Thoughts.

These few days I have been at yishun so often. Partly cause friends I meeting are at yishun and I acc Kevin take car so can go supper etc.

Heart is healing slowly. Head is clearing slowly.

Knowing that I am in a vulnerable state, I tried to avoid certain people. Knowing that I must recognize the fact that I have to move on, I, ironically, start going out with people.

I'm so scared of being in the vicious cycle of relationships like what I use to be in. I tried to avoid some people very intentionally knowing that I am clearly not interested in them, and dumbly end up hanging out with people whom I am interested/comfortable being alone with. Hope the vicious cycle doesn't start again. I want to treat every relationship (or my next relationship) very seriously and not a case of rebound.

Sigh... But I'm really very vulnerable now.

A Day to remember.

Today is yet another day in my life where I feel that is worth remembering...

Because today I somehow feel a sense of closure... a sense of letting go... not only for myself but also for the both the people that I have been holding on tightly and the people whom have always been there for me.. Holding on to Wan doesn't make me feel any better regardless of what diplomatically correct words he always say to me... things that always make me boil.. because it is things like this he said makes me feel so impersonal with him.. and perhaps all along we weren't? I dunno.

Tonight ( means just now ), I walked home alone. As I walked, I felt a sense of relieve. Perhaps this is what they called closure or letting go ? I felt like a burden removed from me emotionally. I felt so free. I felt as though life is going to get better.

All these have to thank my frenz who have been around to support me , instead of criticizing me.

Thank You frenz! :)

A little secret.

In my world that I told u about today...
In my world we are together already today.
:)

Clear ur mind.

Always be thankful of people around you. Because they are not going to be there forever.

Always guard your own heart. Because you never know who will come by and take it away unexpectedly.

Always clear ur emotions before making any decisions. Because impulsive and emotional decisions aren't always the best or wise decisions.

Random tots while studying in Lin today w Kevin. ;)

Feeling unwell

Feeling really unwell now. So pathetic of me to think of texting u.

If I'm a third person in this situation I would have scolded myself for even thinking about it.

All I could do now is just hug prince n bear thru the night alone, without you. Anyway, you have perhaps intended to exclude me from the start.

I watched "500 days of summer" the other day. It made me reflected our r/s. I talked to Ain the other day. It made me reflected even more. I came to the realization the It was a wishful thinking on my part. I have talked to more ppl Abt it. And they see it coming, that the r/s will end.

Why m I like the guy so blur n din see it coming at all? And foolishly allow myself to sink so deep in?

Now I'm trapped all alone and on my own. Even though some ppl(guys) appear helpful and caring, I'm afraid of reaching out. Cuz I knw I haven had a closure w u. I need to end it properly within myself. I dun wan to date another rebound or be someone's rebound.

Last Day of School

Tomorrow marks the last day of school of my life. I'm not happy at all. The future is so filled w uncertainty nw. I used to be certain that I will always have tt one guy whom I can fall back on no matter what happened. Bt now.. All I can say is tt I have a family that I can fall back on but not the guy anymore.

He decided to leave my life for good. I'm broken. I'm unhappy. I'm vulnerable. And I'm still standing at the spot thinking Abt us. Thinking Abt the guy who used to make me smile so easily... Who used to brighten up my day by a few words... who I let in my heart after much consideration. .. whom I felt that I should fight for and hold on strongly... whom I planned my every next day with... And who will never be mine again...

Tmr just going to make all these more real... the usual place i used to go study... the usual place u used to practice... the gym... the mph... the hug... the silly things we used to do... the vending machine we used to get food... Even typing these make my heart wrenched... I was thinking about all these when I was on my way home. Baby... Honestly I miss u like crazy... If u ever give me the chance to hold u again, I dunno what I will do...

Should I carry on staying on the same spot waiting for the glimpse of hope? Or should I face the music and force myself to move on?

You rmb I once said "you are different" ? I really mean it. Sadly, I still rmb your reply you will treat me the same as other girls you dated.

Does that mean you will forget me tt easily?

I hope not. My heart can't take anymore pain at the moment.

Feeling weak ....

I'm home alone these few days. And feeling sick n weak is not helping. Baby where are you?

*sigh* wishful thinking again.

Feeling sick again.

Feeling unwell today.

And you were the first person tt came into my mind. I wanted to text u so badly that I'm unwell. But I din. I know you will just reply out of courtesy. You already dun seem to care, or rather u r v good at concealing it.

I'm not you. Sorry.

I'm still standing at the same spot thinking what went wrong. My mood is still very bothered by it. Everything I see or do is reminded of u.

Hope when u see this entry at least send me a text out of concern? (Provided u are genuinely concern not just being polite or nice. )

I miss u a lot.

I really do.

Is it wrong time right person?

Shld I really just give up without a fight?

Is moving on really better for u?

I can't. Can u?

今天

I met up w T today for dinner.

It's v short and simple meet up.

Before we departed he asked "so what happened in ur life?"

I told him nth.

He gave me a comforting pat.

When he reached home, he sent me a text. "Hope u empty ur mind and have a good rest."

I was instantly touched.

Because we rarely talk or text, we only meet up randomly.

But he could tell that I'm upset and my mind is filled w thoughts. Makes me wonder if my sadness is so obvious or he knows me that well. But still I'm touched and thankful.
It's people lik him makes me more n more grateful to God.

Baby.

Hi baby.

How was your day? Happy Halloweens. Hope your day was fine and well.

I went Ria Penyent again today.
I ordered happy soda! It made me happy, but the feeling was short lived. Knowing that things are never going to be the same anymore , even if I refuse to give up is so sad.

I no longer can request just a simple hug from you anymore, can I?

I no longer can tell or share my day with you anymore, can I?

I no longer can have you to rely on anymore, can I?

I know I'm living in denial. I know I'm leading an unhealthy (mentally) lifestyle. But I'm like a kid who lost something that meant a great deal to him. The reason for losing it is because he loves it too much. That is the exact reason why I can't let go.

Like a stranger.

Sunday, the way we met n part is such a joke.

I really feel as if a dream.

When will u give me the usual morning calls? And tell me tt all were just a bad dream n u still love me,( don't u ) ?

My wallpaper is still u.

My bedtime companion is still prince.

I love u. I miss u. I din change much towards u. But what about u?

Wo hen Xiang Ni.

Sorry. I can't take it today.

I miss u.

Every morning.

Every morning I wake up with a fresh self, and want to text you how my dream was.

Now, I have to cruelly remind myself that it was all the past. Yet nothing is cfm for now.

Can I still txt u w every morning???

Made a little prayer.

Hope things are gg well in ur life for nw.

Another night missing u.

I want to go back to the time when things were alright.

"What went wrong?"I kept asking myself these few days.

Is our miscommunication really tt bad?

U said wanted to start all over and I really thought it will be this way.

I'm gg to know you from a fresh new page. But I haven't even started to know u afresh, you already wanted to leave?

I feel so hurt. If you asked me, I will never want to let u go. What about u?

I'm so lousy.

Just now was the first time I saw u after a while.

I'm such a coward. I immediately walked away, din even hav the courage to walk into the revision room. All I did was turn n walk away.

Now I'm sitting at my usual spot crying lik an idiot. -.-

Argh!!! Angry w self for not being strong Enuff.

If u dun wan me in ur life...

If u dun wan me in ur life, just tell me straight. It's ok.

It hurts me much to see u in dilemma.

If you feel that leaving me will be a better choice than staying together w me. It's ok.

Just tell me.

I can handle it. Remember I always tell u that I'm strong? ( though u always doubt me. )

Live a life that makes u a better and happier person. I wun blame u. I really just wanted u to b happy. I dun wan u to be sad n stress like now.

Loving someone is just wanting the person to be happy. :)

Loving u so much makes me just wan u to b happy be it with or without me.

I dunno what to do.

When I told u , u said my pms-ing.

When I stop telling u, u said I'm shutting myself off frm u.

Tired.

Watched some happy and inspiring films.

Feeling so exhausted.

Sent u text.

Hope everything is well for u.

Making up my mind of being just there and not asking for anything in return.

Searching for ur shadows.

Was at FPA production tonight. Met up w Siti n TY n PX. We had dinner at Delicious Cafe in Scott's Square. We went there before I said I wanna go there w u to eat one day. But tt day never seem to come...

Saw Lidyandiani w Taufik.

Was hoping n not hoping to see you.

Same thing because I dunno how to handle the situation and I'm afraid tt my emotions will get the better of me.

Hope ur day was good!

I miss u.

I honestly miss u a lot.

I miss the times when I "poke poke" u.

I miss the times when I asked "Wyd?"

I miss the times when I woke up and u r the first person tt I texted.

I miss the times when I reached home I would happily shared w u my day.

I miss the times when u were here.

Even though u dun always reply me.
Even though u are always busy with sth/sb.
Even though I will just check whatsapp to know when is the last time u were online. (Yet din reply my txt).

Do u miss me like I miss u?

Am I such a nuisance in ur life tt u dun wan my txt anymore?

I know I'm a nuisance.

I'm sorry.

But... If I really ask u out for a cuppa coffee, will u come?

We can talk abt everything but us.

I just wanna know how is ur day. How is ur school. How is your music project coming.

Even if I'm no longer in the future of ur life.

P.S: hate the fact tt when my whatsapp notification shows, it's no longer u anymore.

Headache

Having a headache.

On bed yet can't sleep.

Telling myself not to think about us.

Recently some frenz had showed concern. Thank you. :)

I knw u girls are oso gg thru a tough time on ur own. Hope all things will go well for u! *HUGS*

I miss u.

Think is because of the tiredness n the sickness.

Missing u a lot.

I wish...

Tomorrow you will fetch me after my French exam with a bottle of honey drink and a packet of fisherman-cherry flavored.

And give me a hug to tell me everything is okay.

Re-readings a

Re-reading what u texted.

I couldn't help it but cried.

玩你的人和爱你的人

Was blogwalking when I chance upon this...

 

 

玩你的人：半夜会找你打电话聊天到很晚。
爱你的人：会告诉你不要聊那么晚。

玩你的人：他会找你出去玩，叫你放弃正事。
爱你的人：他会催你好好工作，踏踏实实。

玩你的人：在你生病时，会讲好话关心你。
爱你的人：在你生病时，他会关心到你烦，并强迫你去看医生。

玩你的人：他会尽量说好话来讨好你，你也会觉得很开心。
爱你的人：他所说的话，都是关心你的，但是通常象是在命令。
玩你的人：他什么事情都会配合你，只要你开心。
爱你的人：他会帮你辨别是非，但是你会感觉他管的太多。
玩你的人：他说他要给你最大的快乐。
爱你的人：他只能给你保证，你跟他在一起，他是最快乐的。

玩你的人：他在意你的生活细节，即使你做错了什么，他也不会指出来。
爱你的人：他在意你的一举一动，告诉你什么地方错了，什么地方该如何做，该如何与别人交往。
玩你的人：他不会在意你去做什么，与什么人交往。
爱你的人：他很在意你去做什么，与什么人交往。他还会告戒你不要与什么人交往
玩你的人：他只想要现在
爱你的人：他已经预见未来，该怎么自我努力，好好给你幸福。
玩你的人：他会说“我喜欢你！”
爱你的人：他会说“我爱你。

 

Sick.

I feel so sick now.

Feverish. Running Nose. Sore throat. Feeling weak n sore all over.

Hope I can recover soon. *Self pat*

I shld just disappear

I shld just disappear in ur life rite?

I will never contact I again unless u wan to.

Take Care. All the Best.

Saw Randall.

Saw Randall at alumni.

First thought:
Will u be around?

Second thought:
How do I response? I so scare tt I will cry on the spot.

Now here I'm sitting behind him and controlling my emotions.

Glad I'm sick. I can conveniently say I sick dun wan to talk to anyone.

Emotion can really affect ur health.

Hope u will enjoy urself today.

Hey.

Hope u will b happy today.

Because today is an important day to me. Although we are not spending the day together, I sincerely hope u will b happy today. :))

So distracted.

I'm outside studying w a Fren now.

French exam is this Friday. But I'm somehow very distracted.

Roar!!! Fish Jia you! Jia you!

If u come.

If u do come to here, can u tell me exactly what u wan to know? I'm clueless honestly. Maybe I'm too overwhelmed by things happening and things I have to keep track on.

U said my texts are not answering ur questions, so I answered all ur questions seriously.

U said I forced u to text what I wan to receive, so I stopped doing so.

U said u needed space and time alone, so I stopped asking u out and texted u lesser.

U said u wanted a timeout, so I agreed to it.

U said u can't face me now, so I avoid u having to see me at all cost.

U said I'm doing too much for u, so I stopped.

I'm helpless now.

U said I haven't been honest to u. But u din even tell me what u wan to hear frm me. I dunno. I feel really clueless and helpless. I dunno what to do anymore.

All I can do now every night is hugging Prince and pray for things to be better. And if it is not turning for the better, I hope it doesn't affect your life or ur academics.

I really wanted to text u daily update u my life, like what i used to do. But I feel you are no longer interested and it will just take up ur study time.

U r not cold to me. U r just frustrated with me for a reason that I dun even know.

I feel lik a kid. Getting punished for what I deserved, but all along I tot tts what u wanted. Maybe it's our communications breaking down again.

Life is such a joke. To think tt I'm a VP comms n this is happening.

I have been thinking Abt ur last since I read it last night. I really dunno what u want from me.

I'm clueless.

I dunno what to say or what to do.

I honestly dunno what you want from me.

A simple message for u.

Wanting a message frm u to tell me "it's alright. Everything is fine now."

Too much to let go.

I am stronger than tt.

Fish. JIA YOU! ^^

New habit.

Had a new habit and ain't liking it a bit at all.

Too broken.

Too broken to say anything.

Doubting what I stand for all the while is not what it is. Perhaps just my wishful thinkings.

Yet too prideful to tell anyone how I truly feel.

I just wished everything will return to how it was originally.

Really? What I am asking for is too much? Perhaps I shld hav never taken the chance. I shld hav known my limits and stay within my league.

I'm such a fool. I'm such an idiot. I should hav kept to myself and keep my mouth shut frm the very start.

Nothing hurts more than now.

Late night outings.

Suddenly had a weird thought : Perhaps it's better that I'm going till late so often.
It is because it will mean that I will spend less time emo-ing abt some stuff/people.

A random thought :
"Am I really happy now?
I don't know.
But one is for sure, I knw I'm definitely not happy if it is otherwise. "

Venting pot.

Finding a place to release all my unhappiness. And none is found. Le sigh.

答覆

看著電話等著你的答覆，好像已成為我的嗜好之一。

Check phone. Check our convo. Check ur last online time. Check the actual time. Heart always dies a little.

A Laughter.

The louder my laughter is, the more tears I have when I'm alone.

U never know how much ur words hurt me.

I have the urge to ask u love me no more. But I'm not strong Enuff to ask u do tt. Because I love u more than u knw.

胡思亂想

躺在床上，眼睛很不聽話地不肯關上

I knw.

I knw every relationship is different. Be it family, friends, or beloved.

I cannot help it but compare.

Sometimes I wonder why I am I staying on if it is causing my teary eyes every night?

But I hav become stronger. I knw there some people in my life really not worth the stay and the time no matter how much I wan them to. They will take me for granted and silly me allow them to do so.

Insomnia.

It's been a while since I had insomnia.

Over

Over the phase of missing u so badly till it hurts. Is it gd or is it bad?

如果女朋友不是拿來疼，是啥？

Already having the attention frm the world, dun think u need mine anymore.

Seriously

It's always the same cycle. I feel so lousy abt myself nt getting into local UNi. There is a reason why I wan to stay in hostel so badly.

I feel stupid.

Some times I feel stupid and redundant.

Feels like deleting our texts.

Feels like juz throwing in the white towel... anyway I'm leaving soon.

Feels no point in explaining anymore wun b understood anyway.

But one wise friend once told me, " Dun think others are indispensable to you, you are valuable and indispensable to them."

Enjoyed talking to this wise Fren. Talking to him always free my mind. Perhaps it is cuz how similar yet different both me n him are?

I shld go back dancing.

I shld go back dancing.

Nothing makes me smile like when I'm dancing.

你怎麼知道一個人是否開心？

你的答案可能是： 從表情就能看出。但我卻不以為然。

情緒是最容易隱藏的。

一個人可成天對你嬉皮笑臉，但每次他對你表達的開心，卻是他每次企圖的遮掩。

這樣的人是最可憐的。好比可憐的小丑，只能開心，從來不允許悲傷。心裡的痛也沒人問知。

迷茫地在街上走著。
希望有輛車能為我停下。

天真

我就是天真。

Zhi Dao Hen duo dou Shi Zi Ji de Yi Xiang tian Kai. Zhi Dao Ni Zai Xian by Shi wei le wo. Zhi Dao Ni de Shi Jian bu hui gei wo. Zhi Dao Zi Ji Zhi Shi aha sha de Jian chi zhe.

Shi Shi Hou fang shou le?

Little Miss Greedy

I realized I have been buying a lot of stuff for myself every since I started working part time. Although my pay wasn't considered a lot (in fact is very little, so still trying to find jobs), I spend more generously than last time.

Soo... today the purpose of this post is to remind myself :

I SHOULD STOP SPENDING UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE! =x

The Day I bought my PUMA shoes.

Today I went to remove my stitch! (within 5min) Haha.
And the dentist gave me this.
A syringe for me to insert mouth wash onto my wound directly on a daily basis. Haha. Was pretty stunned. This is because :

1) 5 min only.
2) No fees paid.
3) The syringe.

After that I met Boyf at Orchard.
We were both famished when we met. So LUNCH was the first mission! We Had Ayam Penyet Ria at Far East Plaza Level5. My Fav!!! *drools* Had been craving for it since I went there the other time him. Heehee. It is super yummy!!! *drools* (Must make a mental reminder to take pic of it nxt time!)

we Had Halal Curry Fishball also! Haha. At FEP level 1. They have their usual mini food stalls then the special thing is that this time round there is a halal stall that sells tutu kueh/Taiwan Sausage/ Tapioca kueh and Curry Fishball. *drools*

Ooo. Then we went Isetan Super market! Haha. Because HS n PG were talking about it ytd. So we went there today! :D :D :D OMG so many yummy food. They having Hokkaido week! LUCKY US! ^.^ so there are Japanese ppl manning several small stalls that sells Hokkaido food n some can actually sample before buying *drools*
I din really get anything because now is Dumpling Festival so hse already has food "stored" mainly rice dumplings.

Ok. Now for the main point!
I Bought a pair of Puma shoes. :D
Highlights?
I never had a pair of above cut shoes and I actually set my eyes on the black pair last or the year before (I forgot) when I first saw it! Was lucky tt I managed to get the display set ( only two pairs were left. And the other pair is too big. ) is ok exactly cheap but I kind of really like it. And I took quite a while to decide.

I muz go slap myself now. Has been spending a lot of money recently. -.! Rawr!!! Need save need save. EB got many things to attend will spend a lot one. Sigh. Muz CONTROL!!!

But.... Conclusion of the day..... THE DAY IS AWESOME! Cuz I get to meet Wan and spend some time together. ^.^ and not forgetting my new shoes!

Oh ya! Forget to mention... I wanna go learn jap! Haha. At the jap sch tt Tanner attended. Hmmm. Wonder if he is still there? Bt shld b no I guess. Any one wanna go learn Tgt? 16jul starts class. ( Mental note: Need call to reg soon~~~)

Envy.

How come one will feel envious of another?

I think is because of the feeling of being inadequate.

You feel that you are not as good as someone. Thats why you are envious of that someone being better than u in all ways you could imagine.

But... At the end of the day always remember that you must be proud of who you are (after so much you have gone through).

You never know. Perhaps when you are envying someone, another person may be envying you.

;)

My will to live.

Thank God for them. :)

Broken.

Rarely feel so broken and so pain.

Perhaps is the circumstances I'm in affecting the way I see things.

One thing tt is definitely positive is tt the emotional hurt > physical pain. I suppose tts gd for nw.

Hmm.

Random tot. Can't find a place to post. So decided to type here.

"is there anything as being too busy for each other?"

My reason : I dun wan to appear a nuisance. Tts why I decided to keep myself busy.

A little prayer

Juz made a random prayer to God to take care of my family and listing down the ppl & frenz I'm worried abt. If I were to move on.

Was a long list.

Perhaps, I worry too much n burden myself too much.

弱。

大概是因為長智慧牙的關係只能喝粥或牛奶，身體感覺好虛、好無力。再加上今晚又是一個寂寞的夜晚，我整個身體都使不起勁兒。

我的腦海里如今只浮現出＂虛＂這字。

發了一連串長長的簡訊給他知道自己一定會後悔的，可是不發也發了。現在只好聽天由命了。

*看了看時間* 今夜必定甭想睡了。

這就是所謂的＂活該＂。

也許。

最近開始有了放棄的念頭。
畢竟有與無也一樣的寂寞。

也許，自個的世界會比較簡單。

寂寞的心 最容易落淚。

A reason.

I suddenly found a reason to make me wanna stay alive.

:)

The world's never fair.

It's the same situation.
I learnt frm the way you reacted.
I'm perceive as throwing tantrum. WTS is this?!

Mistake n Friendship.

I made a v big mistake ytd at this time.

I am SORRY. I'm glad and thankful tt u and my frenz whom I troubled forgive me. I promise I will try my to NEVER let history repeats itself. Sorry. (I say try because I believe nth is 100% in this world except GOD's Love.)

Moving on...

I hav this Fren tt I'm v concerned about. I dunno hw I shld approach her. This is because we hav quite a complicated history. Whenever I saw her troubled tweet I'm concerned. But I'm in an awkward position to ask. -.-!

Anyway~
Tonight I finally managed to get to see Kat's item!!!! I missed two sessions because of dance rehearsals in YJC. I'm so proud of her. Making into the semi-finals!!!!! You reap what you sow! Her hard work was paid off! So proud of her!!!!! *MUACKS*

Some of the pics!

Insecurities

My insecurities is frm the fact tt I feel I'm not good Enuff.

I'm irrelevant/ inadequate.

:(

:(

Ironic.

Love is no matter how much it hurts/u suffered, u also would not let go.

Applies to all, be it people or things.

Mistake.

Maybe is a mistake frm the start.

Maybe I shld start doing sth.

Maybe(s)...

不同。

两个人的性格与本质上的悬虚，会让看法有所差异。

好比一个人他本身就很悲观，无论你怎么跟他说世界是多么的美丽灿烂， 他也会觉得这世界是只有黑色的。

Weird thoughts.

Recently, I keep having this weird thought tt I'm gg to die soon. Due to cancer or sudden terminal diseases.

Dun ask me why.

Tts why I hav been trying to do more things. Trying to complete some wishes of mine before I die.

Weird and Random tot~~~

What you want me to tell u?

That I felt lonely?

That I walked home alone in tears?

That I ate to prevent myself from crying?

That I tried sleeping so that I wun rmb how sad I felt?

That I some times felt so out of place w ur frenz?

That I would rather be alone than to disturb u?

That I'm trying my best not to be a burden?

That I'm not telling u all these cuz I dun wan u to feel stress?

That I'm building a wall ard myself with u outside to protect myself because I dun wan to feel disappointed anymore.

Like a fairy tale.

I realized many things in life are disappointing because u have high expectations. (I knw it sounds kind of 凄凉)

I learnt to expect lesser and lesser frm people, and tts why im more surprised when things happened.

Today, I'm surprised again.
I'm not an exactly greedy person( ok. I admit. I'm still learning to be contented. )

"Go collect my shoe bag frm ur locker for my friend..."

The pictures basically summed up my joy today. :)

Thank God for everything in my life now. Realized life is v much different after I cut my hair short. I'm really enjoying my life now. :)

知道。

知道却不做。

Whose fault?

不明白。不了解。

不可说。

句号。

Interview

Been to a few interviews recently, they made me feel so naked. 

I realized if you are honest in an interview is somewhat being naked to a person, let the person interviewing you scrutinize you and label you in all the way he/she wants.

Hmm.. I really need to grow... but how?

I realize I cannot really give an intelligent and constructive answer on the spot. But if I am to be given a sticky situation, I believe I can do it so much better than what I said on the spot... 

Letting go is the toughest.

I'm struggling inside thinking and deciding.

It's not the first time this tot has come into my mind.

Two extreme ends.

idk.

最悲伤的是让我微微一笑的人不是你。

自欺欺人

不想自欺欺人的过下去。

但是，更不想放手。

CNY 这几天不禁察觉到彼此的距离。

Why r u like this?

Heard tt some injustice been done. Felt so wronged for her. Rawr!

Tot u would grow. But u din. -.-

Hmm

让我赢一次会死啊？
._.

NTS: Cheer up

Do u know it takes a lot of courage to push some one like u away ?

Because I'm afraid of u not ever looking back and walk away.

And I stand there. Alone in tears and looking at the view of u walking away.



Distancing away in order to avoid emotional attachments. ( forgetting the fact tt u already are emotionally attached.)

:)

You r tt impt to me.

HELLO 2012!!!

This is my first entry of 2012! :)

How is everyone's 2011 been? (Hope is nothing like mine! )

Mine was in a mess. Made a lot of mistakes and have regrets. *SIGH*

To People that I have hurt ( intentionally or not),

I din mean to.

For the mistakes I have done, I hope I learn.

I was very confused when I went into SIM initially, asking God what He wants me to grow in?

Hmm... Of coz i nv forget the challenge i posed to Him few years back. I guessed im screwed at that challenge and He put me in SIM for that challenge... But I thank Him.. cuz in the process.. i met people who are making a difference in my life. --- I feel that that is the ultimate purpose of me being in SIM. 

Honestly, I feel that if I am not in SIM-UB, a lot of things will be very different for me. 

THANK GOD for the People I met in SIM-UB, & AIESEC in SIM & DA, cuz you guys really taught me a lot.. A lot more than I expected... *muacks*

Hope every one can be like me forget about all the unhappy stuff in 2011 and welcome 2012 with open arms! :)

One last bit about 2011... I spent the last hr of 2011 the way i wanted to and is thankful for the person who made it tt way. 

<3

Hmm.. DO you have a habit of making New Year Resolutions?--- I DO!

But i refusing to check my 2011 NYR! =x cuz i cfm din fulfilled all!

After being inspired by online NYR...

Here goes my 2012 NYR : 

 1. Be confident of myself.
 2. Be less self conscious.
 3. Learn something new!
 4. Lose WEIGHT ( has been in my NYR every yr! )
 5. Carry on improving on my punctuality!!!
6. Be more understanding and look at probs from all perspectives.
 7. Be BRAVER!