These few days I have been at yishun so often. Partly cause friends I meeting are at yishun and I acc Kevin take car so can go supper etc.
Heart is healing slowly. Head is clearing slowly.
Knowing that I am in a vulnerable state, I tried to avoid certain people. Knowing that I must recognize the fact that I have to move on, I, ironically, start going out with people.
I'm so scared of being in the vicious cycle of relationships like what I use to be in. I tried to avoid some people very intentionally knowing that I am clearly not interested in them, and dumbly end up hanging out with people whom I am interested/comfortable being alone with. Hope the vicious cycle doesn't start again. I want to treat every relationship (or my next relationship) very seriously and not a case of rebound.
Sigh... But I'm really very vulnerable now.
