognize him. ~Pearl Bailey


hope you like the quote.

Quote

God can only do with you, what he can do through you.

I love this quote, because it puts me in my place. When I forget were I am suppose to be it reminds me that I am suppose to be still and be with my Lord. Letting him lead me and live through me. I have trouble with always wanting to be incontrol and have things in order. This quote reminds me that I am not worry about those things, but instead worry about were I am.

Am I with my God or am I living outside of him.

Just a quote.

I love this quote by Dolly Parton it really makes me look at things differently.

"We cannot direct the wind, but we can adjust the sails."

Life

In so many places in our life we have to make hard decisions. Decisions that will change who we are forever, and marriage is one of those decisions. We make the choice to jump in it so fast not thinking of what could come later.

We say, "I do, " and think that we will love this person forever, that nothing will tear us apart, and this, "in love feeling," will never change. We don't stop to think about how the things that we say in fight will hurt each other, or the actions that will make us feel disconnected.

I have only been married for five years, but I have developed a passion to make my marriage last 50+ years from now. I constantly read marriage books, scripture, and go on marriage retreats that are offered. But, I have yet to the manual. I see people that do nothing, that think that there marriage will fix itself, and they blame the other. When it's all over and done with, and they can't, "do this anymore," they give up and leave.

It truly breaks my heart to watch a marriage fail. I was 21 when my parents split up, and it hurt more than words can say. They were what I modeled my marriage on. They were what I knew of marriage. I can now say I try to model my marriage on the Bible, but it doesn't make it any easier.

When we go through these times were we hurt each other we have to recognize what we are doing. We have to change ourselves, and we have to seek forgiveness. We can't change the other person; it has to start with ourselves. There are still hurtful words, and actions. There are things I have went through I would have never thought about on the day I said, "I do," but we love each other. We are not going to be another statistic in a world that says marriage fails.

We will seek out example of marriage from the Lord.

Jesus replied, "Moses permitted you to divorce your wives because your hears were hard. But it was not this way from the beginning." Matthew 19.8

Life at Fort Bragg

We have been at Fort Bragg for about five months now. I can easily say that it has been life changing. As a family we have grown closer and in Christ we are constantly learning more.

We are now on a journey and were it will lead us only our gracious savior knows. I am contemplating and praying that god will lead me in what direction he wants me to go with schooling. I feel very strong about Marriage and am contemplating whether I want to go back to school to be a Christian Marriage Counselor.

Blaine is getting so big. He is growing way to fast, but watching him play and grow gives me a sliver of the understanding of how God views us. He has such a passion for trying new things, with out any fear, and such an innocence. He just jumps into whatever he is doing with out any fear of consequences. It's amazing how a child views the world.

If I can live this life with 1/2 of how Blaine is living his childhood. Jumping head first into whatever god is laying before me, not thinking of the consequences, but living for him in that exact moment, Obeying him and not worrying about the world around me. Then I will have done something even if its just a planted seed.

I worry to much about those around me, about how to present the truth, how to tell of the great love, and I miss the chance. I need to trust that my words will not be mine, but instead be those of the great poet. That he will put the words on my lips and I will be but a puppet.

With that my friends I urge all of you to let the Lord lead you through this day and jump head first into what ever he may lay in path.