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Had the P&C Common Test today, tml gonna have E&C Lab Test and Jap 2 Common Test and i haven't touch any of them both!! Nvm, later go and study then can liao!! P&C, i don noe leh, anyhow 'bai' de... cos i read and read and confused with the topics le, can't remember which topic has what... nvm lah, it's over le mah... don think abt it le.
Went to JP to shop for new 'stuffs', got new ear-rings, so happy, i saw the very thick and stylo wristband (don noe what is it called exactly), with watch on top of it, those that usually guys wore de, i wanna get one leh but hor, the design and the watch don match... i want the watch of A and the design of B... but hai... i don think i can ask the shop keeper to change the watch of A to match the band of B ba? Sometimes it really provokes me when certain things doesn't match... be it living or not. Especially stuffs like watch loh, the watch damn nice but on top of the not that nice de strap... hai... can't be helped...
I hope that there will be those kind of shop where customers can just match things according to their styles and likes loh... got or not ah? Maybe got, just that i don noe, cos i RARELY go out de... next time gotta date Yumi JieJie out, heehee, like her sooo much sia!!
On the way back i saw HIM, yeah, another ex lah... he is 玉冬. A China man, got to noe him through the same factory... well... already stop working at that factory for almost a year le ba... didn't expect to see him cos their wokring hours damn difficult to 'bump into' de... he working nite shift today... he almost couldn't recognise me... if not for me smiling to him, i think he really can't recognies me... now u ppl believe that I'm always saying I'm always changing le ba? Saw him then of cos remember the days we had in the past lah... haha... those were the day, we nv official together cos of the nationality... not me, it's him who was so bothered by it. Nationality isn't a problem to me, or else i wouldn't had married Hyukie and accept Hika.
Yah, u must be saying how came married ppl still so flirt? U can only be jealous ba... cos Hyukie is the only man who can tolerate this character of mine, he's my only one forever, even though it's hard to tell in the future... i can dump and forget as many ex as i like, but he is the only one i can't bear to 'throw' away... i don noe why loh, such a flickle minded ppl like me can actually have this really important someone in my heart.
For now, my relationship with Hika remains the same, as for Hyukie, I'm always so sorry and guilty towards him... I'm like such a bad gal sia, always hurt him deeply... yet he always keep quiet and smiled. To me, Hyukie is my Unique and important someone ba... i've said that i will never fall for the same person for the second time, but Hyukie can make me fall in love with him again and again, i'm flirt but I truly love him. It's good to have him as my hubby and I'm so so so fortunate.
I told Hyukie: " 我真的好累哦... 虽然有些伤口是不会好的,但因为有你在身旁所以我才能窝在你怀里养伤。佑赫,我还是爱着你的,有你真好。佑赫,爱上这样的我你不后悔吗? And he replied me something very touching - > 佑赫:“我从不后悔认识妳更珍惜我们的婚姻,就是很爱这样的妳,妳永远是我亲爱的老婆。”
Btw today saw Wei Jian at JP SaSa oso, he with two girls, hmm... which one his gf now ah? Ask him when see him online, he getting more and more handsome sia!! So far he's the only guy who held the umbrella for me and see me home after work, my mum and sis almost misunderstand when they saw him holding the umbrella 4 me sia, i oso noe, later if his gf saw then sure damn unhappy, even though me, him and his gf are all frenz. LOL. Wanna go back to JVS today de, but nv... the stupid P&C Common Test loh... so sad. Wonder if Wei Jian and the rest went back to see the teachers...
Recently very tired... didn't sleep from Sunday 12nn to Yesterday 11:30pm... so tired loh... what was i doing staying up the nite? Rushing the stupid WSS Project loh...
Saw ELP Guy today, he came out frm the LTN7 (where we are going to have our lecture later) and he's wearing a white top. It was later then he realise I was standing there, so we waved loh. Yesterday oso saw him, but we didn't wave much, cos his gf was there oso. Only wave after his gf gone. He's so cute today loh, I saw him turning back to wave goodbye to me from a distance as he walk off (leaving blk N) with his classmates.
Nothing much interesting took place today lah, just that during our 'short free' time we D.A.R 'follow' ELP Guy and his fren '走秀' haha, we learn frm them, walk towards the back of Blk M and L there. So there's a nice scenery, so we concluded that ELP Guy and his fren always walk there perhaps is becos of the nice scenery there ba, but we don really think that's the reason but, cos wat for a group of guys wanna talk a stroll there for that 'romantic' feel? LOL.
On the way home met a damn it pervert... ard 30 plus ba... he stop in the middle of the road and start to smoke, so i faster walk pass him to avoid the smoke (sensitive to the smell of it) then he suddenly said 'Xiao Mei, Can I be Fren with U? U very pretty leh, I like U very much, let's be fren...' well, of cos i fully ignore him and walk away... don noe why hor, i walk so fast, then he still there talking out loud... crazy man... he don even have 'wat it takes' to '搭讪' me loh... not up to my standard i sure ignore de... if i bad mood, he will kenna my curse.
Gotto go study 4 *水也有笔's P&C Common Test. *蘑菇有笔 oso got test sia... E&C Lab Test and Jap2 Test... T-T
P.S: The chinese character with * please read in Jap. Heehee... get it?
This is my 100th post!! Okok, I wanted to post something else one, but hor, don have the time to ‘compile’ it. This week super stressed loh… got to do the WSS Project in a ard 3 day’s time with all the FE and BE thingy… today we asked for extension le, hopefully can do my best… don wanna drag my other module onto the thin ice just becos of my WSS bad performance… today’s E.Com test ah, don noe why ah, we were told that it’s an easy paper, but hor, there’s still some questions which I don noe… so shitty me sia… to think that I even wrote some notes abt it last nite… didn’t managed to remember it… well…
Oh yah, I’m pregnant with STRESS loh… always feel like vomiting lately and doesn’t have much appetite… don noe why, I didn’t noe that stress can affect ppl in all sorts of ways sia… Yi Xian commented that I’m pregnant mah… becos of the vomiting feel… now got new nick ‘Pregnant lady’… haha… I feel worst than pregnant lady sia… I can have the ‘feel to puke’ for no reason, with empty stomach… hopefully after all the coming exams and common test my ‘baby stress’ will be gone… (haha, no more nephew 4 u loh Ah Xian!! =P )
Yesterday we had a Jap make up lesson, and it was FUN and most enjoyable lessons of all!! We did some revision and were introduced to three songs, one of it had already been introduced in year 1, the other two were’ First Love’ and ‘Doraemon’s Song. ‘First Love’ so nice sia, felt a lot when hearing it, and doraemon’s song was cute and so ‘huai nian’, I keep on laughing when the song plays the ‘shouting part’. Long time nv sing childhood’s songs loh… and last of all we had a Japanese game called ‘Fruits Basket’, wah, we all played it so intensely like that… very FUN!! Laugh till I’m so tired… hahaha, nv had such a great day nowadays sia, Huang so cute oso!!
Today after the E.Com last quiz, we went to the WSS Secret Chamber to ‘pia’ our wss project… saw the P3 ppl there, Ken and his fren. We pia until we berserk sia… so stressed loh… I’ve just became the ‘panda-san’ le… cos I didn’t sleep… frm yesterday till now… am very tired loh… we only go ‘scan’ our card for E&C’s ELQ and asked our classmates to ‘fake’ our signature… haha… ard 1pm or so, while we DAR were having a short break frm the wss project, I saw a nice scene!! Haha, it’s ELP Guy in his nice purple top again!! I really like the color of his shirt sia!! And we waved as we smiled to each other, his smiles, super sunshine de loh, even if u are sad or damn sleepy, see him smile will sort of ‘refreshes’ u loh. He oso quite cute leh, I was talking to Jenny and then when I turn to his direction, I saw him leaning onto the tutorial room’s door, he was abt to go back into the class le, but was waiting 4 me to turn back and exchange a smile b4 he went into the room. What if I didn’t turn back ah? The he’s gonna stuck at the door there? LOL, lucky my ‘senses’ rather good, then got turn ard.
Don noe why, yesterday while staying up 4 the entire nite to do wss project, I managed to ‘fix’ my PHP database and mysql thingy!! FINALLY I can do database at home!! So happy sia!! Maybe it’s a bit late lah… next week is the Round… Selection Test… OMGosh!! Damn Stressed… in secret chamber, we were there abt to ‘see see’ the P3 guys’s project loh, see how much they done le… don noe who say they haven’t really done much… hmm… the 5 of us Year 2 ppl was abt to go for lunch b4 maths mah, then Yi Xian and Jason left their bags in the lab, we told them that might as well take it, cos we won have the time to return to the lab to do the project after lunch le… then Meng Huan Nu was saying the main door not locked mah, can come in, and we told her that it’s locked!!
I really wonder how came the P3 guys can access the main door de… we can’t leh…. >_<, really feel like asking them… haha… Meng Huan Nu says just call ne of the P3 ppl on hp to open the door 4 us, then we said we don even talk to them… and Meng Huan Nu commented that we are so ‘anti-socialize’ sia… at the point of time when we were talking abt we don have ne of the P3’s ppl hp number, Ken’s fren was looking at me, suddenly I sort of felt wat he was thinking at that point of time… maybe next time then go be ‘socialize’ ard with them loh. I know Zheng Guo mah, just that he didn’t came to the lab today… btw, Wednesday supposedly wanted to go hm with Yit Jing and Godwin de, but I ‘runaway’… haha, no lah, too tire… then go off early… saw Yit Jing and the rest of my freshies at the lift there, I only ‘realized them’ when my eyes met Jin Xian’s. Yit Jing was there complaining I didn’t look at him when he was all the while looking at me… haha, I’m sorry lah my flirting freshie, I was too tired and in my ‘trance’ world at that point of time.
My toe nail suddenly crack itself during today's maths lecture... so painful... was so sleepy, trying hard to stay awake.. suddenly felt the pain... so shocked oso... it was fine a moment ago... and it crack itself out of the blues... Nvm abt that... Now it’s my time to ‘Try to Pia’ the WSS Project!! Hopefully everything turns out smoothly. *^^*
This morning damn cold… raining so heavily… but I met Li Wen at the stn there and we had some chat… long time nv see her le leh… haha, 1st time I heard the Stn playing the ‘The Platform floor is wet, pls be carefully…’ haha, and Li Wen shared with me the other ‘stn announcement’ she heard during one of the x’mas – ‘The Stn is very crowded, if u are not boarding the train, pls leave’ something like that. So funny loh!! Hahaa!!
After a lot of stupid crying (bo bian, see touching anime and hear sad song oso will cry along) and thinking, I think I have somehow settled down le ba. We had the 2-hour break as P&C lesson ended last week and it's just the presentation of other gp ppl so we D.A.R. went to the Library to search for some 'inspirations'.
Talking abt the library, damn long time never step into it le. Got to noe that we D.A.R. actually have something in common mah, we were all once librarian. So we search for some web designing books to look for the ‘feel’ and ‘ideas’ for our 3-days to be done de WSS Project, a web site… So I will really turn into a panda after this week and I swear I’m gonna sleep for as long as I like after all these, perhaps for a week ba.
One of the books wrote ‘Purple… Gay’s Pride…’ I was like ‘What the Heck?’!! Well, I totally disagree with the ‘Purple symbolize Gay’ loh… Purple is such a nice and wonderful color leh… saw Ming Tiong, Jin Boon, Peggy and Sherry in the library oso… and I think we are still as AA as ever… lol…. When we walk pass a room, we saw one gal wearing the shirt that Neko has in turquoise color (her shirt is d black version one) and both Jenny and I were like ‘Eh!!’ so AA again… and it took some time for neko to realized… we even ‘slow mo’ (*slow motion) and ‘rewind’ to see the shirt… so AA!! Haha… now I think back, what were we doing ah?
After the ‘Library Tour’, neko choose her books and when we were abt to leave, we all kenna ‘Pi Pi’ by the exit/entrance book scanner there… well, so funny to be ‘pi’ by the scanner in library… neko didn’t borrow one of the book carefully… so we left the library ard 1:20pm then we go for our lunch at Mac… ahd a fish burger and ice milo (ice milo’s my soul mate). Then we went back to our N lecture… so the damn sleepy sia…
While waiting for the next lecture to start, we went to ‘defreeze’ at outside the LTN balcony there. Then look down saw Purple!! Haha, no lah, it’s ELP Guy in a light and nice purple top. So I keep my eyes on him, heehee, I just like the color loh!! He was there ‘performing’ his ‘walking show’ again… haha… we always wonder why he and his frenz always go ‘walk show’ ard de. Of Cos, we (ELP Guy and Me) exchange smiles and eyes contact. Heehee, he really brighten up my day… he msg me if I see ‘him’ today, I said no, see U instead. And ELP Guy replied ‘Haha, see me more happy mah’. I told him that he wore my fav. Color shirt and he commented that later I must go hug him le. Well, I told him that as long as his gf wont kill me, I don mind giving him a hug. And he said I’m cheeky… well, I am!! LOL
Was online now with Cake-Kie, at 1st we were talking abt the OGL meeting tml… then as we chat, he told me that he wanted to change a new hairstyle and ask me for ideas, I feel like I am a hairstylist sia… haha, don noe why leh, I always feel happy when chatting with Cake-Kie, even if I had sad memories abt him… life’s so weird huh? I almost asked him if he want me to help style his hair… lol… the only guy whom I had helped comb his hair was Rico!! Those were the days… abt the OGL thingy tml, actually I can’t go de, got WSS… but I wish to go as I really miss those funny pals whom I have known out there in the gang… Cake-Kie commented that Sang Hyuk (yah, another ex of mine) was handsome and I was so damn d happy!! Haha!! So I thanked Cake-Kie on behalf of Sang.
Okay remember my secondary ex last time? U must be asking which one ah? Hmm… the one I currently helping him ‘woo’ gal de loh. Now, things seems to be sailing smoothly for him and me as a fren of cos happy for him! But he and the gal still not there yet lah… well… few minutes ago, the gal hinting him lah, but he missed the chance… nvm, I’m sure u will have the chance de.
Btw, my 100th post is coming soon, gonna post something * special and shocking hahahaha!!!
First of all, I’m going to hell today… something happened during the weekend and I’m somehow affected by it. Felt damn sleepy and eye swollen due to the weekend incident… having a hard time today to control myself and my emotions today…
During lunchtime, Neko suddenly point out to the direction behind me, I turn back and saw Him. Jenny knew abt it and her face changes as well, so she told Neko not to point at him anymore by showing Neko her cross fingers. Somehow, I’ve lost my appetite upon seeing him, it’s not that I hate him; it’s just that something deep in me was being triggered upon the sight of him. I felt the pain… but I’m controlling myself at all times, I do not want to let out the whole of my emotion in public, not even before my frenz.
Neko thought that she saw the wrong guy, I told her that she was right, it’s just that I’m the one who can’t face it.
After lunch we D.A.R went rotting… I’m scare to see him at the rotting place… and what I fear most still come true… he walk pass again… he was smiling, but I only looked at him with a expressionless look. I know I was rude, but I just can’t smile… I’m afraid that I will cry when I tried to give him a smile. I’m sorry.
第一次看到他是在Sem.Exam时的SportsHall里。是被他的气质给吸引的。我们俩眼神交会过,或许他不记得了,但是他那漂亮的脸蛋却是我没忘掉的。今年很奇怪的能碰到他,因为想要更接近所以才踏出第一步。刚开始只是欣赏他,久而久之却变得越来越有好感了。这就是所谓的日久生情吧。。。很喜欢他,喜欢他的眼睛,他羞涩的笑容,他的Style and Everything。认识他后虽开心却也很伤感。どうして?
伤感因为我早已‘看’到了以后的画面。。。 他是个很好的人,心思很细腻也懂得去关心别人,所以不曾后悔认识了他。听他诉说自己以往的悲伤往事,我为他感到伤心,难过。好想疼惜他但我不能。。。我并没有这个资格因为我是个 Heart Breaker。 更何况我早已知道 Story 的 Ending了。美丽漂亮的东西谁不喜欢,谁不想要?但这些东西,无论是人是物,往往都是 UnReachable的呀!不是我不要try to reach it ,只是我不敢。。。爬得越高跌得越痛。。。陷得越深伤得越重。
一直以为自己能承受得起。。。但只是自欺欺人罢了。Mechanical pencil 的 lead 自断了几次,隔日得到了预知梦而当天最终结果也 finally 传达给我了。心如刀割。。。原未 heal 的 wound 又被捅上一刀了,成了内伤。。。 那一夜我哭了,哭了好久好久,醒后单目肿了。。。 也许是我爱哭吧。今日想起时又会不自觉地落泪。只会把盐往伤口敷,让自己更难受。。。 对不起,我很 Sula,是个不能与不敢去面对 Reality 的人。。。我只能 hide 因为我不想让伤口再碰上盐。不是故意不接你来电,只是没有听到铃声,是真的。。。知道你是担心我。。。 我看了手机,有一通未接来电是你发的,觉得可惜没接到,但又庆幸没能接到因为当时与现在的我根本没有办法去面对你。
朋友都说是你对不起我,但其实不是这样的,我没有怪你也不觉得是谁的错。你根本就没有错,因为喜欢一个人是没有错的。而能找到也喜欢自己的人更不能错过。我宁愿自己受伤也不希望别人受到伤害,宁可自己伤痛也不希望别人伤感。。。有人问我把伤感的事都往自己塞,难道自己就不会难过不会痛苦不会受伤吗?这样公平吗?我告诉这位‘有人’如果说完全没事是骗人的,事实上当然会痛啊!这世界就是如此,是没有绝对的公平可言。这是没有办法的啊!喜欢一个人,并不需要得到他。只要他开心,能得到快乐与幸福就够了。看到他开心你也会替他高兴的。我只怪自己干嘛明知有多深,还非得想要冒险陷下去呢?拿得起就要放得下。你一定要快乐不然我会更伤心的。
这次我真的醒了,有的东西我再也不想要了,我只想珍惜现在自己有的一切。。。
Went to Ah Ma's house a while ago to 'delivery' something to my mum... hmm... snowy shouted at me again... bobian... long time nv see me le mah, of cos she will forgot me, somemore my looks always changing de... lacy seems to miss me... heehee... they're all so cute. Saw Darren and he gave me kisses!! *^^*
Got my Yuan Wei Jue Xing New Album today... Oso got the Vampire Game #13, 14 and 15, finally this series has ended at #15... then got my F.O.X. II #2 and the other comic... so broke now... T-T
I've got the message from my dream today... it's so true... it's time for me to wake up, finally... and I am now. It's has always been so rite since the feel pass the message to me... Sorry, i really don have the mood today...
향긋한 모닝커피와 내 아침을 깨워주는 상큼한 입맞춤...아직 달콤한 꿈에 흠뻑 취해서 "조금만 더..." 그러겠지...
하얀 앞치마 입고 내 아침을 준비하는 너의 모습...나의 삐뚤어진 넥타이까지도 모두 다 너의 몫일꺼야...
나 오늘도...행복한 너와 나의 그 모습을 상상하며 하루를 시작해(너와의 미래를 그려봐)언젠가 그렇게 될거라는 내 단하나의 소망으로
사랑해... 지금 너의 모습을... 세월에 변해갈 니 모습도...그보다 더욱 사랑하는 건... 영원히 날 지켜줄 너의 믿음...
사랑해... 널 알게한 인연과...두려움없이 너를 선택하게 한...운명까지도...내 마지막 바램은 다음 세상까지 함께라는 것...
드라마를 봐도, 영화를 봐도, 행복한 장면은 모두 내가 주인공처럼...그렇게 되고 싶은 간절한 소망이면... 어느새 너와의 미래가 그림처럼그러져...그리고 행복해져...
현실이 나를 속여도... 내 아침은 햇살처럼 눈부실꺼야...나의 아침을 깨울 너를 꼭 닮은 우리의 작은 아이...
난 오늘도...너와의 많은 날들...너를 위해 채워야할 행복을 준비해나만의 여인이 될거라는... 내 단 하나의 예감으로
사랑해...지금 너의 모습을...세월에 변해갈 니 모습도...그보다 더욱 사랑하는 건...영원히 날 지켜줄 너의 믿음...
사랑해...널 알게한 인연과...두려움없이 너를 선택하게 한...운명까지도...내 마지막 바램은 다음 세상까지 함께라는 것...
첫눈에 반한 그런 사랑보다는 하나씩 만드러가는 그런 사랑, 사랑아마 아주 오래 살아간 후에 세상 끝 날...함께할 수만 있다면...나의 욕심껏 채우지 못했던 너의 모자란 행복을 후회할 것 같은데...그리고 이세상 마지막 그 순간이 오면 너를 사랑했다고 내가 얘기 해줄께
Well well well, today got to noe our average marks for our E.Com quizzes so far… the single digit paper really got me into trouble this time… I will have to get a FULL MARKS for the LAST QUIZ next week le… so that I can get a PASS for the 30% Class Assessments & Quizzes. This sem I really suck a slacker I would say… don noe what has got into me huh? Hmm… I’ll try my best for the E.Com last quiz next Friday, must get a 45/50 at least for that paper… them Common Test on Week 15 I shall ‘Bia’ for a better grade… T-T
Saw SH and his frenz at the Blk S level 4 this morning, we were shocked… cos didn’t expect to see them mah… they were walking out frm the corner there… SH looked shocked oso… well… Jenny commented how came he looked so shock, so I told her that cos he saw a ghost (me lah) mah.
We changed our mind on eating rice for lunch in the middle of the queue, neko and I ‘sneak’ away when Jenny was ordering her lunch… we two sneak to the bubble tea stall for Chocolate Ice Blend… so this is our lunch for the day… then Jenny came over with her plate of lunch in her hands and keep on complaining that it’s so wrong of the two of us to ‘sneak’ away w/o telling her… (Already say it’s sneak away mah…) Well, both Jenny and Neko was so slow… they didn’t see SH and his frenz at the tables in front of the bubble tea stall… they only noe it when I told them abt it, while we were still queuing for the rice. Just don have the appetite lately loh… don noe why oso. After having lunch, went off to hell and saw my freshies, waved to Yit Jing and he’s so funny, he’s waving to me with his knife and fork… lol, act act wanna kill me like that. He can bear to kill me meh, my flirting freshie. Haha!!
After lunch as usual we went rotting at Hell… saw SH they all oso… but he’s sleeping… I oso didn’t noe his present until when I saw him sitting up frm the bench. Godwin and Jason oso came… then they were doing the Maths Ws 4… provoke me… and Jason commented that he don have ‘A Book’ so he shall do maths… well… they keep on saying I’m reading another ‘A novel again’. Talking abt ‘A’, yesterday saw a GAY couple outside one of the LTN there… one guy was lying down and the other sitting beside him, woah, their actions and behaviors hor, so AA loh, see le and u will noe they are gay couple… shd have called my freshie here to see since he once commented that he wonder if there’s gay couple in sch, his lecture gp got one les couple mah.
So neko commented that she wonder who’s the ‘Top’ and who’s the ‘Bottom’… so we all keep on saying out our Point of view, me and neko both agreed that the guy lying down one was the ‘Bottom’ one. Well, we all understand it, Jenny was blur, but after sometime she caught the topic… as for Ming Tiong, well, he couldn’t catch anything at all!! LOL, he’s so innocent sia… Godwin came and we asked him, ‘A Gay Couple, who’s the top and bottom, u understand wat I’m saying?’ Godwin oso understand loh, even Yi Xian the 88 kid oso noe!! Anyway, our topic got more rated as we continued… some small children (Jenny and Ming Tiong) couldn’t stand it… we all were bull shitting lah, Godwin keep on saying abt Jenny & her David regarding the Top & Bottom thingy… Jenny commented ‘Middle’ cos she trying to make us stop the topic… haha, then neko got worked up, she say ‘Don say ‘middle’, cos ‘middle’ is worst, 3 parties involve loh.’ lol…
Then we asked Ming Tiong abt his relationship with Huang… lol… a lot of funny things… and I wanted to laugh when I saw Huang during Jap lesson as I recalled wat Ming Tiong said… In conclusion, we talked abt a lot of A thing lah… now I oso stop at a right time lah, or else if I were to continue, some ‘kid’ will sure go berserk.
Hm… I don noe leh, cos so far haven’t read any A content frm the current book yet. LOL. Well… still remember the Ribena Guy I’ve mentioned b4? I’m sure he’s our fellow NYP student oso… today saw him at canteen wearing a unique shirt with two colors… I remember his bag… haha… btw, during the two-hour break; neko went away for her mum and left only Jenny and I at the rotting bench. At a point of time, after I got my cookie as snack, I saw ELP Guy at level four there. Heehee, he had his sunshine smile again, long time nv see him oso. I think I saw his gf, but they walking towards one of the LT at level 3, eh, how came it seems like SEG ppl got different lecture gps de ah? SEG are so weird…
Ah, I finally noe how came I find the NDP Guy familiar le… he’s frm SEG oso, saw him going into the LT during our break, and he looked at me. I was like upon seeing a ghost, cos I thought that day at NDP was the last time he will ever see me… so, I think I have seen him ard ba, just that I didn’t have any impression on him… and he keep on looking at me… well… ok lah, as long as his gf didn’t come ‘diao’ me can le… (Last time going for the ndp thingy his gf walk pass me and diao me suddenly… well, I don noe her loh… diao me for wat? Go and diao ur bf lah!! That time I still couldn’t figure out why I find her bf so familiar loh).
Saw SH they all again frm level 4 ard 3pm ba… he chatting on phone and his fren went so near to him, well, if u didn’t notice, sure thought u seeing PDA there… (Remember that SH looks like gal frm certain angles?) Jenny commented that ‘someone’ (SH) so AA, standing alone… I was slow, look up and finally get wat she mean… ard 4pm didn’t see him le, so Jenny commented that he must have gone home le… hmm… thought his lesson ends at 4pm? Skipped lesson again ah? Well…
Common Test and Exam’s visiting us again better start my revision now… 백전무패!!!
How came in life, there’s just something (be it living or non-living) that no matter how hard u’ve tried, u just can’t reach them? Life is a cycle of sadness by nature I guess…
Yesterday’s WSS while doing the fireworks, heard some familiar music frm the back… I think Ken’s the one playing the music ba. After sometime of listening to it carefully, I finally confirmed that he was listening to K-Pop!! And I’m so surprised… cos usually ppl are obsessed in K-Dramas and not K-Pop… and he was playing Bi’s I Do, nice song. I almost turn back to request him to play It’s Raining for me. Haha… wait he will say ‘Do I noe u that well for me to accept ur request?’ Then I shall say ‘Of cos, u owe me some 人情 b4 u remember?’ LOL
Today’s E&C Lab12 ah, well, don noe why it seems that there’s something wrong with the equipment ba, always get the input sine wave but can’t get the output one… don noe why… maybe it’s becos it’s the month of 7.
Went for lunch ard 12nn ba… recently just lost the appetite… don noe why oso… maybe it’s becos I’m always sleepy ba… and my ‘condition’ really affects me a lot, be it my mood or whatever… I have no appetite when I’m sleepy… maybe shd really sleep for 3 days 3 nite one day… hopefully ba… but the time’s not here yet… have to wait till after Sem. Exam then I can sleep for such a long period of time ba… by then hopefully my family just let me ‘睡死啦’ and don ever come and disturb me and my sleep… most of the time my sleepiness ‘over write’ my hunger…
After lunch, as usual, we went to the Rotting place… then Neko they all were saying how came didn’t see SH… well, how I noe? I’m not that ‘powerful’ to noe everything loh… at the most I can senses some things and curse ppl ba… talking abt curse, Desmond came to us today at the bench and again, as usual, he provoked me… he touched my hair… well, for those who noe me well enough so far, shd noe that I hate ppl touching my hair… esp. when my hair was tied up or whatever… already got warnings frm me since year 1 (last time worst, they even wanted to cut my faded purple hair… -_-“) and still wanna touch my hair… so I just say ‘Don provoke me or else I’ll curse u… since the month now is quite suitable to do that…’ haha, and this freak him out… no lah, I don ne how curse ppl de… it’s a energy wasting thingy… already so slpy and restless lately, where got the energy to curse ppl?
I think I’m the STM (Short Term Memory) ppl… recently whatever things I chat with my frenz, be it usual topic or top secrets, I will just 4got it after a day… LOL… my fren even say their secret damn safe with me… cos I’ll never recall it… STM mah… don noe why oso… Btw, this morning at JE waiting for the middle train, heard ‘This Train terminates at AMK’ and I was shocked… this is the 1st time I heard this!! Haha, and the train sort of empty today… happy sia… but very cold sia…
Ard don noe wat time, ppl came out frm LT and were noisy… we saw SH they all… and Jenny commented that how came SH ‘hide away’ upon seeing me… well, how I noe? Maybe it’s becos it’s the mth of 7, no lah, it’s becos I’m d Devil mah… hahaha… and Neko said that it’s becos he see cute things then he shy so he avoid them… -_-“ Well… I don noe lah… most of the time he online = offline. Well… wat to do? He’s not mine mah… okay, wat I say and do is contradicting (u noe what I mean if u see my msn nick).
Wanted to go hm together de leh, I even go our WSS Secret Chamber to do a bit of php thingy… then he nv reply… so at 4pm I left sch and went to North Point… help my sis get the CD she want loh… wat else? Btw, today I saw quite some handsome sia… don noe why hor, at JE there always see handsome de, but they taking the train I’m alighting… so sad… then nothing for me to admire… that’s why on (middle) Train I always sleep… While waiting for bus at interchange there, a gal happily came forward to me. I was in the blur state lah, cos sleepy... Then it took me a few seconds to realize that she’s my secondary sch junior. Well, I remember that I got to noe her twin sister (younger) 1st b4 I get to noe her, and the amazing thing is that I’m the only one who can tell who’s the elder and younger one when they two were together, even if they two were not together, one look and I noe whether it’s the elder one or the younger sister.
It’s Zinwa (4got the sp of her name le) and she looked so happy and excited upon seeing me. Well, got to noe that she’s in NP taking accounting now. I was abt to ask her 4 her hp number when I took out my hp, and to my surprised, she asked for my number b4 I do upon seeing my hp. Haha, I was happy of cos, seeing my juniors and frenz. Hmm… yesterday Godwin show me a photo of Terence doing something funny… haha… what was he doing? Terence the kid… lol
Today is another tiring day… cos okay, I’ve never stop saying ‘I’m sleeply’ in sch cos I have never been sleeping early… well… wat to do? Just can’t get into slp if I try to sleep early de… so bo bian.
Last nite dreamt abt the death of one of my frenz… so, upon waking up, I told my sis abt it. It’s been a long time since I last dreamt abt someone’s death… wat shd u do if u dreamt of someone’s (whom u noe) death? The very 1st thing is to tell someone else the dream. Do not ever tell the person that u dreamt abt his/her death!! Are u confused? Nvm, here’s an example.
Let’s say u dreamt abt ur fren, A’s death. Upon waking up, if u still remember the dream, go tell ur dream to someone else, can be ur family member or other frenz (best that ur fren weren’t A’s fren as well, so as to make sure that ur fren wont tell A abt ur dreamt abt his/her death). Now u wanna ask what will happen if u tell A that u dreamt abt his/her death? Okay, I’ll tell u… if u tell A abt ur dreamt of his/her death, A will be unlucky… and u can’t escape frm any bad luck either. The reason why u must tell others abt ur dream is to prevent urself frm getting the bad luck.
Dreams are usually the reverse of reality. When u dream abt someone’s death, it means that person will have good luck… U dreamt abt A’s death, A supposedly will have the good luck. But if u told A abt the dream, bad luck will befall on A… as it’s not a good thing to dreamt abt someone’s death, therefore u need to tell someone else abt it, so as to sort of ‘erase’ the bad luck that was brought to u by the dream.
U may not believe it, okay, I shall share my own past experience with u. There was once I dreamt abt my Mum’s death. I told my fren abt it but she wasn’t listening to me… and I didn’t tell my mum abt it, I thought it was fine then. Later that evening, my mum strike the 4D BUT I sprain my ankle… If I told my mum abt the dream, her good luck would be gone and she wouldn’t strike the 4D… as for my fren, I think it’s maybe she wasn’t listening to me so that’s why I still got the bad luck. Well, the bad and good luck comes in different ‘situation’ lah, not really that it just a sprain on the leg… it could be something serious like accident oso… so for me, it’s always safe to believe certain things then not.
Today saw SH three times in a day… saw his back view while having lunch at South canteen there, he didn’t saw me ba… so I asked him what shirt color he wearing, to confirm that it’s him that I saw. And yah, indeed, frm his answer I knew I was right, I did saw him at canteen there. Later don noe wat time b4 having lecture we went out to the ‘balcony’ of N lvl 4 and look down, to see if ‘someone’ was there at the benches. I didn’t see him de… cos too slpy le ba… then Neko and Jenny suddenly eyes so sharp, saw him and pull me to the ‘perfect place’ to ‘enjoy’ the scene while they ‘watch free show’.
Haha… after sometime then I realized that he was sitting on the bench there with his frenz. And he very pro sia, he didn’t look up ‘directly’ with his whole head turning up. His eyes were looking up and I caught him doing that. Haha… Jenny complaints that I didn’t keep my eye on him then his eyes keep on looking up. Haha… Well… next time I will keep my eyes on him lah ok Jenny? Actually, want to look up can just turn the head and look up de mah… like that eyes not tiring meh? Anyway, I like that expression of his, esp. the angle when his eyes look up at me. I always see sparks and light in his eyes… then will have the happy mood de. Heehee.
Later b4 OODP Lecture, we were outside at the ‘balcony’ again… doing wat? Check him out loh… ok lah, only me lah, the others are ‘de-freezing’. Actually I’m de-freezing oso lah, very cold mah… look down and saw him and his frenz at the bench there again, eh, they no lesson meh? How came rot there eating?! Make me hungry sia… >_< This time he changed his sitting position, back facing the LT there… Jenny said that I sort of not synchronize with SH… cos I was looking away when he was looking up… haha… iwas looking back to see if Lecture came le or not mah… then I look back he didn’t look up again… Jenny and Neko was there saying wat they hear SH’s heart broken sound when I didn’t look at him when he look up… ah???
I was shocked that he actually tied his hair up… it’s like those typical gals way of tying their hair loh, two low pony tail… no wonder I always slower to ‘realized’ where was he sitting… I think I just ‘see’ him as a gal le ba… haha… Now I’m starting to imagine him as a gal… hmm… cross-dressing… eh, not bad leh… haha… yes, I’ve said b4 he looks like a gal at certain angles. If his skin’s in better condition, can go act le lah… act as gal… then will became the ‘Dreamy Killer’… 少女杀手 or 少男杀手 leh? I think both oso can lah, so became the ultimate ‘梦幻杀手’ le. Hahaha… okay, I’m so perverted…
Btw, yesterday Neko received the 1st warning letter 4 IP… well, she asked me if I received it, but that time I was on the train… went hm, my brother told me that there’s a surprise on my bed, I say ‘I know’. And he was ‘Hmmm? U sure u noe?’ kind of look on his face. I thought it was the warning letter frm NYP oso leh… then say it’s a letter frm sch rite? To my ‘surprise’, he said no… don noe why I felt kind of ‘disappointed’ when I got to noe that it’s not a letter frm sch… don noe mah… curious abt the warning letter… haha… So, all I can say is Neko was unlucky lah… cos out of the 5 of us WSS ppl, only she ‘diao’ the letter… we all D.A.R.N oso didn’t attend IP lecture for the 1st two weeks mah… then week 3 got go, week 4 oso, but lecturer absent himself… then week 5 we were told frm week 6 onwards no need go IP Lecture le… so we oso skip week 4…
Den, who noes, so ‘unlucky’ lah, that week 3 IP lecture Neko didn’t went for it cos she need to attend to something important at home… oh my gosh… she brought the letter for us, and it shows all 6 dates!! Eh, but we week 4 onwards no need to go for it le mah, we got another assessment replaced for the lecture le… then how came the sch still include the other ‘not-supposed-to-be-there’ de dates in the letter leh? Don noe leh, weird sch systems… we go see Chan, then he settle it for us loh.
At the end of the day, at YCK waiting for train, saw a guy very familiar… he looked almost exactly like the Ribena Guy I saw last Friday on train… that guy, handsome oso, he stepped into the train at Yew Tee, and as there’s no seats, he stand at the door there, opposite me loh… then don noe why when I saw him, I had the thought of seeing him somewhere b4 oso… so I was there ‘enjoy’ watching him… of cos not that obvious for him to realized that I was looking at him lah, so at some point of time, must look out at the scenery de… I sense him looking at me too… make me so nervous… then at a point of time, our eyes met each other’s…. so faster look away… woah, I thought I was blushing… maybe I was… just a little ba…
He was there eating his Ribena sweets… I look look until so hungry sia, really want to ask him for some oso… (Then can get to noe him rite? Yah rite, I’m always like that… LOL) then today at YCK there saw this guy, look really like the Ribena guy loh… I think it’s the same person ba, I not sure… cos where got two ppl look almost 98% alike de?! He was with one of our current lecture gp ppl… this guy I think I got see him b4, at YCK stn after sch… perhaps they are the same person ba… but the Ribena guy oso alight at Boon Lay leh… today nv see the YCK familiar guy at BL there…
Note: Today’s OODP Lecture so confusing… true and false… the lecture just can’t make up her mind… hai… hear until we D.A.R @_@ in front of her… (We were sitting on the 2nd row of the middle section in LT). Btw, the surprise my brother told me was my D&T folio and artefact… he has got it back for me!! Now it’s so such a ‘special’ feel when looking thru my own folio… cos it reminds me of the time I spent on it, and oso the sleep that I sacrifices for it… It’s worth it… after all, my folio came in 1st. Heehee… next time when I’m free I’ll took photo of my artefact… u wanna see my folio? I can bring it… but only in Thursday ba… it’s damn heavy… A3 Drawing block with over 70 pages… my mum wan me to accompany her go out and I rejected her…. Don has the mood… go out must wear tee shirt… (me wearing very cooling top now) then, very troublesome n lazy to go find my tee… oso hate to see the BL $7.80 ard leh… feel guilty le now… it’s been a long time since I last accompany her out le… maybe I will just ‘stick’ ard her one day… 妈妈,对不起。
Man, today got back my Java Wk 8 Test Results?shy; only got a B sia?shy; Neko, Yi Xian, Jenny and Jason all above 95 gang loh?shy; so the moral of the story is to get enough sleep and be prepared well for it when u have a test paper on the following day. Don follow into my footsteps?shy; slpy mind get slpy marks?shy;
Then, E.Com tutorial kenna cancelled again?shy; why that lecturer so lazy ah? He owe us two test paper results liao?shy; nvm abt the last week’s test, how abt the wk 8 test? Already wk 12 le leh?shy; so we D.A.R go for lunch during the slot while the rest of the class slack in the tutorial room. Thought we are supposed to have Maths eQuiz on week 12 (today) so we went to ELP there. On the way down frm escalator, saw SH. He didn’t saw me; he was listening to his music and looking downwards. Later saw his fren behind oso?shy; SH looked sad at that point of time, I mean, I could feel the weird atmosphere ard him.
Didn’t see any classmate in ELP, called Jason, got to noe that they still in tutorial room, so we went out, and saw our maths lecturer?shy; there EATING WATERMELON?shy;
Then Jenny, Neko and I were joking abt ‘我的美人 ’ (Watermelon )haha?shy; he was late loh, told us to go tutorial room?shy; then I think maybe he still eating his watermelon ba?shy; Okay, we oso got to noe our maths common test result, again, those 4 pro ard me into the A grade gang again?shy; when the lecturer called out my name and say ‘A’, I was shocked!! Then he corrected it, I got a B. That’s more like it mah?shy; I noe my standards, if I get an A for maths, I think I can go and bang myself against the wall le?shy; cos it’s last minute study?shy; others depending on memory?shy; more like memory work ba?shy; heng heng got the formula list oso leh!! *^^*
After maths, we thought that we can go home?shy; to slp?shy; finally I have my REAL MONDAY?shy; but, have the weird feel sia?shy; we WSS ppl were all thinking if there’s lesson today loh?shy;so we sort of slack ard in sch 1st. I msg Zheng Guo?shy; I was so bo liao, he was in the lab, I was outside the lab and I sms him?shy; haha, cos he say he mon no lesson de, then see his classmates oso not WSS ppl?shy; so if go into the lab and talk to him like so AA sia?shy;
At the moment when we thought of going home, we received Chan’s msg?shy; okay, a reminder for us that we have lesson today?shy; what the heck lah, so slow then msg us, we almost gone hm le loh, if not I have the weird feel, we won be ‘walking’ ard in sch oso. So we went to our own ‘Space’ to do our stuffs lah?shy; then I thought of going hm with SH again?shy; his lesson till 5pm but mine till 6pm?shy; I was hoping for him to say ‘I wait for u loh.’ But he never?shy; and after some ‘exchanging’ of msg, I sensed sort of weird and asked him if he had something urgen to attend to at hm, cos he say he can’t wait to go straight hm or something like that?shy; then later, gotto noe what’s making him feeling down for the day?shy; he asked me to skip lesson so we can go hm together?shy; but WSS is something that I can’t skip?shy; and it’s not a good thing to do?shy;
For that instance, I wished I can stay with him and accompany him?shy; cos he’s feeling down, and neither am I feeling any better abt it. I feel sad oso when he’s feeling down?shy; but I’m like so helpless, can’t stay by his side when he is so sad?shy; it’s so 无奈 u noe? Neko they all suggested that we can do self study together, oso can teach him math mah?shy; cos our MIT math sort of engineering math oso?shy; I don noe leh?shy; I even had the thought of crashing into his lecture during my ‘free-slot’ and see if I can understand what his modules are talking abt, if I can, I can teach him leh. Haha?shy; but that’s impossible lah?shy; I where got so smart lah?shy; eh, but I think I’m the type of ppl who can take up any course de?shy; don noe why oso?shy; IT course isn’t what I want in the 1st place oso?shy;
Btw, only heard of ppl frm the same course went ‘crashing’ into the lecture of their fellow same course ppl?shy; like us, Jenny and I crash into our ex-class lecture b4, but so ‘lucky’ sia, the lecturer ‘diao’ us?shy; why ‘diao’ us? Cos we not listening to his lecture, Jenny was doing something else, I forgot le and I was doing maths?shy; In the end, the 2 hr lecture, we sneak off after the 1st hour?shy; so scare the lecture call us and ask us some questions or whatever?shy; On the way home, saw Ian?shy; so had some chat. He asked me how I spell my name?shy; I told him it’s ‘FiOh’ and to my surprised, he said ‘isn’t it ‘Fe-O?’. Haha?shy; Jason once asked my name as ‘Fi-O’ oso?shy; (Fi pronounce as in how u pronounce the Fi in Fire) it’s all so funny man. But SH got my name rite!! So super.
Week 14 onwards will be so stressed?shy; WSS Selection rounds?shy; 2 selection rounds some more?shy; hai?shy; sighed Common Test ard the corner oso leh?shy; then will be exam?shy; SH, 要加油哦,因为我会支持你的。*^^*
:: 12th August 2005 ::
最近好累哦, 今早幹掉了E.Com的FM test. 還好吧, 應該會及格的, 但願如此. 午飯後我們D.A.R又到老地方去’腐爛’. 哈哈. Neko看到SH就說要去找Ah Tiong, 叫我去會我的SH. Jenny就投訴說’那我怎麼办?’ 看來Jenny是誤以為我和Neko要拋棄她了呢. 才沒這回事咧! 所以我們三人就去找Ah Tiong loh. 過後我和Jenny還是出去’看’人了.當然, 看人的人是我啦.
Okay, enough of all the Chinese, it’s suggested by Jason. Typing Chinese is too troublesome for me leh… cos I’m very lazy to switch the mode here and there. Some more I need to be damn awake to type Chinese, right now in the slpy mood isn’t the rite time to do that. Maybe one day when I’m happy and have the ‘extra’ time then I will make one Chinese post ba. So me and Jenny were standing at the lvl 4 there looking down for empty bench. I think I heard SH’s fren saying what FiOh… can’t hear clearly with slpy mind oso.
Then we moved to our targeted bench and sit down. Jenny wants me to sit at the wall there but I don 1 2 move in, too lazy le… so just sit down, facing Jenny and back facing SH and his gang. Hmm… when Neko finish watching her ‘anime’ with Ah Tiong, she came down. I was calling her hp when Jenny pointed to neko’s direction saying that she’s coming down. So the three of us went for our ELQ. Jenny then told us that when she’s pointing at Neko, SH gang all turns to see oso. Haha… looks like we are so AA in sch… btw, Jenny and I took a photo together. But it wasn’t clear enough.
I wanted to turn to see SH and smile de but damn slpy… some more I always had some ‘thoughts’ in my mind when I thought of him. Hmm… well… I don noe oso lah… maybe we shd stop saying ‘Ur SH’ hor… cos 人家又不是我的, 而且我算了姓名學… 結果不理想… 更何況莫人比較喜歡年級交大的人叻. 對他來說這或許是種困擾. 我是个毁心者,不值得任何幸福,只好静静的淡淡的消失。。。 Saw ELP Guy oso so we two just exchange eye contact and smile loh… haha…
Yesterday’s Jap role-play was… hmm… haha… cos Meng Li miss out one of his lines and I’ve got the sequence mixed up as well, so we re-start. But neko complaints that I was speaking too fast… like bullet train… I’m fast talker mah… can’t help either.
P.S: . 最近心情很糟… 為什麼?我也在找答案啊… 或許我已陷進去了… 我不想越陷越深. 再這樣下去我會瘋的…陷的越深傷的越重. 我決定留下,再也不離開Hyukie和Hika了.对不起,是我让你伤心。。。但是你必须知道,就算我真的忘了你,就算我一再又一再的失意,但只要那个人是你,我还是会再一次的选择你,投进你的怀抱。因为真爱是永恒的,在我脑海里挥洒不去的身影就是我最深爱的你, 我还是爱着你的。Ah Hyuk, 不要对我说对不起。 你为何不责备我呢?是我辜负了你啊!你对我越好,我越内疚。。。和Hika的事… 是我對不起你…미안해요.
:: 10th August 2005 ::
Went for the WSS talk by WSC Gold medallist Lo Min Ming. He shared with us some of his views and experiences in taking part in WSS loh. Got to noe that after sch’s internal selection round then can go for the S’pore round. Only the top for S’pore can represent S’pore to go for the WSC. At the end of the talk nobody ask any questions at all… so the atmosphere was kinda weird. Don noe why Zheng Guo’s handsome fren was not ard for the talk.
Upon reaching BL MRT Stn, went into JP after alighting frm the train and brought the black wrist band for Bao as promised. (I choose the ‘Dream’ for him, cos don noe if he like ‘Hope’ or not). I oso brought some for myself lah!!
:: 11th August 2005 ::
Met Ming Tiong, Jin Boon, Godwin & Desmond during lunchtime @ south canteen. So we took the empty seats of the table besides theirs, while Yi Xian went somewhere else to get a chair for himself. Desmond talked so much, say abt to leave le (they finish their lunch le) then still ask questions. He commented that my blog too long le and he can’t finish it. Well, he’s the 1st person who says that my blog’s so long that he can’t finish it. Hmm… nvm. So he asked me what was I doing @ the ndp yishun celebration there. I told him I was there watching the show only mah and he don believe, say what he saw me as a performer on TV there dancing?! I told him that he, most prob was seeing ‘something else’ and he told me not to utter rubbish. So my mood was ‘distored’, already no mood liao, after his saying it turns worst. Heng Heng I managed to finish my lunch.
On the way home, @ YCK stn there saw Terence, Rocky Guy and the other E6 guy. Then neko was saying ‘he looked familiar… Terence or Raymond huh?’ I noe she was referring to Terence so I told her that we do not noe him at all. Well, it’s easy to tell the difference between Terence and Raymond just by looking at my reaction!
Went to sch ard 12:30pm and reach atrium at abt 1:45pm. I’m suppose to meet Jenny, Jason and the rest, since there’s still some time, so b4 I walk towards sch I went to the ATM for $20. Saw Jason @ YCK MRT Stn and so we both walk into the sch together. I asked him who is he waiting for and he said whoever who reach 1st loh. Haha… later Jenny came, followed by Zhi Jian. The 4 of us then went to the area outside the shopping arcade. When it’s almost 2pm, we proceed to the Blk E meeting place.
We took our goodie bag, lunch and had our attendance marked. We then start to explore the stuffs in the goodie bag. There’s a lot of items in it and some of the things, we don even noe it’s purpose. The amazing thing is the torch this year… it came in the design of one of the nokia phone models. I’m so weird leh, only had a small fruity bar as breakfast yet I don feel hungry by the time I reach sch. So I kept my lunch into the goodie bag. Jenny did the same, as she’s not hungry oso. After some time, here comes my son. He’s soo cute!! ^^
Few minutes later more ppl came. Some were in white, I think they are the SIT ppl, got hear Camy calling them as SIT. So funny leh, MIT not part of SIT sia, we were put together with SEG de. And I saw that ‘familiar’ guy again… hmm… and he’s still the same, looking at me for nothing. Nvm loh, I bet this is the last time he’s gonna see me le… so let him see loh. Don think he’s frm SEG… cos he and his gf sit on the other bus that Allan that SBM Guy and his gal board. So maybe he’s frm SBM oso. BUT, how came I find him sort of familiar in the 1st place leh? No idea… don care lah, he’s not important anyway.
My Son was ‘kidnapped’ by the other bus when he went marking attendance (2md in-charge mah). We reach the field ard 3pm plus. Found our R11 Thomson Zone and chop our seats. There was a band performing on stage, not bad lah, the guy in green w/ his electric guitar reminds me of SH sia, cos he play electric guitar oso. Suddenly I wonder if he has a band or not? Then one of the in-charge there tell us to go shopping/walk ard 1st and be back by 4:30pm as the sun’s too strong le and they don 1 ppl to get heat stroke. So off we go… to North Point. I thought I haven’t been here b4, but as we walk ard doing nothing (Yes, NOTHING), I recalled some memories of being here b4. Quite long ago le.
The show hasn’t start when we reach the field once again after some time. We chop a new row of seats as our seat was ‘invaded’ by ‘outsiders’. Those who return late lost their seats as well as their goodie bag to the ‘outsiders’. We did some learning and practicing of dance steps b4 the show begins. Jenny was saying abt the entire red cap that we didn’t get, so Jenny and I go and ‘gope’ the red caps frm the other row of empty seats. Jason had a REAL HARD time getting his red cap… cos he didn’t 1 2 follow into our ‘footsteps’ earlier… then wait for the in-charge there to give out red cap to those who didn’t have it. Huang went distributing the NDP booklets to our fellow nyp ppl at a point of time, indeed a gd 2nd in-charge. Eh, what’s the 1st in-charge doing leh? No idea…
During the performance, Huang actually falls asleep! LOL… the show was nice overall, esp. the fireworks. Too bad I’m so ‘into it’ that I didn’t take out my Devil cam to record a vidz of it. Nvm, our classmate got record it, can ask frm her. Show ended ard 8:30pm and Jenny went home. While the rest of us moves forward closer to the stage for the Hong Kong singer Twins and other artists. 1st singer was frm Malaysia, don noe him but his dancers SO HANDSOME & SUAVE SIA!!! I enjoy watching guys dancing very much (Now u noe how Hyukie get me so hooked with him huh? Haha…).
When Twins was on stage, the crowd all stood up onto their chair. So poor me and Huang couldn’t see anything, so we use our ears to hear loh (can’t even see the BIG screen on stage). At a point of time a lady offer me her chair but I rejected her cos me not that obsessed w/ the HK singers. This kind of concert reminds me of the Euphoria 2004 (Concert celebrating Tiger Beer’s Bdae Party) I attended last year. Saw ShinHwa they all and even had eye direct contact with Jun Jin sia. So Far and he could actually see me!!! Happy but was provoked by a stupid ah beng oso lah.
The crowd very what lah, keep pushing ppl, then someone push the ah beng’s gal, and that ah beng thought I was the one pushing his gal loh (me behind her, her bf beside her). So he stares at me, keep on staring at me loh, I was like ‘WTH? Can’t u open ur eyes BIG BIG to see clearly who’s the one pushing ard loh… I’m oso the being pushed victim leh… stare at me for what?’ I didn’t thought of any consequences at all, I just glare back and return him some of the F languages he said to me earlier as well. He was shock that I actually shoot him back loh, but he got ego problem mah, so want to continue the staring thingy with me.
The funny thing is that, behind me were a gang of handsome guys, and I think they glare at the stupid ah beng’s gal loh, then the gal tell her bf to stop arguing with me. Haha, the gal thought I was one of the handsome guy’s gang sia. U noe how I noe abt this? Cos the gang of handsome have been looking and smiling to me when I was there for the show. I only noe that this stupid ah beng provoked me so much that my flare up % went to almost 45%!! And I left the concert after ShinHwa’s performance. The ppl ard me automatically move away frm me, so crowded one, then suddenly got space for me to walk out. My sis was late and she told me that I was damn fiery and SCARY when I’m so mad… Haha, I didn’t realized that… I remember seeing one of my lecture gp ppl (the cool E8 gal) and think she saw me in that state oso. After this, in sch she sees me, she like a bit scare of me… or amazed at how came I’m so different when I’m provoked and when I’m in ‘normal state’.
Back to the ndp thingy… I saw mis-match couple again… behind me only… the guy not bad looking loh, but the gal… hmm… not going into detail… That’s why I say nowadays handsome guys, most of them seriously got ‘eye-sight’ problem sia… maybe that’s what we say ‘Opposite Attracts’ ba. I prefer to see matching couples loh… the scene more nice mah.
Me, Jason, Huang and Zhi Jian went left the field at 9pm after taking some photos together with Jasmine and the other classmate (4got her name le). We had a hard time walking out of the crowd… we were ‘force’ to walk away from the MRT stn some more… lol… cos the ‘road vehicles show’ mah… SH msg me Where am I at that time, so I replied him. He was lost in the field can can’t find his frenz. His fren ‘pull’ him out 4 Twin’s performance then so funny… his fren and him didn’t arrange to meet at somewhere ah? SH don noe who’s Twins and when his fren ask him out for them he agreed to it, so ‘ON’ sia. I like it when he asked ‘Where U?’ Think he watch the rest of the concert alone ba, not sure if he managed to locate his fren later…
Foreword: I’m just an ordinary gal who makes a lot of careless mistakes in life…
Slept at 2am plus and wake up at 5am plus this morning… feeling so damn sleepy… but I’m glad that school have resumed after the boring term break as well as common test week… I think I’m seriously getting old sia… or I have been using too much pc le… my eyes get tired easily after staring at the pc screen for a few minutes… Had a hard time struggling to keep myself awake for the entire day… Got to noe that there’s practical test for OODP, hmm… wonder how is it like? Nv had one b4 in year one…
Today we didn’t have E.Com tutorial and neko wanted to go have early lunch… well, I was like ‘Huh? So early ah?’ cos I don feel hungry at that point of time. Neway, we went to the south canteen. On the way walking down the staircase of Blk.S, saw our Year 3 classmate (forgot his name le…^^;;;) for Math2 and E.Com, so told him abt no E.Com tutorial. He then commented that then he had make a wasted trip, and I asked if he only had the E.Com tutorial for today, he said that he just don 1 2 attend the other modules… oh well…
B4 we went to the canteen, I wanted to pass the CD that I promised to compile for Jeremon to him. Then we D.A.R went to the lab… but there were not a single soul… neko said that she think they having lunch oso or what… so we went to the canteen. Instead of buying a ‘proper meal’, neko brought the pocky… thought she said she was so hungry? So hungry then choose to eat pocky as lunch ah? Then we went to the usual rotting place to rot… after rotting for sometime, we went to Blk N lvl 5 the lab there. Saw Ah Tiong as well as our ex-classmates. Ah Tiong then came over, followed by Godwin and Desmond. So had some chat. Neko was complaining abt her cursed lappy… gone ‘berserk’ after she sent it for repair… weird huh? Maybe the guy who repair it didn’t do a good job no wonder it’ll spoil again.
Desmond and Godwin commented that my blog is like essay… lol… haha, ok lah… since u want to read it so don complaint mah. =P. I was waiting for Jeremon to ‘appear’ but nv see him, so I msg him. He’s having lab at 12nn and ard 11:55am he is still on bus!! And he even said ‘My lesson at 12nn and I’m still on bus… How ah?’ LOL… ask me how as if I got ‘magic’ can ‘teleport’ him to sch on the spot sia. Funny loh… later he then say he’ll msg me and ask where am I when he reach sch. Ard 1pm plus, we DAR went to the lab there again, saw Jeremon le, then msg him, asking him if he can ‘sneak’ out now? Upon receiving my msg, he walk out of the lab immediately. Haha… good to see him smile, can relief a little, hope that he won be still sad abt his ex.
During maths2 tutorial the lecturer go thru section B questions with us. Oh my gosh… I’ve made so many careless mistakes… it’s not that I don noe how to do, it’s just that not enough slp… then mind not working well… cos I used the wrong formulas… then there’s one tabular form I even reminded neko that it’s the sum of product and in the end I actually ‘forgot’ abt it and turn it into the sum of sum… -_-“ I think at the most just a passing grade ba… the worst part is that one of the question, I did the 1st part and actually ‘forgot’ to do the 2nd part on limitation… gosh!! This is the 1st time in my life I actually forgot to do the other half of the question…
So, the moral of the story is: Get enough slp b4 u go for test or exam…
Well, we learn from mistakes.
Today after maths, by right we can go home le cos no WSS… but by wrong, we got the meeting for tml’s NDP Heartlanders celebration. And it starts at 3pm… well; we have got 2 hours to ROT. So Jenny and I went for lunch after ‘seeing’ neko off to the Blk A there.
As usual Jenny had met her mum for lunch together so I got to go FJ oso… hai… FJ’s food more X lah… T-T. Then when I was thinking what to eat, Jenny’s mum suddenly says she wants to treat me. OH!! So honored. Then I think it’s so ‘pai seh’ to let auntie treat me mah, I want to reject but she insist… so heehee, have to accept it. Then she choose the Japanese meal… I wanted to choose the much more cheaper dumpling, auntie saw it and say ‘Don choose the cheap one lah, choose the set meal loh.’ I was kind of pai seh already… then she still 1 me to choose expensive meal… in the end I choose the same meal as Jenny.
The food was nice, but… I’m so in the ‘wrong condition’ today… my mood sure seriously affects my appetite… the rice bowl so small, so little rice yet I can’t finish it.. in the end I wasted the rice and soup… finished the meat and veg. I’m such a sinner sia… waste auntie’s $$… but this is the 1st time ‘m eating Japanese meal. Jenny was shock abt this too when I told her abt it, she asked how came I didn’t eat Jap meal b4 since I even worked at Jap Restaurant b4… Haha, that time just join the restaurant mah, so very pai seh to eat the jap meal there de… and I only work for ard a month mah… I’m the one always preparing the O’cha yet I haven’t even tasted a bit of it b4… haha… funny rite?
While waiting for 3pm to come, Jenny and I went to the rotting place again… then Jason come over with his mp3 player (birthday present). We were chatting and Jason was there ‘recording our random conversation’ without our permission… haha…
At a point of time Jason walk away and left his hp and mp3 player with us. I commented ‘Oh, he trust us so much sia.’ Haha… then w/o noeing that our random conversations were being recorded in the dark, we continue happily. Upon returning to the bench, Jason starts to listen to his mp3 player and suddenly say ‘Yah, I trust u gals a lot.’ I was like ‘Ah? How did he noe what we were talking abt earlier?’ So now we noe abt his ‘doings’. And he don 1 2 teach us how to delete the file he recorded, he say it’s funny… Neway, in the end Jenny managed to figure it out and deleted the file. Neway, both Jenny and I did play back to chk out what he had recorded and realized that it is funny indeed. Got saw ELP Guy and SH at a point of time, but it seems like they were not walking out frm the same lt… so weird… thought they in the same lecture gp?
After the meeting at Blk E there, Jenny and I went to the Rotting place again to practice on our Jap2 Role Play Scripts. Even though we are not the pair but just nice she’s taking up the A’s role and me the B’s role. So we both start to memories and practice it over and over, again and again. I’m always stuck at the ぎんざに あります。ちかくに おおきい デパードヤ スポーシセンターが ありますから、とでもべんりです。I am so stupid sia… but amazingly can somehow remember some of it in the damn slpy mood… ELP guy was there with his fren on the other bench, Jenny told me that he’s always looking towards our direction… well, I was back facing them… so heehee, nvm turn ard for eye contact. Ne way earlier after lunch got saw him at the same place le mah, oso saw his gf.
Don noe since when ELP Guy was gone… and after some time SH appears… and don noe why I simply commented ‘Eh, my SH Guy leh.’ Jenny was like ‘Oh, UR SH sia…’ Yah loh, b4 I said that my fren all already refer SH to me as ‘How’s UR SH Guy?’ LOL. SH then sit onto the other bench but, I was back facing him lah. Jenny asked if want to change place with her, lol, I noe what she mean but we’re supposed to practice our script isn’t it? If change place and I got ‘distracted’ somehow, wait Jenny sure will complaint de. I got turn ard to see SH sitting down chatting with his fren when Jenny says he’s sitting down on the bench over there. Hmm… that angle of view, SH looked so charming sia… I like that eyes expression of his from that angle. *^^*
Ard 4pm SH went back to the lt for his lecture and soon after that both Jenny and I went home. Originally want to go SH’s hse de, but really too slpy liao… so go hm 1st, anyway, still got chance de lah. Jenny and I keep on repeating the dialogues over and over again as we walk out of the sch and towards the MRT Stn. Haha, still I’m always kinda slow when reach the longest part of the dialogue. Must practice hard, or else this Thursday’s role-play will be so dead meat. Actually, I have done the Full Name Fortune Calculation for SH b4… it seems like him and me doesn’t match for those long-term relationships. It was kinda sad T-T… Jenny said one shdn’t be restricted by the certain things. I noe oso, but I roughly noe my future guy haven’t appear yet. Right now I just want to treasure the special kind of friendship with SH. *^^*
After reaching home, I msg abt SH asking if he’s going out to enjoy himself tml, he told me abt his common test result… don be sad le lah, what’s done cannot be undone de, still got worksheet and exam mah… like I’ve said, Common Test at the most 30%, won’t fail so easily de. Just works harder can liao. I’ve called him, wanted to chat… but I sensed that he’s out playing; enjoying himself so didn’t chat for long, just ard 1minutes.
That day after common test on the way home happen to saw Li Xuan and we had some chat, so sorry that I’ve ignored Jenny… how do u solve this kind of situation where both ur fren A and B doesn’t noe each other… then it’s kind of hard to try to maintain the two conversation ard… and it’s so weird to left one of them out frm the conversation… Neway, LX said abt her ex and some other stuffs… well, she suddenly said a phrase that sort of stamped onto my brain cells -> U nv noe what’s gonna happen in the future, perhaps the guy whom u missed earlier in ur life turns out to be the one who u will get it once more. She was saying abt Cake-Kie and I, I noe that very well.
But, for me, I won’t fell for the same person for the second time de… it’s impossible for me, as the original feel there was already once destroyed… even if the guy comes back, I wont turn back de… some things that u missed in life, or something that missed u in life can never turn back time to catch it. It’s the same goes for relationship, for me, unless I’ve lost my memories or else I’ll not fall for the same person for the 2nd time. What’s gone can never get back… even if u did get it back, it’s no longer the same anymore. Neway, I wished her good luck in everything she does. To me, LX can be considered as one unique fren oso, as in the things we share… her troubles and all… I’m her listener… I‘m not good at speaking, but is a good listener. There was once when she said ‘FiOh, 不要离开我 (don leave me).’ I was shock with mix feelings… I feel kind of weird when she said this… I don noe how to describe the feeling I had at that point of time oso, it’s just too complicated for me to explain. To me, once a frenz, always a frenz… real fren wont walk out of ur life de…
Yesterday saw Mika at JP when I was with my sister. Hmm, she’s still the same mah… just that she had new hairstyle, she almost couldn’t recognize me loh… well, I can understand, cos my hair color and length forever’s been changing. So tired today that I had a hard time trying to keep myself awake on the way (walking) home. Moral of the story is to take gd care of urself, esp. to get enough slp.
Last Nite I dreamt about Maths and Maths... we only had half an hour to complete the entire maths paper and i've only did a few sums and the lecturer took my paper away... T.T I knew i'm gonna fail for sure... then I keep on dreaming abt all the Maths Formulas, flying ard in my mind... hai... is it a bad dream? I oso don noe...
I slept at ard 9pm plus last nite after reading through some of the maths notes... then wake up ard 9am this morning to study more of hte maths despite of the 'Crazy Maths' Dream... I think i was stressing too much on myself to memorise the formulas ba... Then i still so slack sia.. the entire 2 week's time (Term Break and Common Test week itself, i only have Maths paper on friday), I was slacking ard doing nothing abt revision but reading novels and catch Azumanga Daioh on time... haha...
Ard 10am plus, towards 11am, my parent's were back with my breakfast. Yeah, I'm hungry... so immediately throw my maths aside and rush for my breakfast. Haha... then still want to slack sia... ard 12noon then i pick up my maths and read through it again... then, after a few minutes i fall asleep... so i set the alarm b4 i really sleep... hmm... i fall asleep for ard 3 times... then fianlly i wake up to study some maths... i told myself that i shall study and stop at 2pm to prepare to go to sch, then, ard 1:30pm i stop my reading le... What a slacker... and i started preparing for school... haha...
On the way to MRT Stn, Jason msg me telling me that he saw my SH. LOL.. So i msg SH, asking him how's the paper... then he asked how came i noe his test was over, am i tracking him or what? No lah, it's Magic!! Hahaah... now 'U' noe it... On MRT did did some readings lah... then go to Blk N there to do the last minute memorising work... still can't get them all into the mind... oso saw Yi Xian, De Ming Derrick, My Son, Meng Li, Li Xuan they all revising at the other benches... Jason came along and walk away later... then Jenny was msging me that she's coming, I told Neko abt it and she kept on say 'Jenny faster come... my maths worksheet with you... 20marks in ur hands... haha'. Finally at a point where after Neko 'chanting' for Jenny's arrival, Jenny appeared.
I was with the 'Die Die Die' kind of mood upon entering the LTN, cos if no formulas list sure die die die... then we sit at E4's place... no place... Lecturer then told us to sit infront... still got seats... so me and Jenny moved while Min Lee took the middle one i think, not sure, didn't see... then lecturer pass us the standard formula list!! I was LIGHTEN UP and with the 'Resurrected' mood, Heehee.... so happy... with formula list, no fear!! So I 'pia'... then i realised the questions ard 80% all similar to the worksheets and tutorials loh... can say easy leh... haha, DAMN HAPPY sia... I actually know how to do Maths leh!! Cos I always copying during lecture, nv use brain to work it out myself de. Paper start from 4:30pm and I finish it ard 5:20pm and check until 5:45pm or what then go out.
Chat with Yi Xian, Jason, Meng Li they all abt the paper... hahah, then realised my careless mistakes again... forgot to include the last line for the Question 13, the what 1st order DE... haha, sure minus marks again..... lol... at least I noe i will pass this paper. Can R.I.P liao... haha...
Wed Nite I dreamt abt SH, hmm, the dream sort of amazing, why i said that? Cos we were not using web cam to see each other.. we were not online chatting using pc, just in our own room, using mirrors and guitars... haha... don noe how lah, we connect our guitar and mirror to don noe what device, so pro, then we see each other in the mirror le... SHOCK rite?!! Then he was playing his electic guitar for me, heehee, so nice, next time ask him to perform for me. *^^*
: Foods ::
Yesterday nite my mum intro me the new ‘species’ kind of fruit call ‘Long Zhu Guo’(龙朱果, not sure of the Chinese word oso), I don noe its English name… it’s appearance is nice, hmm… let me try my description power ba… This fruit in in oval shape, usually comes in smooth pink color, not very bright nor dull, and its skin looked special… as it’s layered… with a bit of green color at the side of each layer, the layers look like the not-yet-bloomed rose… something like that… don really noe how to descript oso… then, upon cutting it into half, its fresh is in white color, well, not exactly as white as paper lah… but it’s white color with lots of tiny black seeds, edible seeds. Talk abt the taste… very sweet and juicy. *^^* But yesterday’s ‘species’ were kind of special as the color of it’s fresh is not the usual white color… it’s a shocking and dark yet bright purplish pink. Well, I really don noe how to say it’s color… for those who know abt my two recent lip stick, one light pink and other shocking pink, I think u will noe the color, as the fresh is somehow exactly similar to that shocking pink lip stick of mine… Jenny and Yi Xian shd noe, last time I applied (touch up) that shocking pink lip color onto my lip @ ELP there while waiting for next lesson… that time I sitting back face ppl… then oso got one guy ask Jenny to help look after their belonging for a while.
Those who want to noe how the color of the fruit looks like, tell me, I’ll bring my shocking pink lip stick for u to see the color, it’s almost exactly the same loh… or when I have the time I took a photo of my lip stick or that fruit, if my mum buys again lah, but don think so as it’s damn expensive… $3 each… best of all u don need to apply lip stick after eating that special species of ‘Long Zhu Guo’, so far I only noe of two fruits that its juice can be used as lip stick… the very tasty dark red (almost black) and this special species of ‘Long Zhu Guo’.
:: My Freshie & Fren Cum CMS ::
That day I had a chat with some fren, then Yit Jing suddenly call my name on msn, then I asked what’s up of cos. Haha, he said ‘nothing’… well, last time he did the same thing oso, he claim that he call my name for nothing… just for the sake of doing that… abit like my another ‘didi’ sia… then I asked Yit Jing if he misses me is it and he replied I’m the one who said it… next I told him ‘silent means consent’ since he keep quiet after that reply of mine. Haha… and he immediately type some sort of ‘noise’… lol… really a small children’s kind of behaviour… haha… but he’s my flirting freshie mah, so nvm loh. I oso told him that Jin Xian agrees that his pool skill very pro… then Yit Jing was like ‘U don need to tell EVERYONE LAH’. Haha, be fierce to me huh? No use de… haha… I’m not scared by small children de… then I told him that I only told Jin Xian and my blog abt his pool skills… haha, he said telling my blog is equal to telling the whole world, but nvm cos not everyone noes him. LOL.
Yesterday morning received a msg from Neko San, she asking me to help her print out the FET assignment on CMS as her lappy was sent for repair le… so I agreed to help. Usually I don use pc in the afternoon, it’s my brother’s (younger bro pls… don say he’s my elder bro… yah, I actually have one elder brother oso lah, but my family abit complicated de, so u don need to noe so much, 1 2 noe ask me loh, see my mood how =P) slot. I switch on the pc and log on to the CMS… eh, I realized that CMS works perfectly in the afternoon… so I print out the FET thingy le Neko. =) Ard nite time, I log in to the CMS to try out the math e-quiz that we did last time during week4. But last time Neko help me do it de… so this time I’m trying it out myself. Heehee… not bad lah, but next time gonna ‘make’ a higher score for it. But the sever some how very slow… and diao hang always… summit one question took a damn long time to load the page… load until hang oso, then I refresh like hell… in the end the quiz do from ard 8pm till 10pm plus… that’s so crazy… during half way loading the page, my ie close itself… or sometimes I was kenna log out by it… then log in again, click on the link, amazingly the quiz’s still there… only if I click the ‘end assignment’ button then I can’t return to it… or else still can continue doing the questions.
:: My HP ::
There’s something I need to say de… that is regarding my hand phone… well, although I did said that my hp 24hr on de, but still sometime u might not be able to contact me de, or I reply ur msg later… (Usually I reply msg fast…) the reason why u might not be able to contact me is most probably when I’m charging my hp… or when I left my hp in my bedroom while I was out of the room itself… only under these two condition then I won’t answer ur call or get back to ur msg as fast as I usually does. That time I heng heng walk into the room to chk msg then SH called asking abt the Heartlanders thingy. Haha, he was lucky that I went into the room or else sure miss call oso… Talking abt SH, yesterday he asked me if I draw manga… I answered and ask him how he noe, he reply that it’s magic. Hmm… I say must be he read my blog again… or else how he noe, he insist that it’s magic… ok loh, so next time he shall perform magic for me. Heehee… earlier I msg him again when I was bored and thought of him. He then suggest me to read my novels but don read too much rated content de… haha… I’m sure he reads my blog again or else how he noe abt me reading novels with rated content? Hmm… as if I knew the content of the novel was rated loh… I just brought it after reading the summary behind the book… so coincident recently I have brought quite a number of novels with rated content. LOL
:: Help Ppl Think of Way to 'Jio' gals ::
Well, last nite oso chat with Edwin (one of my ex-crush)… then he told me some of his problems and asking for my opinions as well as how to solve it. There’ a girl who’s older than him fancy him a lot, would always sent him sms telling him what’s she doing and asking him what he is doing all whatever… even tell him to call her and what… Edwin finds that her sms are making him suffocating. I asked him if the gal did confess to him b4, he said she did but he thought she was joking that time. So I told him abt my story with Cake-Kie… and told him that he has to be cruel like Cake-Kie loh… or else cannot solve the problem… well, I don hate Cake-Kie for being cruel to me… but of cos there’s the time when I got so mad abt Cake-Kie’s attitude towards me… now, I’m ok after I get over it… I think in sch if see him can ‘face’ him le ba. Just that I don noe how abt his ‘words’ (*promises) to me… Okay, back to the topic on Edwin. He got another problem sia…
Edwin fancy this gal who’s from another school (don noe how they met, I nv ask so much) and he only have her hse number, the gal don have hp… then like me, Edwin lives in Boon Lay but the gal lives at payar labar there. And he got rival oso… rival just live opposite the gal, and they often go downstairs eat together… so I asked my OGL Pal abt the problem asking for their way of solving if they were Edwin. Thomas say email the gal ask her if he stands a chance of wooing her, tell her frankly that he admires her. While Cake-Kie say he don noe… he nv use the proper way to ‘jio’ gals b4. So I now get to noe that he is the ‘direct’ type… same as me mah… then I say sure got accepted, he say yah, he saying abt his ex. Hmm… I told him that he’s famous among gals… kenna reject oso a bit funny sia. Then he said that he oso have his time of rejected mah… So guys like him oso kenna rejected ah? Never noe that… ah, I noe le, it’s the ‘typical type of reason.’ Heehee… anyway, continue the Edwin topic. We don noe talk for how long… then Edwin feels so guilty for sharing his problem with me; I told him that it’s okay as my buddies oso tells me their relationship problems. I even used to help my crush to ‘find out more abt the gal he fancy’ loh.
My frenz thinks that I’m so stupid by doing so… cos where got ppl go help his/her rival to get closer to his/her admire de? To me it’s okay lah, cos if u like a person, u 1 him/her to be happy… that’s what I think… well, I got action b4 of cos lah… some case I choose to remain quiet and observe... usually some confession don turn out well… very heartbrokening de… bo bian, I’m oso another heart breaker, so will get retribution in a way ba… Edwin told me that if he reject the gal he don like, be cruel to her, he’s afraid that one day he will be treated the same way back as well… I told him that it’s unavoidable… in life, everyone has the chance of rejecting ppl and being rejected oso… have to face it de loh. Back abt the gal he likes, he say he’ll use the email mtd as suggested by Thomas (Thank You Thomas!! *^^*). Zheng Guo says live far away from the gal oso better, then he can go from Boon Lay to her hse there just to see the gal, she will be very touched. Yah, I agree oso. If SH oso comes to see me I’ll be very happy. *^^*
:: Others ::
Hmm… just now talk with Jason, he asked a funny and out-of-the-world question… he asked if there’s this soft toy that u have it since young, grow up with it and this someone u like, but only can choose one, which one u choose? Hmm… don make sense loh… toys and ppl no connection ba… why must choose between the living and non-living thing? The guy I like sure have some commom interest with me, the toy I like he oso like, won’t tell me to get rid of it nor get jealous over it if I seems to like the toy much more than I like him… then he still argue with me abt the questions… ok lah, if he insist on stupid question then I ask him loh, u got a pet (living thing) and a story book or whatever non-living thing u really like, choose one, which one? Of cos u will say I’m siao, same here, ur question oso very siao… no sense… take both lah… =P
Btw, Jason noes who’s the guy shouting the ‘FiOh’s Mine…’ and whatever… but he don 1 2 tell me… say it’s our classmates… hmm… who ah? Our class attached de attached liao, then I not that close with them oso, who will say that? ?__?
Talking abt SH, hmm… I realized that he is very cold online and would ignore me… don care… want to complaint… HUH!! And hor, he got the 暴力倾向 online… he would show me hmm… some sort of ‘violent’ emotion icons… hmm… well… this kind of guy abit dangerous oso… -_-“ Hmm… but I very weird lah, I like guys with style… hahaha… like I’ve always say ‘like means like, no real reason for liking someone de.’ Eh, I was telling Jason abt SH’s online 暴力倾向 then he say ‘u don like him le?’ I say ‘no lah, still the same ah, or else u 1 me to ‘declare’ ah?’ Jason asked me ‘declare’ what? I say ‘declare’ that I do fancy him loh, and Jason says ‘don need le ba, everyone noes abt it.’ I was like ‘where got?’ Then we stop arguing abt it… ok lah, put it that whoever reads my blog and in my msn contact sort of noe okay? LOL…
Btw, tml I will REALLY start studying maths… heehee… Friday test mah… today did nothing… read the Chinese novel <<如果我们不曾相遇>> and cried a lot, so sad… *sob Sob… now can start to find new novel to read le, but must do some maths first or else so 对不起它。SH, don worry, u wont repeat year 2 de… We study (self revision) together!! Okay okay? *^^*
YoZ NYP Ppl!!
The Phat Nite Tickets will be given out outside the Shopping Arcade tomorrow in school; those interested do step forward to collect them. While stocks last. Phat Nite is held on the 19th August from ard 6pm to 10:30pm or so @ Blk E level 308. As long as you’re NYP student, you are welcome to join in the Phat Nite.
Thank You for your attention!! *^^*
:: Didn’t Sleep much again… ::
I slept at 7am plus this morning and wake up ard 1pm when was woken up by my dad… I was busy with some stuffs then I went back to sleep again… this time I sleep from 2pm to 4pm plus… of course I’ve skipped two meals today… don follow into my footsteps orh… u may follow if u have what it takes to do that… haha, what do I mean by that? Becos I have more fats in me mah, so can afford to skip meals. =P
I ate my meal at ard 5pm ba, I think it’s considered my dinner le… having early dinner recently… then if happy will have supper at nite. Recently I’m just slacking ard at home doing nothing much… just did some of the homework before the term break week after my early dinner. Must start my revision from tml onwards… first of all I will go get rid of all the remaining homework then practice some math questions ba… don 1 2 fail for my common test either… then I’ll start memorizing the dialogues for Jap 2 role play le… Must fix a time to practice out with Meng Li sia… MENG LI SAN WHEN U FREE?!! Hahaha…
That day my freshie Yit Jing send me his video clip for the personal development (PD) plan ICA… then b4 I got to know the content of his vidz, I told him that I’ll watch it some other day… and he commented that I scare that the vidz is porn. Haha… I told him porn nvm, but my parents in living room oso at that point of time mah… then he told me the content of the vidz. Then I watch the video… his PD goal is to master the American pool within a period of time… I was amazed!!! Haha, cos he got such damn good skills in the pool game loh… one shoot in de… ok lah, I never see ppl play pool b4… cos I never go out at nite de… and he look so COOL and Suave!! If only he’s not younger than me… haha… well, nvm lah,, he is my flirting freshie can liao… ‘Flirting on surface lah…’ don misunderstand anything… I got my ‘special someone’ liao mah…
I think I’m gonna start a new version of my personal homepage someday when I have the free time to do it… then can apply something I learn from WSS into it. Heehee… but first of all I must sort of ‘master’ the basic of PHP thingy… really driving me crazy… I’m so cursed by *something out there nowadays… yeah, that something out there… don think I don noe ur doings to my family…esp. when the Chinese month of July is coming now… when will ‘it’ get his retribution ah? *Sighed…
:: My MSN Cursed ::
This time round it’s my MSN diao curse… I don noe what have I done… then the Games section all turns out to be in Korean Language… well… my Korean not that pro de… sometimes so dead meat… nvm, from now onwards have to brush up on my Korean le… T-T
Name: FiOh Dadako
Title: Creative Services Assistant
Horoscope: Sagittarius
Location: Another World
Type: Mixed Blood Vampire
Daydreaming, Freedom, Music,
Fantansy World and Story Writting
Lies, Lies and Lies
* Enjoy Life to The Fullest Without Any Regrets *