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Free from your reality,I’ve found a place to run away.Stars shining over me,I feel the change in me today.Step into my world:) A blog for me to capture all that's floating around in my brain.
Always, Binx2

Thursday, November 29, 2012
Perhaps

Perhaps we were never meant to meet.
Perhaps what we have now we owe it all to chance.
I believe in fate,
In Destiny.
That everything we do, the people we meet, those we call friends, those who became our foes,
All boils down to something more than just coincidences.

And No One should ever be enlightened to that fact.
Wouldn't One simply lose the will to fight, to survive,
If One knew that his life isn't his to decide.
Perhaps there is more than just Destiny and Fate.

There is Hope and Believe.
Hope that one day all the blood, sweat and tears
that we so willingly pour into the mixing bowl of Living,
Happiness will prevail.
Believe that we are the masters of our own destinies and
NOT the other way round.

Every second that I spend fighting
Is another step towards conquering the unknown.
To give myself the benefit of the doubt
That I am Bigger than Who I imagined myself to Be.

Perhaps I am not.
But Perhaps I am.

Thursday, February 16, 2012
Sweet Tooth




Wedding cakes and cupcakes make me giddy with happiness :)

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Sunday, February 12, 2012
I like to call it Beauty





Bring me back to those childhood days of mine when everything was possible and everything was beautiful.

Monday, February 6, 2012
Being faithful is not a choice, it's a Priority


Saturday, February 4, 2012
I don't really know where the world is

Beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band, and make the fireflies dance
Silvermoon's sparkling,
So kiss me

Trapped in my room now cause it's so cold outside and I'm forcing myself to study for my exams. I feel really disconnected from everything sometimes. Like the whole world passes by me and I'm on the outside looking in.

I can't wait to get back to Singapore but at the same time I'm a little apprehensive. I am happy with the way things are. Despite being confined in one small room. I don't know what will ever happen if I return back to being part of the world.

Cause right now, it is just me and you. Simply me and you. U're the first person I wake up to and the last person I see before I fall asleep. I want things to stay like this. But that's being selfish. Change is the only constant part of life. And we need change to grow. After all it is all about growing isn't it?

Before things change, I want to cherish the last few weeks that we have left here in Germany, every meal we cook, every squabble we have, every moment we have. The last few weeks where I am allowed to take a break from the real world and just immerse myself in the magic that is truly ours.

Etiquette for a Gentleman


Friday, February 3, 2012
Strawberries taste how lips do






Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Gentle impulsion

Haha. This is so cute!

The Truth Is


How does my life look in the eyes of others?
Do they think I have it easy? Do they think I have nothing going on for myself?
Or are they fascinated with who I am? No one will ever know my real story.
No one will ever know the things I've had to overcome.
The thing is that people are so quick to judge these days.
You only see a person from what they want and allow you to see.
I always try to look as put together as I can. Cause there is no time left for me to waste. I have responsibilities and things I have to do. I have no time for soul searching, no time to fix myself.
It's just that way everyone will assume everythin is fine in my life. That I never go through anything.
When I tell people that I'm lost, hardly anyone believes me. No one is patient enough to listen and accept my feelings.
I don't need you to understand. I just want you to accept my feelings.
Acknowledge that it's ok to feel this way sometimes.
If only everyone knew how broken I am and how I'm holding on for dear life on this one last strand, that keeps getting more delicate as each day passes.
The truth is that no one really knows me. No one ever will and that scares me. Because no one will ever know why I am the way I am.

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Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Build me a heart, I'll put you in it

I recently finished watching a japanese drama "1 litres of Tears". It is an amazing show based on an inspiring true story. It reminded me once again the importance of time and the importance of living in the present.

There will always be bigger things out there to worry about. Makes me feel really stupid to be troubled by small insignificant matters such as worrying about my hair, my nails, my studies, quarrelling with my bf over some misunderstanding, trying to find my identity, constantly whining about the cold weather, the rainy weather, the "too sunny" weather, the windy weather (ok I'm just not a big fan of the Weather! haha.). I mean isn't Life all about enjoying every moment of it? Life is about BEING ALIVE and feeling every little god damn emotion and being grateful for every single breath you take.

If I were to be told that I'll no longer be able to walk or talk in a few months or a few years time, I wonder how my perspective on life would change. Would I still care about all the petty things?

Sometimes I think it's really dumb for people to cry over heartache and do silly things. But are these things you can control? I mean I may KNOW that it is something not worth dwelling on, something you should just let go, but it still hurts. I wish I am a robot, I wish that there's a program in my brain that can turn off my emotions when needed.

What's with all the pop songs about finding love, forbidden love, lost love etc, why stress upon love so much? Is is really so important? And by love I mean Romantic Love. And why can't relationships be mature? Why can't we just be faithful creatures and be loyal to one another till death do us part? Why can't we just not cheat on each other, why can't we trust each other and spare ourselves the agony of going through heartache. Why can't we trust ourselves? Why spend so much time searching for "The One" ?

I still believe in love, but I would not trade everything for it. My life wouldn't fall apart just because my heart was broken by some idiot.


Happiness is a choice and I choose to be happy.

Monday, January 30, 2012
I wanna be someone's angel

Let me paint with sound and sing with colours

Sunday, January 29, 2012
Better than a thousand hollow words, Peace.


I hate this feeling,
Like I'm here
but I'm not,
Like someone cares
but they don't,
Like I belong somewhere else,
Anywhere else but here.

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This Restless mind of mine.






One's past is what one is. It is the only way by which people should be judged.
Oscar Wilde

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Saturday, January 28, 2012
Sleep a little death

I keep falling asleep nowadays:( I bet I have like some kind of sleeping beauty illness or something. Sounds nice rite. I should be grateful I guess. Of all the people in the world, I'm probably one of the last person to get insomnia. I have NO PROBLEMS falling asleep.

Studying is a torturous piece of crap. It is capable of making a sane person go insane. I swear it's true. I used to have a mad man in my neighbourhood who keeps wandering on the streets talking to himself. And I heard that he used to be a really smart guy who went crazy after studying too much. So why so serious?? Because of studying, my hair is dry, pimples start growing, my nails are in a terrible condition, my fingers have blisters, and I have eyebags now:(




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Friday, January 27, 2012
So tired of proving you right by doing everything so wrong

I was listening to M5's song" Don't know nothing" n these thoughts came swarming into my mind I just had to write them down.

I often seem to have people in my life who keep criticising my way of handling situations, my way of life and insists that I listen to their advice and do things their way.

To those people out there:

I get the point that you may be older than me and all and like you have more experience. And maybe the way I do things is flawed, still, people make mistakes dude, that's how we learn. We learn from our mistakes and move on. Why are you robbing me of my chance to make my own mistakes? So stop trying to put down my ideas and dreams and call them unrealistic or idealistic. I live life my way and you can't impose your way of life and way of thinking on me, thinking that your way of life is more "correct" than mine. Let me be who I am destined to be instead of forcing me into your perfect mould of a person. I get it that you want the best for me. I appreciate your efforts. But I will appreciate it even more if you would give advice only when I ask you for it and when I do, please do not take it as an opportunity to put me down, please do not say "I told you so", and if you truly want the best for me, if you truly want me to be happy, please just accept me for who I am and love me for that.
It took me a long enough time not to judge myself through someone else's eyes. Let me not fall into the vulgar mistake of thinking that I am not good enough whenever I am contradicted.

I swore i made the world's worst tasting chrysanthemum tea today. It's so bitter>.< I am thankful for all the artificial sugar and what nots that YEO's put into their version of chrysanthemum tea to make it taste so much nicer! And i realised Chrysanthemum is a REALLY hard word to spell.

The name Chrysanthemum is derived from the Greek words, chrysos (gold) and anthos (flower)[1], along with the name the Chinese initially gave the flower,mums.
How royal and exotic is that! A golden flower indeed. I totally didn't do it any justice by making it taste so god damn awful. Should work on my tea brewing skills.

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Love of beauty is taste.




The creation of beauty is art.

Everyone has gone through something in their lives that has changed them



What are the most important and life changing moments that have happened to you?

For me, the list would be REALLY long. It revolves mostly around major decisions such as deciding which school to go to or which course to take to everyday decisions such as which friends to hang out with today.

At this point in my time, when I'm a YEAR away from graduating and getting a degree, a YEAR away from entering the work force, I would not regret MOST choices and decisions that I have made so far. MOST, cause some I do regret. Like not studying hard enough in my first year of uni and playing too much. Although in my defense, the first year of my uni life was definitely one of the best years of my life. I really had A LIFE back then. To use the words "back then" just proves how old I am now. haha.

We just finished our first oral exams for our exchange today and one of my friends failed it. I can't help but feel sorry for him. He looked really worried and unsure about how he is going to handle so many modules when he returns to Singapore. I wonder if he ever regretted coming to Germany to study. And for him, if this day will somehow change his life in one way or another. I just hope that all of us would be able to pass our exams right now:) One of my course mates who is currently with me in Germany said that it was a silly decision for us to come here and learn our modules in German when we don't even know German. I don't think so. I think it's challenging, new and exciting. And when I look back at it a few years from now, I'll be able to boast to people that I managed to do it and they'll be like "OMG you're so brave and it's so amazing..." that kinda thang. haha!

Whatever stupid decisions that I make in the next few years of my life (Trust me, I am sure that will be one or two... okay maybe more than that!) I don't want to get to the end of my life and find that I have just lived the length of it, I want to live the width of it as well. Even if that includes heartache and regret.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012
It's been awhile

Happy 2012! I have not been updating my blog at all for almost over a year now and I'm a terrible person for not completing what I have started. I wonder if anyone still reads it... haha.

Not many people know about the existence of this blog. I don't come across as the blog type of person. Like how I don't play fb games and stalk other people's fb accout. I'm in Munich now, right in the middle of winter. It's freaking cold outside but the snow is awesome. I feel like I am in a snow globe. I wanna go out to play with the snow but then again, it's going to be funny cause adults are not supposed to act like a kid who is seeing snow for the first time. (Yes I am an adult now)

I miss Singapore alot. I know europe is great and cultural and all that but come on, I think 5 mths is good enough. And honestly I am getting sick of German. HAHA. It sounds like tamil to me now:S

Till next time! Hopefully it wouldn't be a 2013 by then.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Just Wondering





I must have run right out of you
Cause I'm invisible to you
You don't see me anymore

Monday, January 3, 2011
Today I don't feel like doing anything..