Darker side~

 

Sometimes I'm afraid of myself

I know I've changed a lot

I'm just hoping

One day I'll found the new light...

I feel guilty to all people around me

I'm sorry.........

Messy Week~

Oh God, I dunno why this whole week really feel worse and messy

Everything just feel sooo wrong...

Not only me, it does same to the people i love

Today it happen again to someone i love

I know she's soo damn sad

It's scary me sitting besides her in car

She's driving soo fast make me a lil bit worried

Oh Dear.. I know how u feel

Yeah this whole week is a DAMN MESSY..

And to the person who's make my life soo messy this week

I couldn't find a right words for u

I just want to leave...

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn~

But that's alright

Because I like


The way it hurts And


 I love The way you lie~

Ape aku buat....

Orang kate kalau takut dilambung tsunami,

Jangan berumah di tepi pantai..

But what am I doing right now..???? :(

Kenapa mengapa why????

Kenapa hati kita ni salu xnak dengar cakap kita

Lain yang kita fikir nak buat

Lain yang dia buat....

Bila aku cuba nak suka kat seseorang

Hati aku punya lah menolak

Bila aku nak jauhkan diri dari dia plak

Hati aku nak sangat dekat ngan dia

Rindu la plak...

Bongek la engkau ni Cik Hati~

Frustration~

Awak suke kot tengok saya sedih

Awak suke kot tengok saya kecewa..

Memang...

Memang saya x faham awak

Awak pun x pernah faham saya kot

dah lah.. Malas...

Aku Benci~

Aku benci bila tengah borak2 or chatting, 

orang tu tetiba off tanpa gtau apa2..

Sakit hati je tau x..

Sorry~

Sorry for avoiding u
 Sorry for trying to forget u
Sorry for the trouble i caused u
  Sorry for all the hard moment..

The truth is u will alwayz be in my heart
   Stay in my mind
Even I try so hard to forget u
  Even I try so hard to avoiding u..

But I will still trying to do it
no matter how much time it will take
Even it's really hard for me
Because I know..
Being with me is not ur happiness
And I'm stop hoping for dat too
Just want u to know
I AM MISSING U..

Hampa hatiku..

Pernahkah kau merasa hatimu hampa

pernahkah kau merasa hatimu kosong

~By ungu..

That's what i feel right now..

I thought it's u

I thought I can hoping on u

I thought it's u 

who can make me happy again

But u make me down

Even before I can start do anything

I guess I give up now...

~_~

Penat penat penat..!!!!!!

Esok ada dua test

I'll try to focus on my study

but i can't take it anymore

I am tired

I am sleepy

Can i just answer what i can think

even that answer not included in book???

Nasib la...

Aku nak tidooooo je sekarang >_<

What in my heart?

Dalam hati ada dia...
Walau jauh di mata
Walau dipisahkan jarak dan ketika
Walau dipisahkan oleh dia sendiri~

p/s: Kerinduan melampau...

Something special~

You are something special to me..

You suddenly appear and 

make me a lil bit happier than before..

But he still be the most special person in my life

Even though he is not the part of my life anymore..

He is one in a million

I guess i can't find a guy like him anymore

We are apart now..

Like he said,

it just that his love feeling towards me is 

not  in right temperature..

Actually i'm not really get it

what he really means by that

But i get it that we can't be together now

So I just let him go..........

r.i.n.d.u

Kenapa masih ada rindu

walau aku x mahu...

Time of Life...

Masa xpernah menunggu kita

Hanya kita yang selalu menunggu masa

Tanpa sedar, banyak yang sudah berubah

Apa yg ada dalam tangan kita, fikiran kita

dan hati kita..

Namun apa yang sudah berakhir,

Pasti akan bermula kembali...

I THOUGHTS....!!!

All days before, I thought i knew who u really are.. But now I realize maybe i'm not really know u.. I can't read ur mind.. I dunno for what reasons u acts in that way.. Now I dunno whether I still care about that..

I thought i'm strong.. I thought I can fight the whole world to get what I want.. Now I realize i'm so weak.. I can't even get to touch it.. So what make I think that I can hold it in my hand...???

I thought I already get back the happiness that I've missing before.. I thought I will never lose it anymore.. I thought it will be mine forever.. Now I can't feel that happiness again.. It have disappear for once again.. So tell me whether it's really created for me?? Is it really destiny to be mine??

Maybe I am thinking a lot.. I am dreaming a lot.. I am hoping a lot.. The truth is happiness will never last forever.. There's alwayz be an obstacles for us.. Am I willing to give up all my dreams?? all my hoping and happiness??

WHY I BE SOO WEAK..???

Lepas Geram...!!!!!!

Hari ni banyak tol benda yang mengecewakan aku.. Ape dia?? xpe la biar aku je tau.. This is all because of her.. She caused me to get into this problem.. And NOW I HAVE TO BEAR THE CONSEQUENCES ALONE..!!! I HATE THIS..!!!

Aku terpaksa membuat pilihan yang hanya menyakitkan hati aku.. But I have to.. Aku benci betol orang cakap x serupa bikin ni.. Dah bagi impian dan harapan kat orang.. Then after what I have dreaming, she just left and destroyed that dream.. Tau x ko da menyusahkan hidup aku.. Lain kali jangan bagi harapan atau janji kosong kat orang..!!!!

p/s: Sory guys I lepas geram kat sini :(

aku..!!!

Erm rase cam nak menangis.. sedih.. kecewa.. Tapi menangis boleh selesaikan masalah ke???

 

Dunia khayalan...

Malam tadi aku rase lonely sangat.. Walaupun aku ade 'dia' tapi kadang2 rase macam 'dia' xpernah wujud pun dalam hidup aku.. Selalunya aku rilex je.. Aku tau 'dia' memang macam tu.. xtau nape malam tadi aku hilang sabar dan terlepas cakap sesuatu yang x baik.. Aku tau 'dia' marah.. xpelah.. Aku x mintak dia paham ati aku.. Ati aku, biar aku je yang rase dan paham.. xperlu orang lain paham.. Biar aku je yang tau ape dalam ati aku..

'dia' tau perkara aku paling takut dalam dunia ni adalah kehilangan 'dia'.. maybe sebab tu 'dia' xkisah.. Aku akui tu kelemahan aku.. Kelemahan aku tu la yang wat aku terus kuat bertahan.. Malam tadi aku cube lupakan kesedihan aku.. Aku cube tidur awal.. Aku harap dapat melupakannnya walaupun hanya untuk seketika..

TAPI APA YANG TERJADI????

Bile aku tidur, 'dia' muncul dalam mimpi aku pulak.. x ingat bile last time aku mimpikan 'dia'.. Tapi bukanlah mimpi aku tumbuk dia ke ape.. hehe.. Aku mimpi 'dia' datang rumah aku.. Macam x caye je (name pun mimpi).. Best sangat.. Rase cam xnak sedar lak dari mimpi tu.. Tapi best camne pun aku tetap kena hidup dalam reality.. Mimpi memang selalunya lebih indah dari kenyataan..So wake up wake up..!!!!

Aku tau 'dia' akan bace entry aku ni.. Sory kat 'dia' kalau awak marah saye.. Saye hanya insan biasa yang x dapat lari dari kesedihan.. Cukup.. Tu je saya mintak.. Saye x mintak awak beri perhatian lebih kat saye or what so ever.. Awak boleh teruskan hidup awak macam biasa.. I used to 'live like this'...

p/s: Jangan percaya ape yang perempuan cakap mase dorang marah sebab perempuan mempunyai 9 nafsu dan 1 akal.. Jadi semasa marah mereka lebih dikuasai nafsu dari fikiran yang rasional..

Sory entry kali ni agak emosional...